Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Beautiful (reading) (music)

Hi, my Darling,

Yeah, I have to say, that video is really beautiful, both visually and musically. Really nice work. I think I recognise the location (if it is a single location), because it looks like the same place where you took the picture of Stephane's sister, where she is sitiing down by the side of the trail, looking away from the camera. Is that the right place? Well, the images and music work very well together. Is the music part of a longer piece? If so, I'd love to hear it, and if not - then you've gotta work it into a longer piece because it's just a wonderful melody. You say you shot this video in June, so I guess you just now, or recently, got it all put together for posting. It's excellent work, Elizabeth. I am glad to see it.

You know, we have a tree at CSUN that's similar to the one in your video that's making the "snow". I don't know what kind of tree it is, but it blooms these big white puffs of what looks like cotton, and when the wind blows, they break up into smaller puffs, very similar to the one in your video.

I just got back from Simi. While Pearl was at Golden Agers I made a quick trip back to the Yosemite Street site of the Chumash Caves. When I was there the last time, I saw another large rock formation while I was leaving and I made a mental note to return and check it out. Today I did, and I found one more small cave. I also stopped at Lilac Lane on the way back, and went out about 1/4 mile on that trail. It's almost all cliffside, so I will go back when I have a proper pair of hiking boots. So it was a Trail Tuesday, but more of an exploratory one than one with major hiking. I'm gonna look at my pics and see if I have anything interesting to post. Then it'll be time to head back to Pearl's.

I love your video and your music! And I Love You too!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  :):)

10:05: Good Evening, Sweet Baby. I just finished my walk. Been home all evening reading three different books - "Mr. Mercedes" (which like all SK, ain't for the squeamish), a book about LBJ and the Kennedy assassination, and an online book by Peter Robbins (who co-authored the tremendous "Left At East Gate") about the Rendlesham Forest Incident. Interesting stuff all the way around. I am also battling crickets yet again, and will have to break out the dreaded Raid tomorrow. It will be a good day to do it, because I'll probably be at Pearl's for much of the morning and afternoon if the kitchen guys come back. They did not come today, which was why I had a chance to visit the caves again.

I will guess that all is well on the home front. You have probably just been busy with various projects, and especially your videos. Right now I am gonna eat something real quick and then I'll be back at the usual time.

I Love You.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  :):)

11:35pm : I am listening to piano music by Zoltan Kodaly, a Hungarian composer known for orchestrated works. It's relaxing but with a few bombastic moments. I've gotta say again how much I love the melody that went with the images in your video today. Really top-notch stuff, Dear Lady. I don't know if it's recent or not, but if it is, that means you are still composing - and you should be. I mean, far be it from me to ever use the phrase "you should" (at which the late Mr. Davey famously stopped listening to any given conversation), but in this case, you really should keep writing music.

When you get the chance, of course, because I know how much time it takes.

At any rate, it's beautiful.

I saw earlier your post of your friend's picture. He is playing a flute (or pipe), and dressed in medieval clothing. It reminded me of Blackmore's Night. You may or may not like their music, but you would probably like their overall trip. Not officially pagan, but certainly in that vein. They started out very Rennaisance and have grown more and more nature oriented. Of course, Ritchie Blackmore is my all-time #1 favorite musician, from Deep Purple through Rainbow and up to now, with BN. He's almost 70 but can still bring it on guitar, and has written much great music.

That's all I know for tonight. I Love You and will see you in the morn.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  :):)

Monday, August 11, 2014

Hope All Is Well (picture) (thinking of you)

Hi, my Girl,

I am just getting home and am wondering how you're doing. I think everybody was blown away by the Robin Williams news, such a sad story. He was around for such a long time, and made everybody laugh, and did so many different roles in so many different types of movies. Truly one of the biggest stars and talents in entertainment history, and for a while in the 80s and 90s it seemed like he was everywhere, all the time. And he was always on, which must have been incredibly difficult to do at times, given his bouts of depression. Very sad news indeed, but I guess he just went as far as he could go in life, and this was it.

