Good Morning, my Darling,
Happy Friday, too. I am back at home and will just be hanging out until it's time to go back to Pearl's. Lots of water today, all through tomorrow. It's nothing compared to what you guys go through, not even close, but we do get some mudslides in the mountain areas because of the fires, which burn off all the vegetation. So I'm just gonna hang out, read and watch the news and see how things are going. I am thinking about you and with you all day long, and I Love You with all my heart.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
11:05pm : Listening to various Chopin pieces and winding down. I will catch up on my sleep tonight, at least a little bit. They say we will get a break in the rain possibly tomorrow afternoon, but we sure have gotten a lot of it in a short time. I just hung out today. My eyes are a little sore, probably from being up late, but I will be glad to get my glasses in a couple weeks, cause I think the soreness is also from eye strain. Anyhow....
I saw your post, and the guy on the right, Neil Degrasse Tyson, is one of my new favorite speakers on space. I haven't read any of his books yet cause I just discovered him on PBS, at Pearl's. But I think he worked under or at least knew Carl Sagan, who to me was one of the most all-around intelligent men in recent history. Tyson has the same ability to articulate his subject.
When I was a kid, there was a great astronomer and author named Robert Jastrow, who wrote a bestseller called "Red Giants and White Dwarves". I still have my copy of that book. I am glad you like these subjects.
Well, onward and upward as they say. Daylight savings will soon be upon us.
I will see you in the morning and will wish us both sweet dreams so we can dream together.
I Love You, Elizabeth, all day every day.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Friday, February 28, 2014
Thursday, February 27, 2014
Love In The Afternoon (to see KX, and then back with my Baby) (I'm Home)
Good Afternoon, Sweet Baby,
A quick note, in between stops (hair salon, etc.) to see how you are doing and tell you that I Love You. I am gonna be leaving for the KX show at 7:30, so I will check in before I go and then again late night, upon returning. Grimsley is gonna come with this time. I am guessing they will go on about 11ish and play til 12:30, which means it will be almost 2am by the time I drop Grim off and get home myself. You will of course be asleep, so I will send love and watch over you.
Well, I am off to the local Sprouts market to pick up my Supergreens drink powder. Supposed to be good for ya, so I've been trying it since December........
I'll be back before I go. I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7pm: Hi, my Beautiful Angel. I am gonna leave for the concert in a few minutes, so I wanted to say hi again. I hope your day was good and that you are enjoying your evening. King's X posted earlier on FB that they are gonna go on at 10:10pm, so if they adhere to that it will be great. It means I can get home in the 1am range. Now, most clubs are not known for keeping a tight performance schedule, so I'm keeping my fingers crossed. Anyway, it will be good to see the guys, and then it will be good to get home and say goodnight to you, even though you will be asleep. I'll whisper it to you.
I Love You and I will see you in just a little while. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
1am : I'm home, my Darling. It was a fantastic show, probably the best I've ever seen 'em. I was right up front and in the center, as always, so I had the "living room" vantage point once again. Anyhow, I am gonna post this right away just to let you know I'm back, and then I'll write more in a few minutes, after I eat something and get settled. I Love You, Elizabeth!
2am : I am sorta deaf now, and getting ready for sleep. Tomorrow I will be a little bit toast, but it's a Friday with no appointments, so I will come home and rest. This band has meant so much to me, for such a long time. They have been like a soundtrack to my life, really, since just before you were born (you were born at a great time, I think I mentioned that, right when the Clinton years began, early 90s). King's X was projected to make it really big back then. It didn't work out that way, but they made a string of albums that will stand the test of time, so great is the music. It is heartening to see bands playing into their 50s, 60s and even 70s, in many cases. Ty, Doug and Jerry of King's X, playing better than they ever have.
I will see you in the morn, my Baby, in just a few hours.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxox :):)
A quick note, in between stops (hair salon, etc.) to see how you are doing and tell you that I Love You. I am gonna be leaving for the KX show at 7:30, so I will check in before I go and then again late night, upon returning. Grimsley is gonna come with this time. I am guessing they will go on about 11ish and play til 12:30, which means it will be almost 2am by the time I drop Grim off and get home myself. You will of course be asleep, so I will send love and watch over you.
Well, I am off to the local Sprouts market to pick up my Supergreens drink powder. Supposed to be good for ya, so I've been trying it since December........
I'll be back before I go. I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7pm: Hi, my Beautiful Angel. I am gonna leave for the concert in a few minutes, so I wanted to say hi again. I hope your day was good and that you are enjoying your evening. King's X posted earlier on FB that they are gonna go on at 10:10pm, so if they adhere to that it will be great. It means I can get home in the 1am range. Now, most clubs are not known for keeping a tight performance schedule, so I'm keeping my fingers crossed. Anyway, it will be good to see the guys, and then it will be good to get home and say goodnight to you, even though you will be asleep. I'll whisper it to you.
I Love You and I will see you in just a little while. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
1am : I'm home, my Darling. It was a fantastic show, probably the best I've ever seen 'em. I was right up front and in the center, as always, so I had the "living room" vantage point once again. Anyhow, I am gonna post this right away just to let you know I'm back, and then I'll write more in a few minutes, after I eat something and get settled. I Love You, Elizabeth!
2am : I am sorta deaf now, and getting ready for sleep. Tomorrow I will be a little bit toast, but it's a Friday with no appointments, so I will come home and rest. This band has meant so much to me, for such a long time. They have been like a soundtrack to my life, really, since just before you were born (you were born at a great time, I think I mentioned that, right when the Clinton years began, early 90s). King's X was projected to make it really big back then. It didn't work out that way, but they made a string of albums that will stand the test of time, so great is the music. It is heartening to see bands playing into their 50s, 60s and even 70s, in many cases. Ty, Doug and Jerry of King's X, playing better than they ever have.
I will see you in the morn, my Baby, in just a few hours.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxox :):)
Wednesday, February 26, 2014
Love From Home On Wednesday Night (movie & rain)
Hi my Angel,
I'm home from Pearl's. Just another back and forth day, nothing major. I'm thinking about you and hope your day was good. I know the temps have gone back down again, but I hope you are still able to get outside at least a little and do some stuff, maybe take pictures too. I know it can't be easy, but it won't last forever.
We are actually supposed to have a three-day rainstorm here, something not seen for a while, and we really need the water. I have a movie from Redbox, "Nebraska", so I am gonna watch it right now, then take a chance on my walk afterwards. I think the rain is supposed to come later, around midnight.
Thinking about you all the time, and I will write more later. I Love You, Elizabeth!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
11:05pm : I did get my walk in, with a little bit of rain, but not too bad. It's supposed to pour tomorrow. I am gonna be going to see King's X tomorrow night, and that is something that I wouldn't do for too many bands nowdays - drive all the way down to Hermosa Beach in what is supposed to be a downpour, and then sit through a couple of local bands beforehand. But, it's King's X, and they haven't played L.A. in five years, and Doug is gonna be 64 this year, so you never know how many more times you can see them. Besides that, they are great live. So I will go, long drive, late night and rain be damned.
"Nebraska" was good. If you've ever seen an Alexander Payne film, you know what you're getting; kind of a poignant, light-hearted irony. In this case, more poignant than ironic. Great performance by Bruce Dern. He's probably got the Oscar locked up (although Hanks and Robert Redford were great, too). I must say that, though the Dern character was more addled and taciturn, some scenes did remind me of dealing with my own Dad, when he was in the later years of his life. I guess many could say that. It's a great performance, though low key, with not a lot of drama. The film was shot in black and white, bringing out the bleakness of the ancient looking small towns.
Well, my Darling, I will listen to some more Chopin and then drift off to sleep. I will imagine you in my arms.
I Love You and can't wait to be with you. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I'm home from Pearl's. Just another back and forth day, nothing major. I'm thinking about you and hope your day was good. I know the temps have gone back down again, but I hope you are still able to get outside at least a little and do some stuff, maybe take pictures too. I know it can't be easy, but it won't last forever.
We are actually supposed to have a three-day rainstorm here, something not seen for a while, and we really need the water. I have a movie from Redbox, "Nebraska", so I am gonna watch it right now, then take a chance on my walk afterwards. I think the rain is supposed to come later, around midnight.
Thinking about you all the time, and I will write more later. I Love You, Elizabeth!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
11:05pm : I did get my walk in, with a little bit of rain, but not too bad. It's supposed to pour tomorrow. I am gonna be going to see King's X tomorrow night, and that is something that I wouldn't do for too many bands nowdays - drive all the way down to Hermosa Beach in what is supposed to be a downpour, and then sit through a couple of local bands beforehand. But, it's King's X, and they haven't played L.A. in five years, and Doug is gonna be 64 this year, so you never know how many more times you can see them. Besides that, they are great live. So I will go, long drive, late night and rain be damned.
"Nebraska" was good. If you've ever seen an Alexander Payne film, you know what you're getting; kind of a poignant, light-hearted irony. In this case, more poignant than ironic. Great performance by Bruce Dern. He's probably got the Oscar locked up (although Hanks and Robert Redford were great, too). I must say that, though the Dern character was more addled and taciturn, some scenes did remind me of dealing with my own Dad, when he was in the later years of his life. I guess many could say that. It's a great performance, though low key, with not a lot of drama. The film was shot in black and white, bringing out the bleakness of the ancient looking small towns.
