Good Evening, my Darling,
I am home from Pearl's, just relaxing. Earlier today, I saw your photo, posted by the singer James, the shot of the band onstage with the giant audience out in front of them. That is a great shot! It really made my day what he said about it, to the effect of "a picture is worth a thousand words" and that he didn't even have enough words to describe how that picture made him feel.
So, my girl, please take a moment and absorb what he is saying there. You did that!
And that is beyond awesome.
I am super stoked that you did indeed get a photo pass for that show. Have you ever been at a show before with that big an audience? It's really something, eh? :)
I am really proud of what you've done, and super happy too. Also - and this is super important - I think it is triple-awesome that you shot it in black and white. I will write more about that aspect later on, back at Pearl's, because I wanna think about exactly why a black & white shot in that situation is more awesome than a color shot. And it is, and there are reasons for that.
I see just now your post via Emily Tebbets, and I'll bet you can relate to her words in that post. :)
I'll bet you are glad you followed your heart's desire with photography and videography and music and overall creativity. All you had to do was believe in yourself, and you did and you are still doing so.
Things are looking pretty good, I'd say. :)
Again, big time congrats on that shot, and I will write more later on at Pearl's. Usual schedule for me tonight.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
12:10am : Happy Late Night, Sweet Baby. For a minute there, I thought maybe you traveled to the Minnesota show, too, because you had a couple of posts related to that. But then I see other posts by you and I figure if you were at the concert you probably would be busy taking pics, so I am guessing you are at home. But getting back to the use of black and white in a shot like yours, why is it (for me, anyway) more powerful as a b&w picture than it would be in color? Now don't get me wrong - it would still be good in color, but why does b & w make it stand out?
Here is what I think, and I may have stated something like this before: in a color shot, you would simply have the distraction of the color. And so - very subtly, mind you - people would notice the blue sky, and the small patches of color in the clothes of the audience. Ditto the band members, and the black vinyl covering on amps, etc. Just all the variations, large and small, of color in the shot.
And what happens, in a shot like that, is that a color picture would look more like "real life".
And in photographs, especially of an event, that is not always a good thing. Because "real life" can equate with The Everyday World, i.e blue sky, people at a rock concert, equipment on stage, etc.
And the Everyday World is what people see every day. So it's a subtle effect, and most people viewing the photo wouldn't even notice it - without it being brought up. But color, in that particular shot, would add the distraction of The Everyday.....
Now what does black and white do, in that situation?
This is what I think : it removes the distraction of The Everyday - i.e. what people are used to seeing - and it reverses the effect. It makes the individual components of the picture stand out.
The Band. The Stage. The Audience. The Equipment.
It turns the photo into pure image, something captured rather than something seen everyday (i.e. not rock concerts per se, but the aforementioned blue sky, colors of clothes, etc.)
What's more, it sort of documents the image, sets it in time as a frozen moment, the way great b & w photos in newspapers used to do. Nothing captured a particular moment in time like a b & w shot, with it's documented feel.
The Black & White image, in particular cases, reduces or eliminates the distraction of Everyday Life, and thus makes the photograph seem to be something captured in a moment of time. Something that has been documented.
So that is my take on the use of b & w in particular shots.
Interestingly enough, my final project for my photo class in 12th grade, was a poster-sized photo I made with a concert theme. I can't recall the size anymore, but it was probably something like 24 X 18 inches, whatever the biggest sheet of photo paper was at the time, at least at my high school, lol. The basic shot I printed on that very large sheet of photo paper was a crowd shot at a stadium concert. The concert was in San Bernadino (100 miles away) at a place called Orange Show Stadium. The bands were Brownsville Station ("Smokin' In The Boy's Room"), Lynyrd Skynyrd, Peter Frampton and Black Sabbath. There were a lot of people there on the floor of the stadium, just like in your shot, and I had taken a pic entirely pointed at the crowd, looking backwards. So what I did for my final project was to enlarge that photo to giant size. It was a black and white shot, like "the crowd captured in time".
Then I cut 3x5 inch windows in the enlargement, using an exacto knife. Into those widows I taped color shots, taken at an entirely different concert - a Tommy Bolin show at The Roxy in Hollywood. But the effect was good. I had the giant b & w backdrop of the crowd (something captured in time), with the inset "live looking" color shots from the Bolin show.
I got an A on it, too, but it was the black and white backdrop shot that made the whole thing work.
I wish I could say I still had that large photo project. But things get lost over the years, in earthquakes and relocations, and what can you do, right?
Luckily, I know I still have both the b & w negative from the stadium crowd shot, and also the color slides from the Tommy Bolin show, so maybe one day I can recreate it........
And P.S. : also very important - don't get me wrong about color. Color shots are every bit as important and image-capturing as those taken in black and white. It's just that color captures in a different way, and the more you shoot with both techniques, the more you will discern the differences, especially in the context of your own style. For instance, you had a recent color shot of the guy from Starset that worked better in color - as you shot it - than it would have in b & w. The key is to shoot both and discern the difference.
At any rate, my Darling, that's my take for this evening!
Sweet Dreams and I will see you in the morn. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Tuesday, September 29, 2015
Monday, September 28, 2015
Monday Evening Love (Cooper)
Good Evening, my Darling,
I see you are back. Earlier this afternoon, I did see a post from the Alcest concert, with you and Johan and some other fans with the band after the concert. So, I'm glad you got to go. While I was at Pearl's, I did a search of "posts you like" and saw a photo, by you, that looked like it was taken from the stage for Versus Me at Sonic Boom. So you did wind up going to both concerts after all, which was my initial thought. I knew there would be no way you would miss Alcest. I will be seeing them a week from Wednesday, and I've got Van Halen coming up Friday, so I am excited.
Well, I am glad you are back. I am gonna finish my Dennis Dunaway book, then watch the final episode of Season Two of "The Walking Dead", and then go on my walk. I will write more later, back at Pearl's.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:20am : Happy Late Night. I am sitting here browsing Youtube for clips of the original Alice Cooper group, now that I have almost finished the Dunaway book - which is a classic - I am reminded of why they were my favorite band as a young teen. It's a shame they broke up and Alice the singer took the sole identity of the entity known as "Alice Cooper", because as a solo act his work fell far short of the group's efforts.
Still - I love 'em to death, to paraphrase an album title.
Nothing else to report, just a regular evening. It looks like you have a lot of musical things happening with various groups and friends, so I will stay on back burner for the moment. But that's fantastic that you got a stage pass for that festival. That will lead to people knowing who you are, and getting more passes.
That's all I know for tonight. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I see you are back. Earlier this afternoon, I did see a post from the Alcest concert, with you and Johan and some other fans with the band after the concert. So, I'm glad you got to go. While I was at Pearl's, I did a search of "posts you like" and saw a photo, by you, that looked like it was taken from the stage for Versus Me at Sonic Boom. So you did wind up going to both concerts after all, which was my initial thought. I knew there would be no way you would miss Alcest. I will be seeing them a week from Wednesday, and I've got Van Halen coming up Friday, so I am excited.
Well, I am glad you are back. I am gonna finish my Dennis Dunaway book, then watch the final episode of Season Two of "The Walking Dead", and then go on my walk. I will write more later, back at Pearl's.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:20am : Happy Late Night. I am sitting here browsing Youtube for clips of the original Alice Cooper group, now that I have almost finished the Dunaway book - which is a classic - I am reminded of why they were my favorite band as a young teen. It's a shame they broke up and Alice the singer took the sole identity of the entity known as "Alice Cooper", because as a solo act his work fell far short of the group's efforts.
Still - I love 'em to death, to paraphrase an album title.
Nothing else to report, just a regular evening. It looks like you have a lot of musical things happening with various groups and friends, so I will stay on back burner for the moment. But that's fantastic that you got a stage pass for that festival. That will lead to people knowing who you are, and getting more passes.
That's all I know for tonight. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Sunday, September 27, 2015
Chicago? (?)
Hi, my Darling,
I am here at Pearl's, just getting things in order, but I wanted to check in because I haven't seen you all day. Maybe you posted earlier, while I was at church, but if so, I missed it. I can't find anything, either, by searching "posts you like", so I dunno.
Maybe you are still in Chicago? But then I don't know if you went to the Alcest concert, either. That's all I can figure - that you did go - and are still there, hanging out with friends perhaps.
Anyway, let me know if you get a chance. I went to the Orange Grove tonight to watch the Super Blood Moon. CSUN has a small observatory there, and I figured they would have it open for this event, and they did. There was a small crowd there of about 40 people. I was hoping to get a look through the telescope, but we had moderate to heavy cloud cover in L.A., so we didn't get the full effect or the really clear view you are seeing in some of the photos that have been posted. It was still kind of cool to see, though, and better than the other Blood Moon we had a while back. I hope you got to see it with a nice clear view. Maybe you got some photos as well.
I am gonna finish getting situated here, and then I will write some more in just a few minutes. Post if you get a chance. :)
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:15am : I am back. I am gonna guess you are still in Chicago, cause I haven't seen any posts just now. All just guessing on my part, of course. At any rate, I hope you had a nice day, and I will try again tomorrow.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I am here at Pearl's, just getting things in order, but I wanted to check in because I haven't seen you all day. Maybe you posted earlier, while I was at church, but if so, I missed it. I can't find anything, either, by searching "posts you like", so I dunno.
Maybe you are still in Chicago? But then I don't know if you went to the Alcest concert, either. That's all I can figure - that you did go - and are still there, hanging out with friends perhaps.
Anyway, let me know if you get a chance. I went to the Orange Grove tonight to watch the Super Blood Moon. CSUN has a small observatory there, and I figured they would have it open for this event, and they did. There was a small crowd there of about 40 people. I was hoping to get a look through the telescope, but we had moderate to heavy cloud cover in L.A., so we didn't get the full effect or the really clear view you are seeing in some of the photos that have been posted. It was still kind of cool to see, though, and better than the other Blood Moon we had a while back. I hope you got to see it with a nice clear view. Maybe you got some photos as well.
I am gonna finish getting situated here, and then I will write some more in just a few minutes. Post if you get a chance. :)
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:15am : I am back. I am gonna guess you are still in Chicago, cause I haven't seen any posts just now. All just guessing on my part, of course. At any rate, I hope you had a nice day, and I will try again tomorrow.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Late Night Love & Concerts & HIkes & Stuff
Happy Late Night, my Darling,
I don't know if you went to the concert tonight, but if so, you might still be on your way home from Chicago. I did see your post a little while ago (Betty Rise), and I guess that post means that you did go to the Sonic Blast, and I hope you had a blast.... :) I'm sure you will post pics and report about any or all shows, but if you didn't go to the Alcest show, you should know that I can sympathise, having missed many a show in my concert career too. In fact, during some lean monetary times, I only ever went to the occasional club show, which for a while meant just King's X and Eric Johnson. And I've missed a lot of legendary shows, too, like the Alice Cooper "Billion Dollar Babies" tour and the David Bowie "Ziggy" tour and several others.
The good thing is that there will always be more shows, especially in this era of constant touring. Having said all of that, I don't know if you did go or didn't go, so I'll wait to see what you post.
I'll tell you what I didn't go to today, although I almost did. You know I was wanting to see the Blue Angels. Well, originally today I was supposed to take my sister Sophie shopping. But she cancelled due to the heat. So when I left Pearl's this morning at 11:30, I thought, "just go - don't even think about it, just drive out to Pt. Mugu". That was my instinct. Of course, I am not that spontaneous, contrary to my Aries nature (probably because of my Mars in Pisces), so I then thought, "well, go home first, make sure you know how to get there, make sure it's free parking, etc". In other words, "wait on it". That was my secondary instinct overriding my initial urge to "just go".
At home, I checked the directions on Google. Figured I'd leave around 1:30, get there in time for the Blue Angels performance at 3pm, then watch them and immediately head home, to be back at Pearl's at 4:30.
So I hung out at home for a few. Read my Dennis Dunaway book (one of the greatest rock 'n roll books ever). I still had the urge to "just go", but I really am pretty methodical, and so I waited.
"I'll leave at 1:30", I told myself.
Now, I've told you I do everything by feel. That is my whole life, and that is also probably because of my Mars in Pisces, but anyway - everything is by feel for me.
And ten minutes before I was gonna leave, at 1:20pm, I checked the Pt. Mugu Naval Air Station Facebook page, just for the heck of it. And lo and behold, people were posting comments about a Traffic Disaster. "It took us two hours just to go two miles", one person reported. This was on the road inside the Base leading to the parking area. Another person wrote "Total traffic control fail! We missed everything and want a refund".
Now, I know how airshow traffic can be. Shows at Edwards used to attract 75 to 100, 000 people. But there, even though it took a little time, you still got inside efficiently. From what I saw written about the Mugu show, however, I am glad I didn't go. I am glad I listened to my secondary "wait and see" instinct.
I will not go tomorrow, either, because it will be a similar fiasco for those who don't arrive at 8am when the gates open.
And that's okay. I don't need to be there. I would like to, but not everything is convenient or always doable.
So that's my take on stuff.
What I did wind up doing - since it was 100 degrees - was driving up to the top of Reseda Boulevard. That is South of me, and every trail and hike I go on is either to the North or West. But top of Reseda is South, in the Santa Monica mountains this time. Remember that The Valley is surrounded by mountains. I've been to the top of Reseda before, and I even posted a panoramic pic of the Valley I took up there, last year I think, or maybe 2013. But I had never hiked the trails.
This time I did, only it wasn't all that interesting. Strenuous, yes - it's steep for a while. But there's no scenery. It's more for mountain bikers and the athleticism factor. You follow a trail on something called Dirt Mulholland (if you've ever heard of Mulholland Drive, it's the dirt road section of that). Dirt Mulholland leads to all sorts of other trails that can take you through Topanga State Park, and eventually all the way to the ocean, if you wanted to do an all-day marathon hike. But I am in it mostly for the scenery, and the photography, and not much of either is happening in the Santa Monica mountains, so I think I'll stick with my Santa Susanas to the North, and San Gabriels out in the Placerita area.
All in all, a pretty good day. I hope yours was too!
Fingers are crossed for The Good Sleep Streak to continue, and tomorrow is church and choir.
I will see you in the morning, Sweet Baby.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I don't know if you went to the concert tonight, but if so, you might still be on your way home from Chicago. I did see your post a little while ago (Betty Rise), and I guess that post means that you did go to the Sonic Blast, and I hope you had a blast.... :) I'm sure you will post pics and report about any or all shows, but if you didn't go to the Alcest show, you should know that I can sympathise, having missed many a show in my concert career too. In fact, during some lean monetary times, I only ever went to the occasional club show, which for a while meant just King's X and Eric Johnson. And I've missed a lot of legendary shows, too, like the Alice Cooper "Billion Dollar Babies" tour and the David Bowie "Ziggy" tour and several others.
The good thing is that there will always be more shows, especially in this era of constant touring. Having said all of that, I don't know if you did go or didn't go, so I'll wait to see what you post.
I'll tell you what I didn't go to today, although I almost did. You know I was wanting to see the Blue Angels. Well, originally today I was supposed to take my sister Sophie shopping. But she cancelled due to the heat. So when I left Pearl's this morning at 11:30, I thought, "just go - don't even think about it, just drive out to Pt. Mugu". That was my instinct. Of course, I am not that spontaneous, contrary to my Aries nature (probably because of my Mars in Pisces), so I then thought, "well, go home first, make sure you know how to get there, make sure it's free parking, etc". In other words, "wait on it". That was my secondary instinct overriding my initial urge to "just go".
At home, I checked the directions on Google. Figured I'd leave around 1:30, get there in time for the Blue Angels performance at 3pm, then watch them and immediately head home, to be back at Pearl's at 4:30.
So I hung out at home for a few. Read my Dennis Dunaway book (one of the greatest rock 'n roll books ever). I still had the urge to "just go", but I really am pretty methodical, and so I waited.
"I'll leave at 1:30", I told myself.
Now, I've told you I do everything by feel. That is my whole life, and that is also probably because of my Mars in Pisces, but anyway - everything is by feel for me.
And ten minutes before I was gonna leave, at 1:20pm, I checked the Pt. Mugu Naval Air Station Facebook page, just for the heck of it. And lo and behold, people were posting comments about a Traffic Disaster. "It took us two hours just to go two miles", one person reported. This was on the road inside the Base leading to the parking area. Another person wrote "Total traffic control fail! We missed everything and want a refund".
Now, I know how airshow traffic can be. Shows at Edwards used to attract 75 to 100, 000 people. But there, even though it took a little time, you still got inside efficiently. From what I saw written about the Mugu show, however, I am glad I didn't go. I am glad I listened to my secondary "wait and see" instinct.
I will not go tomorrow, either, because it will be a similar fiasco for those who don't arrive at 8am when the gates open.
And that's okay. I don't need to be there. I would like to, but not everything is convenient or always doable.
So that's my take on stuff.
What I did wind up doing - since it was 100 degrees - was driving up to the top of Reseda Boulevard. That is South of me, and every trail and hike I go on is either to the North or West. But top of Reseda is South, in the Santa Monica mountains this time. Remember that The Valley is surrounded by mountains. I've been to the top of Reseda before, and I even posted a panoramic pic of the Valley I took up there, last year I think, or maybe 2013. But I had never hiked the trails.
This time I did, only it wasn't all that interesting. Strenuous, yes - it's steep for a while. But there's no scenery. It's more for mountain bikers and the athleticism factor. You follow a trail on something called Dirt Mulholland (if you've ever heard of Mulholland Drive, it's the dirt road section of that). Dirt Mulholland leads to all sorts of other trails that can take you through Topanga State Park, and eventually all the way to the ocean, if you wanted to do an all-day marathon hike. But I am in it mostly for the scenery, and the photography, and not much of either is happening in the Santa Monica mountains, so I think I'll stick with my Santa Susanas to the North, and San Gabriels out in the Placerita area.
All in all, a pretty good day. I hope yours was too!
Fingers are crossed for The Good Sleep Streak to continue, and tomorrow is church and choir.
I will see you in the morning, Sweet Baby.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Friday, September 25, 2015
East Walker (go to both?) (Mugu)
Good Evening, my Darling,
I am just getting home from Pearl's and I wanted to say hi. I hope you had a nice Friday and are enjoying your start of the weekend. I did wind up going on a hike, as you can see by the photos I posted on FB. I found a new place called East Walker Open Space, which is part of the larger Walker Ranch property in Placerita Canyon. I actually found out about East Walker earlier in the Summer, but didn't get out there until today. The hike starts out up an old, paved road going up a steep hill. When you get to the top, you are on a trail going back into the Walker property, a name which takes on a new significance since I've been watching The Walking Dead (in case you've never seen it, they call 'em "Walkers" instead of Zombies).
East Walker is a lonely old place, and of course I was the only one up there. It is on some serious backwoodser property, which apparently was used back in the 1940s - by the Walkers - as a manufacturing site, though I don't know what they were manufacturing, and there are no traces of any human presence except the paved road. It's actually a little creepy up there, but I suppose that's a good thing. Each place I have hiked has it's own vibe. I didn't take a lot of pics, but the two I posted are representative of the atmosphere.
I saw your post (via Morgin) about the Hassleblad, and I don't know what model it was in the pic, but of course I would love to have one myself. In fact, I would love to have an old Hassleblad 2 1/4 inch film camera! If film was still convienient, I would even think about getting one. Hey! - I'll have to Google to see if they even make 2 1/4 film anymore.......
I'll bet you are getting ready for tomorrow, and I know you already know they are playing an afternoon acoustic set, at a Chicago record store, just like they did in 2013. They did one in L.A. too on that tour, but I couldn't go because of work. I'll be at the concert, though, one week from next Wednesday.
Well, that's all for the moment. I am gonna do my Usual Evening Stuff and I will write more when I get back to Pearl's. See you in a bit!
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:20pm : Hi, my Darling. I am at Pearl's, and still have to get things situated, but I just now saw your post (James Milbrandt), and I did not know that the rock festival is the same day as Alcest. Are you gonna do both? Because you have posted a couple times about the WJJO Sonic Boom, I am guessing that means you are gonna go, and maybe shoot bands? But I am also guessing there is no way you are gonna miss Alcest.
Maybe if the Sonic Boom starts in the afternoon, you could go and even stay till 5 or 6pm. How far is Chicago from the festival? About 100, 150 miles?
All just guessing on my part, but I hope you get to go to both, and I am sure you would like to.
Well, now I'd better get things situated here, but I'll be back in just a few minutes at my usual time. But I just wanted to check in cause I saw your post about the Sonic Boom.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a few....)