I hope all is well with you. I have been concerned, even though I'm sure you have been very busy with your video, because we did have something go down last week that was fairly dramatic, or significant, or whatever you want to call it. The only post I have seen from you since Friday morning has been the Hannah pic. I figured it was just an ordinary "face value" FB like, but since it's all you have posted, I took a second look. If there is a message, the only thing I can guess is "mom", because there's a mom (Mrs. Barry) in the pic. Or maybe it's just an ordinary "like" by you.

I guess I shouldn't speculate any further for the moment, but if you get a chance, please let me know how things are going. I'll take my walk at the usual time, 8:30. Other than that, I'll be here.

I Love You.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  :):)

8:25pm : Well, my Darling, I see your post, and I saw that you posted it right away, just after I posted this blog, but I can't figure out an exact meaning. I can see that it's a dark picture, even if scenic and beautiful. Besides the geese, it's dark clouds, a stormy looking sky. So I guess you are trying to tell me something, and I am worried that it's not good. I will go for my walk now and think about it. I am thinking about you as well. Whatever is going on, I'm with you and I Love You. Back in a little while.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox  :):)

P.S. Maybe you just mean the Robin Williams news?

11:30pm : I guess it's just a sad day, I don't know what else to think. Today was also my sister Sophie's birthday. I am glad we will celebrate it at a later date.

Besides the sad news, remember that tomorrow is always a new day. Sounds like a cliche, but if anything is wrong it will pass. I have no way of knowing, of course.

I'm thinking of you, Elizabeth. I Love You and wish you Sweet Dreams. Communicate with me if you can, and if you want to.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  :):)

Sunday, August 10, 2014

Sunday Evening Love (sweet dreams)

Hi, my Darling,

I'm just hanging out at home. A typical Sunday today, and no workmen at Pearl's house, so I was able to come and go, take the Kobester to CSUN, all the usual stuff. Looking for new scenic areas to visit, too. I wrote down all the ones I've done so far and it was 15, though I think I haven't remembered them all. I hope I can find some more good ones. Don't know if I will be able to do any this week, at least not until the kitchen is done, but I am looking forward to it.

Tonight is the Paul McCartney concert at Dodger Stadium, but as I told my brother, it would be a fiasco to have tried to go down there without a ticket. Traffic alone would have been a nightmare. I think Paul will tour til he's 80, anyway, so I should have another chance or two to see him.

I hope your video is coming out to your satisfaction. :)

Tonight I am gonna do all of my walk, I can't keep slacking off, lol. My friend Ono is coming over with his doggie at 8:15, so I'll do half with him and half on my own, later on.

I will be back and write more later. I Love You!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  :):)

11:45pm : I hope you saw the Supermoon tonight. It was rising in the sky while Ono and I were walking his dog. Pretty spectacular. Now I am listening to Glenn Gould. Haven't heard from you all weekend, so I hope all is well at home.
I Love You.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  :):)

Saturday, August 9, 2014

Saturday Evening Post (ha! get it?.....aww, shut up Ad) (low key night)

Good Evening, my Darling,

I am home. Today was a long one, I was at Pearl's practically all day because of the kitchen remodeling. My sister came over and we got some quick shopping done, but other than that it was all about the remodel. I will probably be there most of the day Monday, too, and maybe Tuesday, but with any luck the whole thing will be done by then.

So now, I am just gonna chill for a while before going for my walk. Read some SK.....

I bet your day has been equally busy in a different way - with your video. You are now a professional videographer! I am excited to see the results. :)

I will be around til at least 9, don't think I wanna go for my walk any earlier than that, and I may try to do it all at once. I'll see how I feel. But basically I am back to usual evening schedule.

I Love You!  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  :):)

11:30pm : I am listening to Bartok "Mikrokosmos", simple yet oddball little pieces, and relaxing in a strange way. Not a lot to report tonight. I only wound up doing half my walk. I blame tiredness from first day back on early wake up, but I also blame Stephen King. "Mr. Mercedes" is yet another page turner.