Well, my Darling, I will listen to some more Chopin and then drift off to sleep. I will imagine you in my arms.
I Love You and can't wait to be with you. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
From Desert Plains..... :):) (I Love You)
Good Morning, my Darling,
I'm on a short break before Golden Agers, so I wanted to wish you a wonderful day and tell you that I Love You. I like the Alcest poster, very reminiscent of the classic rock posters of the late 1960s, and similar to paisley design patterns. I had paisley shirts as a kid, and I say bring back that style! I still think Alcest will make another North American run now that the album is out. Sometime this year, maybe late Summer after the European festivals are over.
Hey, I just thought of something, since we've been talking about drawing and art, and that poster of the beautiful peacock has patterns that for some reason reminded me of a Spirograph. Do they still make those? A Spirograph was like a gyroscopic pen set-up, using colored pens. It made all kinds of cool patterns.
I'll add it to my list of stuff I need.
I will be on a typical Tuesday afternoon schedule, back and forth to Pearl's church, with a few stops in between to the Libe and store. I'll be at home also, in between.
I hope you are having a great morning, and in the words of Judas Priest,
From desert plains I bring you love! (Well, sort of. I mean I'm in the Valley, but kinda close to Mojave.....)
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:05pm : I see you are still awake, and I like the picture of the nice couple. That's an interesting photo, because I'd guess that they're in New Orleans French Quarter, but then there are the flags in the background. Maybe it's a different city? But I'm stickin' with Nawlins.......
The important part is the togetherness. In life, there is no substitute for it. You can be sitting on the couch together, just eating popcorn and watching a movie, or you can be having an adventure in a new city, seeing all kinds of new sights, and the feeling is the same.
I can feel that feeling all the way from here, and Elizabeth, that is the mark of a couple.
That comfortable feeling.
You and I both have so much of that inner feeling, like a reservoir. We have so much to draw from.
The mark of happy people is that fullness, a satisfaction that is quiet and constant, like a drip feeder.
We have it.
And it won't be long until you and I are together, in person, and we will be the couple in the picture.
And the cool thing is, we already have the happiness built in. We love each other, and we are ready for anything.
Sweet Dreams, my Angel. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I'm on a short break before Golden Agers, so I wanted to wish you a wonderful day and tell you that I Love You. I like the Alcest poster, very reminiscent of the classic rock posters of the late 1960s, and similar to paisley design patterns. I had paisley shirts as a kid, and I say bring back that style! I still think Alcest will make another North American run now that the album is out. Sometime this year, maybe late Summer after the European festivals are over.
Hey, I just thought of something, since we've been talking about drawing and art, and that poster of the beautiful peacock has patterns that for some reason reminded me of a Spirograph. Do they still make those? A Spirograph was like a gyroscopic pen set-up, using colored pens. It made all kinds of cool patterns.
I'll add it to my list of stuff I need.
I will be on a typical Tuesday afternoon schedule, back and forth to Pearl's church, with a few stops in between to the Libe and store. I'll be at home also, in between.
I hope you are having a great morning, and in the words of Judas Priest,
From desert plains I bring you love! (Well, sort of. I mean I'm in the Valley, but kinda close to Mojave.....)
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:05pm : I see you are still awake, and I like the picture of the nice couple. That's an interesting photo, because I'd guess that they're in New Orleans French Quarter, but then there are the flags in the background. Maybe it's a different city? But I'm stickin' with Nawlins.......
The important part is the togetherness. In life, there is no substitute for it. You can be sitting on the couch together, just eating popcorn and watching a movie, or you can be having an adventure in a new city, seeing all kinds of new sights, and the feeling is the same.
I can feel that feeling all the way from here, and Elizabeth, that is the mark of a couple.
That comfortable feeling.
You and I both have so much of that inner feeling, like a reservoir. We have so much to draw from.
The mark of happy people is that fullness, a satisfaction that is quiet and constant, like a drip feeder.
We have it.
And it won't be long until you and I are together, in person, and we will be the couple in the picture.
And the cool thing is, we already have the happiness built in. We love each other, and we are ready for anything.
Sweet Dreams, my Angel. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Monday, February 24, 2014
Couples (and one in particular) :):) (myths)
I am home, my Beautiful Darling. I love your posts of the couples, they all look happy and they look like nice people, too. And, of course I know what they represent, and we are a couple and we are happy, too (and, we are nice people!). It is wonderful to love you, Elizabeth, and wonderful to know that you love me. Of course, I can feel it, too. :):)
Today was a slow news day. Just to Pearl's and back, morning and afternoon. Reading and guitar in between. I was a little tired all afternoon. Don't know why. Probably a biorhythm thing, or maybe because the Sun just entered Pisces. I'm feeling good now, though. That was such an awesome movie last night that I am gonna do a little Googling and Amazoning to see if I can find any other undiscovered WW2 flicks from the 50s and 60s, the classic era for those movies. I love finding movies I didn't know about!
So, I'll be around all evening except for walk time, and I will of course write more later.
P.S. That is one trippy looking tattoo, the 3D one. I know people like to say their tattoos are art, but that one really is. Pretty far out.......
"Hey World"!
"Yeah, Ad? What's up"?
"I Love my Baby"!!
(deafening applause, all around the Globe)
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:25pm : Listening to Erik Satie. This pianist, an unfamiliar name, adds a few extra notes to the famous first Gnossienne which gives it a different twist. I like it, and I like the tone and tempo. Satie was a hypnotist of the piano, another example of what can be done with few notes.
Nothing cosmic to relate tonight, although I am interested in the way the ancient creation myths of various cultures, some written down and some passed down through oral tradition, all seem to tell a similar story, of a time when "gods" (meaning physical beings with superior powers, as opposed to the concept of omnipotent God) lived on the Earth. All myths tell of a Flood, many tell of a battle between the gods.
It's amazing to think what might have taken place on Earth, perhaps tens or hundreds of thousands of years ago. Modern science and anthropology won't touch the subject, because it would really upset the apple cart of the world power structure. But it's still interesting that all of the so-called "primitive" peoples of yore have these mythical tales, and they all have the same threads, of a Flood and other calamities.
And it is interesting that we, in modern society, are living in a 24/7 society with a "news cycle turnaround" and all these various systems to keep us busy.
One thing to note is that I don't continually harp on this stuff to complain about it or to criticize the systems that are in place in the world. What I do is to analyze what I read about and learn, and then use it to rise above the systems to see the big picture, much like you could see a bigger landscape if you were way up high in a balloon. Then, if you had been told the world was flat, you could see for yourself that it was round.
I think it must be quite a waste for intelligent people to study Egyptology, say, or archaeology, or any other study of ancient history, and then to be conformed into the dogmas of those studies; i.e., the formed opinions of the findings by strictly dogmatic (meaning systematic and closed-minded) professors who have headed up these scientific disciplines over the centuries.
I mean, you have the Great Pyramid at Giza, and somebody decided that it was a burial tomb, and that's all. And "end of story". And it's the same in so many other facets of these sciences, because of dogma.
It's no different than closed minded religious dogma.
Anyhow, I'll get off my soapbox! Again, I write about this stuff to share, not to complain. I'm not even interested in the surface-level findings of these subjects, because they relegate all the stories of ancient peoples to "myth", meaning something that didn't really happen. Apochryphal stories in other words.
I just think if we had a real history of the Earth, and the various types of "people" who have lived on it, and the calamities that have been visited upon it, and most importantly, an accurate timetable for all of this, that we might be able to move forward in a more focused and intelligent fashion, as a world society.
And eventually, we might see that we don't have to move forward at all, because we don't need to "advance" or to go anywhere. Those are meaningless concepts. This Earth is our home, and it has it's natural cycles that we can live by. It's a pretty good place, and we have God's help to live here.
As long as we know who we really are, our real history.
That's all I know for tonight (and I don't know much, but I'm trying.....;)
I Love You, my Angel. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Today was a slow news day. Just to Pearl's and back, morning and afternoon. Reading and guitar in between. I was a little tired all afternoon. Don't know why. Probably a biorhythm thing, or maybe because the Sun just entered Pisces. I'm feeling good now, though. That was such an awesome movie last night that I am gonna do a little Googling and Amazoning to see if I can find any other undiscovered WW2 flicks from the 50s and 60s, the classic era for those movies. I love finding movies I didn't know about!
So, I'll be around all evening except for walk time, and I will of course write more later.
P.S. That is one trippy looking tattoo, the 3D one. I know people like to say their tattoos are art, but that one really is. Pretty far out.......
"Hey World"!
"Yeah, Ad? What's up"?
"I Love my Baby"!!
(deafening applause, all around the Globe)
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:25pm : Listening to Erik Satie. This pianist, an unfamiliar name, adds a few extra notes to the famous first Gnossienne which gives it a different twist. I like it, and I like the tone and tempo. Satie was a hypnotist of the piano, another example of what can be done with few notes.