12:15am : I am back and all is quiet. The Good Sleep Streak continued last night and fingers are crossed that it will extend itself once again this evening. Yes indeed, Sweet Baby, I hope you get to go to both shows. I'll tell you what I wish I was going to see, and that's the Blue Angels at the Point Mugu Air Show tomorrow and Sunday. Point Mugu (pronounced like Mr. Magoo) is a Naval Air Station that Dad took me to several times as a kid. It's about 60 miles up the coast, right off the ocean. The last time I was there was about ten or eleven years ago - with Dad - and the Blue Angels were supposed to fly that day but got grounded by bad weather. I haven't seen 'em fly since I was little in the 1960s, and this weekend is the first time they are at Mugu in ten years. Airshows used to happen all the time, but budgets aren't what they used to be, and then factor in post 9/11 paranoia culture, etc.
So I haven't seen the Blue Angels since I was little, but I have seen a group equally (if not more) amazing, and that's the Air Force Thunderbirds, whom I've seen about three times since 1995. I know it's probably a Guy Thing to talk about, but I have always loved going to airshows. This doggone budget mess has put them on hold, especially at Edwards Air Force Base, for about the past ten years. I love Edwards, and would go every year if they would have a show, but the last one was (I think) in 2009.
You would even like the Blue Angels and Air Force Thunderbirds, if only from a filmic perspective.
Anyhow, I am gonna have to miss the Blue Angels at Point Mugu, just because in L.A. - or what is called "the L.A. area" (which is humongous), 60 miles is a long way, and then trying to park at the Naval Base, with probably 50,000 people attending..........I just can't do it with my work schedule.
But the next show at Edwards, I am there no matter what! :)
It just goes to show ya, you can't always make it to everything. But I still hope you get to go to both concerts tomorrow.
Sweet Dreams and I will see you in the morning.
I Love You, Elizabeth! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxooxoxo :):)
I am just getting home from Pearl's and I wanted to say hi. I hope you had a nice Friday and are enjoying your start of the weekend. I did wind up going on a hike, as you can see by the photos I posted on FB. I found a new place called East Walker Open Space, which is part of the larger Walker Ranch property in Placerita Canyon. I actually found out about East Walker earlier in the Summer, but didn't get out there until today. The hike starts out up an old, paved road going up a steep hill. When you get to the top, you are on a trail going back into the Walker property, a name which takes on a new significance since I've been watching The Walking Dead (in case you've never seen it, they call 'em "Walkers" instead of Zombies).
East Walker is a lonely old place, and of course I was the only one up there. It is on some serious backwoodser property, which apparently was used back in the 1940s - by the Walkers - as a manufacturing site, though I don't know what they were manufacturing, and there are no traces of any human presence except the paved road. It's actually a little creepy up there, but I suppose that's a good thing. Each place I have hiked has it's own vibe. I didn't take a lot of pics, but the two I posted are representative of the atmosphere.
I saw your post (via Morgin) about the Hassleblad, and I don't know what model it was in the pic, but of course I would love to have one myself. In fact, I would love to have an old Hassleblad 2 1/4 inch film camera! If film was still convienient, I would even think about getting one. Hey! - I'll have to Google to see if they even make 2 1/4 film anymore.......
I'll bet you are getting ready for tomorrow, and I know you already know they are playing an afternoon acoustic set, at a Chicago record store, just like they did in 2013. They did one in L.A. too on that tour, but I couldn't go because of work. I'll be at the concert, though, one week from next Wednesday.
Well, that's all for the moment. I am gonna do my Usual Evening Stuff and I will write more when I get back to Pearl's. See you in a bit!
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:20pm : Hi, my Darling. I am at Pearl's, and still have to get things situated, but I just now saw your post (James Milbrandt), and I did not know that the rock festival is the same day as Alcest. Are you gonna do both? Because you have posted a couple times about the WJJO Sonic Boom, I am guessing that means you are gonna go, and maybe shoot bands? But I am also guessing there is no way you are gonna miss Alcest.
Maybe if the Sonic Boom starts in the afternoon, you could go and even stay till 5 or 6pm. How far is Chicago from the festival? About 100, 150 miles?
All just guessing on my part, but I hope you get to go to both, and I am sure you would like to.
Well, now I'd better get things situated here, but I'll be back in just a few minutes at my usual time. But I just wanted to check in cause I saw your post about the Sonic Boom.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a few....)
12:15am : I am back and all is quiet. The Good Sleep Streak continued last night and fingers are crossed that it will extend itself once again this evening. Yes indeed, Sweet Baby, I hope you get to go to both shows. I'll tell you what I wish I was going to see, and that's the Blue Angels at the Point Mugu Air Show tomorrow and Sunday. Point Mugu (pronounced like Mr. Magoo) is a Naval Air Station that Dad took me to several times as a kid. It's about 60 miles up the coast, right off the ocean. The last time I was there was about ten or eleven years ago - with Dad - and the Blue Angels were supposed to fly that day but got grounded by bad weather. I haven't seen 'em fly since I was little in the 1960s, and this weekend is the first time they are at Mugu in ten years. Airshows used to happen all the time, but budgets aren't what they used to be, and then factor in post 9/11 paranoia culture, etc.
So I haven't seen the Blue Angels since I was little, but I have seen a group equally (if not more) amazing, and that's the Air Force Thunderbirds, whom I've seen about three times since 1995. I know it's probably a Guy Thing to talk about, but I have always loved going to airshows. This doggone budget mess has put them on hold, especially at Edwards Air Force Base, for about the past ten years. I love Edwards, and would go every year if they would have a show, but the last one was (I think) in 2009.
You would even like the Blue Angels and Air Force Thunderbirds, if only from a filmic perspective.
Anyhow, I am gonna have to miss the Blue Angels at Point Mugu, just because in L.A. - or what is called "the L.A. area" (which is humongous), 60 miles is a long way, and then trying to park at the Naval Base, with probably 50,000 people attending..........I just can't do it with my work schedule.
But the next show at Edwards, I am there no matter what! :)
It just goes to show ya, you can't always make it to everything. But I still hope you get to go to both concerts tomorrow.
Sweet Dreams and I will see you in the morning.
I Love You, Elizabeth! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxooxoxo :):)
Thursday, September 24, 2015
Beautiful Church (movies & photos & concerts & stuff)
Good Morning, my Darling,
I am on a short break while Pearl is at the hair salon, but I wanted to check in real quick to say I love that church! The one in Milan. Man, that is an amazing looking building. Did you get to visit it when you were in that city? I hope you did. I could spend hours inside such a church.
I hope you are enjoying the early afternoon. I will go pick Pearl up in just a little while, and then usual schedule all day. See you in a bit!
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:20am : Happy Late Night, Sweet Baby. All is once again quiet at Pearl's, and we are on a bit of a roll with good sleep the last couple nights. Let's keep the streak going! I hope you had a nice rest of your day, and a good evening as well. Tonight at CSUN, we saw Welles' "The Lady From Shanghai", starring Orson himself, and his then-wife Rita Hayworth, who was very famous at the time. I'd seen this film before, years ago on dvd, and while it's not a major-league Orson Welles film ala "Citizen Kane", it is still a nice creepy little Film Noir, with several Welles trademarks - the narration, the stilted camera angles, the strangely inflected dialogue & weird characters. I would bet that David Lynch was influenced by Orson Welles, at least to some degree. Did I already say that in a previous post? If I did, then I suppose it was worth repeating, lol. At the end of the film there is a very inventive showdown scene inside a carnival funhouse, involving lots of mirrors. Great stuff.
I saw many posts from you today, and one before I left Pearl's at 6:30 of what looked like a concert being staged in a large field, sponsored by a radio station. Maybe you are gonna go? And maybe shoot photos as well? If you do, I hereby decree that you will get a ton of great shots (and remember what I said about trying to finagle a photo pass from radio stations, promoters, bands, whomever. It can't hurt and will allow you, if you can get a photo pass, to shoot right up against the stage).
Most of all though, have a blast. That is by far the most important aspect, and I have a feeling you will be having a blast in a little less than 48 hours from now. :)
It would be Mega if you could get a photo pass for Alcest (and I bet you could), but I also know how conflicting it is to take photos when you are a huge fan of a particular band. I am pretty sure I mentioned that I gave up taking photos at concerts myself because I was missing too many songs by concentrating on the photography.
But again, the only important thing is that you Have A Blast, and that is absolutely guaranteed on Saturday night.
Well, my Baby, that's all I know for tonight. Tomorrow I am gonna try for a hike. I can't say for certain because we have more workmen coming as per the renovation of the playroom. But that's supposed to happen in the morning, so with luck I can get in a hike by afternoon, maybe 2 to 3:30pm or so.
And, it's gonna be 100 degrees. Yippee! (I know I'm nuts, don't tell anyone.....)
Sweet Dreams, Elizabeth. I will see you in the morning.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I am on a short break while Pearl is at the hair salon, but I wanted to check in real quick to say I love that church! The one in Milan. Man, that is an amazing looking building. Did you get to visit it when you were in that city? I hope you did. I could spend hours inside such a church.
I hope you are enjoying the early afternoon. I will go pick Pearl up in just a little while, and then usual schedule all day. See you in a bit!
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:20am : Happy Late Night, Sweet Baby. All is once again quiet at Pearl's, and we are on a bit of a roll with good sleep the last couple nights. Let's keep the streak going! I hope you had a nice rest of your day, and a good evening as well. Tonight at CSUN, we saw Welles' "The Lady From Shanghai", starring Orson himself, and his then-wife Rita Hayworth, who was very famous at the time. I'd seen this film before, years ago on dvd, and while it's not a major-league Orson Welles film ala "Citizen Kane", it is still a nice creepy little Film Noir, with several Welles trademarks - the narration, the stilted camera angles, the strangely inflected dialogue & weird characters. I would bet that David Lynch was influenced by Orson Welles, at least to some degree. Did I already say that in a previous post? If I did, then I suppose it was worth repeating, lol. At the end of the film there is a very inventive showdown scene inside a carnival funhouse, involving lots of mirrors. Great stuff.
I saw many posts from you today, and one before I left Pearl's at 6:30 of what looked like a concert being staged in a large field, sponsored by a radio station. Maybe you are gonna go? And maybe shoot photos as well? If you do, I hereby decree that you will get a ton of great shots (and remember what I said about trying to finagle a photo pass from radio stations, promoters, bands, whomever. It can't hurt and will allow you, if you can get a photo pass, to shoot right up against the stage).
Most of all though, have a blast. That is by far the most important aspect, and I have a feeling you will be having a blast in a little less than 48 hours from now. :)
It would be Mega if you could get a photo pass for Alcest (and I bet you could), but I also know how conflicting it is to take photos when you are a huge fan of a particular band. I am pretty sure I mentioned that I gave up taking photos at concerts myself because I was missing too many songs by concentrating on the photography.
But again, the only important thing is that you Have A Blast, and that is absolutely guaranteed on Saturday night.
Well, my Baby, that's all I know for tonight. Tomorrow I am gonna try for a hike. I can't say for certain because we have more workmen coming as per the renovation of the playroom. But that's supposed to happen in the morning, so with luck I can get in a hike by afternoon, maybe 2 to 3:30pm or so.
And, it's gonna be 100 degrees. Yippee! (I know I'm nuts, don't tell anyone.....)
Sweet Dreams, Elizabeth. I will see you in the morning.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Wednesday, September 23, 2015
Happy Fall! (gorgeous photo) (33)
Good Evening, my Darling,
I am home from Pearl's. That is a beautiful photo of the Fall leaf! Such wonderful light and colors, and I love the background, too. It looks like it's in motion. Happy Fall, Sweet Baby!
I hope you are having a great day. I got good sleep last night, and I feel good myself. This afternoon I watched another movie, called "Leviathan". I noticed it at Northridge Libe, and on the cover it said it was an Academy Award nominee for Best Foreign Film, so I thought I'd give it a try. And, it was pretty good, though really long (2 1/2 hours) and pretty grim. A depressing story of corruption in a small, bleak seaside town in northern Russia. Great photography, though, and a nice hypnotic pace. I think a lot of modern directors have been influenced by guys like Peter Weir, who kind of started this whole, slo-mo, slick camera movement and made movies with just a handful of characters. That approach can really draw you in. All in all, a very good film, though I dunno about the Academy Award part.
Well, tonight it's the usual fare of late. "Walking Dead" is back on the menu (yum!). My next dvd in the series arrived at the Libe today, so I've got four more episodes on tap. Then the usual reading and music listening as well. Plus my walk.
Enjoy the rest of your evening and I will write more back at Pearl's. I really love your photo!
And I Love You, too. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:15am : Happy Late Night, Sweet Baby. All is quiet in Pearl's kitchen and I am listening to KUSC, as usual. Tonight I was reading my book "Dark Mission", and in it Hoagland talks about how many members of the NASA hierarchy are Scottish Rite Freemasons, including a lot of the astronauts, some of whom are 33rd degree, the highest that can be reached. So now I've gotta do some Googling to find out how I, too, can become a 33rd degree Scottish Rite Freemason. I imagine it's a real clubby thing, like being a member of Skull & Bones at Yale - which I most decidedly would not wanna be a member of - but with the Freemasons, if I became a 33rd degree then I'd know a lot of cool stuff about ancient Egypt, and Gods like Osiris, and most importantly............I'd know what's up there on the Moon and Mars.
Sweet Baby, I've just gotta find out, lol. You know me - super curious about Weird Stuff. But what's cool is that the Weird Stuff seems to be the real stuff.
I should have been an anthropologist, or an archaeologist. Although, to be honest, I am not sure how cool it is to dig up Old Stuff, even though we have learned a lot by excavating ancient cities in the Middle East. But when I think of a place like Santa Susana, and I am sure there would be many findings along certain areas of that park, I am glad it has never been dug up, nor really even noticed.
I think that the spiritual value of leaving it alone may outweigh any scientific value of excavation, although that may not be true in all cases.
But on the Moon, I think it's all fair game. So I've gotta become a 33rd Degree Freemason, so I'll know where to dig.
You can come with me if you want......... :)
That's all I know for tonight, my Baby. Sweet Dreams (and good sleep for me) and I will see you in the morn.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxo :):)
I am home from Pearl's. That is a beautiful photo of the Fall leaf! Such wonderful light and colors, and I love the background, too. It looks like it's in motion. Happy Fall, Sweet Baby!
I hope you are having a great day. I got good sleep last night, and I feel good myself. This afternoon I watched another movie, called "Leviathan". I noticed it at Northridge Libe, and on the cover it said it was an Academy Award nominee for Best Foreign Film, so I thought I'd give it a try. And, it was pretty good, though really long (2 1/2 hours) and pretty grim. A depressing story of corruption in a small, bleak seaside town in northern Russia. Great photography, though, and a nice hypnotic pace. I think a lot of modern directors have been influenced by guys like Peter Weir, who kind of started this whole, slo-mo, slick camera movement and made movies with just a handful of characters. That approach can really draw you in. All in all, a very good film, though I dunno about the Academy Award part.
Well, tonight it's the usual fare of late. "Walking Dead" is back on the menu (yum!). My next dvd in the series arrived at the Libe today, so I've got four more episodes on tap. Then the usual reading and music listening as well. Plus my walk.
Enjoy the rest of your evening and I will write more back at Pearl's. I really love your photo!
And I Love You, too. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:15am : Happy Late Night, Sweet Baby. All is quiet in Pearl's kitchen and I am listening to KUSC, as usual. Tonight I was reading my book "Dark Mission", and in it Hoagland talks about how many members of the NASA hierarchy are Scottish Rite Freemasons, including a lot of the astronauts, some of whom are 33rd degree, the highest that can be reached. So now I've gotta do some Googling to find out how I, too, can become a 33rd degree Scottish Rite Freemason. I imagine it's a real clubby thing, like being a member of Skull & Bones at Yale - which I most decidedly would not wanna be a member of - but with the Freemasons, if I became a 33rd degree then I'd know a lot of cool stuff about ancient Egypt, and Gods like Osiris, and most importantly............I'd know what's up there on the Moon and Mars.
Sweet Baby, I've just gotta find out, lol. You know me - super curious about Weird Stuff. But what's cool is that the Weird Stuff seems to be the real stuff.
I should have been an anthropologist, or an archaeologist. Although, to be honest, I am not sure how cool it is to dig up Old Stuff, even though we have learned a lot by excavating ancient cities in the Middle East. But when I think of a place like Santa Susana, and I am sure there would be many findings along certain areas of that park, I am glad it has never been dug up, nor really even noticed.
I think that the spiritual value of leaving it alone may outweigh any scientific value of excavation, although that may not be true in all cases.
But on the Moon, I think it's all fair game. So I've gotta become a 33rd Degree Freemason, so I'll know where to dig.
You can come with me if you want......... :)
That's all I know for tonight, my Baby. Sweet Dreams (and good sleep for me) and I will see you in the morn.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxo :):)
Tuesday, September 22, 2015
Walt (sweet dreams) (love)
Good Evening, Sweet Baby,
I am home from Pearl's. A typical Tuesday for me, taking Pearl to Golden Agers and such. I did watch a movie this afternoon, "It Follows", which was actually pretty good for a modern horror film. The only problem is that it was lacking in story, a common problem nowdays. All in all, not bad, though, and some really good (scary) locales and photography. Remind me not to move to Detroit..........
I hope you had a nice day. Sorry I didn't write last night, but it was just an ordinary day, really. So much of what I write is bounced off of your posts, and yesterday I thought you must have been busy cause I didn't see anything on FB from you. Today I see posts that make me think you are taking pictures, or drawing, or maybe both. I hope you are doing something fun. :)
I have been also watching a documentary on Walt Disney that Grimsley taped and loaned to me. Did I mention that already? Maybe so, but anyway, it's an incredible story. I have always, even way back in my twenties, considered Walt Disney to be the greatest creative genius of the 20th century, and watching this documentary, which I think was on PBS, or maybe A&E, it just comfirms that belief for me. Back then, I said it mainly just because of Disneyland, lol, which of course I love so much. I figured, if you create Disneyland - right there you are a gigantic genius just for that alone.
But in the documentary, it tells the story of all his inventions as an animator. He basically invented the animated feature film. But there is so much more, and watching the documentary, I discovered that I didn't know most of Walt Disney's accomplishments. If you are even halfway interested, I encourage you to see it (it will be on dvd soon). He was the quintessential Artist, especially in temperment and philosophy, and he was a Sag, too, to boot!
So, that's what I've been doing: reading my Dennis Dunaway Alice Cooper book, watching Walt Disney, and at night reading "Dark Mission" by Hoagland (and thinkin' about those Glass Towers up on the Moon), and watching episodes of "The Walking Dead". Tonight I am all out of "WD" eps, gotta order more from the Libe, so tonight it's an episode of "X-Files" Season 9.
Usual schedule as usual. Enjoy your evening and I will write more back at Pearl's.
I Love You! xoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:15am : Happy Late Night, my Darling. All is quiet here at Pearl's. Not much else to report for tonight on my end. I hope your 7SD video is coming out well, or maybe you've got it finished already. I know you've gotta wait on the band's release date for your music vids, but as always I look forward to seeing it. Only a few more days until Alcest! And then I will be seeing them on October 7th.....
That's all I know for tonight. Sweet Dreams and I will see you in the morning.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
P.S. : I see your post just now, and I love it. You are my rock n' roll Sweet Metal Baby indeed.... :):)
I am home from Pearl's. A typical Tuesday for me, taking Pearl to Golden Agers and such. I did watch a movie this afternoon, "It Follows", which was actually pretty good for a modern horror film. The only problem is that it was lacking in story, a common problem nowdays. All in all, not bad, though, and some really good (scary) locales and photography. Remind me not to move to Detroit..........
I hope you had a nice day. Sorry I didn't write last night, but it was just an ordinary day, really. So much of what I write is bounced off of your posts, and yesterday I thought you must have been busy cause I didn't see anything on FB from you. Today I see posts that make me think you are taking pictures, or drawing, or maybe both. I hope you are doing something fun. :)
I have been also watching a documentary on Walt Disney that Grimsley taped and loaned to me. Did I mention that already? Maybe so, but anyway, it's an incredible story. I have always, even way back in my twenties, considered Walt Disney to be the greatest creative genius of the 20th century, and watching this documentary, which I think was on PBS, or maybe A&E, it just comfirms that belief for me. Back then, I said it mainly just because of Disneyland, lol, which of course I love so much. I figured, if you create Disneyland - right there you are a gigantic genius just for that alone.
