How I Turned Up Out Of The Blue (For You)

I hope you don't mind me writing to you here at the blog. I have no idea if you read, though I hope you do and I think you may have mentioned it many years ago. Anyway, if you're wondering how I showed up, out of the blue in July 2026, after all these years, and if I haven't described it already, it's because I was researching January 2010 for the book I am writing called "Diane's House", the title of which refers to a job I had immediately before becoming Pearl's caregiver. Through much research, I learned that the two jobs were connected - by circumstance, you might say. In other words, I became Pearl's caregiver because of things that happened at Diane's house, which resulted in Pearl's broken hip, and I've already written (vaguely) about how that happened. 

It's a long story that will be fully detailed in the book, which is actually gonna comprise at least three volumes. The first will run about 600 pages. 

But anyhow, I was researching the month of January 2010, to see how the job at Diane's house segued into my becoming Pearl's caregiver, and in the course of my meditations, I uncovered the major incident that occurred on January 17, which I have also recently described. That recovered memory, in part, is how I was re-introduced to you (so to speak). Before I say anything more, I am aware that you may know more about this process of re-introduction than I do, because you have superior perceptive and craft-oriented abilities. I consider myself able to cover most of the psychic bases, but I've never met anyone like you. You are an entirely unique person who knows things in advance and can make things happen over a long span of time. No flattery intended, just being honest, and you already know these things about yourself. You don't need me to tell you.

I said that my research led to the discovery of the incident at Pearl's house on January 17, 2010. And that is true. But in actual fact, in those recent, initial meditations, I didn't recall meeting you that day. That was because I was focused on the crime aspect of how Pearl's hip was broken on January 1, and how it was associated with concurrent events at Diane's house (located a half-mile north of Pearl's) in the days that immediately followed.

Here is how the memory of our introduction came about: 

Right around July 1st, about six weeks ago, I had a dream. I can't pinpoint the exact night because I didn't write it down in my diary or my meditation notes. I did write, on July 4th, that the dream "occurred in the last 72 hours", which is how I dervied the approximate July 1st date. Another thing about this dream is that I had variations of it two nights in a row, and both times, it felt pulsed.

By that, I mean that it almost felt like it was sent to me, like a message. It's the kind of dream that wakes me up within my sleep, like a switch getting flipped. In such a dream, I can almost feel the awakening spark, and all of a sudden I'm inside and part of this dream that has a lucid quality. In a recent blog, I mentioned another such dream, also involving you, that was so vivid, I did wake up and spoke aloud the most pertinent details so I wouldn't lose them: "Halloween Night, a Friday, in a car at Cleveland High School".

In the July 1st dream, I was aware of being with a small group of people, three at most, maybe two or only one. Who they were wasn't clear. This dream wasn't vivid like the Halloween/Cleveland High dream. All I knew was that "we" were supposed to "go to the church" (Reseda Methodist) to meet with or find a certain lady, meaning you. Why we were to meet or locate you there wasn't clear, but the feeling was urgent, and that was the extent of the dream. It lasted just a few seconds, but I had it two nights in a row, and because it repeated, and had that awakening spark, I wrote the scant details down in my diary, including your name, which was already familiar to me from my church years.

The details of this brief dream are written down in my July 4th diary entry, which included a report on the Shepherd of the Hills fireworks show in Porter Ranch, and a short review of the awesome Beach Boys concert I attended the night before. Despite those two entertaining events, it was the dream that held my attention. It wouldn't let go, and so, on the next afternoon (July 5), I did a meditation on it, to try and see if it might be a trigger for a blocked memory.

And it was. My meditation that day revealed our very first meeting on January 17, 2010. On a side note, I discerned the exact date through extra detective work. 

I was astounded to remember this meeting. When I think of it, my heart melts, because of you, and because things like that don't "just happen" except by God's design. You know what I'm talking about because you were there. And for me, that memory was followed by many others that have since flowed, once the block was broken, and I realized I actually know you (or knew you or had encounters with you or however you want to put it). As I see it, we know each other reasonably well (and in some ways, very well), despite the fact that most of our meetings happened a decade ago. That is because of the intensity of those meetings, things that were said, the directness with which you say things, and other factors.