I hope everything went well today, though I am sure it did. :)

I will see you in the morn, Sweet Baby. I Love You!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  :):)

Friday, August 8, 2014

Happy Friday, Awesome Summer (aliso) (I Love You) (sweet dreams)

Good Morning, my Darling,

That is an awesome photo this morning, of the rotation of stars. Man, that is one thing I wish I could see : the fullness of the night sky. I've never really seen the stars except for a handful of times in my life. Well, there's another reason for me to visit Wisconsin!

Today, my last sleep in for this period of days off. Sorry about the little tirade late last night, about the password stuff. It's just frustrating that people would do that kind of thing, but I suppose it's (unfortunately) part of human nature. I was tired last night when I first saw it. Now that I look more closely, it describes levels of difficulty for a program to guess a password. I, of course, have no idea what "bits of entropy" are, other than digital possibilities (ie. letters, numbers, characters) a program must run through to exhaust, and therefore guess, a person's password. I should probably change mine more often than I do. It's something I would never have given much thought to.

Anyway, I am not a person who is much for secrecy and all that Scorpionic stuff.

At any rate, it's another day, a new day and a good one. We have been having a ton of good days and each one is a tremendous blessing. I am gonna hang out here til perhaps 2 or 2:30, then head out to Santa Susana for one quick trip before going back to Pearl's. And we will get back into the swing of things and continue to enjoy the Summer! I had fun on my little trip to Hollywood, too.

I Love You, my Sweet Baby!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  :):)

5:55pm : Hey, my Darling, I am writing from Pearl's just to say that I am gonna be meeting Grimsley up at Aliso Canyon when I leave here at 6:30. So, it will be the usual drill, a walk through the park and back, and I'll be home in the 8:45 to 9pm range. And, I will check in then. I am guessing you are working on the Good Morning V video, so continued best wishes on that. See you when I get back from Aliso.

I Love You!  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  :):)

10:10pm : Hi again. I've been home for a little while, just been reading my book. We had a nice walk at Aliso, though it gets dark a bit earlier than it did when we were first going several weeks ago. I also went to Santa Susana, by myself, at 3pm for a quick hour before I headed back to Pearl's. Everything is in a bit of disarray there because they are putting in all new kitchen cabinets. Gotta improvise until they are done.

The Kobedoggie was glad to see me, as was Black Kitty, and vice versa. That will be the end of extended days off until perhaps Thanksgiving or Christmas, but we will still get a ton of stuff done (me and my Sweet Baby, that is!) on the afternoon breaks of regular work days. In fact, that is how we've made some of our most awesome discoveries : just in between.

The Inbetweens have been good to us, in all kinds of ways.  :):)

I am guessing that "between" Santa Susana and Aliso, I probably did four miles already. I am debating whether to just call it good, or to put my socks & shoes back on and go for a quickie mile around the block or to the Oviatt and back.

I think I may opt for the former! Almost fell asleep while reading, anyway.......

I hope your night has been good and that the video is coming along well. I am just gonna stay in, I think, and I will check back in to say goodnight at the usual time, back on regular work hours.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  :):)

11:45 : Listening to Dinu Lipatti, for me the greatest ever. His recorded output is slim, because he died at 33, but what is available is sublime.

Back on work hours, and just as my body immediately adapts to it's natural cycle when I get days off, so must it re-adapt to the earlier waking hours of worktime. No biggie (but boy do I love the sleep ins! If I were reinventing the world, and work schedules, the workday would start at noon, haha.) However, there is much to be said for mornings, and the feeling of getting a ton of stuff done before noon.

Either way, it's a good deal. If I was one of those guys who could adjust to either schedule, and fall asleep at 10 or 11 on work nights, it'd be no problem. But I am, and always will be, a Night Person.