But in the documentary, it tells the story of all his inventions as an animator. He basically invented the animated feature film. But there is so much more, and watching the documentary, I discovered that I didn't know most of Walt Disney's accomplishments. If you are even halfway interested, I encourage you to see it (it will be on dvd soon). He was the quintessential Artist, especially in temperment and philosophy, and he was a Sag, too, to boot!
So, that's what I've been doing: reading my Dennis Dunaway Alice Cooper book, watching Walt Disney, and at night reading "Dark Mission" by Hoagland (and thinkin' about those Glass Towers up on the Moon), and watching episodes of "The Walking Dead". Tonight I am all out of "WD" eps, gotta order more from the Libe, so tonight it's an episode of "X-Files" Season 9.
Usual schedule as usual. Enjoy your evening and I will write more back at Pearl's.
I Love You! xoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:15am : Happy Late Night, my Darling. All is quiet here at Pearl's. Not much else to report for tonight on my end. I hope your 7SD video is coming out well, or maybe you've got it finished already. I know you've gotta wait on the band's release date for your music vids, but as always I look forward to seeing it. Only a few more days until Alcest! And then I will be seeing them on October 7th.....
That's all I know for tonight. Sweet Dreams and I will see you in the morning.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
P.S. : I see your post just now, and I love it. You are my rock n' roll Sweet Metal Baby indeed.... :):)
Sunday, September 20, 2015
A Great Picture Of You (artistry) (you are the author)
Good Afternoon, my Darling,
I love that picture of you! Of course, I love the one before it, too, which was a very beautiful look for you. The one you just put up, though, really captures your spirit, and I remember thinking - and probably saying - that it was a great shot right when it was first taken. Love it!
You have a lot of different looks, and each one is beautiful. :)
I hope you are having a great day. I am home from church. We sang really well and now, at practice, we are already working on Christmas songs. One which I am sure you know, "Carol Of The Bells" is very hard! Trying to tune out all the other counterpoint vocals, sung in differing meters, is not easy. So, I took the music home with me and I will try to find a singled-out tenor part on Youtube.
It is Roasting Hot here, gotta be over 100 (I will check weather.com to verify). I wish I was going on a Hundred Degree Hike, but maybe if the weather holds, I can do one this Wednesday.
Right now, I will be here most of the time until I go back to Pearl's at 4:15.
Enjoy the rest of your afternoon. I will write more later on.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
9:35pm : Hey, Awesome Lady, I just got back from my walk and I saw your post (Morgin Pabst), so I just wanted to check in real quick, to say that I don't know if you are feeling that way yourself - and I should certainly expect not, because I think (and hope you think, too) that it's been a great week. :)
Don't you think it has been?
Anyway, if you did for some reason mean that as a literal post, then all I can tell you is you have no reason to want to give up on anything, and I mean that in the best possible sense. What I have wanted for you to do, all along, ever since I've known you, is just to trust in the mysteries of the journey. I have the advantage of........well, let's call it "extra years" (lol).....and so I can see your journey from my perspective, and everything looks great to me.
When your friend Morgin posts about "giving up", or doing so if she didn't have a lot of people to prove wrong, I would ask her - or you or anyone with a creative destiny - why would you want to give up?
Here's something I knew early on, and I've probably told you many times before that I was 19 when I knew this, so it was a young person's discovery : I knew that I couldn't give up, even if I wanted to! Because, for me, "giving up" meant just working in a factory, motion picture or otherwise, and I knew that would spiritually and mentally kill me. So for me, there was never a question of giving up. I really had no choice.
And, it was scary and frustrating at times, too. I had no training, I was self-taught musically, didn't even start playing til I was 19. I had no technical skills, no college degree, nothing to "fall back on" as they say. And I never wound up having an actual career in any sense of the word. I did not "make it" in music or in any profession, per se.
But I never even considered "giving up", because the only thing I could ever have been in life was to Be Myself, and that is one thing it actually IS impossible to give up on.
The one thing I always had going for me is that I had a little bird on my shoulder telling me that my life was meant to be - was going to be - different. And that knowledge, that certainty, always drove me onward.
And all these years later, I am glad I listened to my little bird.
I may be way off the mark in wondering if you meant Morgin's post to be about your feelings as well. But just in case you did, please always remember that when you are an Artist - and that is what you are, Elizabeth - then your life itself is an ongoing, ever evolving work of art. Being an Artist is about living an Artistic Life in all aspects, and a huge part of that is just allowing yourself to be vulnerable to the mysteries of the journey.
Don't worry too much, in other words.
Have that Quiet Inner Confidence we always talk about, and if you ever feel it faltering, just remember that I am always here to reinforce you, just like I used to do (unsolicited) back in the olden days of 2012.
Anyhow, I am probably rambling on here, and I don't even know if you meant that post to reflect your feelings, too.
All I can say for now is that You Can't Give Up because You Are You.
I'll write more when I get to Pearl's. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:25am : Happy Late Night, my Darling. I don't know if you are awake, but the guy me and my brother are talking about on FB was a rock writer named Lester Bangs, who was famous in the rock world of the 70s for being outrageous in his journalism. He died at 33, in 1982, and really he was kind of a jerk. I used to buy Creem magazine every month (and still have some of my original issues), and it was sometimes kind of amusing to read Lester Bangs, but really he wasn't much of a music critic.
Anyhow. Back to what I was saying earlier, just think of your life as a book. That's a generic cliche, I realise, but still - you wouldn't want to know the ending of your own book while you're still writing it, would you?
Of course not.
So that's why you never entertain ideas about giving up, because to give up is to write an ending, and a premature one at that! No, I say give in to the mysteries of the journey.
Have faith. Trust in God and trust in Yourself and that's all you need to know.
If you dive deep into that trust, it will blow your mind. I am talking on a one-to-one basis now, getting deep within your Spirit and communicating with God and trusting in Him or Her from that position.
Go deep and stay deep. Communicate with yourself all the time, then send those thoughts and feelings upwards.
Take nothing on a superficial level. That is not for you, it's not the way for you to think.
Think BIG. Really BIG. Not necessarily in terms of money (though that is okay) or even the modern notion of success, but instead Think BIG in terms of maximizing what you are thinking and feeling.
Stay curious! That is where your input comes from. Let your input come from mysterious sources rather than from other cliques of human beings. Cliques lead to Groupthink and conformity.
Think for yourself. And then, combine your thoughts with your feelings and allow them to become building blocks for the structure of your artistic personality.
Go all the way in life, and always, always be true to yourself, with God (and parents and loved ones) as consultants, but with You in the driver's seat.
It's the best thing you can do.
That's all I know for tonight, Sweet Baby. Sweet Dreams and I will see you in the morning.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I love that picture of you! Of course, I love the one before it, too, which was a very beautiful look for you. The one you just put up, though, really captures your spirit, and I remember thinking - and probably saying - that it was a great shot right when it was first taken. Love it!
You have a lot of different looks, and each one is beautiful. :)
I hope you are having a great day. I am home from church. We sang really well and now, at practice, we are already working on Christmas songs. One which I am sure you know, "Carol Of The Bells" is very hard! Trying to tune out all the other counterpoint vocals, sung in differing meters, is not easy. So, I took the music home with me and I will try to find a singled-out tenor part on Youtube.
It is Roasting Hot here, gotta be over 100 (I will check weather.com to verify). I wish I was going on a Hundred Degree Hike, but maybe if the weather holds, I can do one this Wednesday.
Right now, I will be here most of the time until I go back to Pearl's at 4:15.
Enjoy the rest of your afternoon. I will write more later on.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
9:35pm : Hey, Awesome Lady, I just got back from my walk and I saw your post (Morgin Pabst), so I just wanted to check in real quick, to say that I don't know if you are feeling that way yourself - and I should certainly expect not, because I think (and hope you think, too) that it's been a great week. :)
Don't you think it has been?
Anyway, if you did for some reason mean that as a literal post, then all I can tell you is you have no reason to want to give up on anything, and I mean that in the best possible sense. What I have wanted for you to do, all along, ever since I've known you, is just to trust in the mysteries of the journey. I have the advantage of........well, let's call it "extra years" (lol).....and so I can see your journey from my perspective, and everything looks great to me.
When your friend Morgin posts about "giving up", or doing so if she didn't have a lot of people to prove wrong, I would ask her - or you or anyone with a creative destiny - why would you want to give up?
Here's something I knew early on, and I've probably told you many times before that I was 19 when I knew this, so it was a young person's discovery : I knew that I couldn't give up, even if I wanted to! Because, for me, "giving up" meant just working in a factory, motion picture or otherwise, and I knew that would spiritually and mentally kill me. So for me, there was never a question of giving up. I really had no choice.
And, it was scary and frustrating at times, too. I had no training, I was self-taught musically, didn't even start playing til I was 19. I had no technical skills, no college degree, nothing to "fall back on" as they say. And I never wound up having an actual career in any sense of the word. I did not "make it" in music or in any profession, per se.
But I never even considered "giving up", because the only thing I could ever have been in life was to Be Myself, and that is one thing it actually IS impossible to give up on.
The one thing I always had going for me is that I had a little bird on my shoulder telling me that my life was meant to be - was going to be - different. And that knowledge, that certainty, always drove me onward.
And all these years later, I am glad I listened to my little bird.
I may be way off the mark in wondering if you meant Morgin's post to be about your feelings as well. But just in case you did, please always remember that when you are an Artist - and that is what you are, Elizabeth - then your life itself is an ongoing, ever evolving work of art. Being an Artist is about living an Artistic Life in all aspects, and a huge part of that is just allowing yourself to be vulnerable to the mysteries of the journey.
Don't worry too much, in other words.
Have that Quiet Inner Confidence we always talk about, and if you ever feel it faltering, just remember that I am always here to reinforce you, just like I used to do (unsolicited) back in the olden days of 2012.
Anyhow, I am probably rambling on here, and I don't even know if you meant that post to reflect your feelings, too.
All I can say for now is that You Can't Give Up because You Are You.
I'll write more when I get to Pearl's. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:25am : Happy Late Night, my Darling. I don't know if you are awake, but the guy me and my brother are talking about on FB was a rock writer named Lester Bangs, who was famous in the rock world of the 70s for being outrageous in his journalism. He died at 33, in 1982, and really he was kind of a jerk. I used to buy Creem magazine every month (and still have some of my original issues), and it was sometimes kind of amusing to read Lester Bangs, but really he wasn't much of a music critic.
Anyhow. Back to what I was saying earlier, just think of your life as a book. That's a generic cliche, I realise, but still - you wouldn't want to know the ending of your own book while you're still writing it, would you?
Of course not.
So that's why you never entertain ideas about giving up, because to give up is to write an ending, and a premature one at that! No, I say give in to the mysteries of the journey.
Have faith. Trust in God and trust in Yourself and that's all you need to know.
If you dive deep into that trust, it will blow your mind. I am talking on a one-to-one basis now, getting deep within your Spirit and communicating with God and trusting in Him or Her from that position.
Go deep and stay deep. Communicate with yourself all the time, then send those thoughts and feelings upwards.
Take nothing on a superficial level. That is not for you, it's not the way for you to think.
Think BIG. Really BIG. Not necessarily in terms of money (though that is okay) or even the modern notion of success, but instead Think BIG in terms of maximizing what you are thinking and feeling.
Stay curious! That is where your input comes from. Let your input come from mysterious sources rather than from other cliques of human beings. Cliques lead to Groupthink and conformity.
Think for yourself. And then, combine your thoughts with your feelings and allow them to become building blocks for the structure of your artistic personality.
Go all the way in life, and always, always be true to yourself, with God (and parents and loved ones) as consultants, but with You in the driver's seat.
It's the best thing you can do.
That's all I know for tonight, Sweet Baby. Sweet Dreams and I will see you in the morning.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Saturday, September 19, 2015
Saturday Afternoon Love (late night love)
Good Afternoon, my Darling,
I am at home, just wanted to say hi. I hope you are enjoying your day. I am off to a slow start, but that's good, haha. I slept in til about 10am and have just been puttering around since then, having coffee, straightening up The Pad and watching a few videos. Soon, however, I think I'll venture out for a little while, hit the produce market (I'm all out of veggies and especially avocados) and maybe the Libe too, to see if they have any movies I haven't seen. Then in the late afternoon, maybe from about 5 to 7pm, I may head up to Aliso Canyon for a hike. It'll be nice and shadowy at that time of day, so maybe I can get a photo or two.
Then I'll come back home as it starts to get dark, and begin the evening. Maybe a One Person Party ala your friend Sarah. :)
Enjoy the rest of your afternoon and I'll see you in a little bit. I Love You!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:15am : Happy Late Night, my Darling. By your post, I see you are still awake. Those are some wild and crazy friends of yours, lol. They'd fit in right here in Hollywood as a matter of fact. :) I hope you had a good day and a nice evening. I did wind up going to Aliso Canyon, as evidenced by my photos posted earlier this eve. Nothing spectacular, but it was a nice warm evening and I had a good walk along the trail, and saw the ubiquitous bunny on my way out. The joint is lousy with bunnies, as they say......
I came back from Aliso and went right on a CSUN Orange Grove walk with my friend David F. and his daughter, so all told I did six miles today, not too shabular. Then tonight I watched a "Walking Dead" episode, and finally I listened to the new David Gilmour album, which came in the mail this afternoon. It is beautiful, start to finish.
So, thus ends my brief time off, but I had fun and feel rested. Tomorrow morn I will go back to Pearl's at 9:30 to take us to church, ready to sing. Then I will be back home around 1:30pm.
Sweet Dreams until then, Sweet Baby. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I am at home, just wanted to say hi. I hope you are enjoying your day. I am off to a slow start, but that's good, haha. I slept in til about 10am and have just been puttering around since then, having coffee, straightening up The Pad and watching a few videos. Soon, however, I think I'll venture out for a little while, hit the produce market (I'm all out of veggies and especially avocados) and maybe the Libe too, to see if they have any movies I haven't seen. Then in the late afternoon, maybe from about 5 to 7pm, I may head up to Aliso Canyon for a hike. It'll be nice and shadowy at that time of day, so maybe I can get a photo or two.
Then I'll come back home as it starts to get dark, and begin the evening. Maybe a One Person Party ala your friend Sarah. :)
Enjoy the rest of your afternoon and I'll see you in a little bit. I Love You!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:15am : Happy Late Night, my Darling. By your post, I see you are still awake. Those are some wild and crazy friends of yours, lol. They'd fit in right here in Hollywood as a matter of fact. :) I hope you had a good day and a nice evening. I did wind up going to Aliso Canyon, as evidenced by my photos posted earlier this eve. Nothing spectacular, but it was a nice warm evening and I had a good walk along the trail, and saw the ubiquitous bunny on my way out. The joint is lousy with bunnies, as they say......
I came back from Aliso and went right on a CSUN Orange Grove walk with my friend David F. and his daughter, so all told I did six miles today, not too shabular. Then tonight I watched a "Walking Dead" episode, and finally I listened to the new David Gilmour album, which came in the mail this afternoon. It is beautiful, start to finish.
So, thus ends my brief time off, but I had fun and feel rested. Tomorrow morn I will go back to Pearl's at 9:30 to take us to church, ready to sing. Then I will be back home around 1:30pm.
Sweet Dreams until then, Sweet Baby. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Friday, September 18, 2015
Friday Night Love :):) (minimalism & muse)
Hi, my Darling,
Happy Friday Night. I am at home and am off til Sunday morning. I've just been relaxing this eve, watching a "Walking Dead" episode (how's that for relaxing?) and just now I got back from my walk. I hope you had a nice day, and I hope you've been pleased with the progress your video is making.
I am gonna read my Hoagland book for a little while ("Dark MIssion") and then I will be back to write more at the usual time. Just wanted to let you know I am here and that I Love You!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:20am : Happy Late Night, Sweet Voiced Baby! Wow, on "When The Sun Hits", you've got a couple notes on there that go into the stratosphere, super-soprano. But especially what I like is that dreamy quality you get with your voice, and I'd triple-love to do some harmonies with you, now that I am getting better at them myself.
Tonight I am listening to "Five Leaves Left", the debut album by Nick Drake that came out in 1969. I have actually been on a Nick Drake kick for the past few days, and though he only made three official albums (because he died in 1974 at age 26), every song is a gem. He had an ethereal voice, very soft and high. I don't know if you'd call him a tenor, per se, because it's almost like he's whispering the lyrics, but the effect is powerful, especially since he was a good lyricist too. He had a really simple approach, just fingerpicked guitar and voice. His producer did fill out a lot of songs with other instruments here and there, but it is the guitar and voice that stands out - minimalism, and because he was unique in all three of his musical ingredients - as a guitar player, a singer and a lyricist - the minimalism works to great effect.
When he died he was more or less unknown but in the time that has passed his music has become very popular.
I mention Nick Drake because of the minimalistic effect, heard also in classical music in composers like Eric Satie, or, more currently, Ludovico Einaudi. Elizabeth, I got to see him in concert two Summers ago (thanks to you), and all I can say is if he ever comes your way, do not miss him. He and his small orchestra were phenomenal and you would love them.
But yeah, minimalism can have a powerful hypnotic effect and really draw the listener in, on a very personal level.
I hope you have more projects lined up, and I hope you will keep working on your music as well.
So how do you feel about your first year out of college, and working as a pro? From my vantage point, things have gone very well indeed. My only advice right now is just to keep pressing forward, and keep your mind open to all kinds of creative ideas from The Muse.
Keep being original, and do not solicit too many outside opinions. You are in charge of your output. You want to brand yourself, even though you are just starting out, so that people will go, "I want Elizabeth to direct my video" (or do my fashion shoot, etc.) That's why I say to remember that you are the auteur, and the more you keep creative control, the more it will free your mind up to absorb all the ideas coming in from your Muse. It's just like working a muscle with weight training; the more you keep your head in that space, the more you will soak in it, and that kind of thinking will be with you all the time, an inner dialogue of curiosity and creativity.
You've got Mercury in Scorpio (where your psychic power comes from), so put it to great advantage.
That's all I know for tonight, Sweet Baby. Since I'm off, I'll be awake for a little while longer.....
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxo :):)
Happy Friday Night. I am at home and am off til Sunday morning. I've just been relaxing this eve, watching a "Walking Dead" episode (how's that for relaxing?) and just now I got back from my walk. I hope you had a nice day, and I hope you've been pleased with the progress your video is making.
I am gonna read my Hoagland book for a little while ("Dark MIssion") and then I will be back to write more at the usual time. Just wanted to let you know I am here and that I Love You!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:20am : Happy Late Night, Sweet Voiced Baby! Wow, on "When The Sun Hits", you've got a couple notes on there that go into the stratosphere, super-soprano. But especially what I like is that dreamy quality you get with your voice, and I'd triple-love to do some harmonies with you, now that I am getting better at them myself.
Tonight I am listening to "Five Leaves Left", the debut album by Nick Drake that came out in 1969. I have actually been on a Nick Drake kick for the past few days, and though he only made three official albums (because he died in 1974 at age 26), every song is a gem. He had an ethereal voice, very soft and high. I don't know if you'd call him a tenor, per se, because it's almost like he's whispering the lyrics, but the effect is powerful, especially since he was a good lyricist too. He had a really simple approach, just fingerpicked guitar and voice. His producer did fill out a lot of songs with other instruments here and there, but it is the guitar and voice that stands out - minimalism, and because he was unique in all three of his musical ingredients - as a guitar player, a singer and a lyricist - the minimalism works to great effect.
When he died he was more or less unknown but in the time that has passed his music has become very popular.
I mention Nick Drake because of the minimalistic effect, heard also in classical music in composers like Eric Satie, or, more currently, Ludovico Einaudi. Elizabeth, I got to see him in concert two Summers ago (thanks to you), and all I can say is if he ever comes your way, do not miss him. He and his small orchestra were phenomenal and you would love them.
But yeah, minimalism can have a powerful hypnotic effect and really draw the listener in, on a very personal level.
I hope you have more projects lined up, and I hope you will keep working on your music as well.
So how do you feel about your first year out of college, and working as a pro? From my vantage point, things have gone very well indeed. My only advice right now is just to keep pressing forward, and keep your mind open to all kinds of creative ideas from The Muse.
Keep being original, and do not solicit too many outside opinions. You are in charge of your output. You want to brand yourself, even though you are just starting out, so that people will go, "I want Elizabeth to direct my video" (or do my fashion shoot, etc.) That's why I say to remember that you are the auteur, and the more you keep creative control, the more it will free your mind up to absorb all the ideas coming in from your Muse. It's just like working a muscle with weight training; the more you keep your head in that space, the more you will soak in it, and that kind of thinking will be with you all the time, an inner dialogue of curiosity and creativity.