I mentioned in the last blog that I will pick up our story on Good Friday, April 3, 2015, and I will do that.

There is much to tell, and I hope you are still with me. Of course, I'd prefer to tell it all to you (and only you) in private, but I have to take this opportunity to get your attention. You tried to get my attention years ago, and I failed to adequately respond. For that I apologise profusely, but I just didn't know (not like you did), about all the important things I'm now aware of. For everything you did, every effort you put forth, I am grateful beyond measure (and to your Dad and blessed Mom, as well).

I hope you don't mind me saying that I love you.

Two last details, for now, concerning research. A few months ago, I received a birthday card that appeared to have two different styles of handwriting. I didn't notice this at first, and not until I was about to put the cards away (I keep them all and store them, every year, after they spend several weeks on my bookshelf).

Before I put this year's cards away, I read them one final time. I don't get a lot of birthday cards, but anyway, as I re-read this one, I was struck by what appeared to be two different styles of handwriting, which I had not noticed when I first read the card. This happened in July, as all the dreams were occurring and the memories were being revealed. The card was sent to me by someone we both know (who knows you, in other words). This person was also in the car with us on Halloween Night 2014, when we were parked at Cleveland High School. I'm not saying you sent me a birthday message, but...did you send me a birthday message? 💗

The other thing I noticed was in my diary. I found it while I was looking up October 31, 2014. I kept reading after that, and saw that three days later, on November 3, I watched a movie called: "I Married a Witch".

There's no way that was a coincidence.

(Back soon. Give me a sign if you read this....)

December 28, 2014 at Church (Important Stuff)

Let's go back to the beginning of what we've recently been working on. I'll be vague where necessary and avoid naming names for privacy, but this is important so let's talk about it. For me, it's astounding to remember.

As mentioned in a recent blog, I met you on January 17, 2010, at Pearl's house, before I began working for her. As you know, it was a magical encounter. As far as I am aware, I did not see you again until Halloween Night 2014. If I am wrong, please correct me. On that night, you guys (you and "M") came to Pearl's house, in costume, ostensibly to trick or treat, but really to get my attention. I came out to the gate and of course you two were taller, lol, than most of my other customers that night. I think you said "we know you from church". But the thing was, I wasn't yet part of the church. Until November 2014, when I joined choir, I only ever dropped Pearl off in the parking lot. Maybe you saw me with Pearl at a church function, like one of the boutiques, or luncheons? Also, on a side note, your Mom (a great lady) was in one of the RUMC Women's Groups with Pearl, and Pearl knew "M" and her Dad. Anyhow, you two returned a little later that Halloween night, with a third person (whom all of us know well), and after talking to Pearl for a few minutes, you convinced her to let me leave with you guys, and I did. It was me and the three of you, and we drove first to (your house?) and then to Cleveland High.

I now remember well what we talked about there, sitting in the third person's car. Before a few days ago, I had no memory of the incident at all. While we were parked at Cleveland, an "extracurricular" situation may have developed, involving a police officer (and a safety concern), but vagueness is in order, and I will say no more about that. The bottom line for Halloween Night 2014, is that we had an important talk in the car.

Fast forward to December 28, 2014. It was my seventh Sunday in choir (I joined on November 9, 2014). This is from another recently recovered memory:

The service had just finished. I believe I was in the courtyard, perhaps just milling about. I was apart from Pearl, and - as I have considered the evidence of this incident - I've wondered if she came with me to church that day, or if she stayed at home. 

Here is what I remember for certain: I was in the courtyard and was approached by "M" (whom I knew by sight and whose Dad I had met several times). "M" told me to follow her. She said the matter was urgent. Time and stealth were of the essence. She said (paraphrase) "just follow me and don't ask questions". I followed her into one of the rooms in the building just west of the chapel. It may have been the Fireside Room or a classroom.

The point is that you were in there. "M" brought me in to see you. Vagueness is crucial here, but as you know, I did not recognize you (and I am sorry). My memory was blocked, and my failure to recognize you - just two months after our Halloween meeting - shows how powerful those memory blocks are (at least on me). I know it was upsetting, and I'd like to go back in a Time Machine and kick myself because you are an unforgettable person. But getting back to the urgency of that meeting, there was something you and "M" wanted to tell me. Vagueness is again in order, and in truth, I still don't remember the exact details of what it was, only that it had to do with you losing your job or being transferred (through no fault of your own).