I hope your day was good, my Darling. That's all I know for tonight.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  :):)

Thursday, August 7, 2014

Late Morning Love :):) (To Hollywood) (back home) (passwords)

Good Morning, my Beautiful Angel,

I am glad to see your posts this morning! I take it that all is well, then, except I also saw the Hannah post, and though it's probably none of my business, if she has lost her Dad then I am very sorry to hear that. I do remember that I made a comment, to you right here on Blogger, about a photo of her and her Dad that you posted a long time ago. In it, she was just a toddler (I think), but he was holding her and he had her all decked out in cool sunglasses, and the picture made an impression enough on me to remark on it. It was one of your posts representing a "my Baby" message, and it was really cool. Anyway, I am sorry to hear the news.

I guess all is well, more or less, at your house? I hope so. I may be going to a concert this evening. Back in May, I had bought a ticket for this date to see Hilary Hahn, who was gonna play the Hollywood Bowl tonight. But about two weeks ago, they sent out emails from the LA Philharmonic, saying that she would not be playing the concert, due to an injury. It seems she has an inflamed muscle, probably from playing all the time, so she is not playing any shows for six weeks, including tonight. The policy of the LA Philharmonic is that when you buy a ticket, you are buying for the concert itself, not simply for the guest performer. So, no refund. They have replaced her with a young lady I am not familiar with, and I'm sure it'll be a good concert anyway, so I will probably still go, I'm just not 100% sure yet. It's either that or just eat the ticket.

Also, Shakespeare By The Sea is performing again tonight, in another park located very close to Los Encinos where we went last night. Man, I'd love to go to that, "A Midsummernight's Dream".

Doggone it when two things happen at once. (Yeah, I know : "some problem, right Ad").

Well, anyway, for right now I am just gonna hang out, read my Stephen King book, and I may head back to Santa Susana in the early afternoon. I will decide all of it once I get going.

Elizabeth, if you look at the Sophie Miller photo you posted earlier this morning, there is a comment right under the beautiful picture of mountains, sky, and sunflowers. It's the first comment I can see, right under the picture.

I agree with that comment!

I sure do love you so, so much, my Darling. Thank you for loving me.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  :):)

(I will write more before I go anywhere later on.....)

4:50pm : Okay, Sweet Baby, I decided to go to the concert. I paid for the ticket so I might as well use it. I also decided to skip Santa Susana today and try to get to Hollywood a little early instead, maybe to take a few pictures at the Hollywood and Highland area of town, just for fun and something a little different. That corner is where they have the Kodak Theater, or whatever it's called now, where they do the Academy Awards. That's right where the subway lets out. It's a major tourist intersection, and kinda fun. So, I am gonna leave here in a few minutes, at 5:30, and if I can get down there by 7pm, that'll give me about a half hour to walk around that area. Then, I'll walk up Highland about a half mile to the Bowl and go to the concert, which starts at 8.

I am guessing it'll run to about 10pm, then I'll walk back to the subway, get off at North Hollywood station in the Valley, and it's about a half hour drive back to Northridge from there. I should be home no later than Midnight. Late, I know, but I will write anyway.

I Love You, my Darling, and only wish you were coming with me. But I will do what I've been doing for the past two years at concerts : I will think of you and imagine you there.

I will see you when I get back, if by chance you are awake.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  :):)

Midnight : Hi, my Darling, I'm back. I actually got home at 11:20, made great time on the trip back from North Hollywood after I got off the subway. You are probably asleep, but if you are still awake perchance, I posted a few photos on FB just now, just for fun. Many tourists down there in the Summer. The concert was really good, with a violinist named Alina Pogostkina who was quite good as well. The LA Phil also played an hour long Mahler symphony. It's a trip to watch a full orchestra play through so many musical themes, with all the dynamic changes, and do it seamlessly. All in all, a fun night down in Hollywood, and an easy trip there and back. I am gonna get situated here, eat something real quick, and then I will check back in one final time before I turn in for the night. Don't stay up, though, just on my account. Sleep if you are tired.

The important thing is that I am back home and I Love You!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  :):)

1:10pm : It is late for me, super late for you. I see your two posts from earlier this eve. The Discover Wisconsin photo is gorgeous. I would love to discover Wisconsin. When I look at the landscape up there, everything looks so..........what is the word I am looking for?