You've got Mercury in Scorpio (where your psychic power comes from), so put it to great advantage.
That's all I know for tonight, Sweet Baby. Since I'm off, I'll be awake for a little while longer.....
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxo :):)
Thursday, September 17, 2015
Back From The Movie (mesmerised)
Hi, my Darling,
I am at home, we got out pretty early from tonight's movie at CSUN, so I just wanted to stop by and say hello since I didn't get a chance to this afternoon. Tonight we saw Welles' "The Stranger", a really good film noir. I hope you had a good day, and I saw this morning that your video is piling up the hits and generating positive comments, so that's great.
I will be here for a few more minutes, then I am gonna finish my walk and head back to Pearl's, where I will write again at the usual time.
I Love You and I'll see you in a little while. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:15am : Happy Late Night, Sweet Baby. I am here at Pearl's and all is quiet. Browsing Amazon to see if they have a movie we saw a clip of tonight, "Black Magic" from 1949. Very often, the professor who hosts the Cinematheque will show us extra stuff before the movie, interviews with the director, old clips from other films, etc. Tonight he showed a clip from this movie "Black Magic", which Orson Welles starred in but didn't direct. In it, he plays a Gypsy who has a travelling faith healing show, only he isn't a huckster - he has natural hypnotic power but doesn't really know how it works. One day, a certain Dr. Mesmer happens to catch his act, and convinces Welles' character to be in partnership with him.
You have certainly heard the term "mesmerised", meaning to be in a subconscious state, or a state of hypnosis. You probably also know that that term came from an actual person named Mesmer (don't know if he was a doctor or not), and Mesmer, who I just now Googled (Franz Mesmer, a German doctor) also wrote about so-called "animal magnetism", the natural transference of energies between people and inanimate objects in proximity to one another. The hypnosis part is what interests me the most, and the brief clip we saw from "Black Magic" made the movie look really interesting.
Not much else to report from today, a Typical Thursday. I only saw your Threnody post, of that awesome Black Swan dress, so I don't know if you had other posts, but anyway, I think the response to your song has been good so far, and after many listens, I have to say again that you nailed the arrangement, and on top of that, the sound mix is really good as well. A really good weaving of the piano and violin parts, with your vocals on top.
You also look very beautiful in the video. :)
It just looks and sounds really good, and very professional. And, you have developed a style of motion in your camera work that is natural to you, and that is something I wouldn't mess with (my two cents). In other words, just let it continue to develop naturally rather than study it too much, and definitely do not emulate anyone else's work. Just let your style continue to evolve.
Well, that's all I know for tonight. After tomorrow at 6:30, I am off til Sunday morning. That will mean two sleep-ins. Tomorrow morn I will take The Kobedog to Le Groomer at 10am, but other than that I should be on regular schedule for the day.
See you in the morn. I Love You, Elizabeth! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I am at home, we got out pretty early from tonight's movie at CSUN, so I just wanted to stop by and say hello since I didn't get a chance to this afternoon. Tonight we saw Welles' "The Stranger", a really good film noir. I hope you had a good day, and I saw this morning that your video is piling up the hits and generating positive comments, so that's great.
I will be here for a few more minutes, then I am gonna finish my walk and head back to Pearl's, where I will write again at the usual time.
I Love You and I'll see you in a little while. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:15am : Happy Late Night, Sweet Baby. I am here at Pearl's and all is quiet. Browsing Amazon to see if they have a movie we saw a clip of tonight, "Black Magic" from 1949. Very often, the professor who hosts the Cinematheque will show us extra stuff before the movie, interviews with the director, old clips from other films, etc. Tonight he showed a clip from this movie "Black Magic", which Orson Welles starred in but didn't direct. In it, he plays a Gypsy who has a travelling faith healing show, only he isn't a huckster - he has natural hypnotic power but doesn't really know how it works. One day, a certain Dr. Mesmer happens to catch his act, and convinces Welles' character to be in partnership with him.
You have certainly heard the term "mesmerised", meaning to be in a subconscious state, or a state of hypnosis. You probably also know that that term came from an actual person named Mesmer (don't know if he was a doctor or not), and Mesmer, who I just now Googled (Franz Mesmer, a German doctor) also wrote about so-called "animal magnetism", the natural transference of energies between people and inanimate objects in proximity to one another. The hypnosis part is what interests me the most, and the brief clip we saw from "Black Magic" made the movie look really interesting.
Not much else to report from today, a Typical Thursday. I only saw your Threnody post, of that awesome Black Swan dress, so I don't know if you had other posts, but anyway, I think the response to your song has been good so far, and after many listens, I have to say again that you nailed the arrangement, and on top of that, the sound mix is really good as well. A really good weaving of the piano and violin parts, with your vocals on top.
You also look very beautiful in the video. :)
It just looks and sounds really good, and very professional. And, you have developed a style of motion in your camera work that is natural to you, and that is something I wouldn't mess with (my two cents). In other words, just let it continue to develop naturally rather than study it too much, and definitely do not emulate anyone else's work. Just let your style continue to evolve.
Well, that's all I know for tonight. After tomorrow at 6:30, I am off til Sunday morning. That will mean two sleep-ins. Tomorrow morn I will take The Kobedog to Le Groomer at 10am, but other than that I should be on regular schedule for the day.
See you in the morn. I Love You, Elizabeth! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Wednesday, September 16, 2015
Your Song Is Beautiful! (a good day)
Okay Elizabeth,
That sounds fantastic! Very beautiful and dreamlike. Wow. You also have all the musical coloring nicely balanced, with the lighter sound of the violin complimenting the darker sound of the piano, and both instruments just sounding wonderful. Very nice playing by you and Johan. Your vocals are sweet sounding and very smooth, exactly in tune - you have nothing to worry about!
I mean, it sounds pro. It could be on the radio.
I had never heard that song before, and for now at least, I am not gonna listen to the original because for me, having never heard it, this is the original! :) I will listen to it at some point, but later on.
I love that you are playing in a church, and so that's what that still photo on your FB was all about, a couple weeks ago. And that is a gorgeous sounding piano! You also have some very nice harmony vocals in there as well.
You have done it again, Elizabeth! The timing is perfect, too (which you probably know) because Neige will here it, and he is of course coming to town (Chicago) in a couple weeks. I won't start up with all the "Neige stuff" like I did back in 2012 (no pressure from me, in other words), but your song really does sound fantastic, and he will agree, and what's more, Slowdive is his favorite band and you know they will hear the song too.
So, as I once remarked........"Sometimes in life, all you can say is Wow"!
And this is one of those times.
So : Wow!
I Love It! And I Love You, too. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):) !!
(I am at home and will be around much of the afternoon. I am feeling much better today, so I will try to do some shopping later on, but for now I am here, and pretty much on usual schedule all day).
12:10am : Happy Late Night, my Sweet Voiced Sweet Baby! I am glad to see your song is being so well received, and deservedly so. You guys nailed it. I like your arrangement and the very melodic piano arpeggios throughout, and you close the song nicely by "winding down" those arpeggios through the melody scale.
The lyrics are beautiful, too. :)
I know directing and photography are your main things, but I do hope you continue to make your own videos, too - maybe one a year? (is that too much? too little?) - just because you have the talent and a unique style. That's the You are You part. :)
I hope Slowdive will hear it, and I am sure they will because of the connections that run from you to them (Neige, the fans, et al).
One last request : okay girl, now you've gotta sing with me one day. I'm not a half bad singer myself, and we might just compliment each other pretty well. :):)
I am glad I felt better today. Last night was pretty lousy, and I think now that it was a combination of three things : 1) not eating all day. 2) long term sleep deprivation, and 3) the dark chocolate finished me off, gave me the vertigo & mild nausea.
I did some Googling about dark chocolate, and although I've enjoyed it in the past, I've also had "hangovers" from it on occasion, and I read online that it has a chemical in it that is fungal in nature and that many people report having problems with. I mean, I can eat mushrooms with no problem - they are fungal spores. But the dark chocolate is weird. You can feel a power in it, even on a good day, that can be a little too rich and a little to strong. And yesterday it was, so I will go easy on it in the future. I was only even eating it in the first place because it's supposed to be "Good For You". And I'm sure it has some good properties. But I am also equally sure that in the mixed-up advice world of health research, that most researchers and doctors don't know what they're talking about. Best to just listen to your body instead. :)
Finally, as to a Satanic Ritual, re: your post - I have gotta find and scan those 1986 photos we did in my late friend Sean's garage. We used to do our own Satanic Rituals (quote/unquote). Sean was way into Anton LaVey's Satanic Bible; I never took that stuff too seriously myself, but we had a blast dressing it up and photographing ourselves. I think I told you that my friend Sean was an original. He dug his own grave in his backyard. He looked like Marilyn Manson before Marilyn.
Sean had a copy of the Necronomicon, and The Tibetan Book Of The Dead. Maybe they are the same thing, I don't remember. I was only in it for the fun and Horror Movie aspect of it (and I still won't mess with an Ouija board!), but a seance............that I just might do. But only with the greatest respect.
And I still wanna try an EVP recording.........
It's Halloween Season, after all.
Well, my Darling, I think it was an excellent day, just as predicted. And tomorrow will be a good one as well.
I will see you in the morning. Sweet Dreams until then.......
I Love You. Keep making music. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
That sounds fantastic! Very beautiful and dreamlike. Wow. You also have all the musical coloring nicely balanced, with the lighter sound of the violin complimenting the darker sound of the piano, and both instruments just sounding wonderful. Very nice playing by you and Johan. Your vocals are sweet sounding and very smooth, exactly in tune - you have nothing to worry about!
I mean, it sounds pro. It could be on the radio.
I had never heard that song before, and for now at least, I am not gonna listen to the original because for me, having never heard it, this is the original! :) I will listen to it at some point, but later on.
I love that you are playing in a church, and so that's what that still photo on your FB was all about, a couple weeks ago. And that is a gorgeous sounding piano! You also have some very nice harmony vocals in there as well.
You have done it again, Elizabeth! The timing is perfect, too (which you probably know) because Neige will here it, and he is of course coming to town (Chicago) in a couple weeks. I won't start up with all the "Neige stuff" like I did back in 2012 (no pressure from me, in other words), but your song really does sound fantastic, and he will agree, and what's more, Slowdive is his favorite band and you know they will hear the song too.
So, as I once remarked........"Sometimes in life, all you can say is Wow"!
And this is one of those times.
So : Wow!
I Love It! And I Love You, too. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):) !!
(I am at home and will be around much of the afternoon. I am feeling much better today, so I will try to do some shopping later on, but for now I am here, and pretty much on usual schedule all day).
12:10am : Happy Late Night, my Sweet Voiced Sweet Baby! I am glad to see your song is being so well received, and deservedly so. You guys nailed it. I like your arrangement and the very melodic piano arpeggios throughout, and you close the song nicely by "winding down" those arpeggios through the melody scale.
The lyrics are beautiful, too. :)
I know directing and photography are your main things, but I do hope you continue to make your own videos, too - maybe one a year? (is that too much? too little?) - just because you have the talent and a unique style. That's the You are You part. :)
I hope Slowdive will hear it, and I am sure they will because of the connections that run from you to them (Neige, the fans, et al).
One last request : okay girl, now you've gotta sing with me one day. I'm not a half bad singer myself, and we might just compliment each other pretty well. :):)
I am glad I felt better today. Last night was pretty lousy, and I think now that it was a combination of three things : 1) not eating all day. 2) long term sleep deprivation, and 3) the dark chocolate finished me off, gave me the vertigo & mild nausea.
I did some Googling about dark chocolate, and although I've enjoyed it in the past, I've also had "hangovers" from it on occasion, and I read online that it has a chemical in it that is fungal in nature and that many people report having problems with. I mean, I can eat mushrooms with no problem - they are fungal spores. But the dark chocolate is weird. You can feel a power in it, even on a good day, that can be a little too rich and a little to strong. And yesterday it was, so I will go easy on it in the future. I was only even eating it in the first place because it's supposed to be "Good For You". And I'm sure it has some good properties. But I am also equally sure that in the mixed-up advice world of health research, that most researchers and doctors don't know what they're talking about. Best to just listen to your body instead. :)
Finally, as to a Satanic Ritual, re: your post - I have gotta find and scan those 1986 photos we did in my late friend Sean's garage. We used to do our own Satanic Rituals (quote/unquote). Sean was way into Anton LaVey's Satanic Bible; I never took that stuff too seriously myself, but we had a blast dressing it up and photographing ourselves. I think I told you that my friend Sean was an original. He dug his own grave in his backyard. He looked like Marilyn Manson before Marilyn.
Sean had a copy of the Necronomicon, and The Tibetan Book Of The Dead. Maybe they are the same thing, I don't remember. I was only in it for the fun and Horror Movie aspect of it (and I still won't mess with an Ouija board!), but a seance............that I just might do. But only with the greatest respect.
And I still wanna try an EVP recording.........
It's Halloween Season, after all.
Well, my Darling, I think it was an excellent day, just as predicted. And tomorrow will be a good one as well.
I will see you in the morning. Sweet Dreams until then.......
I Love You. Keep making music. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Tuesday, September 15, 2015
Felt Weird But Better Now (sweet dreams + looking forward)
Hi, my Darling,
I am here at Pearl's, and still getting things situated, but I just wanted to check in right away because earlier, when I got home at 6:45, I wasn't feeling too good. It was weird. You know I've been complaining about being tired recently - well, on and off today I felt a little fatigued, like low blood sugar or something. Mostly I was okay, but certainly did not feel like my energetic self.
Before I left for home at 6:30, I had my 6pm tea, as always, and this time I had half a bar of 72% dark chocolate that I got from Trader Joes. Before that, at 4:30, I had some plain yogurt and blueberries. Hadn't eaten a lot before that, so maybe that had something to do with it, and I know I've had problems before with the dark chocolate - it's really rich - but whatever the deal was, when I got home at 6:45, suddenly I was feeling a bit dizzy, like a mild vertigo. So I laid down, then I got sleepy but it was combined with some hot and cold chills & mild nausea. I had wanted to write upon getting home, because I saw your posts, and I thought maybe you were getting ready for another model shoot, or maybe you were just saying hi. :):)
But I felt so lousy by 7pm, that I thought I'd better just stay on the couch and not try to sit up. So there I stayed, all evening, until it was time for me to come back here. I didn't go for my walk, didn't watch any shows or do any reading. I just wanted the dizzy feeling to go away. Now, it mostly has. The sweats and chills are gone entirely, thank goodness. I'm pretty sure I don't have a bug, there's no aches and pains or swelling or anything. Mainly I think it was a combination of little sleep all week, plus I didn't eat enough earlier today, and then when I did eat, it was sugary stuff, and most of all the super rich dark chocolate, which has given me problems before.
But I am here now, and feeling a little better. I want tomorrow to be a great day, and I know it will be, so I am gonna take it easy tonight. I might try to go to bed a little earlier (circumstances permitting), but at any rate, I just wanted you to know I am here and I Love You.
I'll be up for at least a little while, at least an hour, and I'll write a little bit more before I go to bed. Hope you had a great day and a nice evening.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:40am : Hi again, Sweet Baby, and Happy Super Late Night. All is now quiet, so I will go to sleep in a few more minutes and hope for some quality sleep, and then a good day tomorrow. I am really looking forward to your video! What time are you gonna post it? I will stayed tuned for whenever it will be. :) I am also looking forward to the surprise of the music!
I am pretty sure we don't have any workmen coming tomorrow, so I should be here in the morning til about 11am or so, then home in the afternoon.
Sweet Dreams for you and me both, then, and I will see you in the morning.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I am here at Pearl's, and still getting things situated, but I just wanted to check in right away because earlier, when I got home at 6:45, I wasn't feeling too good. It was weird. You know I've been complaining about being tired recently - well, on and off today I felt a little fatigued, like low blood sugar or something. Mostly I was okay, but certainly did not feel like my energetic self.
Before I left for home at 6:30, I had my 6pm tea, as always, and this time I had half a bar of 72% dark chocolate that I got from Trader Joes. Before that, at 4:30, I had some plain yogurt and blueberries. Hadn't eaten a lot before that, so maybe that had something to do with it, and I know I've had problems before with the dark chocolate - it's really rich - but whatever the deal was, when I got home at 6:45, suddenly I was feeling a bit dizzy, like a mild vertigo. So I laid down, then I got sleepy but it was combined with some hot and cold chills & mild nausea. I had wanted to write upon getting home, because I saw your posts, and I thought maybe you were getting ready for another model shoot, or maybe you were just saying hi. :):)
But I felt so lousy by 7pm, that I thought I'd better just stay on the couch and not try to sit up. So there I stayed, all evening, until it was time for me to come back here. I didn't go for my walk, didn't watch any shows or do any reading. I just wanted the dizzy feeling to go away. Now, it mostly has. The sweats and chills are gone entirely, thank goodness. I'm pretty sure I don't have a bug, there's no aches and pains or swelling or anything. Mainly I think it was a combination of little sleep all week, plus I didn't eat enough earlier today, and then when I did eat, it was sugary stuff, and most of all the super rich dark chocolate, which has given me problems before.
But I am here now, and feeling a little better. I want tomorrow to be a great day, and I know it will be, so I am gonna take it easy tonight. I might try to go to bed a little earlier (circumstances permitting), but at any rate, I just wanted you to know I am here and I Love You.
I'll be up for at least a little while, at least an hour, and I'll write a little bit more before I go to bed. Hope you had a great day and a nice evening.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:40am : Hi again, Sweet Baby, and Happy Super Late Night. All is now quiet, so I will go to sleep in a few more minutes and hope for some quality sleep, and then a good day tomorrow. I am really looking forward to your video! What time are you gonna post it? I will stayed tuned for whenever it will be. :) I am also looking forward to the surprise of the music!
I am pretty sure we don't have any workmen coming tomorrow, so I should be here in the morning til about 11am or so, then home in the afternoon.
Sweet Dreams for you and me both, then, and I will see you in the morning.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Monday, September 14, 2015
Metalheads :) (glass towers, zombies & Alice Cooper)
Good Evening, Sweet Baby,
I am home from Pearl's. Glad to see that you are gonna release your video! I'll betcha you would've done it all along - you just got a little nervous near the end is all. But it's gonna be great which we already know, so all is good. :)
I liked your other post, for John Haughm's birthday. In the text was his comment, the gist of which was "once a metalhead always a metalhead". I don't know if you meant that part in reference to my comment yesterday about "metalhead morons", haha, but if you did......lol.........I'm sure you obviously know that I know that not all metalheads are morons. John Haughm certainly isn't; he's a very intelligent guy who also happens to write and play great music that, imo, goes beyond the classification of metal, though it is indeed that, too. :)
Anyhow, I am sure you know what I meant. I was talking about cliche or stereotypical headbangers who have no subtlety and see their music only in terms of how hard or heavy it is. The kind of fans who disown a group like Opeth or Alcest once they stop doing death vocals.
Those kinds of metalheads are dumbells indeed, and it is them I was referring to.
Remember, too, that I was an original metalhead! In the 1980s, that was pretty much all I listened to : Judas Priest, The Scorpions, Motorhead, Iron Maiden, and many more. Since then, I've gone back to listening to all kinds of stuff, which is how I began my appreciation of music, and where I am today as well.
Anyway, when you release your video, pay no attention if a dumbell makes a comment, and keep Dad's Rule in mind, that "NOT everyone is entitled to their opinion"!
And why is that, Daddio?
Well, Dad would say it's because if you are a dumbell, then your so-called "opinion" is going to be ill-informed. Therefore you are not entitled to it!
End of story. :)
But the video is gonna be great, and we are all looking forward to seeing it.
I'll be on regular schedule, as usual. Gonna watch yet another episode of "Walking Dead" and then go on my Walk. How's that for symmetry? Then I'll write more later at Pearl's.
I Love You! Enjoy the rest of your evening. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:20am : Happy Late Night, my Darling. I am sitting in Pearl's kitchen, Googling and Youtubing for images of glass towers on the Moon, which I am reading about in my book "Dark Mission" by Richard Hoagland. It's really far out stuff, but true. There is just too much evidence to dismiss. So now I wanna get me a telescope, or even just a pair of astronomy binoculars, to look at the Moon myself.
I am tired tonight, and I will be glad when these workmen are done renovating this one room in the house. It was supposed to take three days, and now on Wednesday it will have been two weeks, and you never know when they are coming or not. As previously reported, this seems to be standard procedure for workmen nowdays. I am just a caregiver, and I've got my hands full with Pearl. I don't get much sleep, night after night, and so the hours of 8 to 11 have become my "catch-up" hours, but I can't even sleep during those hours until they finish this painting job.