I know we had to hurry, to finish up our meeting, because you guys didn't want a certain man to catch us together. In fact, if I recall correctly, his son (who may have worked at the church) came into the room we were talking in to warn us that the man was heading our way.

He found us and broke up our meeting. I remember him telling me to follow him into another room. I will return to this part of the story later on, but it might be in a separate blog.

This next part is very important: At some point, likely not long after, I reentered the church (perhaps to hang up my choir robe) and overheard the man harassing you. I believe (though I am not 100% certain) that I went up the steps that lead to the stage, wondering what the commotion was about, and I observed this man berating you (in the aisle in front of the stage) about having spoken to me.

On a side note, when this memory returned (a few days ago), it was accompanied by a very creepy feeling.

To your credit, you stood your ground while the man was hassling you. 

I remember what you said, but vagueness is in order, for now.

I am not 100% certain that this Incident of Harassment inside the church occurred on the same day of our clandestine meeting (December 28, 2014). Logic, and the available evidence tells me it did, and I'll keep working on it.

When he was done with you, the man told me to follow him back into the choir room, and I did. I'm sure I must've asked him (paraphrase) "what in the world is going on?" Another creepy feeling accompanied the memory of standing in the choir room with him. I don't yet recall what he said to me, but it probably had to do with you, and our meeting, and I think I stood up for myself. I get uppity, you might say, when anyone threatens me, even if they do it "in so many words" while smiling.

As I say, I'm wondering if Pearl was there that day. My diary (which I use to corroborate evidence) gives no indication whether she was there, or not. I'm guessing she wasn't, because she surely would've wondered where I was, and would've come looking for me. Finally, on another important side note, although this entire event happened after church was over, and most of the parishoners had probably gone home, I think there's a chance that at least one (or maybe a few) people were still on the grounds. Someone must've overheard the raised voices (including mine).

One last memory detail from this incident: two other men came into the choir room, just after the man in question was done "talking" to me (threatening me? cajoling me?) (a combination of both?) (not sure).

These two men seemed not to like me, which was strange because I'd never met them before.

Vagueness is crucial here (for now), but the memory of being in the choir room with those two men (and the things they said to me) was accompanied by a very creepy feeling.

That is all I will say, for now, about December 28, 2014.

In the next blog, we'll pick up the story on Good Friday April 3, 2015, which may be the next time I saw you.

I love you. Back soon. 

You Are Amazing

For a Certain Lady:

You are amazing. You know who you are. You knew what was going to happen, years in advance, and you said so. Did you mention the black onyx crystal? Did you say that it never lies? I'm no slouch, but I am not on your level (as far as knowing the future), so forgive me if I get a detail wrong. Question: did you mention that SOAD song in 2014? You know which song I mean.

You once said you wanted to "be a part of it". My weird life.

What would you say if you were "It"?

You are It. You are Amazing and Wonderful, and Beautiful, and a whole lot of other phenomenal things.

And what if Your Life was also unique, and astonishing, and I wanted to be part of It?

What would you say to that? (We've been through this, years ago. You've known it but I haven't until now).

I would love to talk to you in person. I now know I once did, but my memory of our encounters was subsequently blocked. I trust you know that. I used to see you in church, in the Fireside Room, not often but once in a while (because you were not attending RUMC regularly after 2014), and if you can believe it (and it's true), I "knew who you were"...but I had no idea that I actually knew you, and that we had talked, and had significant encounters.

Because my memory was blocked (and did not become unblocked until July 5, 2026), I had no idea that I met you in January 2010 (in what seems like a magical scene from a David Lynch movie), nor that we had many meetings and talks after that.

Bad people blocked my memory, but I don't wanna talk about them now. I want to talk about you because you are the hero in all of this. You are the one who persisted. You are the one who knew the future.

I wish no one else was reading this because I'd like it to be private, but I have to tell you anyway, and until I can tell you in person, I have no other way.

I love you.

You have changed my life this July, and I thank God you are in the world.