I am not sure how to describe it, but it would have to do with the lakes and the Ice Age from whence they came. Your landscape looks carved, scupted. Serene and cool. Deep, because of the water.

I would love to discover it! And we will discuss that possibility one day soon, when we are talking openly once again. :)

I also saw your "like" of Brian's password related post. I don't know if that has anything to do, or is a reference to, the situation that has taken place this week, but I am aware that there are computer programs that can figure out and steal just about anything.

I have heard about "computer gangs" in Eastern Europe and Russia who run all kinds of programs to try and steal stuff from people, credit card numbers, bank accounts, etc.

First of all : what a bunch of A-Holes.

Secondly : what a bunch of losers.

Can you imagine, sitting there all day, doing something like that? It's like being a bug and having the brain of a bug, buzzing away, hypercalculating, looking to steal some paltry sum, some useless information, because the banks protect all this stuff.

Can you imagine the life of a person who would sit there all day as their programs run, trying to scam somebody, or peep into their life?

It's a sorry way to be. I will say no more because I have already said a lot, but I just mention it because you posted Brian's post and I don't know if it has to do with me, and my passwords, and the possibility that my computer was hacked as we talked about earlier this week.

My point is this : if a person is determined to hack me, go ahead. There would be little I could do to stop such a person because I know nothing about computers, except how to use the Internet.

If a person wanted to steal my passwords, knock yourself out.

But isn't that pathetic? Aren't all these people who sit there and run their little programs on their computers kind of lame? I think so.

I mean, if you are gonna be in a robbery gang - be a dirty rotten criminal - do it big time, like the guys who did The Great Train Robbery. Don't sit behind a stupid laptop, running a silly little program to steal passwords in the hope of getting a few bucks, or spying on a person to see if they are The Devil or not.

Do something worthwhile.

With me, what people should know - must know if they are gonna waste their time - is that I couldn't care less. I don't live and die by the computer age. I don't have gadgets, I don't give a hoot about gadgets. I don't know how all of these things work, and I could not care less.

I'd rather do something that I find interesting, and I have a myriad of things that fit the bill.

Electronic gadgets, in this era of trickery-by-arrogance, is not something that interests me.

A lot of people seem not only interested in such stuff, but hooked. Gadgets are the new addiction. Electronic trickery is the new high.

I am glad, and blessed, that it's not a part of my life.

Anyway, my Baby, that's all I know for tonight. I don't know if that post had anything to do with me, but those are my thoughts. I basically have no power to keep a computer wizard at bay, but if anything like my bank account was ever intruded upon, I know the link to the FBI. I only mention it to be on the safe side.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  :):)

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

Hamlet (picture) (I'm back) (all is well?)

Good Afternoon, my Darling,

So how are things going? I hope everything is okay. I'm at home and will probably be here til about 2:30, maybe 3. Then I am gonna go get my oil changed and probably head over to Santa Susana from about 4 til maybe 5:30 or 6. This evening at 7 I am gonna meet Grimsley at a park called Los Encinos. It's at the south end of the Valley, in a town called Encino, about 6 or 7 miles from Northridge but in a different direction than Chatsworth and some of the places I usually go. Anyway, it's a historic park with a famous old adobe house, I think it's the second oldest house in the Valley. I have a picture of my Dad sitting in front of it, on my Flickr. Anyhow, all of this is to say that they are holding an outdoor staging of "Hamlet" tonight, on the grass, and because Grim suggested it as "something to do" and because I have never seen Hamlet in any form, play or movie, I thought it would be fun to go. I don't know if I will drive there straight from Santa Susana or stop at home first, but I will basically not be home too much from about 2:30 or so, until about 10pm tonight.

The play is supposed to run two hours, and then with a little traffic, getting out of the parking lot, etc., I should be home about 9:45 or so, give or take. But for now I'll be here a while.

I Love You and I'm thinking about you, and I hope you are having a good day, and that all is well.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  :):)

3:35pm : Hi, Elizabeth. I am back home for a few minutes before going to Santa Susana. I did get my oil changed.