Nothing cosmic to relate tonight, although I am interested in the way the ancient creation myths of various cultures, some written down and some passed down through oral tradition, all seem to tell a similar story, of a time when "gods" (meaning physical beings with superior powers, as opposed to the concept of omnipotent God) lived on the Earth. All myths tell of a Flood, many tell of a battle between the gods.
It's amazing to think what might have taken place on Earth, perhaps tens or hundreds of thousands of years ago. Modern science and anthropology won't touch the subject, because it would really upset the apple cart of the world power structure. But it's still interesting that all of the so-called "primitive" peoples of yore have these mythical tales, and they all have the same threads, of a Flood and other calamities.
And it is interesting that we, in modern society, are living in a 24/7 society with a "news cycle turnaround" and all these various systems to keep us busy.
One thing to note is that I don't continually harp on this stuff to complain about it or to criticize the systems that are in place in the world. What I do is to analyze what I read about and learn, and then use it to rise above the systems to see the big picture, much like you could see a bigger landscape if you were way up high in a balloon. Then, if you had been told the world was flat, you could see for yourself that it was round.
I think it must be quite a waste for intelligent people to study Egyptology, say, or archaeology, or any other study of ancient history, and then to be conformed into the dogmas of those studies; i.e., the formed opinions of the findings by strictly dogmatic (meaning systematic and closed-minded) professors who have headed up these scientific disciplines over the centuries.
I mean, you have the Great Pyramid at Giza, and somebody decided that it was a burial tomb, and that's all. And "end of story". And it's the same in so many other facets of these sciences, because of dogma.
It's no different than closed minded religious dogma.
Anyhow, I'll get off my soapbox! Again, I write about this stuff to share, not to complain. I'm not even interested in the surface-level findings of these subjects, because they relegate all the stories of ancient peoples to "myth", meaning something that didn't really happen. Apochryphal stories in other words.
I just think if we had a real history of the Earth, and the various types of "people" who have lived on it, and the calamities that have been visited upon it, and most importantly, an accurate timetable for all of this, that we might be able to move forward in a more focused and intelligent fashion, as a world society.
And eventually, we might see that we don't have to move forward at all, because we don't need to "advance" or to go anywhere. Those are meaningless concepts. This Earth is our home, and it has it's natural cycles that we can live by. It's a pretty good place, and we have God's help to live here.
As long as we know who we really are, our real history.
That's all I know for tonight (and I don't know much, but I'm trying.....;)
I Love You, my Angel. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Sunday, February 23, 2014
Train Trip For Two, Coming Up! (geometries)
Happy Sunday Afternoon, my Beautiful Angel,
I've been back n' forth, to Pearl's church, to CSUN with the Good Boy, to the 99 Cent Store for odds and ends, and to Home Depot for tomato food. Gonna try for an excellent crop of tomatoes this year. I hope your day has been good. I saw your posts, and I thought maybe you might be doing some drawing yourself, or maybe drawing while listening to music (Arkona). I have missed drawing, myself, and I'm reminded of it every time I see my oversized clipboard that sits gathering dust in front of my chest-of-drawers. A while back, I was meaning to get me a box of those colored pencils you mentioned, the fancy ones, so now I will remember to do that. I am not a good representative drawer, or whatever you call it. I mean, I can't draw a good picture of a person, and I'm not good at perspective or anything like that. But I still love to draw intuitively. And painting, too! But I'd need a bigger living space for that. :)
As for trains, well.............that would be a blast. I think it would be incredible to take a cross country trip by train, to see all the unseen parts of America, the "back areas". To draw and take pictures along the way.
Plus : Trains are super romantic. :):)
Here in Southern California, a couple of awesome day trips by train would be either south to San Diego or north to Santa Barbara or San Louis Obispo. Leave in the morn, have an awesome day at the destination, come back later that night. Or stay at a hotel and make it a two day trip........
Your last post, a little while ago, is apt when taken literally, at face value (the Corporate America fairy tale), but it also reminded me of late nights, when I am writing to you. I hope it's okay if I thought of it that way! :):)
Now I am gonna straighten up the Padski a bit, and hang out till about 3:30. Then I will do the afternoon part of my walk before heading back to Pearl's.
We need to take a train trip, so think of one and we will go.
I Love You, Elizabeth! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit, continue having an awesome day in the meantime)
11:15pm : I saw your post just now, so I guess you're still awake. I don't know if you were alluding to triangles being your favorite shape, or to the photo itself, but I am reading all about pyramids and all kinds of other spatial geometries.......and you know I could go on and on about that, lol. It would be awesome to have a conversation about this stuff.
I finished my walk a few minutes ago. When I got home from Pearl's, I watched a movie I got from Amazon, called "Decision Before Dawn". It's a World War Two movie shot on location in Munich, Germany and the surrounding countryside, and at that point in time, the extensive ruins of the war were still standing. These ruins were used as locations throughout the film, and it is sobering to see. I was drilled on WW2 as a kid, by my Dad (as you know), and so I have a fascination for the subject. But I also think it is a war that has affected the world to this day. Europe has never really recovered from it. Economically, yes, politically no.
At any rate, if you meant the geometry of triangles, it is amazing to study (and learn from) the way in which different geometries effect energies. If you look at the Universe, it is also interesting to note the large and small scales of things. In the Universe there are enormous, spinning bodies (stars, galaxies, planets) and less than microscopic, spinning bodies (atoms. particles). They all emit waves of energy, in various strengths and forms (some are neutral), but what makes reality, i.e. the world we see and live in, is the way the geometries that are created by the positioning of these planets and other bodies in local space, act to create spin energy frequencies and waves of gravity that work on our bodies and affect our lives.
It is interesting that inside, we feel like Spirits - and we are. In essense, anyway.
But as humans, we are living in bodies that are affected by gravity and the local spatial geometries created by spin energy at large and small levels.
So it is very, very interesting to look up at the stars, or think of the solar system, and imagine these geometric compartments between them, and the boundaries or walls of energy that are in place, the different densities, etc.
And it is then even further more interesting to consider how our human lives are impacted by this, and why humans behave as they do, why historical patterns are repeated (wars, politics) for millenia. We are living in human bodies, and yet we know we are also Souls, and so we are also living simultaneously outside our bodies. And that foremost part of Ourselves has the Supreme Ability to interact coherantly and harmonically within the geometric spaces we live in, and to utilize those geometries to our advantage.
Next time you go out at night, look up at the stars and notice how close they look in the bowl of the sky. Your eye and mind perceive them as relatively close. And when you look up, and see their patterns, you can feel a relay, between those bodies, and your Soul, and your body. Triangles, the basis of geometry, are relay systems. Energy shoots from you, to the stars, back to your mind, and passes through your soul in the process. It's an energy/frequency/harmonic relay.
So that's all I know for tonight. I know I am way out there, but it's interesting to me.
And, I thought maybe you meant triangle energy, geometric and shapewise.
I Love You, my Angel, and will see you in the morning.
One day we will have incredible talks about stuff.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I've been back n' forth, to Pearl's church, to CSUN with the Good Boy, to the 99 Cent Store for odds and ends, and to Home Depot for tomato food. Gonna try for an excellent crop of tomatoes this year. I hope your day has been good. I saw your posts, and I thought maybe you might be doing some drawing yourself, or maybe drawing while listening to music (Arkona). I have missed drawing, myself, and I'm reminded of it every time I see my oversized clipboard that sits gathering dust in front of my chest-of-drawers. A while back, I was meaning to get me a box of those colored pencils you mentioned, the fancy ones, so now I will remember to do that. I am not a good representative drawer, or whatever you call it. I mean, I can't draw a good picture of a person, and I'm not good at perspective or anything like that. But I still love to draw intuitively. And painting, too! But I'd need a bigger living space for that. :)
As for trains, well.............that would be a blast. I think it would be incredible to take a cross country trip by train, to see all the unseen parts of America, the "back areas". To draw and take pictures along the way.
Plus : Trains are super romantic. :):)
Here in Southern California, a couple of awesome day trips by train would be either south to San Diego or north to Santa Barbara or San Louis Obispo. Leave in the morn, have an awesome day at the destination, come back later that night. Or stay at a hotel and make it a two day trip........
Your last post, a little while ago, is apt when taken literally, at face value (the Corporate America fairy tale), but it also reminded me of late nights, when I am writing to you. I hope it's okay if I thought of it that way! :):)
Now I am gonna straighten up the Padski a bit, and hang out till about 3:30. Then I will do the afternoon part of my walk before heading back to Pearl's.
We need to take a train trip, so think of one and we will go.
I Love You, Elizabeth! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit, continue having an awesome day in the meantime)
11:15pm : I saw your post just now, so I guess you're still awake. I don't know if you were alluding to triangles being your favorite shape, or to the photo itself, but I am reading all about pyramids and all kinds of other spatial geometries.......and you know I could go on and on about that, lol. It would be awesome to have a conversation about this stuff.