The Power of Memory

An important note about recovered memories:

When a buried or blocked memory returns, it feels "brand new" to the person recovering it. This is because, despite the length of the interval, the incident in question is being remembered for the first time. Thus, when I energetically report an incident from 10 or 16 years ago, it's because - to me - it feels like it happened yesterday (or maybe last week). 

Lately, I've recovered many memories from 2014, which feel brand new to me.

2014, as it turns out, was a noteworthy year.

Pearl turned 90 that August. We had a big birthday bash for her, with many friends from church and in her Reseda neighborhood.

Two "bad guy" incidents happened very shortly after that. Bad guys, as I have learned (through the recovery of blocked memories) were plaguing Pearl (and me, by extension, as her caregiver).

Pearl turned 90 on August 24, 2014.

Within a week, two incidents involving the late (not so great) (but attempting to be honest) David Friedman took place. Both happened at CSUN. One occurred at the Cinema Building (which houses the Armer Theater). This incident happened on Saturday, August 30, and involved several bad guys (friends of my brother), and one of the world's worst people, who works in the indicated building. I'm being vague, even though I don't need to be.

On a side note, if any of my readers wonder who this guy is, and how he could be one of the world's worst people, I understand that question, because a person would have to be supremely horrendous to qualify as one of the worst people on Earth.

But this guy qualifies, and you know who he is. And if you don't, all you have to do is Google.

Think "Jerry Sandusky/Penn State" and then transfer that to CSUN.

The second incident that happened after Pearl's 90th birthday also involved David Friedman. It occurred in the gigantic CSUN parking lot located at Lassen/Lindley. I wrote about this incident in a previous blog. Many bad guys were involved. Cocaine dealers/porno people/swingers/cultists...call them what you will. They all know me and I know them. They seem like ordinary people, and I had thought they were friends (and family members) of mine. But now, I know better, and I am going to shut them down if it's the last thing I do. I am the Righest Wing Person on Planet Earth, as far as law enforcement and justice are concerned.

And I am relentless beyond this life. 

Both LAPD and CSUN (California State) PD showed up at this incident. The bad guys (as usual) went free. This is not a reflection on the PDs involved. The bad guys have high-level connections that protect them, connections beyond the PDs' reach.

Very early this morning, I had a dream (which felt "pulsed") and because I am immersed in (and dedicated to) the recovery of blocked memories, I forced myself awake to make note of the details. Sitting up in bed (at around 6am), I spoke aloud what was vivid in my dream:

I said, "It happened on a Friday, on Halloween Night, in a car at Cleveland High School".

This was my immediate capture of what I perceived to be a blocked memory, which bubbled up in an early morning dream.

As I write, this dream-memory has been concentrated on and has developed.

I am more than 51% sure it represents an actual occurrence from Halloween Night 2014.

I haven't ruled out 2015 (or the years 2010 to 2013), but the evidence so far (including that from my diary), suggests 2014.

Halloween Night 2014, in a car parked at Cleveland High.

The power of dreams, and of magic, and of God and of memory. 

Even More Truth

We left off on January 17, 2010, with the multifacted incident that occured on that date at Pearl's house, which was covered up by a certain man we've been concerned with. We call him The Pastor.

He blocked my memory (through the use of hypnosis) of what happened that day. Now, we must ask why he would do this, especially if he is a Christian Pastor.

This man entered the bedroom I was in, while I was talking to the young lady mentioned in the last blog.

She left the house, and this man hypnotised me shortly thereafter. 

He is extremely slick. He makes you feel like he's your best friend. He wears a permanent grin, but it feels pasted-on, like it doesn't reach his eyes (and yet it sometimes does). "Extremely slick" is the key phrase here. There's a reason he got hired by whoever hired him to do what he does. He was in Los Angeles for 9 years, from 2009 (how convenient, because I was at Sue's house then) until 2018. He started in 2009 at the Wilshire Methodist Church as an associate pastor. He didn't become the pastor at Reseda until March 2012.

So, what was he doing at Pearl's house on January 17, 2010?

That's an extremely good question, and I have some proposed answers if anyone cares to hear them.

Beyond that, listen up.