I saw your picture of the mountains outside Quebec City, a peaceful looking place. I hope it is still okay if I "like" the pictures you post. I guess it can't hurt, right? I mean, everything is out in the open now, and I've been pressing "like" all this time anyway. Everybody knows me. Anyway, I like your picture!

And, I hope you get to go back to Quebec.  :)

I am sincerely hoping, also, that everything is okay at home. Please let me know, if you can.

Gonna head out to Santa Susana in just a few minutes, then to Los Encinos for "Hamlet" after that, and I'll be back home before 10pm. No worries because either everything is good now, or it's going to be.  :)

I Love You.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  :):)

(back later)

10pm : Hi, my Baby. I just wanted to say that I'm back. The play was incredible, by a company called Shakespeare By The Sea. I'm gonna go for my walk now, just to get it out of the way, then I'll come back and tell you some more about it. I hope all is well.

I Love You!  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  :):)

11:40pm : Well, "Hamlet" was quite an experience. I'd never seen a Shakespeare play before, unless it was on a field trip in first grade or something, but of course I was aware of the prodigious dialogue. I have to admit, it took me about 20 minutes into the play until I could get the hang of understanding it, because (as I'm sure you know) it comes out of the actors' mouths in a rush. And, it's Shakespearean dialogue, very wordy, formal and in a style of English that we aren't used to hearing because it isn't spoken anymore.

The stage was small and simple, like an old wooden stage you might have seen in Shakespeare's time. There were no props to speak of, just some swords and the famous Skull of Yorick.

Absolutely fantastic acting. I hope this troupe comes back, because I will see them anytime. Grim and I wound up in the front row, as it seems we always do. There were some chairs up there that nobody claimed, so we sat in them. I could go see one of these plays every night, really excellent and a great event for a Summer night.

But the main thing is that I have been thinking of you all day, and I am sure hoping that everything is okay at your house, or as okay as it can be, under the circumstances. I guess the degree of "okay" would depend on if anyone besides you reads these blogs. If your Mom read(s) them, or read anything I wrote in the last few days, then she knows that I discovered what was going on. If so, I hope she was able to keep a level head about the whole thing and not get upset with you.

I am just gonna write the whole thing off, and I hope she does as well. It's really the best option. You see, I've just been going along, writing my blogs here for the past 14 months, and I was more or less blissfully unaware of any problem at your end. Another thing is that, on FB at least, I wasn't much of a presence on your profile. I haven't really posted much on your page since 2012. Other than "like"ing your photos and your occasional update, I don't say much on your FB. So Mom couldn't have seen me much there, and therefore, could not have had too much to be upset about. So maybe it has been these blogs, I don't know.

I wish I knew the severity of things; does your Mom hate me, think poorly of me, think I'm just a nuisance? The thing is, I have always tried to keep a low profile. I don't IM you, I don't post much on your FB, except "like". What I do is to communicate via this blog, and I don't forward it to anybody. The only way a person can read it is if they come to me, to my blog, i.e. my page. And I'm not twisting anyone's arm to come read what I write.

I don't get the feeling that your Mom could have been truly upset for such a long period of time, over two years now, because that would take a sustained effort, and I'd think it would have manifested itself much sooner than this. Like I said the other day, you have seemed generally happy all this time, with a few normal ups-and-downs, and I don't think you could have been so cheerful, and enthusiastic in your posts, had Mom been upset with you (because of me) all this time.

So maybe the whole thing was lower-key than I am imagining, and it only blew up because of your mention of the Lillian request, and my resulting discovery of what was going on. Maybe before that, things were just kind of going along, with Mom aware of me (by whatever means, as we have talked about), but not generally freaking out on a daily basis about our relationship.

Well, I don't know any of these answers, so I will leave it at that. I am an easygoing person by nature.

Before I went to the play, I went to Santa Susana for an hour. It was just a walkthrough today, not a lot of picture taking or high climbing. But you can always feel The Spirit out there, and that is always so refreshing.

Please let me know if all is well. I Love You, Elizabeth. I will see you in the morning!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxooxoxoxoxox  :):)