I finished my walk a few minutes ago. When I got home from Pearl's, I watched a movie I got from Amazon, called "Decision Before Dawn". It's a World War Two movie shot on location in Munich, Germany and the surrounding countryside, and at that point in time, the extensive ruins of the war were still standing. These ruins were used as locations throughout the film, and it is sobering to see. I was drilled on WW2 as a kid, by my Dad (as you know), and so I have a fascination for the subject. But I also think it is a war that has affected the world to this day. Europe has never really recovered from it. Economically, yes, politically no.
At any rate, if you meant the geometry of triangles, it is amazing to study (and learn from) the way in which different geometries effect energies. If you look at the Universe, it is also interesting to note the large and small scales of things. In the Universe there are enormous, spinning bodies (stars, galaxies, planets) and less than microscopic, spinning bodies (atoms. particles). They all emit waves of energy, in various strengths and forms (some are neutral), but what makes reality, i.e. the world we see and live in, is the way the geometries that are created by the positioning of these planets and other bodies in local space, act to create spin energy frequencies and waves of gravity that work on our bodies and affect our lives.
It is interesting that inside, we feel like Spirits - and we are. In essense, anyway.
But as humans, we are living in bodies that are affected by gravity and the local spatial geometries created by spin energy at large and small levels.
So it is very, very interesting to look up at the stars, or think of the solar system, and imagine these geometric compartments between them, and the boundaries or walls of energy that are in place, the different densities, etc.
And it is then even further more interesting to consider how our human lives are impacted by this, and why humans behave as they do, why historical patterns are repeated (wars, politics) for millenia. We are living in human bodies, and yet we know we are also Souls, and so we are also living simultaneously outside our bodies. And that foremost part of Ourselves has the Supreme Ability to interact coherantly and harmonically within the geometric spaces we live in, and to utilize those geometries to our advantage.
Next time you go out at night, look up at the stars and notice how close they look in the bowl of the sky. Your eye and mind perceive them as relatively close. And when you look up, and see their patterns, you can feel a relay, between those bodies, and your Soul, and your body. Triangles, the basis of geometry, are relay systems. Energy shoots from you, to the stars, back to your mind, and passes through your soul in the process. It's an energy/frequency/harmonic relay.
So that's all I know for tonight. I know I am way out there, but it's interesting to me.
And, I thought maybe you meant triangle energy, geometric and shapewise.
I Love You, my Angel, and will see you in the morning.
One day we will have incredible talks about stuff.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Saturday, February 22, 2014
Saturday Evening Love (The Tablet Of Destinies)
Good Evening, my Baby,
I'm just hanging out at home. Today was shopping with my sister for most of the afternoon, then to Pearl's and now back. Nothing fancy. But, I just wanted to check in to say hi. I hope your day was good. I'll write more later, after my walk. I Love You.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:25pm : I've been reading about the Mesopotamian myth of the battle between the gods Ninurta and Anzu, over something called The Tablet Of Destinies. It is fascinating because this Tablet, whatever it was (and it was probably much more than a simple tablet) had as it's main components, various stones that corresponded harmonically to the same frequencies of various planets and stars, and thus the Tablet - a piece of technology - was, in part, a celestial communications device. It was also a weapon, and that is the main part of the myth, but I am interested in the communications harmonics. I know you like rocks, and you know about the Singing Bowl and things like that, and it is fascinating that various rocks (or stones) have, contained in their matter, harmonic energy signatures that correspond with the planets and/or places in the Universe from which they originated.
The idea that energy signatures are contained "in macro", like fractals in nature, inside rare stones, would explain the possibility of transferring the harmonic wavelength from stone to Original Source (planet, star) and back to the User, as a generator of all kinds of energy inside the body and soul of the User.
I am reading about a concept called Makanthropolis, in which the Greeks (a few of them, anyway) got really far out there, and saw the Universe as a macrocosmal replica of frequencies, with humans in the middle as Controllers, or having the ability to manipulate those frequencies, because humans possess emotion, the ability to sense, to feel. To sense differentiation, or differences.
The Greeks thought that humans had all these differences in frequency inside themselves, in their souls and bodies, and as such, they were a microcosm of the physical frequencies that were taking place in the Universe. It is possible that they (humans) were absorbing all of this and were repositories of these Universal frequencies, at a subtle level. That is what Astrology is all about.
But because we possess emotion - which is the ability to feel these frequencies (in all their various forms, especially as we interact with others) - we also have the opportunity to control the various waves that interact our bodies and therefore our lives.
We can do this through the control of resonance, and that made me think of you, and your collection of stones and rocks, and the Singing Bowl. Those things actually correspond with larger forces in the Universe with which they share a harmonic signature.
But the amazing part is that the User, the one who is meditating on this force, through the stones, is the controller of the forces indicated, because of the human capacity for emotion.
This is a subject I could go on and on about, because it's astonishing, but for tonight I will leave it where it is. I hope it made reasonable sense. I know if I talked it rather than typed it, I could explain what I mean even better.
In any case, it's an amazing concept : that the energies and frequencies of creation are contained in macro and micro formations (planets down to small rocks and atoms), and that those energies can be controlled and used by a human, who acts as a medium of communication. And this is possible because of the phenomenon of emotion, which at it heart is the ability to analyse and control feeling.
That's all I know for tonight, my Darling. A big tangent for sure, but I wanted to share my thoughts on the subject, even if it doesn't make total sense, just because I know you love rocks and the power inherent in them.
I Love You and will see you in the morn. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I'm just hanging out at home. Today was shopping with my sister for most of the afternoon, then to Pearl's and now back. Nothing fancy. But, I just wanted to check in to say hi. I hope your day was good. I'll write more later, after my walk. I Love You.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:25pm : I've been reading about the Mesopotamian myth of the battle between the gods Ninurta and Anzu, over something called The Tablet Of Destinies. It is fascinating because this Tablet, whatever it was (and it was probably much more than a simple tablet) had as it's main components, various stones that corresponded harmonically to the same frequencies of various planets and stars, and thus the Tablet - a piece of technology - was, in part, a celestial communications device. It was also a weapon, and that is the main part of the myth, but I am interested in the communications harmonics. I know you like rocks, and you know about the Singing Bowl and things like that, and it is fascinating that various rocks (or stones) have, contained in their matter, harmonic energy signatures that correspond with the planets and/or places in the Universe from which they originated.
The idea that energy signatures are contained "in macro", like fractals in nature, inside rare stones, would explain the possibility of transferring the harmonic wavelength from stone to Original Source (planet, star) and back to the User, as a generator of all kinds of energy inside the body and soul of the User.
I am reading about a concept called Makanthropolis, in which the Greeks (a few of them, anyway) got really far out there, and saw the Universe as a macrocosmal replica of frequencies, with humans in the middle as Controllers, or having the ability to manipulate those frequencies, because humans possess emotion, the ability to sense, to feel. To sense differentiation, or differences.
The Greeks thought that humans had all these differences in frequency inside themselves, in their souls and bodies, and as such, they were a microcosm of the physical frequencies that were taking place in the Universe. It is possible that they (humans) were absorbing all of this and were repositories of these Universal frequencies, at a subtle level. That is what Astrology is all about.
But because we possess emotion - which is the ability to feel these frequencies (in all their various forms, especially as we interact with others) - we also have the opportunity to control the various waves that interact our bodies and therefore our lives.
We can do this through the control of resonance, and that made me think of you, and your collection of stones and rocks, and the Singing Bowl. Those things actually correspond with larger forces in the Universe with which they share a harmonic signature.
But the amazing part is that the User, the one who is meditating on this force, through the stones, is the controller of the forces indicated, because of the human capacity for emotion.
This is a subject I could go on and on about, because it's astonishing, but for tonight I will leave it where it is. I hope it made reasonable sense. I know if I talked it rather than typed it, I could explain what I mean even better.
In any case, it's an amazing concept : that the energies and frequencies of creation are contained in macro and micro formations (planets down to small rocks and atoms), and that those energies can be controlled and used by a human, who acts as a medium of communication. And this is possible because of the phenomenon of emotion, which at it heart is the ability to analyse and control feeling.
That's all I know for tonight, my Darling. A big tangent for sure, but I wanted to share my thoughts on the subject, even if it doesn't make total sense, just because I know you love rocks and the power inherent in them.
I Love You and will see you in the morn. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Friday, February 21, 2014
I'm A Punk Rocker (well, not really, but.....) (music)
Happy Friday, my Angel,
I found that old Ramones picture, scanned it at Kinko's, then took it to CSUN this morning to post it. Still gotta get me a scanner. That photo goes so far back that it almost feels like another life. I was sixteen, still in high school. That's my punk credibility, though, haha. Basically, my friends and I hated punk rock, lol. I guess I never thought of The Ramones as punk, cause they had long hair, and even though their songs were simple, they could really play. And, they used Marshalls. :)
I also admit to liking the Sex Pistols at the time, but really just a few songs in their case. But The Ramones were cool. Now, they're all deceased except for their ex-drummer Tommy, the guy with the shades on in my picture.