Sorry to complain. Once I get some sleep, I'll be good as new.
I am glad for my books, so I can travel to the Moon and see the glass towers, or be there for the adventures of the Alice Cooper group, as they conquered the world right out of high school, as reported in "Snakes! Gullotines! Electric Chairs"! by Dennis Dunaway, the bassist for the original group.
Always remember, too, Sweet Baby - and this is a Rock History lesson for you - that Alice Cooper was a group. And what a group they were, one of the most original in Rock History. The "Alice Cooper" moniker kind of came to be represented by Alice himself, as a solo artist, and while he is a legend and a lot of fun on his own, it all pales in comparison to what the original Alice Cooper group achieved.
Whoever built those Glass Towers on The Moon would have been a fan, for sure.
I am looking forward to seeing your video on Wednesday, and hearing the song. If I remember correctly, you initially said it was gonna be a cover song, done by you and Johan. But do I have that right? I dunno, but I will soon see. :)
Tomorrow should be a Typical Tuesday - let's just hope I can get some sleep.
I Love You, my Darling, and it's gonna be a great week. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
See you in the morning..........
I am home from Pearl's. Glad to see that you are gonna release your video! I'll betcha you would've done it all along - you just got a little nervous near the end is all. But it's gonna be great which we already know, so all is good. :)
I liked your other post, for John Haughm's birthday. In the text was his comment, the gist of which was "once a metalhead always a metalhead". I don't know if you meant that part in reference to my comment yesterday about "metalhead morons", haha, but if you did......lol.........I'm sure you obviously know that I know that not all metalheads are morons. John Haughm certainly isn't; he's a very intelligent guy who also happens to write and play great music that, imo, goes beyond the classification of metal, though it is indeed that, too. :)
Anyhow, I am sure you know what I meant. I was talking about cliche or stereotypical headbangers who have no subtlety and see their music only in terms of how hard or heavy it is. The kind of fans who disown a group like Opeth or Alcest once they stop doing death vocals.
Those kinds of metalheads are dumbells indeed, and it is them I was referring to.
Remember, too, that I was an original metalhead! In the 1980s, that was pretty much all I listened to : Judas Priest, The Scorpions, Motorhead, Iron Maiden, and many more. Since then, I've gone back to listening to all kinds of stuff, which is how I began my appreciation of music, and where I am today as well.
Anyway, when you release your video, pay no attention if a dumbell makes a comment, and keep Dad's Rule in mind, that "NOT everyone is entitled to their opinion"!
And why is that, Daddio?
Well, Dad would say it's because if you are a dumbell, then your so-called "opinion" is going to be ill-informed. Therefore you are not entitled to it!
End of story. :)
But the video is gonna be great, and we are all looking forward to seeing it.
I'll be on regular schedule, as usual. Gonna watch yet another episode of "Walking Dead" and then go on my Walk. How's that for symmetry? Then I'll write more later at Pearl's.
I Love You! Enjoy the rest of your evening. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:20am : Happy Late Night, my Darling. I am sitting in Pearl's kitchen, Googling and Youtubing for images of glass towers on the Moon, which I am reading about in my book "Dark Mission" by Richard Hoagland. It's really far out stuff, but true. There is just too much evidence to dismiss. So now I wanna get me a telescope, or even just a pair of astronomy binoculars, to look at the Moon myself.
I am tired tonight, and I will be glad when these workmen are done renovating this one room in the house. It was supposed to take three days, and now on Wednesday it will have been two weeks, and you never know when they are coming or not. As previously reported, this seems to be standard procedure for workmen nowdays. I am just a caregiver, and I've got my hands full with Pearl. I don't get much sleep, night after night, and so the hours of 8 to 11 have become my "catch-up" hours, but I can't even sleep during those hours until they finish this painting job.
Sorry to complain. Once I get some sleep, I'll be good as new.
I am glad for my books, so I can travel to the Moon and see the glass towers, or be there for the adventures of the Alice Cooper group, as they conquered the world right out of high school, as reported in "Snakes! Gullotines! Electric Chairs"! by Dennis Dunaway, the bassist for the original group.
Always remember, too, Sweet Baby - and this is a Rock History lesson for you - that Alice Cooper was a group. And what a group they were, one of the most original in Rock History. The "Alice Cooper" moniker kind of came to be represented by Alice himself, as a solo artist, and while he is a legend and a lot of fun on his own, it all pales in comparison to what the original Alice Cooper group achieved.
Whoever built those Glass Towers on The Moon would have been a fan, for sure.
I am looking forward to seeing your video on Wednesday, and hearing the song. If I remember correctly, you initially said it was gonna be a cover song, done by you and Johan. But do I have that right? I dunno, but I will soon see. :)
Tomorrow should be a Typical Tuesday - let's just hope I can get some sleep.
I Love You, my Darling, and it's gonna be a great week. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
See you in the morning..........
Sunday, September 13, 2015
New Music? (my two cents)
Good Evening, my Darling,
I got home a little while ago and I saw your post. I was wondering where you were all day, and now that I read the post, I can see that it's a complex issue. I don't know if you are referring to something new you are working on, a new song perhaps, or maybe you mean the video you made with Johan. Recently when you posted the still pictures from the video, you mentioned it would be out in less than two weeks, and I was wondering if it was getting close to that time.
Because it would be destined for Youtube, is that what you are referring to, re: the Portraits Of America post? That post refers to baring your soul and then being put up to the scrutiny of others, and I know you had a bit of a difficult time with that after your "Autre Temps" video, even though it was fantastic.
All you have to know about that video is that I loved it - it's what drew me to you in the first place - and I know artistry and good music when I hear it. Many of the detractors were typical metalhead morons.
Anyway, I don't even know for sure if you are referring to the new video with Johan, as far as being hesitant to release it, or apprehensive or whatever. I could have the entire issue wrong, but that video seems like the best explanation for your post.
My own two cents is : go ahead and release it! You know it's gonna be awesome. Your singing on the Vaskula EP was excellent. It's gonna be great this time too. :)
So, if that's what the Portraits Of America post is about, I say go ahead and release it. You worked hard on it, and your music is another aspect of your artistry.
I will be on usual schedule all night, so if you have a chance, let me know if I've got it right or wrong.
I Love You and am glad you posted! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(gonna watch a "Walking Dead" episode, then go for my walk, but I'll keep one eye on the computer, too)
12:20am : Happy Late Night, Sweet Baby. All is quiet and I am now situated. :) I saw your post a little while ago, Ola Gjielo, and I am glad that all is well. Also, I am the Sweet Baby in that one, and I love it when that happens. :):)
Yeah, again - I don't know if the earlier issue today was indeed your own music video with Johan, but if it was, I'll stick with my stated assessment. However, because You are You, and only You know your own level of sensitivity to any given situation, in the end it is of course your decision whether to release it (again assuming that is the issue at hand).
I know how shy I was as a kid, and although that is a slightly different circumstance, or social condition (shyness vs. being a very private person, in your case), it still has a basis in an acute sensitivity to scrutiny or response.
It took me years to understand, myself. When I was a kid in school, I would get so nervous if called to speak in front of the class, that it was all I could do not to stutter. I always felt perfectly alright inside my own head, with my own thoughts, and with my own close friends, like everything was understood, and so no nervousness.
But put me in front of strangers, or a large group, and I was a mess. Now that I am older, and some of the shyness has dissipated, I analyse it, and I think it is just a sensitivity to unknown energy.
People possess energy and vibes. Intelligent people do, dumbells do, kind people do, and so do cruel people. In that respect, we are all the same. We all project vibes, and some people feel the need to vocalise those vibes, or write them down, especially in the era of the Internet.
I grew up before the Internet, but I was so shy - and therefore so self-conscious - that I could sense people's vibes even if they weren't saying anything.
You are the same way, Elizabeth. You are extremely intelligent, and with that, you also have a very sensitive nature. Just like me. As far as music goes, if I hadn't been in a band way back in my early days, I could never have got up onstage. Wouldn't have had the courage. A band gave me inclusion in something. I was a part of the whole, rather than the whole thing myself. That allowed me to play in front of people.
I am just offering these thoughts to let you know that I recognise your sensitivity, and what I have discovered is that, in the long run, it's a huge asset. It means that you know yourself, and you'd be surprised how many people do not.
If you have sensitivity, and thus know yourself, that will eventually lead to a strong self confidence that will surprise you. That is why I say, from time to time, to carry a "quiet confidence" within yourself.
Know yourself and know your qualities and assets. As for criticism, well......it is nice to consider all men and women to be equally valid in the humanistic sense. My Mom told me when I was little, and I've never forgotten it : "Never think of yourself as any better or any worse than anyone else, but always just as good".
And that is good advice, and beautiful in the humanistic sense.
But my Dad also had advice, and that was : "Everyone is NOT entitled to their opinion"! :)
Dad knew, and was not too polite to state it, that there are a lot of stupid, or less than educated, or less thoughtful, or less articulate, or less emotionally mature, people in the world. And unfortunately, those people can be some of the most vocal. See the Internet for zillions of examples.
Now, as you probably know, you can disable comments on Youtube. Or you can just refuse to read 'em.
But in the end, I have no doubt that if you do release your song (and if that is indeed the issue today), the good comments will far outweigh the bad, and the point is, that You already know Yourself.
You have that quiet, inner confidence and know you are good at what you do, both in music and film.
That's all that matters, I think.
Well, I will post now, but just take some time and think about it, and then do whatever you are comfortable with. And remember - You know Yourself best.
I Love You, Elizabeth! Sweet Dreams and I will see you in the morning.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I got home a little while ago and I saw your post. I was wondering where you were all day, and now that I read the post, I can see that it's a complex issue. I don't know if you are referring to something new you are working on, a new song perhaps, or maybe you mean the video you made with Johan. Recently when you posted the still pictures from the video, you mentioned it would be out in less than two weeks, and I was wondering if it was getting close to that time.
Because it would be destined for Youtube, is that what you are referring to, re: the Portraits Of America post? That post refers to baring your soul and then being put up to the scrutiny of others, and I know you had a bit of a difficult time with that after your "Autre Temps" video, even though it was fantastic.
All you have to know about that video is that I loved it - it's what drew me to you in the first place - and I know artistry and good music when I hear it. Many of the detractors were typical metalhead morons.
Anyway, I don't even know for sure if you are referring to the new video with Johan, as far as being hesitant to release it, or apprehensive or whatever. I could have the entire issue wrong, but that video seems like the best explanation for your post.
My own two cents is : go ahead and release it! You know it's gonna be awesome. Your singing on the Vaskula EP was excellent. It's gonna be great this time too. :)
So, if that's what the Portraits Of America post is about, I say go ahead and release it. You worked hard on it, and your music is another aspect of your artistry.
I will be on usual schedule all night, so if you have a chance, let me know if I've got it right or wrong.
I Love You and am glad you posted! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(gonna watch a "Walking Dead" episode, then go for my walk, but I'll keep one eye on the computer, too)
12:20am : Happy Late Night, Sweet Baby. All is quiet and I am now situated. :) I saw your post a little while ago, Ola Gjielo, and I am glad that all is well. Also, I am the Sweet Baby in that one, and I love it when that happens. :):)
Yeah, again - I don't know if the earlier issue today was indeed your own music video with Johan, but if it was, I'll stick with my stated assessment. However, because You are You, and only You know your own level of sensitivity to any given situation, in the end it is of course your decision whether to release it (again assuming that is the issue at hand).
I know how shy I was as a kid, and although that is a slightly different circumstance, or social condition (shyness vs. being a very private person, in your case), it still has a basis in an acute sensitivity to scrutiny or response.
It took me years to understand, myself. When I was a kid in school, I would get so nervous if called to speak in front of the class, that it was all I could do not to stutter. I always felt perfectly alright inside my own head, with my own thoughts, and with my own close friends, like everything was understood, and so no nervousness.
But put me in front of strangers, or a large group, and I was a mess. Now that I am older, and some of the shyness has dissipated, I analyse it, and I think it is just a sensitivity to unknown energy.
People possess energy and vibes. Intelligent people do, dumbells do, kind people do, and so do cruel people. In that respect, we are all the same. We all project vibes, and some people feel the need to vocalise those vibes, or write them down, especially in the era of the Internet.
I grew up before the Internet, but I was so shy - and therefore so self-conscious - that I could sense people's vibes even if they weren't saying anything.
You are the same way, Elizabeth. You are extremely intelligent, and with that, you also have a very sensitive nature. Just like me. As far as music goes, if I hadn't been in a band way back in my early days, I could never have got up onstage. Wouldn't have had the courage. A band gave me inclusion in something. I was a part of the whole, rather than the whole thing myself. That allowed me to play in front of people.
I am just offering these thoughts to let you know that I recognise your sensitivity, and what I have discovered is that, in the long run, it's a huge asset. It means that you know yourself, and you'd be surprised how many people do not.
If you have sensitivity, and thus know yourself, that will eventually lead to a strong self confidence that will surprise you. That is why I say, from time to time, to carry a "quiet confidence" within yourself.
Know yourself and know your qualities and assets. As for criticism, well......it is nice to consider all men and women to be equally valid in the humanistic sense. My Mom told me when I was little, and I've never forgotten it : "Never think of yourself as any better or any worse than anyone else, but always just as good".
And that is good advice, and beautiful in the humanistic sense.
But my Dad also had advice, and that was : "Everyone is NOT entitled to their opinion"! :)
Dad knew, and was not too polite to state it, that there are a lot of stupid, or less than educated, or less thoughtful, or less articulate, or less emotionally mature, people in the world. And unfortunately, those people can be some of the most vocal. See the Internet for zillions of examples.
Now, as you probably know, you can disable comments on Youtube. Or you can just refuse to read 'em.
But in the end, I have no doubt that if you do release your song (and if that is indeed the issue today), the good comments will far outweigh the bad, and the point is, that You already know Yourself.
You have that quiet, inner confidence and know you are good at what you do, both in music and film.
That's all that matters, I think.
Well, I will post now, but just take some time and think about it, and then do whatever you are comfortable with. And remember - You know Yourself best.
I Love You, Elizabeth! Sweet Dreams and I will see you in the morning.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Top Notch
Happy Late Night, my Darling,
Hey! I saw your latest promotional video over at your professional website, for "Performing Ourselves". It looks great, Elizabeth. The edits all look natural and effortless, like the human eye looking around the room during a dance class or performance. You also coaxed nice, emotive little statements out of those girls, very sweet and heartfelt. I have gotta say, overall, it looks like something that you'd see on PBS - girl, it's that pro-looking. :)
So, a giant High Five from me, and a hug and kiss. Was that a recent job, or something you had already finished a while back? It sure adds to your repertoire, and can you believe how professionally you have come out of the gate after graduating from college? You have the magic touch, say I.
Today was a bit low key for me, the sleep situation being what it is here. The painters were supposed to come this morning but never showed all day. This is reminiscent of the situation we went through with the kitchen cabinet makers last year; I think the reliability of workmen in general has gone down in recent decades......I just think, in life, if you say you're gonna show up, then show up. That's one of my maxims.
You don't have to show up in life, but if you say you're gonna, then Do It.
Well, at least tomorrow morn is church, and I get to sing. :)
I hope your day was good.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Hey! I saw your latest promotional video over at your professional website, for "Performing Ourselves". It looks great, Elizabeth. The edits all look natural and effortless, like the human eye looking around the room during a dance class or performance. You also coaxed nice, emotive little statements out of those girls, very sweet and heartfelt. I have gotta say, overall, it looks like something that you'd see on PBS - girl, it's that pro-looking. :)
So, a giant High Five from me, and a hug and kiss. Was that a recent job, or something you had already finished a while back? It sure adds to your repertoire, and can you believe how professionally you have come out of the gate after graduating from college? You have the magic touch, say I.
Today was a bit low key for me, the sleep situation being what it is here. The painters were supposed to come this morning but never showed all day. This is reminiscent of the situation we went through with the kitchen cabinet makers last year; I think the reliability of workmen in general has gone down in recent decades......I just think, in life, if you say you're gonna show up, then show up. That's one of my maxims.
You don't have to show up in life, but if you say you're gonna, then Do It.
Well, at least tomorrow morn is church, and I get to sing. :)
I hope your day was good.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Saturday, September 12, 2015
Super Late Night Love
Hi, my Darling,
Happy Super Late Night. It's been difficult to get Pearl up off the couch to go sleep in her bedroom, so I have temporarily given up. I will try again in a little while, after I have finished this blog. The problem is that the painters are coming in the morning, and I am running on 5 hours sleep for about four days in a row, and if I can't convince Pearl to get up off the couch, at some point I will have to go to sleep myself, if only to deal with the painters in the morning. I can go to sleep in the spare bedroom, but then at some point in the middle of the night Pearl will wake up from the living room couch, say at 3:30am, and think it's breakfast time, and then she'll find me in the spare bedroom and knock until I wake up too. Sigh.......
It's all part of the job, but tonight is particularly difficult. I'll be glad when the painters are done, supposedly tomorrow for sure, so that I can go back to my "plan B" of sleeping in, late mornings from about 8 to 11am. If you come on line in the morn at 7:30, which was my old time for signing on, and don't see me on FB, that's the reason. It's because I've been up most of the night and am catching some late morning sleep.
I hope your day was good. I did see your posts today, and in the newsfeed too. I agree : it is amazing that it's been three years since you first photographed the Barry sisters, and I can still remember you telling me about them just before you were gonna begin work on a video for an Alcest tune. You mentioned "two red-headed sisters".....
Right off the bat you showed your portraiture skills, and they have always been great subjects for you, as you say.
And then, before you knew it, you became a full-fledged photographer and one-woman video production company, all within the span of a thousand days, or even less.
There's that Time Thing for ya! When it's looked at from another perspective, an outside perspective like mine, it looks like destiny. :)
Well, I am gonna give it The Old College Try (as they used to say) with Pearl, one more time to try and convince her to get off the couch and go sleep in her bedroom. Wish me luck....
I Love You, Sweet Baby. Sweet Dreams and I will see you in the morn, early or late.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Happy Super Late Night. It's been difficult to get Pearl up off the couch to go sleep in her bedroom, so I have temporarily given up. I will try again in a little while, after I have finished this blog. The problem is that the painters are coming in the morning, and I am running on 5 hours sleep for about four days in a row, and if I can't convince Pearl to get up off the couch, at some point I will have to go to sleep myself, if only to deal with the painters in the morning. I can go to sleep in the spare bedroom, but then at some point in the middle of the night Pearl will wake up from the living room couch, say at 3:30am, and think it's breakfast time, and then she'll find me in the spare bedroom and knock until I wake up too. Sigh.......
It's all part of the job, but tonight is particularly difficult. I'll be glad when the painters are done, supposedly tomorrow for sure, so that I can go back to my "plan B" of sleeping in, late mornings from about 8 to 11am. If you come on line in the morn at 7:30, which was my old time for signing on, and don't see me on FB, that's the reason. It's because I've been up most of the night and am catching some late morning sleep.
I hope your day was good. I did see your posts today, and in the newsfeed too. I agree : it is amazing that it's been three years since you first photographed the Barry sisters, and I can still remember you telling me about them just before you were gonna begin work on a video for an Alcest tune. You mentioned "two red-headed sisters".....
Right off the bat you showed your portraiture skills, and they have always been great subjects for you, as you say.
And then, before you knew it, you became a full-fledged photographer and one-woman video production company, all within the span of a thousand days, or even less.
There's that Time Thing for ya! When it's looked at from another perspective, an outside perspective like mine, it looks like destiny. :)
Well, I am gonna give it The Old College Try (as they used to say) with Pearl, one more time to try and convince her to get off the couch and go sleep in her bedroom. Wish me luck....
I Love You, Sweet Baby. Sweet Dreams and I will see you in the morn, early or late.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Friday, September 11, 2015
Thursday Night Love
Hi, my Darling,
Happy Late Night. Today, I did see your post this morning (of the two birds), but only because I found it in the "posts Elizabeth likes" option. I seriously don't know what the problem is with FB and the news feed, but anyway, I'm just glad I saw it. :):)
I saw your art post, too, in the afternoon when I was here at Pearl's. The one with a girl working on a painting or drawing in a big empty room. So maybe you've been working on a similar project. Today was super hot yet again, very monsoon-like (minus the monsoon), and mostly it was a typical Thursday, although the painters were here for much of the day and will be back tomorrow, too. Then they say they will be done.