I've said this before, but the man in question is NOT from Reseda. And if you are NOT from Reseda, and you show up and throw your weight around by bullying women and hypnotising me, to block my memory of a crime commited against me - at Pearl's house (my Godmother), then you have seriously miscalculated your importance.

Few people know the origins of Reseda, or Northridge, or CSUN, which was originally called San Fernando Valley State College.

This guy's from Canada. He's likely a top operator in whatever agency he works for. I'll give him that. He's intelligent. He knows the bible front to back. If I am not mistaken, he told me (in a conversation at the Winnetka Ranch House mentioned earlier) that he had a connection to McDonnell Douglas.

The guy ain't stupid. He extremely smart. But he's "clever smart" (not intellectually). He asked me what books I was reading (because he had access to my diary and wanted to know how I'd answer). I said I was reading Oswald Spengler, and he tried to show that he knew who Spengler was.

And he did a good job faking it.

The guy is slick, slick.

But then there is The Ranch House, a situation in Winnetka (a few miles from RUMC) that is so extreme that it requires a special blog.

The Ranch House has to do with sex and hypnotism. And this man was there.

He calls himself a Christian Pastor, and he knows the Bible inside and out. And on the surface, he appears to be a "leader of people".

On a side note, in the Old Days, when I first met him, he drove a distinctive car - a red Cadillac, with either whitewall tires or white Landau roof (or both).

That was in 2010/2011.

But when he became pastor at RUMC, he "garaged" that fancy car.

Why?

Because I would recognize it, that's why.

I would recognize it from Pearl's driveway, and it would trigger other memories.

I last saw this guy at CSUN (near the gym) in yet another hypnotic situation on August 24, 2024, the 100th anniversary of Pearl's birth.

The guy was agitated when he arrived because he had to take last-minute red-eye connector flights from Hawaii (or wherever he was) to get to LAX, and then get ground transportation to CSUN.

He was all stressed out when he got there. Wanted to know where the Brown Center was at the gym.

The guy has definite connections. He knows about Underground CSUN (which very few people know about besides the many people who live down there).

This guy is extremely bad news.

But I know who he is and I want to know why he is a pastor in the Methodist Church.   

More Truth

Let's go back to January 17, 2010, the day when I was at Pearl's house, and was accused - by an unbalanced woman - of doing something I didn't do. I remind readers that, of necessity, I am keeping all details vague. However, I can relate them in detail in court (should the opportunity miraculously arise), and in the long run, this woman will find herself in God's Court, because she deliberately set me up. In doing what she did (which was intended to send me to prison), she is no different from a male rapist.

But let's forget her for the time being.

I reacted strongly to what she did, and said I was going to call the police. They may have actually come to the house (I am unclear on this), but what I am 100% sure of is that a man came into the room and tried to calm me down. I am ordinarily a calm person, but as bad guys know (who have tried to mess with me), I will go to extremes to protect myself. I have been plagued and beset in my life by criminals and psychotic people; thus, I defend myself when predatory situations have arisen.

This wicked lady found this out. She had her phone in hand, and was threatening to call 911. She had pressed the 9 and the first 1. She showed me her phone and was daring me to get her to press the final 1. I said "go ahead and call them!", but as noted, I don't currently remember if the police came.

I do, however, remember that a man came into the room (a bedroom in Pearl's house). He tried to calm me down.

All of the ladies (including the accusatory lady) who had come to the house to see Pearl (who was still in the hospital) had left by this time.

This man told me to calm down, said that he would settle the situation, that there was no need for lawyers or police.

A little while after that, a young lady came into the room. She was beautiful and very kind.

She was a genuinely good person.

She and I talked. We had a nice conversation. She was in the room with me for perhaps...45 minutes? 

It was a rainy day. She forgot her umbrella when she left, and had to come back into the room to get it.

The man who had told me not to call the police or a lawyer re-entered the room after she left. He knew her.

He knew hypnotism (and how to "re-set" me), and he subsequently (on the spot) blocked my memory of the entire encounter at Pearl's house.

I therefore never remebered meeting this wonderful young lady until about three weeks ago (in July 2026).

Can you guess who the man is, in this situation?