I hope you are having a great day, and enjoying the start of your weekend. I am gonna go do the afternoon part of my walk in about a half-hour, then head to Pearl's at 4:15. Tonight I am just gonna do the usual. Maybe watch a movie if there's anything at Redbox (but I don't think there is.....).
I Love My Baby! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
10:50pm : Yeah, Kurt & Nirvana. There's another example, like The Ramones, of using the simple approach. In The Ramones' case it was more of a formula - cause every song had that same tempo, more or less - and Nirvana's songs were a little more varied, but it's still the same concept of taking a very simple riff, or bassline, and writing a very simple - but hooky and effective - melody around it. Kurt Cobain had that ability. It seems like it should be easy, and perhaps it is not too difficult to come up with such riffs or basslines, but what makes it a great song is a second ability - to make it your own, to play it like you own it. Cobain was not the world's greatest guitarist or singer, but when you hear those songs, you can hear that he has put 100% of himself into them. Now, I don't just mean 100% effort. I mean 100% him. And that's where belief comes in, or maybe even more than that, a You-ness, for want of a better word.
Neither The Ramones nor Nirvana made complicated music or had great musicians, and yet their music, a lot of it at least, stood out from the crowd. It's interesting to think about why that is, although the answer lies somewhere in the way we respond to the dynamics of music.
What I loved about 90s music (and I'm glad to know you like Nirvana, and maybe other stuff from that era, too), is that there was a return to the simple song, and to bands just being themselves. There was almost a 60s vibe to a lot of it, like that song by Blind Melon, and in that way there were a lot of "one hit wonders", too, bands that had one big hit single and that's all, just like in the 1960s. There was also a return to festivals, like Lollapalooza. The ones they have now, like Coachella, don't compare because they book 248 bands to play instead of 8 good ones. Anyway.......
I can't compare the 90s to the 60s on a big scale, because the 60s were enormous, just thousands of songs of every imaginable style. But the 90s brought that humanness back to the music, while preserving the idea of the catchy song. It was the original era of Indie Music, and DIY recording, etc. You were born while it was really starting to bloom, and you were also born just a couple weeks after Bill Clinton became President.
That was really a great time in this country.
To get back to music, I admit to liking a few Green Day and Sublime songs. Pop punk. See, with me, if it's a good song, it's a good song. I have no prejudices. I don't care about genre, or if "I'm supposed" to like something or not. When I was a kid, it was all about The Single, the hit song on Top 40 radio, except back then, there were real songs, instead of Beiber...............well, I won't go off on a tirade about that.
There's nothing one can do about the state of the music scene, because what is "popular" is controlled by the Powers That Be, and since about 1997, Top 40 has been the absolute worst.
But the good news is that there has been so much great music to come before (and the great bands that we seek out and find today, despite the Industry) that we will never run out of music.
Well, my Darling, I love talking about music with you. I can't wait to go to a concert together!
I Love You So Much!, and I will see you in the morning. It will be a great day.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I found that old Ramones picture, scanned it at Kinko's, then took it to CSUN this morning to post it. Still gotta get me a scanner. That photo goes so far back that it almost feels like another life. I was sixteen, still in high school. That's my punk credibility, though, haha. Basically, my friends and I hated punk rock, lol. I guess I never thought of The Ramones as punk, cause they had long hair, and even though their songs were simple, they could really play. And, they used Marshalls. :)
I also admit to liking the Sex Pistols at the time, but really just a few songs in their case. But The Ramones were cool. Now, they're all deceased except for their ex-drummer Tommy, the guy with the shades on in my picture.
I hope you are having a great day, and enjoying the start of your weekend. I am gonna go do the afternoon part of my walk in about a half-hour, then head to Pearl's at 4:15. Tonight I am just gonna do the usual. Maybe watch a movie if there's anything at Redbox (but I don't think there is.....).
I Love My Baby! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
10:50pm : Yeah, Kurt & Nirvana. There's another example, like The Ramones, of using the simple approach. In The Ramones' case it was more of a formula - cause every song had that same tempo, more or less - and Nirvana's songs were a little more varied, but it's still the same concept of taking a very simple riff, or bassline, and writing a very simple - but hooky and effective - melody around it. Kurt Cobain had that ability. It seems like it should be easy, and perhaps it is not too difficult to come up with such riffs or basslines, but what makes it a great song is a second ability - to make it your own, to play it like you own it. Cobain was not the world's greatest guitarist or singer, but when you hear those songs, you can hear that he has put 100% of himself into them. Now, I don't just mean 100% effort. I mean 100% him. And that's where belief comes in, or maybe even more than that, a You-ness, for want of a better word.
Neither The Ramones nor Nirvana made complicated music or had great musicians, and yet their music, a lot of it at least, stood out from the crowd. It's interesting to think about why that is, although the answer lies somewhere in the way we respond to the dynamics of music.
What I loved about 90s music (and I'm glad to know you like Nirvana, and maybe other stuff from that era, too), is that there was a return to the simple song, and to bands just being themselves. There was almost a 60s vibe to a lot of it, like that song by Blind Melon, and in that way there were a lot of "one hit wonders", too, bands that had one big hit single and that's all, just like in the 1960s. There was also a return to festivals, like Lollapalooza. The ones they have now, like Coachella, don't compare because they book 248 bands to play instead of 8 good ones. Anyway.......
I can't compare the 90s to the 60s on a big scale, because the 60s were enormous, just thousands of songs of every imaginable style. But the 90s brought that humanness back to the music, while preserving the idea of the catchy song. It was the original era of Indie Music, and DIY recording, etc. You were born while it was really starting to bloom, and you were also born just a couple weeks after Bill Clinton became President.
That was really a great time in this country.
To get back to music, I admit to liking a few Green Day and Sublime songs. Pop punk. See, with me, if it's a good song, it's a good song. I have no prejudices. I don't care about genre, or if "I'm supposed" to like something or not. When I was a kid, it was all about The Single, the hit song on Top 40 radio, except back then, there were real songs, instead of Beiber...............well, I won't go off on a tirade about that.
There's nothing one can do about the state of the music scene, because what is "popular" is controlled by the Powers That Be, and since about 1997, Top 40 has been the absolute worst.
But the good news is that there has been so much great music to come before (and the great bands that we seek out and find today, despite the Industry) that we will never run out of music.
Well, my Darling, I love talking about music with you. I can't wait to go to a concert together!
I Love You So Much!, and I will see you in the morning. It will be a great day.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Thursday, February 20, 2014
Giant Size (sweet dreams)
Hey my Baby,
I'm just about to head back to Pearl's for afternoon shift, but I wanted to say hi real quick. Today has been lots of back and forth, to stores and the hair salon. Tonight is movie night, and we are gonna see Ray's "Devi The Goddess". So far, he is batting 1000, so I am looking forward to this one, too. So, I'll be home at the usual : 10pm or so. But before that, I'll be at Pearl's until 6:30pm. Hope you are having a great day.
I Love You!
XOXOXOXOXOXO (giant hugs & kisses) :):)
11:10pm : The movie was interesting on multiple fronts. In it, a young woman - the daughter-in-law of a wealthy man - is deified as the human incarnation of a goddess (Kali) - and all because her father-in law had a dream about her. An early critique of the way women were (and still are) subjugated in Indian culture. It's another hypnotic movie from Ray, with the photography, editing, music, and intense acting all combining to mesmerize you. We saw a documentary beforehand in which he explained his preference for natural light, i.e. available light, whatever is shining from whichever angle on any given day. The photography in his films isn't particularly slick, but it all works to great effect, especially in the way it plays off all the other elements (acting, score, editing)......
Well, my Angel, that's all I know for today. Sweet Dreams, I Love You.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I'm just about to head back to Pearl's for afternoon shift, but I wanted to say hi real quick. Today has been lots of back and forth, to stores and the hair salon. Tonight is movie night, and we are gonna see Ray's "Devi The Goddess". So far, he is batting 1000, so I am looking forward to this one, too. So, I'll be home at the usual : 10pm or so. But before that, I'll be at Pearl's until 6:30pm. Hope you are having a great day.
I Love You!
XOXOXOXOXOXO (giant hugs & kisses) :):)
11:10pm : The movie was interesting on multiple fronts. In it, a young woman - the daughter-in-law of a wealthy man - is deified as the human incarnation of a goddess (Kali) - and all because her father-in law had a dream about her. An early critique of the way women were (and still are) subjugated in Indian culture. It's another hypnotic movie from Ray, with the photography, editing, music, and intense acting all combining to mesmerize you. We saw a documentary beforehand in which he explained his preference for natural light, i.e. available light, whatever is shining from whichever angle on any given day. The photography in his films isn't particularly slick, but it all works to great effect, especially in the way it plays off all the other elements (acting, score, editing)......