Tonight at CSUN we saw "The Magnificent Ambersons" by Welles. Grimsley was there, too, although we arrived and sat seperately. I have my semi-official seat down in the front row center, just like at concerts, because I am the longest-attending member of the Cinematheque, since the beginning in 2009. But I am glad Grim has taken an interest, perhaps because he loves Orson Welles. I myself own "Ambersons" on dvd, and have seen it many times. There is an amazing and semi-tragic story behind the film, which originally ran 135 minutes, but was taken from Welles and re-edited by RKO studios all the way down to 88 minutes, and with a different ending as well.
In the modern era of dvd and film preservation, we have seen the original versions of many films restored to their full length running times, but that will never happen with "The Magnificent Ambersons" because RKO dumped all the original prints into the Pacific Ocean off of Santa Monica Pier. What a terrible thing to do.
Even so, the 88 minute version is still a great film. The heads of the movie studios really set out to destroy Orson Welles after "Citizen Kane", and he had a hard time with his career after "Ambersons", but those two are surely two of the greatest films ever made, so his legacy is secure.
Well, that's all I know for tonight. It was cool to watch Stephen King receive his Medal Of The Arts this afternoon at The White House, from President Obama. For me, he is one of the main artistic influences of my life, simply in the way he has made me think. A horror writer, indeed, and a popular one for good reason, but more than that, a brilliant, brilliant man.
See you in the morning, Sweet Baby. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Happy Late Night. Today, I did see your post this morning (of the two birds), but only because I found it in the "posts Elizabeth likes" option. I seriously don't know what the problem is with FB and the news feed, but anyway, I'm just glad I saw it. :):)
I saw your art post, too, in the afternoon when I was here at Pearl's. The one with a girl working on a painting or drawing in a big empty room. So maybe you've been working on a similar project. Today was super hot yet again, very monsoon-like (minus the monsoon), and mostly it was a typical Thursday, although the painters were here for much of the day and will be back tomorrow, too. Then they say they will be done.
Tonight at CSUN we saw "The Magnificent Ambersons" by Welles. Grimsley was there, too, although we arrived and sat seperately. I have my semi-official seat down in the front row center, just like at concerts, because I am the longest-attending member of the Cinematheque, since the beginning in 2009. But I am glad Grim has taken an interest, perhaps because he loves Orson Welles. I myself own "Ambersons" on dvd, and have seen it many times. There is an amazing and semi-tragic story behind the film, which originally ran 135 minutes, but was taken from Welles and re-edited by RKO studios all the way down to 88 minutes, and with a different ending as well.
In the modern era of dvd and film preservation, we have seen the original versions of many films restored to their full length running times, but that will never happen with "The Magnificent Ambersons" because RKO dumped all the original prints into the Pacific Ocean off of Santa Monica Pier. What a terrible thing to do.
Even so, the 88 minute version is still a great film. The heads of the movie studios really set out to destroy Orson Welles after "Citizen Kane", and he had a hard time with his career after "Ambersons", but those two are surely two of the greatest films ever made, so his legacy is secure.
Well, that's all I know for tonight. It was cool to watch Stephen King receive his Medal Of The Arts this afternoon at The White House, from President Obama. For me, he is one of the main artistic influences of my life, simply in the way he has made me think. A horror writer, indeed, and a popular one for good reason, but more than that, a brilliant, brilliant man.
See you in the morning, Sweet Baby. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Thursday, September 10, 2015
?
Hi, my Darling,
I didn't see you on FB all day, except for one post early this morn (Valnoir), so I hope everything is okay. Very often when you don't post it's because something is wrong, only this time I can't imagine what it could be. So, maybe it's nothing. Maybe you were just busy. In any case, Happy Late Night. :)
I am always one who believes in communication but I've said that a million times before.
I hope you had a nice day. If something is wrong, please tell me.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I didn't see you on FB all day, except for one post early this morn (Valnoir), so I hope everything is okay. Very often when you don't post it's because something is wrong, only this time I can't imagine what it could be. So, maybe it's nothing. Maybe you were just busy. In any case, Happy Late Night. :)
I am always one who believes in communication but I've said that a million times before.
I hope you had a nice day. If something is wrong, please tell me.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Wednesday, September 9, 2015
I Predict (Sweet Babyness, among other things)
Hi, my Darling,
Happy Late Night. It was great to see your band pictures this morning, and not only did you get some great action shots but you made some new contacts as well. I saw that the singer from Versus Me liked your photo, too, so that's fantastic. :) Things are happening and I am turning out to be a great prognosticator! You are on a roll now, and I say it will continue! You know, next time there's a festival or even just a concert where you know somebody in a band or even anyone associated with a show, see if you can get a photo pass to get you up in front of the barrier they usually put up at shows nowdays. I think with a pass, you get about three songs or so to shoot as many photos as you want. Then you go back into the audience or wherever. Maybe you could even get a stage pass now that many bands are aware of you.
I say It Will Happen!
That's Prognosticator Me talkin'..... :) I can see into the future.
Now, you may or may not be aware that Jesika from Gram Rabbit is gonna be playing at High Noon Saloon on September 10th. That's Thursday night, and I think it's sold out because she is playing (I think) with The Eagles Of Death Metal, whom I'm not a fan of, but that's neither here nor there. I guess they are popular. Anyway, it is sold out, but I thought it would be a kick if you could somehow get in and take pictures.
It would be a great example, classic even, of It's A Small World, Isn't It, because Jesika is from Green Bay, and moved out to Joshua Tree in the Mojave Desert in about 2003 to form Gram Rabbit, whom me and Grimsley have seen many times. You might not like their type of music, or JVR's solo stuff, but it would be a kick if you somehow got in and shot some pics, and you could tell her you know me and Grimsley. That would be classic.
Also classic - and funny - was that post about how cold it gets up there. I especially loved the part about "when it gets to be Zero Degrees in California", because I can't think of any place where that might happen, haha. Maybe way up near the Oregon border in the mountains......
But here in the 'Ridge, today, it was 107 degrees! You guys do the cold, we do the hot.
It's a good combination. :):)
I Love You, Sweet Baby. I am glad everything is going well and I know it will continue.
Sweet Dreams and I will see you in the morning. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Happy Late Night. It was great to see your band pictures this morning, and not only did you get some great action shots but you made some new contacts as well. I saw that the singer from Versus Me liked your photo, too, so that's fantastic. :) Things are happening and I am turning out to be a great prognosticator! You are on a roll now, and I say it will continue! You know, next time there's a festival or even just a concert where you know somebody in a band or even anyone associated with a show, see if you can get a photo pass to get you up in front of the barrier they usually put up at shows nowdays. I think with a pass, you get about three songs or so to shoot as many photos as you want. Then you go back into the audience or wherever. Maybe you could even get a stage pass now that many bands are aware of you.
I say It Will Happen!
That's Prognosticator Me talkin'..... :) I can see into the future.
Now, you may or may not be aware that Jesika from Gram Rabbit is gonna be playing at High Noon Saloon on September 10th. That's Thursday night, and I think it's sold out because she is playing (I think) with The Eagles Of Death Metal, whom I'm not a fan of, but that's neither here nor there. I guess they are popular. Anyway, it is sold out, but I thought it would be a kick if you could somehow get in and take pictures.
It would be a great example, classic even, of It's A Small World, Isn't It, because Jesika is from Green Bay, and moved out to Joshua Tree in the Mojave Desert in about 2003 to form Gram Rabbit, whom me and Grimsley have seen many times. You might not like their type of music, or JVR's solo stuff, but it would be a kick if you somehow got in and shot some pics, and you could tell her you know me and Grimsley. That would be classic.
Also classic - and funny - was that post about how cold it gets up there. I especially loved the part about "when it gets to be Zero Degrees in California", because I can't think of any place where that might happen, haha. Maybe way up near the Oregon border in the mountains......
But here in the 'Ridge, today, it was 107 degrees! You guys do the cold, we do the hot.
It's a good combination. :):)
I Love You, Sweet Baby. I am glad everything is going well and I know it will continue.
Sweet Dreams and I will see you in the morning. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Monday, September 7, 2015
Fun Labor Day + Love (shows & art)
Good Evening, Sweet Baby,
I am just getting home from Pearl's. We went to Lake Balboa once again and had a nice time, even though it was hotter today than when we went on Saturday. But the place was filled with people picnicing, walking dogs, skating, paddle boating, and lots of ducks and birds, too. All of the stimuli is good for Pearl, and Kobedoggie loves the place because it's barbeque heaven. :)
Before that, I went on a major-league hike. Oh boy! Yep, I thought it had been too long since I really went for it, so I drove to Rocky Peak Trail which is in the Santa Susana mountains but east of Santa Su State Park. Rocky Peak is very steep and very long, and I went about a mile and a half in, further than last November, which was the only other times I was on that trail.
And it felt great! I wasn't winded, heart wasn't even beating that hard. To be fair, I've been on steeper trails, but Rocky is pretty unrelenting. It just keeps going up and up, and it actually does wind up at a mountain called Rocky Peak. That's where the trail ends. I've been there three times now, and I haven't yet made it all the way to the top, but I will next time. That would be about 2hrs. round trip.
Anyhow, I took some pics, so I am gonna see if I got any good ones, and if I did I'll post a couple on FB. I hope you had a great Labor Day! I'll be here on usual schedule and then back at Pearl's later on.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:25am : Happy Super Late Night, my Darling. I am here in Pearl's kitchen, all is quiet, fingers are crossed for it to remain that way. I hope you had a nice evening. I went for my walk and watched the last episode of Season 8 of "The X-Files". Maybe the best season yet, and with the addition of the excellent Robert Patrick as Agent Doggett, it adds an extra character dynamic. And, the whole season was nice and weird, too. :)
I've been working on "X-Files" since..........hmmm, was it 2010? Or 2011? I am gonna say 2011 and be on the safe side. So it's taken me five years to watch eight seasons, and I've got one more to go. I know it's not that fast, in these days when people pound every episode of every hit cable show as fast as they can (and I did that myself with "Breaking Bad"), but I watch a lot of movies, too, and anyway, "X-Files" is a show to be savored. :) Ditto "Millennium", the darker & even weirder spin-off from "X-Files", which I also have on dvd.
Remember : only watch classic stuff. Or at least really good stuff. No Sandler movies........ ;)
It doesn't have to be Weird Stuff. I'll watch plenty of that for you, haha.
And, as I posted on FB, R.I.P. to actors Martin Milner and Judy Carne, from two of my favorite shows, "Adam-12" and "Laugh-In". You know Martin Milner made an impression in his role when the current Chief of the LAPD wrote a brief eulogy for him today. Every kid my age loved "Adam-12", and that's the way all cops should be. As for "Laugh-In", it was the precursor to "SNL", and simply put, it was the funniest show of all time, just crazy, zany people on that show. Both "Adam-12" and "Laugh-In" were late '60s shows, and they depicted two sides of that era. The cops, one the one hand, and the swinging hippies and so-called "beautiful people" on the other hand. "Laugh-In" was staged as kind of a live party on TV, with comedy sketches in between. And it was a wild and very funny show. But both shows, even though at different ends of the social spectrum, represent as one looks back the decency and evenhandedness of the 1960s, when there was a Generation Gap (Google it) but not the us vs. them two-sided divisiveness of today.
At any rate, God Bless 'Em.
I see that you are posting lots of music related stuff from a few different bands, so perhaps these are bands you are gonna be working with, or would like to work with? I say Yes!
I say that before too long, you will have a full schedule of bands and videos lined up, and other stuff too, and today I thought "hey, maybe even merch"!, after seeing your post of Sarah's t-shirt for that hardcore band she is a fan of. You could venture into that as well, at some point in the future, because you have those techniques, too (drawing and computer skills for reproducing the image).
I am not much of a drawer, but I did draw a few cool things I am proud of, and one of them is a title card (on sketch paper) for my quake video "The Meadows". I drew it, in logo-ized really creepy letters of green and brown ink (earth colors), and then I video-ed the title card using a tripod to make an opening for my movie. And, I still have that drawing in a scrapbook.
So that's all I know for tonight, my Baby. Tomorrow is regular Tuesday schedule. Sweet Dreams, and I will see you in the morning.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I am just getting home from Pearl's. We went to Lake Balboa once again and had a nice time, even though it was hotter today than when we went on Saturday. But the place was filled with people picnicing, walking dogs, skating, paddle boating, and lots of ducks and birds, too. All of the stimuli is good for Pearl, and Kobedoggie loves the place because it's barbeque heaven. :)
Before that, I went on a major-league hike. Oh boy! Yep, I thought it had been too long since I really went for it, so I drove to Rocky Peak Trail which is in the Santa Susana mountains but east of Santa Su State Park. Rocky Peak is very steep and very long, and I went about a mile and a half in, further than last November, which was the only other times I was on that trail.
And it felt great! I wasn't winded, heart wasn't even beating that hard. To be fair, I've been on steeper trails, but Rocky is pretty unrelenting. It just keeps going up and up, and it actually does wind up at a mountain called Rocky Peak. That's where the trail ends. I've been there three times now, and I haven't yet made it all the way to the top, but I will next time. That would be about 2hrs. round trip.
Anyhow, I took some pics, so I am gonna see if I got any good ones, and if I did I'll post a couple on FB. I hope you had a great Labor Day! I'll be here on usual schedule and then back at Pearl's later on.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:25am : Happy Super Late Night, my Darling. I am here in Pearl's kitchen, all is quiet, fingers are crossed for it to remain that way. I hope you had a nice evening. I went for my walk and watched the last episode of Season 8 of "The X-Files". Maybe the best season yet, and with the addition of the excellent Robert Patrick as Agent Doggett, it adds an extra character dynamic. And, the whole season was nice and weird, too. :)
I've been working on "X-Files" since..........hmmm, was it 2010? Or 2011? I am gonna say 2011 and be on the safe side. So it's taken me five years to watch eight seasons, and I've got one more to go. I know it's not that fast, in these days when people pound every episode of every hit cable show as fast as they can (and I did that myself with "Breaking Bad"), but I watch a lot of movies, too, and anyway, "X-Files" is a show to be savored. :) Ditto "Millennium", the darker & even weirder spin-off from "X-Files", which I also have on dvd.
Remember : only watch classic stuff. Or at least really good stuff. No Sandler movies........ ;)
It doesn't have to be Weird Stuff. I'll watch plenty of that for you, haha.
And, as I posted on FB, R.I.P. to actors Martin Milner and Judy Carne, from two of my favorite shows, "Adam-12" and "Laugh-In". You know Martin Milner made an impression in his role when the current Chief of the LAPD wrote a brief eulogy for him today. Every kid my age loved "Adam-12", and that's the way all cops should be. As for "Laugh-In", it was the precursor to "SNL", and simply put, it was the funniest show of all time, just crazy, zany people on that show. Both "Adam-12" and "Laugh-In" were late '60s shows, and they depicted two sides of that era. The cops, one the one hand, and the swinging hippies and so-called "beautiful people" on the other hand. "Laugh-In" was staged as kind of a live party on TV, with comedy sketches in between. And it was a wild and very funny show. But both shows, even though at different ends of the social spectrum, represent as one looks back the decency and evenhandedness of the 1960s, when there was a Generation Gap (Google it) but not the us vs. them two-sided divisiveness of today.
At any rate, God Bless 'Em.
I see that you are posting lots of music related stuff from a few different bands, so perhaps these are bands you are gonna be working with, or would like to work with? I say Yes!
I say that before too long, you will have a full schedule of bands and videos lined up, and other stuff too, and today I thought "hey, maybe even merch"!, after seeing your post of Sarah's t-shirt for that hardcore band she is a fan of. You could venture into that as well, at some point in the future, because you have those techniques, too (drawing and computer skills for reproducing the image).
I am not much of a drawer, but I did draw a few cool things I am proud of, and one of them is a title card (on sketch paper) for my quake video "The Meadows". I drew it, in logo-ized really creepy letters of green and brown ink (earth colors), and then I video-ed the title card using a tripod to make an opening for my movie. And, I still have that drawing in a scrapbook.
So that's all I know for tonight, my Baby. Tomorrow is regular Tuesday schedule. Sweet Dreams, and I will see you in the morning.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Sunday, September 6, 2015
Sunday Home Chill + Love (director)
Good Afternoon, my Darling,
I am back at home, chilling for a little while. 'Tis an absolutely gorgeous day. We had good singing in choir and a very fun practice. I am hitting most of my high notes and belting it out in the car to reach even higher, haha. Hey, you've gotta practice somewhere. Singers are like trombone players, they've gotta practice in secret, because there's only one volume level they can work with : L.O.U.D. :)
I hope you are having a fun day again at the Taste Of Madison fest. I know you are gonna get some more great band shots, so keep shooting! I'll bet there's a ton of good stuff to eat, too. :)
I'll hang out here til about 3:30, then go for part of my walk and then head back to Pearl's. Usual schedule after that. Enjoy the rest of your afternoon and early evening!
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:15am : Happy Late Night, Sweet Baby. I see from your posts that you were indeed back at Taste Of Madison, and I hope you had a blast and got some great pics too. I know you did, and it also looks like you are making more contacts with bands. It will start to have an exponential effect, and then what I predicted will come true (and it is beginning to already) : that you will be the go-to video director for Madison bands.
Just continue to develop your style and make it as much about you as the band. Of course, you are showcasing the band, and the band is your client, but just as bold and upfront is the impression you make with your creativity and technical work. Continue to personalise/conceptualise the storylines for each video.
Think of Orson Welles and the great filmmakers, and remember that each image, each camera angle, each edit, both tells a story and leaves an imprint on the viewer. Therefore, consider every shot and remember nuance.
Tell a story with your images; make the viewer remember you as well as the band.
I know you already know this stuff, but I reinforce you anyway.
Think of it like a motion picture - who's in charge? The Director, that's who! So each video is your creation. The band is the client in the case of rock videos, so in a sense, having paid you, they are the executive producers. But always try to steer them toward your creative vision for their music. That is how you will brand yourself as the go-to-director.
A lot of it - all of it, really - is just tuning in to your intelligence and trusting yourself.
Anyhow, it's been a good year so far.
All is quiet right now in Pearl's kitchen. It should be a good week ahead. We have workmen coming during the week, for everything from a termite inspection (a followup to last January's fumigation) to the painting of the playroom (converted garage). So, lots of appointments, but I will try to squeeze in my Downtown train trips and maybe even a hike.........
See you in the morning, my Baby. I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I am back at home, chilling for a little while. 'Tis an absolutely gorgeous day. We had good singing in choir and a very fun practice. I am hitting most of my high notes and belting it out in the car to reach even higher, haha. Hey, you've gotta practice somewhere. Singers are like trombone players, they've gotta practice in secret, because there's only one volume level they can work with : L.O.U.D. :)
I hope you are having a fun day again at the Taste Of Madison fest. I know you are gonna get some more great band shots, so keep shooting! I'll bet there's a ton of good stuff to eat, too. :)
I'll hang out here til about 3:30, then go for part of my walk and then head back to Pearl's. Usual schedule after that. Enjoy the rest of your afternoon and early evening!
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:15am : Happy Late Night, Sweet Baby. I see from your posts that you were indeed back at Taste Of Madison, and I hope you had a blast and got some great pics too. I know you did, and it also looks like you are making more contacts with bands. It will start to have an exponential effect, and then what I predicted will come true (and it is beginning to already) : that you will be the go-to video director for Madison bands.
Just continue to develop your style and make it as much about you as the band. Of course, you are showcasing the band, and the band is your client, but just as bold and upfront is the impression you make with your creativity and technical work. Continue to personalise/conceptualise the storylines for each video.
Think of Orson Welles and the great filmmakers, and remember that each image, each camera angle, each edit, both tells a story and leaves an imprint on the viewer. Therefore, consider every shot and remember nuance.
Tell a story with your images; make the viewer remember you as well as the band.
I know you already know this stuff, but I reinforce you anyway.
Think of it like a motion picture - who's in charge? The Director, that's who! So each video is your creation. The band is the client in the case of rock videos, so in a sense, having paid you, they are the executive producers. But always try to steer them toward your creative vision for their music. That is how you will brand yourself as the go-to-director.
A lot of it - all of it, really - is just tuning in to your intelligence and trusting yourself.
Anyhow, it's been a good year so far.
All is quiet right now in Pearl's kitchen. It should be a good week ahead. We have workmen coming during the week, for everything from a termite inspection (a followup to last January's fumigation) to the painting of the playroom (converted garage). So, lots of appointments, but I will try to squeeze in my Downtown train trips and maybe even a hike.........