It's Important To Tell The Truth

Let's start at the beginning, with Pearl's broken hip. Her hip was broken in an incident occurring on January 1, 2010. She did not "fall on her neighbor's porch" (as the news was reported to me by my sister three weeks later). Something else happened (I'm being vague), and it was extreme, and it was violent, and it happened inside Pearl's house. How do I know this? Because I was there when it happened. I can testify to it in court if anyone is interested (but of course no one is because it would lead to the takedown of satanic California).

On a side note, if you are wondering why I would not already know how Pearl's hip was broken (since I was there), and why it would be news to me when my sister inaccurately reported it on January 23, it was because my memory of the incident was blocked. Read my most recent blog for details of how memory blocking works.

Suffice it to say that the circumstances in which Pearl's hip was broken were covered up. Pearl was 85 at the time, which means that a lady of that age (and her dignity) were made expendible so that some sex swingers and cocaine dealers could escape consequences for their involvement in the situation. I can name the ones most closely related to the incident, all of whom are people I know. Above them are Hollywood and the State of California (which includes CSUN and what lies beneath it).

On another side note: folks, if you think you know how evil Hollywood and the State of California are, maybe because of Harvey Weinstein, or P. Diddy or whoever...to quote Jeremy Irons, "You have no idea."

Those guys are just the Famous Monsters who got thrown under the bus, and their crimes, while despicable, are small potatoes compared to those of the bad guys who run the show.

I can tell you exactly how evil the corporate entities and individual elites who run Hollywood, Los Angeles, and the State of California are, and how they surreptitiously incorporate a drug economy into the mainstream, and how they engage in the private practice of things like white slavery (coercing certain women into false marriages). (Hey, Pastor...how ya doin?)

Yes, I can tell you a lot. Which is why they would never have me in a phony, systematic L.A. court. Not only can I tell you things (meaning everything I know, which would take weeks on the stand), but I can do it articulately, and in fine-point detail, in a way that no consigliere defense attorney could refute.

Now that we know the basics of Pearl's broken hip, let's fast forward to January 17, 2010.

I was at Pearl's house that day, though I was still working for Sue at the time. Sue is the subject of my upcoming book, entitled "Diane's House." For the record, Diane was Sue's late sister. Her house was located a half mile north of Pearl's. On a side note, Sue is a practicing Methodist in her home state of Washington. She considers herself a Sovereign Citizen and is nuttier than a fruitcake and evil. None of which is a reflection on genuine Methodists (or Christians of any denomination).

We are only scouting out evil people, a job we must do in the present age.

As previously noted, I love the Reseda United Methodist Church, which I was introduced to by Pearl. As also previously noted, I joined the choir there in November 2014. 

On Good Friday, April 3, 2015, I got a nice compliment from a lady after the evening church service. She told me (in the parking lot), "You have a good voice."

I said "thanks", and we talked, and it turned out that this lady knew vocals. She was a big fan of Elvis and The Righteous Brothers. I am a lifelong music fan myself, and may have mentioned The Beatles and Beach Boys as my vocal favorites.

My conversation with this lady is integral to the story I am telling.

We now reverse to January 17, 2010. As noted, I was at Pearl's house that day. Several ladies arrived, hoping to see her, perhaps to check on her recovery, but she was not home. She was still in the hospital.

During the time that these ladies were in Pearl's house, I got accused, by one of them, of something I did not do.

The accusation was EXTREMELY SERIOUS, and it resulted from a situation ENTIRELY and DELIBERATELY CONCOCTED by my accuser.

It was so serious, and so patently false, that I reacted by refuting her allegations to the point where I wanted to call the police on her (or ask for a lawyer).

On a side note, this woman is a horrible person and a member of the RUMC.

The other ladies who had come with her to Pearl's house (to check on Pearl) (who wasn't there) witnessed what this horrible woman did to me. They know how she set me up and created a false scenario that, in her mind, would allow her to accuse me of something I didn't do. On a side note, she is a nutjob.

The payoff to this segment of our story is that I was so upset by this woman's false accusations against me (after she deliberatlely set me up), that I almost started hyperventilating. Another RUMC lady, who was there and who I can name (and detail our conversation), told me she would bear witness for me if I needed her to do so.

To be continued...