Well, my Angel, that's all I know for today. Sweet Dreams, I Love You.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
Good Morning to Sweet Baby (back home) (decipherment)
Good Morning, my Darling,
I am gonna be heading out to Glendale in a few minutes to see my sister Sophie and take her shopping, so I just wanted to say hi before I left, and I Love You. I hope your day is off to a good start. I will be back at home in the 1:30pm range.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
2:20 : I'm back, Beautiful Lady. Got home a little while ago. It was nice to see Sophie. We just did the usual shopping (for her) at a few local stores in Glendale, then I came home and picked Pearl up from her crafts meeting. I saw your post, and I am soooo glad it's warmed up a bit. I hope you have a chance to get outside and have some fun, take photos if you want to, do whatever. Now, I did look at the 10-day forecast (that's part of my job description as The Guy Who Loves Lou - ;) ), and........oy.........I'm sure you already know this, but it looks like the temp is gonna go back down in a few days.
But - and I am putting this in bold just to serve notice on the cold weather :
Don't get any ideas about trying to start up that arctic stuff again. That vortex is toast, do you hear me?! It's toast!
So, that oughta take care of that. But enjoy the warmer temps today and for the next few, and then the hell with that cold snap for a few days, and then the temps will rise again.
Today I quadruple Love You (love, love, love ------Love!), and I hope you are enjoying your afternoon. I'm gonna do some dishes, then go for the afternoon part of my walk, then back to Pearl's at 4:30. But I'll be around more or less most of the time.
My Angel. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:10pm : I am reading about all these ancient texts in Joe's "Cosmic War", and I am reading about the decipherment (a technical term you probably know from linguistics) of the texts. The translations were made possible, apparently, because when these tablets and scrolls were discovered, mostly in the last 200 years or so, there was someone around who still understood a little bit of the ancient language, be it Akkadian or whatever. I am still a little unclear on the concept, though I take the translations at face value. But what I wonder.........well, you had mostly Western archeologists who discovered these things, and Western scholars who attempted the first translations. But if all they had for a "key" was a descendant of Assyrian culture, who understood the language but could not read it.......then how did they ascribe the sounds of the language to the hieroglyphic symbols? I've been Googling but cannot find an answer that explains it for me. To me, it would be as if - 10,000 years in the future - somebody found books written in English, and they had no idea what the symbols (the alphabet) meant. But they located a person who still understood the ancient language and asked his help. However - he was illiterate. He understood English but could not read nor write it.
How could he help them to translate it? That's what I am not getting about the Mesopotamian transcriptions I am reading about. I mean, I trust the translators. But I just don't understand the process from which they got these amazing stories out of a bunch of similar-looking squiggly lines (cuneiforms).
I am a monkey-see, monkey-do kind of guy, and I'd love to sit down with one of these people and have him or her show me the process.
Well, anyhow......
I hope you had a nice evening, and I see you are gonna be working on another movie project soon, so that is great. It says "48 hours", but I suppose there's no rule against developing ideas beforehand. You guys could allow for the various categories and come up with general ideas for each. Sketches. Then, when you do the actual drawing, and you select a category, you already have an idea ready to go.
Is that cheating? I dunno. But nobody would know........ ;)
That's all I know for tonight, my Angel. I am gonna listen to a little more Frescobaldi, and then go to sleep.
And I will be dreaming Sweet Dreams, too, just like you.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I am gonna be heading out to Glendale in a few minutes to see my sister Sophie and take her shopping, so I just wanted to say hi before I left, and I Love You. I hope your day is off to a good start. I will be back at home in the 1:30pm range.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
2:20 : I'm back, Beautiful Lady. Got home a little while ago. It was nice to see Sophie. We just did the usual shopping (for her) at a few local stores in Glendale, then I came home and picked Pearl up from her crafts meeting. I saw your post, and I am soooo glad it's warmed up a bit. I hope you have a chance to get outside and have some fun, take photos if you want to, do whatever. Now, I did look at the 10-day forecast (that's part of my job description as The Guy Who Loves Lou - ;) ), and........oy.........I'm sure you already know this, but it looks like the temp is gonna go back down in a few days.
But - and I am putting this in bold just to serve notice on the cold weather :
Don't get any ideas about trying to start up that arctic stuff again. That vortex is toast, do you hear me?! It's toast!
So, that oughta take care of that. But enjoy the warmer temps today and for the next few, and then the hell with that cold snap for a few days, and then the temps will rise again.
Today I quadruple Love You (love, love, love ------Love!), and I hope you are enjoying your afternoon. I'm gonna do some dishes, then go for the afternoon part of my walk, then back to Pearl's at 4:30. But I'll be around more or less most of the time.
My Angel. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:10pm : I am reading about all these ancient texts in Joe's "Cosmic War", and I am reading about the decipherment (a technical term you probably know from linguistics) of the texts. The translations were made possible, apparently, because when these tablets and scrolls were discovered, mostly in the last 200 years or so, there was someone around who still understood a little bit of the ancient language, be it Akkadian or whatever. I am still a little unclear on the concept, though I take the translations at face value. But what I wonder.........well, you had mostly Western archeologists who discovered these things, and Western scholars who attempted the first translations. But if all they had for a "key" was a descendant of Assyrian culture, who understood the language but could not read it.......then how did they ascribe the sounds of the language to the hieroglyphic symbols? I've been Googling but cannot find an answer that explains it for me. To me, it would be as if - 10,000 years in the future - somebody found books written in English, and they had no idea what the symbols (the alphabet) meant. But they located a person who still understood the ancient language and asked his help. However - he was illiterate. He understood English but could not read nor write it.
How could he help them to translate it? That's what I am not getting about the Mesopotamian transcriptions I am reading about. I mean, I trust the translators. But I just don't understand the process from which they got these amazing stories out of a bunch of similar-looking squiggly lines (cuneiforms).
I am a monkey-see, monkey-do kind of guy, and I'd love to sit down with one of these people and have him or her show me the process.
Well, anyhow......
I hope you had a nice evening, and I see you are gonna be working on another movie project soon, so that is great. It says "48 hours", but I suppose there's no rule against developing ideas beforehand. You guys could allow for the various categories and come up with general ideas for each. Sketches. Then, when you do the actual drawing, and you select a category, you already have an idea ready to go.
Is that cheating? I dunno. But nobody would know........ ;)
That's all I know for tonight, my Angel. I am gonna listen to a little more Frescobaldi, and then go to sleep.
And I will be dreaming Sweet Dreams, too, just like you.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Tuesday, February 18, 2014
Happy Places (life & world)
Good Morning, Sweet Baby,
I'm just getting home from dropping Pearl off at Golden Agers. I saw your posts this morning. The first one had me rechecking the Middleton weather report, lol. I didn't know if you meant the Polar Vortex was back, or if you just liked the photo, but I see that the temp there is 44 degrees, according to weather.com, so I guess that's not too bad. It's a good picture, though, and I know you have taken your own photos of icicles including the excellent one on your FB cover. You also took those pics of the stalagmites last summer.
Your other post was Brooke Shaden's photo of the desert. Sand dunes and sunset. So, you had two opposite ends of the spectrum: arctic and desert. Whether or not you were making a weather comment (now there's a pun for you; whether & weather - get it?......nudge, nudge) I also read her commentary in the accompanying blog. I've read her comments before, and she has a lot of insight, I think.
She certainly is right in saying that it all boils down to what makes you happy in life, and it's all just a process of identifying those things. You always know what they are, because when you are doing something that truly makes you happy, it seems as if everything else disappears, all the day-to-day preoccupations we all have with ordinary things. I can remember specific days like that. When I discovered Corriganville, for instance. That was last November. When I got there, and discovered those trees (like the one in my FB profile pic), and the way the light was shining, and the sense that I was the only one in the enormous park, it was like everything else just disappeared.
Anything else I may have been thinking about was gone. And it was replaced by this feeling of what I will call Energized Tranquility. "Tranquility", to borrow Brooke Shaden's word. But I was also suddenly energized in a way that can only come about through creative inspiration. All of a sudden, I felt this connection to the park, the trees, the light, and it was like an energy switch went on inside me. "Man, this is perfect. I got here at the perfect time, the light is amazing, there's no one else here, and now I am capturing it".
There was a sense of enchantment, and to say that means you cannot have a cynical bone in your body. You know me - I look for the Spirit in everything - even rocks, and I believe that enchantment can be felt when you are creatively inspired, and you are in a place that is trying to inspire you. As if it was waiting for you to arrive so it could show you something.
I got off the track there, cause I was initially talking about happiness and tranquility, but that is one example of a time when I am in such a Tranquil Zone. Another way to describe it, is that all of a sudden, you feel like the Real You.
And, it doesn't always have to be when you are being creative. I feel the same way when I'm at Disneyland, for instance. The entire outer world just disappears. Or late at night, when I am writing to you and listening to piano music. So I know, without having to analyze it, that those things make me truly happy. And of course there are others, such as when I am reading a book that blows my mind. Brooke Shaden lists her things, too.