See you in the morning, my Baby. I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Saturday, September 5, 2015
Saturday Afternoon Sweet Babyism (great shot + late night love)
Good Afternoon, my Darling,
I am home from Pearl's. Ultimately, I did get a reasonable amount of sleep last night, so I feel pretty good, and it is a gorgeous late Summer day here in the 'Ridge. Gotta run a ton of errands, though. Hikes will have to wait for the upcoming week (and my trips to Downtown L.A. cause I've gotta use my train tickets before they expire).
I see that you may be at the Taste Of Madison festival, and I know you go every year. I hope you are having a blast! Again, I want to say that I loved your post yesterday, and I have to say again also, that because You are You it makes all the difference.
I don't wanna bring up the computer issue again. I mean, I knew about it last year, so I was already.....inured, I suppose would be a good word for it. I was already inured to it after discovering it a year ago. The only difference was that back then I thought it was your folks, but even then, after some time went by I just kind of let it go. I didn't really forget about it but it went by the wayside.
This time it was a shock (even though a delayed shock) because now I know it was you.
But You are You, and You are my Sweet Baby, and I just can't be mad at you. The only thing that still confuses me is the whole technical issue : if it was a Trojan virus (and I really do know next to nothing about all that stuff), then I can't figure why you'd have sent it to me when I was using library computers, because I'd be on so many different computers at different libes and even different systems (CSUN, city libes), that I don't see how it could work. Unless it's just limited to Facebook. And at the time, you'd have had no way of knowing that I was gonna get a home PC. And I'm pretty sure it isn't a password hack, as I stated earlier.
So I can't figure it out entirely, but in the end (and this is the important part) : You are You.
You are You, Elizabeth, and I guess you had your reasons for doing it. On an intuitive level, I understand those reasons, at least I think I do :), and the way you put it in your post (of the girl with the birthday cake), it is even endearing and sincere, if such a word can be used in this case, and I think it can. :)
You are You, and You are very sincere. On my own behalf, I must say again (one last time) that I'd prefer it hadn't happened, but it has, and I've known about it for a year so the shock only came back because I now know it was you and not your folks.
As far as all the things I wrote in one of my blogs a few days ago, most of it is due to the fact that I've been by myself for a very long time now. The part about me being the age I am (which is not an old geezer by any stretch, especially because it's me we are talking about, haha), is still important, mainly because time really does seem to go by faster after you get to about 45 or so. When you are 20, 30 feels like a long way away, and it is! Time, as we talk about so often, because it's an awesome subject, really does have elastic properties, and I can remember very easily how the span between 20 and 30 felt, or even the span between 20 and 25. It feels like a long, long time. And therefore it is! (kinda awesome, in a way).
It can still feel that way in your 50s, and it's kind of a trip because when I think back to certain memories of 2012, when I met you, some of those things - concerts, picture taking expeditions, writings - feel like they happened 5 or 10 years ago instead of just 3. So time is a weird thing. I love how weird it is! :)
But when you combine time with a person's age, if that person (me) has been alone for a long time, the person can focus on just that one aspect of time.
"Man, I've been alone for a long time, and I'm 55 already"! Then you start making mental leaps : "60 is just around the corner (a five year leap), will I still be alone then"? Five years, between 55 and 60, should feel like a reasonably long time, even though age does indeed make time feel faster. But what happens is that, when you've been alone for a long time, you start asking "what if"?, and you start making those mental leaps, which span years of time: "What if I'm alone at 60? At 70? Omg, that's only 15 years away"!
Now, fifteen years should feel like a very long time, and it does, even to a person my age. But the "alone" factor brings that worry into the equation, and you just start to focus on that one thing, as far as time is concerned. "Man, I've been alone for 25 years! Will I be alone for another 25"?
And all of a sudden, your mind is spanning 50 years, you are thinking backward and forward about that One Thing, and it feels like time is going by very fast.
As for me, I have had good friends in my life, and had my parents with me for a long time, and I've been extremely fortunate in so many respects, and I never forget that.
But I don't wanna wind up as just "one of the guys", a single old guy (and when I'm 80 I suppose I will be old, or at least a little bit) with no family. I want, and hope, to get married, and I know also - I certainly realise - that I am not Your Basic Marriage Material because I don't have a career, etc.
But I've already stated my philosophy on all that stuff, i.e. how all you've gotta do to make things work in life is just get the bills paid. To me, as a creative person, that's enough : make sure the bills always get paid, and try to save as much money as you can along the way. I may not have a career, but that's my philosophy, and I must say that it's been working pretty well of late. I have been fortunate, as I say, and am beyond grateful for all the blessings in my life. It has been an unusual life, but also very fulfilling to me in the best senses of that word, spiritually fulfilling most of all.
Anyway, that's enough about me.
As for you (and You and Me), we have been doing things this way, this type of communication, for a long time now. I always said I wouldn't rush you, and I would not, and couldn't anyway because it's your life. Especially at 19 or even 22 going on 23, I would not rush you into anything, even talking to me.
All I would say is that, for best results, it would be great to at least think about a time span : i.e. when you might want to have real communication. You don't even have to tell me, but you can if you want to. But I just say, for best results for us, at least start to think about it. We used to have some pretty great conversations, you know..... ;)
Finally, you are my Sweet Baby, and I do love everything you do, just like in your post of the girl with the cake. I know you've just wanted to "keep me in check" as it says in the text. All I ask is that you keep in mind the passing time, and even just think to yourself of a small way or ways to keep things moving forward, even just a little bit. :)
I am gonna go run my errands in a little bit, so have fun at the festival and I will see you in a bit. I'll probably be taking Pearl and The 'Ster to Lake Balboa at 4:30, but will be back at home by 7ish.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:15am : Happy Late Night, Sweet Baby. That is an excellent shot you got of the guy from Starset! I had not heard of them before, but that is some far-out stage gear he is wearing. At first, I thought it represented some kind of riot-police gear, like a comment on anarchy or "police-state" culture. Then I saw their FB page, and I discovered it is a Space motif, specifically like the kind of outfits you used to see in 1950s sci-fi movies.
That is some wild looking stuff, almost like a Devo conceptual trip, except harder rock of course. You must have been up close, and you got what I would call a great "rock n' roll" shot where the action of the concert is captured in the frame. I used to love shooting at concerts myself, and I only stopped because I didn't wanna miss any songs by concentrating on my photos, but shooting rock concerts is a blast!
I hope you had a fun day overall, you probably saw at least a couple bands, probably had some good food too. I took The Gang to Lake Balboa as previously described. Then this evening Grimsley came over to go on the Official CSUN Walk with me. I should trademark it and begin offering personalised walks or even group walks....... :)
Well, tomorrow morning is church and the usual Sunday schedule. For Communion (first Sunday of every month), we are singing an appropriate anthem : "Living Bread". I will be home after choir practice, and here at Pearl's for a short while in the morn before we leave.
Sweet Dreams until then. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I am home from Pearl's. Ultimately, I did get a reasonable amount of sleep last night, so I feel pretty good, and it is a gorgeous late Summer day here in the 'Ridge. Gotta run a ton of errands, though. Hikes will have to wait for the upcoming week (and my trips to Downtown L.A. cause I've gotta use my train tickets before they expire).
I see that you may be at the Taste Of Madison festival, and I know you go every year. I hope you are having a blast! Again, I want to say that I loved your post yesterday, and I have to say again also, that because You are You it makes all the difference.
I don't wanna bring up the computer issue again. I mean, I knew about it last year, so I was already.....inured, I suppose would be a good word for it. I was already inured to it after discovering it a year ago. The only difference was that back then I thought it was your folks, but even then, after some time went by I just kind of let it go. I didn't really forget about it but it went by the wayside.
This time it was a shock (even though a delayed shock) because now I know it was you.
But You are You, and You are my Sweet Baby, and I just can't be mad at you. The only thing that still confuses me is the whole technical issue : if it was a Trojan virus (and I really do know next to nothing about all that stuff), then I can't figure why you'd have sent it to me when I was using library computers, because I'd be on so many different computers at different libes and even different systems (CSUN, city libes), that I don't see how it could work. Unless it's just limited to Facebook. And at the time, you'd have had no way of knowing that I was gonna get a home PC. And I'm pretty sure it isn't a password hack, as I stated earlier.
So I can't figure it out entirely, but in the end (and this is the important part) : You are You.
You are You, Elizabeth, and I guess you had your reasons for doing it. On an intuitive level, I understand those reasons, at least I think I do :), and the way you put it in your post (of the girl with the birthday cake), it is even endearing and sincere, if such a word can be used in this case, and I think it can. :)
You are You, and You are very sincere. On my own behalf, I must say again (one last time) that I'd prefer it hadn't happened, but it has, and I've known about it for a year so the shock only came back because I now know it was you and not your folks.
As far as all the things I wrote in one of my blogs a few days ago, most of it is due to the fact that I've been by myself for a very long time now. The part about me being the age I am (which is not an old geezer by any stretch, especially because it's me we are talking about, haha), is still important, mainly because time really does seem to go by faster after you get to about 45 or so. When you are 20, 30 feels like a long way away, and it is! Time, as we talk about so often, because it's an awesome subject, really does have elastic properties, and I can remember very easily how the span between 20 and 30 felt, or even the span between 20 and 25. It feels like a long, long time. And therefore it is! (kinda awesome, in a way).
It can still feel that way in your 50s, and it's kind of a trip because when I think back to certain memories of 2012, when I met you, some of those things - concerts, picture taking expeditions, writings - feel like they happened 5 or 10 years ago instead of just 3. So time is a weird thing. I love how weird it is! :)
But when you combine time with a person's age, if that person (me) has been alone for a long time, the person can focus on just that one aspect of time.
"Man, I've been alone for a long time, and I'm 55 already"! Then you start making mental leaps : "60 is just around the corner (a five year leap), will I still be alone then"? Five years, between 55 and 60, should feel like a reasonably long time, even though age does indeed make time feel faster. But what happens is that, when you've been alone for a long time, you start asking "what if"?, and you start making those mental leaps, which span years of time: "What if I'm alone at 60? At 70? Omg, that's only 15 years away"!
Now, fifteen years should feel like a very long time, and it does, even to a person my age. But the "alone" factor brings that worry into the equation, and you just start to focus on that one thing, as far as time is concerned. "Man, I've been alone for 25 years! Will I be alone for another 25"?
And all of a sudden, your mind is spanning 50 years, you are thinking backward and forward about that One Thing, and it feels like time is going by very fast.
As for me, I have had good friends in my life, and had my parents with me for a long time, and I've been extremely fortunate in so many respects, and I never forget that.
But I don't wanna wind up as just "one of the guys", a single old guy (and when I'm 80 I suppose I will be old, or at least a little bit) with no family. I want, and hope, to get married, and I know also - I certainly realise - that I am not Your Basic Marriage Material because I don't have a career, etc.
But I've already stated my philosophy on all that stuff, i.e. how all you've gotta do to make things work in life is just get the bills paid. To me, as a creative person, that's enough : make sure the bills always get paid, and try to save as much money as you can along the way. I may not have a career, but that's my philosophy, and I must say that it's been working pretty well of late. I have been fortunate, as I say, and am beyond grateful for all the blessings in my life. It has been an unusual life, but also very fulfilling to me in the best senses of that word, spiritually fulfilling most of all.
Anyway, that's enough about me.
As for you (and You and Me), we have been doing things this way, this type of communication, for a long time now. I always said I wouldn't rush you, and I would not, and couldn't anyway because it's your life. Especially at 19 or even 22 going on 23, I would not rush you into anything, even talking to me.
All I would say is that, for best results, it would be great to at least think about a time span : i.e. when you might want to have real communication. You don't even have to tell me, but you can if you want to. But I just say, for best results for us, at least start to think about it. We used to have some pretty great conversations, you know..... ;)
Finally, you are my Sweet Baby, and I do love everything you do, just like in your post of the girl with the cake. I know you've just wanted to "keep me in check" as it says in the text. All I ask is that you keep in mind the passing time, and even just think to yourself of a small way or ways to keep things moving forward, even just a little bit. :)
I am gonna go run my errands in a little bit, so have fun at the festival and I will see you in a bit. I'll probably be taking Pearl and The 'Ster to Lake Balboa at 4:30, but will be back at home by 7ish.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:15am : Happy Late Night, Sweet Baby. That is an excellent shot you got of the guy from Starset! I had not heard of them before, but that is some far-out stage gear he is wearing. At first, I thought it represented some kind of riot-police gear, like a comment on anarchy or "police-state" culture. Then I saw their FB page, and I discovered it is a Space motif, specifically like the kind of outfits you used to see in 1950s sci-fi movies.
That is some wild looking stuff, almost like a Devo conceptual trip, except harder rock of course. You must have been up close, and you got what I would call a great "rock n' roll" shot where the action of the concert is captured in the frame. I used to love shooting at concerts myself, and I only stopped because I didn't wanna miss any songs by concentrating on my photos, but shooting rock concerts is a blast!
I hope you had a fun day overall, you probably saw at least a couple bands, probably had some good food too. I took The Gang to Lake Balboa as previously described. Then this evening Grimsley came over to go on the Official CSUN Walk with me. I should trademark it and begin offering personalised walks or even group walks....... :)
Well, tomorrow morning is church and the usual Sunday schedule. For Communion (first Sunday of every month), we are singing an appropriate anthem : "Living Bread". I will be home after choir practice, and here at Pearl's for a short while in the morn before we leave.
Sweet Dreams until then. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Friday, September 4, 2015
Perfect :):) (Super Late Love)
Hi Elizabeth,
Okay, that is the perfect post. I love that post. :) And, I am glad to hear from you. I still have to finish my walk, so I will write more when I get back to Pearl's.......
But that is a great post, and funny, too. :)
I Love You. See you in a little bit.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:35am : Hi, my Darling, and Happy Super Late Night. I've had a problem tonight getting Pearl to go to sleep, which is why I am so late. At Midnight, she thinks it's morning because her hours and sense of time are all turned around. Anyway, I am tired but wanted to let you know that I love you. I had (and have) a bunch of stuff I wanted to say about your post earlier, of the girl with the birthday cake, but my brain is a little bit frazzled, so I will catch up tomorrow.
I am so glad you posted today. You make me happy because you are You. One thing is for sure : there is no one like you, Elizabeth. As for me, I just need, like, even three days in a row of full sleep would be awesome. If I could just get my energy back, then I will go on regular hikes and do more stuff. But it's been a bit difficult of late. Still, it's my job, and I want to do it to the best of my ability. I read stuff online at caregiver support group sites, and it is reassuring because other caregivers describe similar (and sometimes far worse) situations, and so just knowing that someone can relate makes me feel a lot better.
Sleep rules, though, and when one has regular full sleep, one can play the game with a full deck of cards. :)
Well, I think everything is gonna be okay. I will catch up tomorrow and write more.
I Love You, Elizabeth. Thanks for not forgetting that! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Okay, that is the perfect post. I love that post. :) And, I am glad to hear from you. I still have to finish my walk, so I will write more when I get back to Pearl's.......
But that is a great post, and funny, too. :)
I Love You. See you in a little bit.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:35am : Hi, my Darling, and Happy Super Late Night. I've had a problem tonight getting Pearl to go to sleep, which is why I am so late. At Midnight, she thinks it's morning because her hours and sense of time are all turned around. Anyway, I am tired but wanted to let you know that I love you. I had (and have) a bunch of stuff I wanted to say about your post earlier, of the girl with the birthday cake, but my brain is a little bit frazzled, so I will catch up tomorrow.
I am so glad you posted today. You make me happy because you are You. One thing is for sure : there is no one like you, Elizabeth. As for me, I just need, like, even three days in a row of full sleep would be awesome. If I could just get my energy back, then I will go on regular hikes and do more stuff. But it's been a bit difficult of late. Still, it's my job, and I want to do it to the best of my ability. I read stuff online at caregiver support group sites, and it is reassuring because other caregivers describe similar (and sometimes far worse) situations, and so just knowing that someone can relate makes me feel a lot better.
Sleep rules, though, and when one has regular full sleep, one can play the game with a full deck of cards. :)
Well, I think everything is gonna be okay. I will catch up tomorrow and write more.
I Love You, Elizabeth. Thanks for not forgetting that! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Thursday, September 3, 2015
Hi
Hi Elizabeth,
I am here at Pearl's, back from the Thursday night movie at CSUN, tonight it was "Citizen Kane". I guess you weren't around much today. I did see one post from you in the afternoon, via your friend Morgin, but it looked like it had to do with a photo shoot rather than anything to do with me.
Anyhow, I just wanted to say hi and let you know I'm here. I'll be up for a while.
I am here at Pearl's, back from the Thursday night movie at CSUN, tonight it was "Citizen Kane". I guess you weren't around much today. I did see one post from you in the afternoon, via your friend Morgin, but it looked like it had to do with a photo shoot rather than anything to do with me.
Anyhow, I just wanted to say hi and let you know I'm here. I'll be up for a while.
Hi
Hi Elizabeth,
I see you are awake, at least as of a few minutes ago. From your posts today, it looks like you are involved with various bands and possible work situations, so that is good. I am still kind of wondering, though, if you think there are any possible solutions to the situation we have here. That was what I was asking in the blog from a couple days ago.
As far as the hacking goes, I just wanna know the extent of it. I have assumed the worst, that it's a total computer attachment, but if it's just FB, let me know. I have said I am not mad about it, and that's the truth, but I would like to know the extent of it. If you do not want to tell me, that is okay too. Just give me a sign that you don't wanna tell me.
I just want to know where this is all going, is all. I have put three years of my life into writing to you.
I see your video stills today, and I know it will be a great video, but I just withheld comment (or pressing "like") because I feel like "here we go again" : a "romantic" (your word, to describe the music) video, starring you and Johan, who - despite how you may or may not feel about him - is crazy about you.
I am sorry to say that I am tired of dealing with it. Not the video production part, of course, just the "too many guys" part. As I said yesterday, I am 55, the years go by faster at my age, and I just want someone who really wants to be with me. I also understand, 100%, that you would naturally be more inclined to want to be with someone your own age, or closer to it than me.
Maybe I am wrong about that, and it's true that you have posted a lot of beautiful things for me, words and symbols, pictures of weddings. But in the end, it's still Johan in the video, and I am just a guy who - for three years now - writes to you on Blogger but has never talked to you or even messaged with you in all that time.
I am still here, and still would like to see if you would like to work things out. You do seem to have feelings for me, and I don't doubt that, but I need to know if this is gonna move forward.
You don't have to feel a lot of pressure in reading these words. Just ask yourself "how do I (Elizabeth) really feel"? Do you want to move it forward with me? It doesn't have to go fast, all I am asking - for now - is to know if you ever want to actually talk to me, and if so, when that will be. If you don't see it happening in the future, I need to know that.
I feel I've given a lot, with all of my writing for these three years, and I am just needing to know where I stand, in relation to Johan, et al, and your life in general.
If you want to work things out, I am right here. But as I asked the other day, please don't wait.
I see you are awake, at least as of a few minutes ago. From your posts today, it looks like you are involved with various bands and possible work situations, so that is good. I am still kind of wondering, though, if you think there are any possible solutions to the situation we have here. That was what I was asking in the blog from a couple days ago.
As far as the hacking goes, I just wanna know the extent of it. I have assumed the worst, that it's a total computer attachment, but if it's just FB, let me know. I have said I am not mad about it, and that's the truth, but I would like to know the extent of it. If you do not want to tell me, that is okay too. Just give me a sign that you don't wanna tell me.
I just want to know where this is all going, is all. I have put three years of my life into writing to you.
I see your video stills today, and I know it will be a great video, but I just withheld comment (or pressing "like") because I feel like "here we go again" : a "romantic" (your word, to describe the music) video, starring you and Johan, who - despite how you may or may not feel about him - is crazy about you.
I am sorry to say that I am tired of dealing with it. Not the video production part, of course, just the "too many guys" part. As I said yesterday, I am 55, the years go by faster at my age, and I just want someone who really wants to be with me. I also understand, 100%, that you would naturally be more inclined to want to be with someone your own age, or closer to it than me.
Maybe I am wrong about that, and it's true that you have posted a lot of beautiful things for me, words and symbols, pictures of weddings. But in the end, it's still Johan in the video, and I am just a guy who - for three years now - writes to you on Blogger but has never talked to you or even messaged with you in all that time.
I am still here, and still would like to see if you would like to work things out. You do seem to have feelings for me, and I don't doubt that, but I need to know if this is gonna move forward.
You don't have to feel a lot of pressure in reading these words. Just ask yourself "how do I (Elizabeth) really feel"? Do you want to move it forward with me? It doesn't have to go fast, all I am asking - for now - is to know if you ever want to actually talk to me, and if so, when that will be. If you don't see it happening in the future, I need to know that.
I feel I've given a lot, with all of my writing for these three years, and I am just needing to know where I stand, in relation to Johan, et al, and your life in general.
If you want to work things out, I am right here. But as I asked the other day, please don't wait.
Tuesday, September 1, 2015
Hi (my life)
Hi, Elizabeth,
I saw your post, of I Prevail. I don't know if it has to do with me, but because you made it at around the same time as I posted "Tales From The Crypt" for my brother, and because of the expression on the guy's face in the I Prevail post, I thought maybe it was a reaction to my post. Don't know if I am right or not.
Your post, as so often happens, did not appear in my newsfeed, and I only saw it because I searched "posts Elizabeth likes". I don't know why that happens; I even have you on "close friends" with every possible "alert" button clicked to show your posts above all others, but still they often don't appear. It could be because of your own very strict privacy settings, but again, I don't know.
Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that I saw your I Prevail post, and if it was in response to me, that is good. Please know that I am not mad at you, and I will write more later tonight.
We do need to find a solution to the present problems, and I hope we can do that, and I think we can, if you want to.
Today is a little difficult for me because it marks 26 years of the night I nearly lost my life. That part doesn't bother me, believe it or not. It's the fact that it's never been acknowledged, and that is of course because that event was only part of something much larger, and it's the larger part that is the real reason for the secrecy. I will write a little bit about my feelings on the issue later on as well. Just please know for now that it's hard for me.
Perhaps because of my family experiences as an adolescent, or perhaps simply because of my personality, or maybe both of those things, I am a "fixer". I am a person who is always looking to mend things rather than throw them out. I am also an Aries, and thus incapable of holding a grudge. Read up on your astrology for more on that subject.
At any rate, I repeat that I am not mad, though I also must repeat that we need to find some solutions here, and as always with me, none of it needs to be a big overwrought emotional deal. When I get upset about something - which isn't often - my underlying feelings remain the same. I am not one of those people who attempt to "force" a false emotional shift inside myself, as in "so-and-so did such-and-such to me and now I hate them"! The best example I can give is my parents, who were very difficult to live with for many years. But beneath all the difficulty was love, and as I have said before, as a "fixer" I always prayed and wished for healing in my family, and in the last decade of their lives my prayers were answered, and I got my Real Parents back. The love that was always the bedrock of our family was as strong as ever, and was by then no longer overlaid with layers of emotional distortions. My folks were both sober and, even though they were separated by then, everyone was friendly and healthy and they became my best friends, whom I hung out with all the time.
So that's me, the fixer. I always want to fix things, and I can't hold a grudge because I'm an Aries. But sometimes I still need to find solutions to problems. That's how you fix things, after all.
I will write more later tonight.
:):)
12:05am : I am back. You don'tseem to be around this evening, but I'll write anyway, just a few random but hopefully cohesive thoughts.
The first thing is that, right now, I am dealing with two very stressful situations. I have been working for Pearl for 5 1/2 years, and up until last November it was fairly easy, and the daytime part still is. But nighttime is another story, and that is because Pearl, like many people who have some degree of dementia, has basically become nocturnal. For all intents and purposes, she'd prefer to stay awake at night and sleep during the daytime. It takes a lot of convincing even to get her to go to her bedroom at night, and when she does, it is most often reluctantly. Then, she tends to come back out to the living room every hour or two, and turn the lights and tv on. Each time I have to get up and attempt to restore the situation. If I am lucky, she sleeps all the way through the night perhaps twice a week. I'd say the average, though, is about once. Since last November, I probably average between 4 - 6 hours of sleep a night, and the only time I get a full night's sleep is on that one night per week when Pearl actually sleeps all night, or when I have days off and can sleep at home.
Okay, so the job is difficult at night, and I am long-term sleep deprived. Still, I can deal with it.
But things add up.
I have also been dealing, for 26 years now, with a situation that makes me wonder what my life is supposed to mean. I have never in my life heard of any situation, any story, that simply cannot be discussed. But it seems that What Happened In Northridge is indeed The Story That Cannot Be Discussed, or even acknowledged, and I just don't understand it. Even the most bizarre sounding Alien stories have been rumored, or mentioned outright.
For me, no such luck.
After I was kidnapped by my neighbor, which was only one of a series of events that occured overall, I was finally rescued by some men who were not police officers. I recently told as much to AFOSI, the Air Force Office of Special Investigations, in an FOIA request I sent to them in June. The men were not police officers or SWAT team, as one might expect in such a situation. There was a man in a suit, and there were a few who seemed to be soldiers, though not in traditional uniforms.
The man who kidnapped me was dealt with harshly.
After it was over, I was taken away in a helicopter.
Sounds totally crazy, right?
Except it isn't.
I was taken to a facility that is nowdays called a D.U.M.B., a deep underground military base. If you Google it, you will see that there are indeed such facilities. I believe the D.U.M.B. was at Edwards North Base, as it is called.
There are myriad details involved in this part of the story, which is just one event of many overall. But that is why I wrote to AFOSI after all these years, because of the military involvement in my rescue, and because of the D.U.M.B.
The man in the suit turned out to be a very famous and important man, and you already know who he is.
Sounds totally crazy, right? I must be either a nutcase or someone making up a story for some self-aggrandizing reason.
Except I'm not.
This is just something that happened to me. I have tried to make sense of it, and have spent years doing so. I wrote a rough draft of a book that is 800 pages long.
But no matter what I have done, no matter what agency I have written to, I get nothing. Even Roswell got a few mentions in the newspaper. What I got was my memory taken from me.
When my memories came back, beginning in 1993 and continuing through 1997, I was The Boy Who Kicked The Hornet's Nest. First I was disingenuously called crazy. Then people who know better just plain clammed up. This story scares the living shit out of them.
If you look at my reading list on FB, you will see a lot of "alternative" books on what are called all kinds of "conspiracy theories", as if such a thing - some evil plan - could never happen in the good old U.S of A. That kind of stuff only happens in Nazi Germany or the Soviet Union.
There are no such things as Underground Military Bases here in America.
Except that there are.
And for some reason, I was taken to one, in a helicopter after I was kidnapped by a man I didn't know. To this day I don't really understand who he was nor why he did what he did. It almost seems like it was some kind of experiment, because of the military aspect.
But then there is the question of the famous man involved, and the fact that it was all covered up, memories erased, and kept secret now for 26 years and counting. And seemingly unspeakable, unacknowledgeable.
Even Roswell was acknowledged. But not What Happened In Northridge.
I am the only person who has ever spoken of it, and I have done so at length, but no one will respond.
The government won't respond, and it makes me feel as if my life doesn't matter. It's as if I have been thrown in the trash. It's a horrible feeling.
I cannot be dismissed as a typical tin-foil hat "conspiracy theorist" because I am too articulate, and I have been telling the same exceedingly lengthy story, in exact detail, for 18 years now. I have even figured a great deal of it out, at least as to participation and motives of others.
I can tell a story that is not easy to ridicule. That is why no one will respond to me.
And so this is something that is also very stressful in my life, because again, it causes me to wonder what my life is supposed to mean.
What is this thing that happened in 1989? Why did it happen to me, or at least with me at the center?
No one will tell me, and not only that, no one has ever even said, "yes, Adam, this did indeed happen to you". No one has ever even said that. And so I have to live with it, alone, every single day of my life.
Once, in a phone call in late 1994, Lillian alluded to "soldiers", as a way - I believe - of giving me a hint and perhaps trying to jump start my memory. But then, shortly afterward, she turned on me and has not spoken to me since. I do not rule out that she herself - and possibly other participants - were threatened, or perhaps even made to sign non-disclosure security oaths.
They have such things, you know. Just ask AFOSI.
There are monsters in this world, people who are capable of just about anything, and some of them might be in a war against each other. They might even think of themselves as "good guys" and "bad guys", but from where I stand, I am not sure I can tell the difference. What I can tell you is that there are Secret Keepers here in the United States, and they are the people who are really running things. They are Federal, and Military, and they have technologies that you would see in a science-fiction movie.
For some reason, in September 1989 they involved me in a situation - or maybe just rescued me from that situation - and my life has never been the same since. Because I don't know why it happened.
And no one will tell me or even acknowledge to me that it happened, though many people know it did. ///
And so, Elizabeth, my Darling (and you are that), this is my life. I would like for it to be simple, and it can be.
You know how much I love simple things, like going on hikes, watching movies, reading books, just plain having fun.
But I don't have a lot of friends, and many things I do, I do by myself. Some of my friends were involved in What Happened In Northridge, and they will not talk about it. They just want to make small talk, and I have no interest in that.
I want to talk about reality, and this is not going to go away. The very fact that it is Federal and Military and top secret testifies to that fact. But I bear it on my shoulders alone, and it is extremely difficult.
Sometimes, I think I won't make it much further if something good doesn't happen. I have thought I won't make it to 60, because of the stress.
Other times, I feel as though I can live to 100 and beyond. That is because I am an optimistic Aries, and I have a great reserve of healing.
But this thing is not gonna go away until it's dealt with.
The Truth Has Got To Be Told, In It's Entirety.
Read "The Princess and The Pea" for an example of how an unpleasant truth can be deferred temporarlity.
The thing is, Elizabeth, this is my life, crazy as it sounds, and it is true, improbable as that sounds, and I am 55 and I wanna know in what direction my life is headed. When you get to be this age, time goes by much faster, and before I know it I'll be 65, and then 70. The people who have covered up what happened in 1989 aren't gonna help me, and I have no one but myself to rely on. But it gets lonely being me. I want to get married and I want to get married to someone who really wants to be with me.
I have never met someone who really wanted to be with me, all the time (minus the natural wanting to spend time outside a relationship with friends, ala "girls night out" or "guys night" or whatever).
For me, because my life has been what it has been, I could be with my wife and family nearly all the time, without the need for a lot of "small talk time" with friends and aquaintances.
I am 55, and I just wanna lock things down, and have a family, even if it's just me and my wife. And then I wanna spend time with my family, even if it's just me and my wife.
I don't have a lot of time anymore for small talk, or acquaintances, or especially dumb stuff.
I want to spend the remainder of my life in happy times, which can consist of doing almost anything (except Adam Sandler movies), and for me personally, in trying to learn about and understand what happened to me, and other people (including my Mom and Dad) in 1989. The Monsters cannot be allowed to win.
If you post "I Prevail", then that is apt; in the end, I will prevail, because this is my life. No one will cover it up or throw it in the trash.
I just need someone who really wants to be with me, is all.
Thanks for reading.
:):)
I saw your post, of I Prevail. I don't know if it has to do with me, but because you made it at around the same time as I posted "Tales From The Crypt" for my brother, and because of the expression on the guy's face in the I Prevail post, I thought maybe it was a reaction to my post. Don't know if I am right or not.
Your post, as so often happens, did not appear in my newsfeed, and I only saw it because I searched "posts Elizabeth likes". I don't know why that happens; I even have you on "close friends" with every possible "alert" button clicked to show your posts above all others, but still they often don't appear. It could be because of your own very strict privacy settings, but again, I don't know.
Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that I saw your I Prevail post, and if it was in response to me, that is good. Please know that I am not mad at you, and I will write more later tonight.
We do need to find a solution to the present problems, and I hope we can do that, and I think we can, if you want to.
Today is a little difficult for me because it marks 26 years of the night I nearly lost my life. That part doesn't bother me, believe it or not. It's the fact that it's never been acknowledged, and that is of course because that event was only part of something much larger, and it's the larger part that is the real reason for the secrecy. I will write a little bit about my feelings on the issue later on as well. Just please know for now that it's hard for me.
Perhaps because of my family experiences as an adolescent, or perhaps simply because of my personality, or maybe both of those things, I am a "fixer". I am a person who is always looking to mend things rather than throw them out. I am also an Aries, and thus incapable of holding a grudge. Read up on your astrology for more on that subject.
At any rate, I repeat that I am not mad, though I also must repeat that we need to find some solutions here, and as always with me, none of it needs to be a big overwrought emotional deal. When I get upset about something - which isn't often - my underlying feelings remain the same. I am not one of those people who attempt to "force" a false emotional shift inside myself, as in "so-and-so did such-and-such to me and now I hate them"! The best example I can give is my parents, who were very difficult to live with for many years. But beneath all the difficulty was love, and as I have said before, as a "fixer" I always prayed and wished for healing in my family, and in the last decade of their lives my prayers were answered, and I got my Real Parents back. The love that was always the bedrock of our family was as strong as ever, and was by then no longer overlaid with layers of emotional distortions. My folks were both sober and, even though they were separated by then, everyone was friendly and healthy and they became my best friends, whom I hung out with all the time.
So that's me, the fixer. I always want to fix things, and I can't hold a grudge because I'm an Aries. But sometimes I still need to find solutions to problems. That's how you fix things, after all.
I will write more later tonight.
:):)
12:05am : I am back. You don'tseem to be around this evening, but I'll write anyway, just a few random but hopefully cohesive thoughts.
The first thing is that, right now, I am dealing with two very stressful situations. I have been working for Pearl for 5 1/2 years, and up until last November it was fairly easy, and the daytime part still is. But nighttime is another story, and that is because Pearl, like many people who have some degree of dementia, has basically become nocturnal. For all intents and purposes, she'd prefer to stay awake at night and sleep during the daytime. It takes a lot of convincing even to get her to go to her bedroom at night, and when she does, it is most often reluctantly. Then, she tends to come back out to the living room every hour or two, and turn the lights and tv on. Each time I have to get up and attempt to restore the situation. If I am lucky, she sleeps all the way through the night perhaps twice a week. I'd say the average, though, is about once. Since last November, I probably average between 4 - 6 hours of sleep a night, and the only time I get a full night's sleep is on that one night per week when Pearl actually sleeps all night, or when I have days off and can sleep at home.
Okay, so the job is difficult at night, and I am long-term sleep deprived. Still, I can deal with it.
But things add up.
I have also been dealing, for 26 years now, with a situation that makes me wonder what my life is supposed to mean. I have never in my life heard of any situation, any story, that simply cannot be discussed. But it seems that What Happened In Northridge is indeed The Story That Cannot Be Discussed, or even acknowledged, and I just don't understand it. Even the most bizarre sounding Alien stories have been rumored, or mentioned outright.
For me, no such luck.
After I was kidnapped by my neighbor, which was only one of a series of events that occured overall, I was finally rescued by some men who were not police officers. I recently told as much to AFOSI, the Air Force Office of Special Investigations, in an FOIA request I sent to them in June. The men were not police officers or SWAT team, as one might expect in such a situation. There was a man in a suit, and there were a few who seemed to be soldiers, though not in traditional uniforms.
The man who kidnapped me was dealt with harshly.
After it was over, I was taken away in a helicopter.
Sounds totally crazy, right?
Except it isn't.
I was taken to a facility that is nowdays called a D.U.M.B., a deep underground military base. If you Google it, you will see that there are indeed such facilities. I believe the D.U.M.B. was at Edwards North Base, as it is called.
There are myriad details involved in this part of the story, which is just one event of many overall. But that is why I wrote to AFOSI after all these years, because of the military involvement in my rescue, and because of the D.U.M.B.
The man in the suit turned out to be a very famous and important man, and you already know who he is.
Sounds totally crazy, right? I must be either a nutcase or someone making up a story for some self-aggrandizing reason.
Except I'm not.
This is just something that happened to me. I have tried to make sense of it, and have spent years doing so. I wrote a rough draft of a book that is 800 pages long.
But no matter what I have done, no matter what agency I have written to, I get nothing. Even Roswell got a few mentions in the newspaper. What I got was my memory taken from me.
When my memories came back, beginning in 1993 and continuing through 1997, I was The Boy Who Kicked The Hornet's Nest. First I was disingenuously called crazy. Then people who know better just plain clammed up. This story scares the living shit out of them.
If you look at my reading list on FB, you will see a lot of "alternative" books on what are called all kinds of "conspiracy theories", as if such a thing - some evil plan - could never happen in the good old U.S of A. That kind of stuff only happens in Nazi Germany or the Soviet Union.
There are no such things as Underground Military Bases here in America.
Except that there are.
And for some reason, I was taken to one, in a helicopter after I was kidnapped by a man I didn't know. To this day I don't really understand who he was nor why he did what he did. It almost seems like it was some kind of experiment, because of the military aspect.
But then there is the question of the famous man involved, and the fact that it was all covered up, memories erased, and kept secret now for 26 years and counting. And seemingly unspeakable, unacknowledgeable.
Even Roswell was acknowledged. But not What Happened In Northridge.
I am the only person who has ever spoken of it, and I have done so at length, but no one will respond.
The government won't respond, and it makes me feel as if my life doesn't matter. It's as if I have been thrown in the trash. It's a horrible feeling.
I cannot be dismissed as a typical tin-foil hat "conspiracy theorist" because I am too articulate, and I have been telling the same exceedingly lengthy story, in exact detail, for 18 years now. I have even figured a great deal of it out, at least as to participation and motives of others.
I can tell a story that is not easy to ridicule. That is why no one will respond to me.
And so this is something that is also very stressful in my life, because again, it causes me to wonder what my life is supposed to mean.
What is this thing that happened in 1989? Why did it happen to me, or at least with me at the center?
No one will tell me, and not only that, no one has ever even said, "yes, Adam, this did indeed happen to you". No one has ever even said that. And so I have to live with it, alone, every single day of my life.
Once, in a phone call in late 1994, Lillian alluded to "soldiers", as a way - I believe - of giving me a hint and perhaps trying to jump start my memory. But then, shortly afterward, she turned on me and has not spoken to me since. I do not rule out that she herself - and possibly other participants - were threatened, or perhaps even made to sign non-disclosure security oaths.
They have such things, you know. Just ask AFOSI.
There are monsters in this world, people who are capable of just about anything, and some of them might be in a war against each other. They might even think of themselves as "good guys" and "bad guys", but from where I stand, I am not sure I can tell the difference. What I can tell you is that there are Secret Keepers here in the United States, and they are the people who are really running things. They are Federal, and Military, and they have technologies that you would see in a science-fiction movie.
For some reason, in September 1989 they involved me in a situation - or maybe just rescued me from that situation - and my life has never been the same since. Because I don't know why it happened.
And no one will tell me or even acknowledge to me that it happened, though many people know it did. ///
And so, Elizabeth, my Darling (and you are that), this is my life. I would like for it to be simple, and it can be.
You know how much I love simple things, like going on hikes, watching movies, reading books, just plain having fun.
But I don't have a lot of friends, and many things I do, I do by myself. Some of my friends were involved in What Happened In Northridge, and they will not talk about it. They just want to make small talk, and I have no interest in that.
I want to talk about reality, and this is not going to go away. The very fact that it is Federal and Military and top secret testifies to that fact. But I bear it on my shoulders alone, and it is extremely difficult.
Sometimes, I think I won't make it much further if something good doesn't happen. I have thought I won't make it to 60, because of the stress.
Other times, I feel as though I can live to 100 and beyond. That is because I am an optimistic Aries, and I have a great reserve of healing.
But this thing is not gonna go away until it's dealt with.
The Truth Has Got To Be Told, In It's Entirety.
Read "The Princess and The Pea" for an example of how an unpleasant truth can be deferred temporarlity.
The thing is, Elizabeth, this is my life, crazy as it sounds, and it is true, improbable as that sounds, and I am 55 and I wanna know in what direction my life is headed. When you get to be this age, time goes by much faster, and before I know it I'll be 65, and then 70. The people who have covered up what happened in 1989 aren't gonna help me, and I have no one but myself to rely on. But it gets lonely being me. I want to get married and I want to get married to someone who really wants to be with me.
I have never met someone who really wanted to be with me, all the time (minus the natural wanting to spend time outside a relationship with friends, ala "girls night out" or "guys night" or whatever).
For me, because my life has been what it has been, I could be with my wife and family nearly all the time, without the need for a lot of "small talk time" with friends and aquaintances.
I am 55, and I just wanna lock things down, and have a family, even if it's just me and my wife. And then I wanna spend time with my family, even if it's just me and my wife.
I don't have a lot of time anymore for small talk, or acquaintances, or especially dumb stuff.
I want to spend the remainder of my life in happy times, which can consist of doing almost anything (except Adam Sandler movies), and for me personally, in trying to learn about and understand what happened to me, and other people (including my Mom and Dad) in 1989. The Monsters cannot be allowed to win.
If you post "I Prevail", then that is apt; in the end, I will prevail, because this is my life. No one will cover it up or throw it in the trash.
I just need someone who really wants to be with me, is all.
Thanks for reading.
:):)
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