The one thing I guarantee you is true, is that it gets easier and easier, week by week, month by month, year by year, to boil things down in life to where you are doing your Happy Things most of the time. Many of my own, as I've remarked, are just small things. I feel I was lucky (some might question this) in that I was never driven by anxiety over materialistic success or social standing in the world. Instead, I always felt there was an inner voice that was trying to tell me something. I really didn't know what that was until I was in my mid-30s, and I still don't fully understand it, but I try to follow it's mystery. One thing I did know, early on (and I've remarked about this many times), is that I had a desperate fear of unhappiness, of being stuck in any situation where I was doing something I really didn't want to do. Now, I don't mean like washing the dishes or raking the leaves. We all have chores and obligations in life. No, I am talking about the kind of unhappiness that brings dread. And for me, of course it was the corporate world and trying to fit into all that. I remember once, when I was 21, I was working the morning shift at the Lab (Metrocolor). Morning shift was very early - 4am to 12:30pm. You had to go to bed by 8 or 8:30, when the night was just getting started, and you had to wake up at 3am to get ready and get to work by 4. And I remember one time, I was outside the Lab, at the coffee truck, at 5:30am, for our first break. And it was still dark out, and cold, and I had my jacket on, drinking hot coffee on an empty stomach to try and wake up, and I saw all the faces of the guys who'd been working that shift for years, and they looked burned to a crisp. And it was only 5:30 in the morning, and I still had almost a full day of work ahead, and it was dark and cold, and my biorhythms were all out of whack from getting up at 3am, and I just said to myself : "I've gotta get out of here".
I've never forgotten that day, or the memory of sitting in the darkness out by that coffee truck, because it wasn't mere unhappiness (like being stuck in traffic, say). No, it was sheer dread.
I of course quit the Lab not long after that. In hindsight, there were many good aspects about working at Metrocolor, but nothing good about that shift, and also in hindsight, it wouldn't have mattered if I'd stayed on the easy-as-pie afternoon shift. It would have burned me out completely to make a career out of that.
So, the point of all of that story was that before I knew what really made me happy, I knew what made me unhappy, and I eliminated it. But that's just my example. There are many. And, the only example that's right for you is your own. But my Darling, you can trust and believe me 100% (and I'll give you your money back if it isn't true!), is that if you just continue to follow your innermost instincts, and your heart, you are going to be happy. You are going to have a happy life, a creative life. And sometimes, that happiness will just be something very simple, like watching your favorite TV show with your husband (hint, hint) ala Brooke Shaden. Other times it will be doing something creative. But you will get to a good place in your life where you have identified all your happiest things, and eliminated the rest.
Remember that Intent is everything, and so is Gratitude. God (in whatever way you believe in God) likes gratitude, not because He's arrogant or demanding, but just because He likes to know that something is making you happy! It's simple really.....
Me at Corriganville : "Man, this place is incredible"!
Then, later that night : "Thank you Lord, for this wonderful day". Etc., etc.
And then God puts more Corriganvilles in your path, and all kinds of other cool things, too.
Well, I got off on a few tangents there, and now I am gonna jump in the shower and then go pick up Pearl at 2pm, but I just wanted to offer a few thoughts on your posts. I'll be back later.
I Love You, Elizabeth! You are an Awesome and Wonderful Lady. I thank God for you, every day.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:05 : Sorry I didn't check in earlier this evening. I was just a little tired from re-adjusting to the work hours again, so I took a short nap when I got home, then my walk. Now I am listening to more Brahms. To add a few more thoughts to what I was writing about earlier, I think that because we are both not only intelligent people, but also emotionally connected to something very deep, we are always questing. And so, we have a great desire to bypass all the surface-level stuff in life that we find tedious. Life in America (and the rest of the world really, in the computer age) is geared toward average thinking at best. People of high intelligence are of course going to want to steer clear of mainstream stuff because of that.
I've said this before, too, but I think people like us have one foot in this world, the three dimensional one, and another, possibly more grounded foot in the greater World outside our five main senses. To be plain about it, we sense very strongly that something infinite is in the works. We sense this even without any outside sources telling us so; i.e. religion, et al. We sense it inside ourselves and we have never needed anyone's confirmation of it. We know there is something big going on in life, something very long lasting, and so we follow it, very gradually, slowly but surely.
Along the way, we lose interest in a lot of ordinary stuff, but not all, because we do have one foot in this world, the three dimensional one. So we do like simple pleasures - a nice dinner, a sunset, a visit with friends......we like grander pleasures, too: traveling, achievement, success.
We love being human, i.e. living in three dimensions.
But still we know that something more is going on. And even at times when we aren't consciously aware of it, we are nevertheless focused on that grander scheme in a subconscious way.
That is our real preoccupation. That mystery, that long term.......goal?
I'm not sure it is a goal. What if you were to live infinitely? Surely, to reach any kind of goal would bring an end to that. It would no longer be infinite. Happiness lies, for us types of people, in the Constant Quest For Discovery. There can be "goals" (plural) along the way, but never one ultimate goal.
I will post now, to avoid further tangents, but I wanted to add these thoughts.
I Love You, my Angel. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I'm just getting home from dropping Pearl off at Golden Agers. I saw your posts this morning. The first one had me rechecking the Middleton weather report, lol. I didn't know if you meant the Polar Vortex was back, or if you just liked the photo, but I see that the temp there is 44 degrees, according to weather.com, so I guess that's not too bad. It's a good picture, though, and I know you have taken your own photos of icicles including the excellent one on your FB cover. You also took those pics of the stalagmites last summer.
Your other post was Brooke Shaden's photo of the desert. Sand dunes and sunset. So, you had two opposite ends of the spectrum: arctic and desert. Whether or not you were making a weather comment (now there's a pun for you; whether & weather - get it?......nudge, nudge) I also read her commentary in the accompanying blog. I've read her comments before, and she has a lot of insight, I think.
She certainly is right in saying that it all boils down to what makes you happy in life, and it's all just a process of identifying those things. You always know what they are, because when you are doing something that truly makes you happy, it seems as if everything else disappears, all the day-to-day preoccupations we all have with ordinary things. I can remember specific days like that. When I discovered Corriganville, for instance. That was last November. When I got there, and discovered those trees (like the one in my FB profile pic), and the way the light was shining, and the sense that I was the only one in the enormous park, it was like everything else just disappeared.
Anything else I may have been thinking about was gone. And it was replaced by this feeling of what I will call Energized Tranquility. "Tranquility", to borrow Brooke Shaden's word. But I was also suddenly energized in a way that can only come about through creative inspiration. All of a sudden, I felt this connection to the park, the trees, the light, and it was like an energy switch went on inside me. "Man, this is perfect. I got here at the perfect time, the light is amazing, there's no one else here, and now I am capturing it".
There was a sense of enchantment, and to say that means you cannot have a cynical bone in your body. You know me - I look for the Spirit in everything - even rocks, and I believe that enchantment can be felt when you are creatively inspired, and you are in a place that is trying to inspire you. As if it was waiting for you to arrive so it could show you something.
I got off the track there, cause I was initially talking about happiness and tranquility, but that is one example of a time when I am in such a Tranquil Zone. Another way to describe it, is that all of a sudden, you feel like the Real You.
And, it doesn't always have to be when you are being creative. I feel the same way when I'm at Disneyland, for instance. The entire outer world just disappears. Or late at night, when I am writing to you and listening to piano music. So I know, without having to analyze it, that those things make me truly happy. And of course there are others, such as when I am reading a book that blows my mind. Brooke Shaden lists her things, too.
The one thing I guarantee you is true, is that it gets easier and easier, week by week, month by month, year by year, to boil things down in life to where you are doing your Happy Things most of the time. Many of my own, as I've remarked, are just small things. I feel I was lucky (some might question this) in that I was never driven by anxiety over materialistic success or social standing in the world. Instead, I always felt there was an inner voice that was trying to tell me something. I really didn't know what that was until I was in my mid-30s, and I still don't fully understand it, but I try to follow it's mystery. One thing I did know, early on (and I've remarked about this many times), is that I had a desperate fear of unhappiness, of being stuck in any situation where I was doing something I really didn't want to do. Now, I don't mean like washing the dishes or raking the leaves. We all have chores and obligations in life. No, I am talking about the kind of unhappiness that brings dread. And for me, of course it was the corporate world and trying to fit into all that. I remember once, when I was 21, I was working the morning shift at the Lab (Metrocolor). Morning shift was very early - 4am to 12:30pm. You had to go to bed by 8 or 8:30, when the night was just getting started, and you had to wake up at 3am to get ready and get to work by 4. And I remember one time, I was outside the Lab, at the coffee truck, at 5:30am, for our first break. And it was still dark out, and cold, and I had my jacket on, drinking hot coffee on an empty stomach to try and wake up, and I saw all the faces of the guys who'd been working that shift for years, and they looked burned to a crisp. And it was only 5:30 in the morning, and I still had almost a full day of work ahead, and it was dark and cold, and my biorhythms were all out of whack from getting up at 3am, and I just said to myself : "I've gotta get out of here".
I've never forgotten that day, or the memory of sitting in the darkness out by that coffee truck, because it wasn't mere unhappiness (like being stuck in traffic, say). No, it was sheer dread.
I of course quit the Lab not long after that. In hindsight, there were many good aspects about working at Metrocolor, but nothing good about that shift, and also in hindsight, it wouldn't have mattered if I'd stayed on the easy-as-pie afternoon shift. It would have burned me out completely to make a career out of that.
So, the point of all of that story was that before I knew what really made me happy, I knew what made me unhappy, and I eliminated it. But that's just my example. There are many. And, the only example that's right for you is your own. But my Darling, you can trust and believe me 100% (and I'll give you your money back if it isn't true!), is that if you just continue to follow your innermost instincts, and your heart, you are going to be happy. You are going to have a happy life, a creative life. And sometimes, that happiness will just be something very simple, like watching your favorite TV show with your husband (hint, hint) ala Brooke Shaden. Other times it will be doing something creative. But you will get to a good place in your life where you have identified all your happiest things, and eliminated the rest.
Remember that Intent is everything, and so is Gratitude. God (in whatever way you believe in God) likes gratitude, not because He's arrogant or demanding, but just because He likes to know that something is making you happy! It's simple really.....
Me at Corriganville : "Man, this place is incredible"!
Then, later that night : "Thank you Lord, for this wonderful day". Etc., etc.
And then God puts more Corriganvilles in your path, and all kinds of other cool things, too.
Well, I got off on a few tangents there, and now I am gonna jump in the shower and then go pick up Pearl at 2pm, but I just wanted to offer a few thoughts on your posts. I'll be back later.
I Love You, Elizabeth! You are an Awesome and Wonderful Lady. I thank God for you, every day.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:05 : Sorry I didn't check in earlier this evening. I was just a little tired from re-adjusting to the work hours again, so I took a short nap when I got home, then my walk. Now I am listening to more Brahms. To add a few more thoughts to what I was writing about earlier, I think that because we are both not only intelligent people, but also emotionally connected to something very deep, we are always questing. And so, we have a great desire to bypass all the surface-level stuff in life that we find tedious. Life in America (and the rest of the world really, in the computer age) is geared toward average thinking at best. People of high intelligence are of course going to want to steer clear of mainstream stuff because of that.
I've said this before, too, but I think people like us have one foot in this world, the three dimensional one, and another, possibly more grounded foot in the greater World outside our five main senses. To be plain about it, we sense very strongly that something infinite is in the works. We sense this even without any outside sources telling us so; i.e. religion, et al. We sense it inside ourselves and we have never needed anyone's confirmation of it. We know there is something big going on in life, something very long lasting, and so we follow it, very gradually, slowly but surely.
Along the way, we lose interest in a lot of ordinary stuff, but not all, because we do have one foot in this world, the three dimensional one. So we do like simple pleasures - a nice dinner, a sunset, a visit with friends......we like grander pleasures, too: traveling, achievement, success.
We love being human, i.e. living in three dimensions.
But still we know that something more is going on. And even at times when we aren't consciously aware of it, we are nevertheless focused on that grander scheme in a subconscious way.
That is our real preoccupation. That mystery, that long term.......goal?
I'm not sure it is a goal. What if you were to live infinitely? Surely, to reach any kind of goal would bring an end to that. It would no longer be infinite. Happiness lies, for us types of people, in the Constant Quest For Discovery. There can be "goals" (plural) along the way, but never one ultimate goal.
I will post now, to avoid further tangents, but I wanted to add these thoughts.
I Love You, my Angel. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Monday, February 17, 2014
Love To Start The Week (sweet dreams)
Good Morning, my Darling (afternoon to you),
I just wanted to say Happy Monday and wish you a good start to your week. I hope everything is going well at school and home, etc. There is a good feel to things, I think. I'm just puttering about The Pad at the moment. Got plenty of sleep once again, and I will go back to Pearl's at 4:30.
Thinking about you as always, and sending you lots of love. It's a great day.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
11:05pm : I am taking it easy tonight because my neck is sore. Must've slept on it wrong or something. So, I've just been reading as usual, this time about the Edfu Texts of Ancient Egypt (which is what inspired me to post the Nile vid, lol). I went back to Pearl's, everything is good there. Just a quiet day, all in all. Some days we express, some days we absorb. But you are with me all the time, and I can feel you.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxo :):)
see you in the morn....
I just wanted to say Happy Monday and wish you a good start to your week. I hope everything is going well at school and home, etc. There is a good feel to things, I think. I'm just puttering about The Pad at the moment. Got plenty of sleep once again, and I will go back to Pearl's at 4:30.
Thinking about you as always, and sending you lots of love. It's a great day.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
11:05pm : I am taking it easy tonight because my neck is sore. Must've slept on it wrong or something. So, I've just been reading as usual, this time about the Edfu Texts of Ancient Egypt (which is what inspired me to post the Nile vid, lol). I went back to Pearl's, everything is good there. Just a quiet day, all in all. Some days we express, some days we absorb. But you are with me all the time, and I can feel you.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxo :):)
see you in the morn....
Sunday, February 16, 2014
I'm Off Until Tomorrow (moving pictures)
Good Afternoon, my Incredibly Sweet, Beautiful and Talented Baby! Another excellent photograph by you. You always capture your subjects in their best expression, at the best angle. In this picture, the rock facade is the perfect background; somewhat matching her sweater and also contrasting with her hair and light skin to make her really stand out. You do the makeup too, right? If so, that's also just right. Tina is a great subject for you, and I'm glad you have such a good friend.
Well, I got it wrong. I drove over to Pearl's just now to pick her up from choir practice, but her daughter's car was still there. Turned out Pearl was there, too. I wasn't supposed to come back until tomorrow at 4:30, because of President's day. Pearl's daughter is a teacher and she has that day off, so I had the extra day off too but didn't realise it. Until now, that is!
So, I am just gonna hang out for now. Maybe go looking for pictures again when the sun gets a little more angular. I'll just start pushing buttons on my camera and see what happens, lol.
So, I just wanted to say I Love You, and Great Picture, and I'm still off, until tomorrow afternoon. That means one more sleep-in, too! (oh boy!)
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
11pm : I'm on a Schumann kick at the moment, this time as played by Alfred Cortot, one of my favorites. I tried tonight for more pictures but didn't get anything I was happy with. No biggie, though. The days are getting longer and soon will come daylight savings time and those long, slow sundown periods when the light goes through magnificent changes. I really think, for me anyway, that inspiration and intent have so much to do with picture taking. I can go out, and want to take photos, but if I feel I am looking at the Same Old Thing, the familiar locations, I won't be inspired and I'll take a few derivative photos. However, and this is what's awesome about inspiration and intent, on those days or times when I am really feeling it, I can walk the same ground looking for photo ops - ground I've walked a thousand times at CSUN or in my neighborhood - and because of my intention to see the same things differently, I will discover a different way of looking at them! So - and this is important - my intention, my desire to find a new way of seeing the same locations, elicits a response that comes back to me in the form of inspiration, a feeling of discovery, of seeing something new.
In reading so much about physics and metaphysics in recent years, I see that light and energies of different kinds break down into so many waves and particles - and vibrations - that I think, as photographers, we can at least have the intent to vary our looks at those different frequencies. Einstein said that motion is relative to the viewer, and so it is with pictures. I want to capture things, literally catch light in the act.
Because who knows what is in that light, what it carries? It shines on an object, and that object has spirit, too, and the light touches it and acts upon it.........and so does the intent of the photographer.
If ten different painters paint the same scene, in that case intent is everything, because the mechanics of the camera are removed. Each painter is tuned into his or her own frequency with the light, and also with the meaning of the imagery.
But it's a trick to really capture that - for me anyway, when I am trying to get inside a picture - and so I do best when I am having one of those days.......when I know I am Seeing Inside.
Well, my Darling, another good day. Quiet and peaceful. I've got most of tomorrow off as well. I hope your day was good, and that the temps will keep rising as we head toward Spring.
I Love You and will see you in the morn. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Well, I got it wrong. I drove over to Pearl's just now to pick her up from choir practice, but her daughter's car was still there. Turned out Pearl was there, too. I wasn't supposed to come back until tomorrow at 4:30, because of President's day. Pearl's daughter is a teacher and she has that day off, so I had the extra day off too but didn't realise it. Until now, that is!
So, I am just gonna hang out for now. Maybe go looking for pictures again when the sun gets a little more angular. I'll just start pushing buttons on my camera and see what happens, lol.
So, I just wanted to say I Love You, and Great Picture, and I'm still off, until tomorrow afternoon. That means one more sleep-in, too! (oh boy!)
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
11pm : I'm on a Schumann kick at the moment, this time as played by Alfred Cortot, one of my favorites. I tried tonight for more pictures but didn't get anything I was happy with. No biggie, though. The days are getting longer and soon will come daylight savings time and those long, slow sundown periods when the light goes through magnificent changes. I really think, for me anyway, that inspiration and intent have so much to do with picture taking. I can go out, and want to take photos, but if I feel I am looking at the Same Old Thing, the familiar locations, I won't be inspired and I'll take a few derivative photos. However, and this is what's awesome about inspiration and intent, on those days or times when I am really feeling it, I can walk the same ground looking for photo ops - ground I've walked a thousand times at CSUN or in my neighborhood - and because of my intention to see the same things differently, I will discover a different way of looking at them! So - and this is important - my intention, my desire to find a new way of seeing the same locations, elicits a response that comes back to me in the form of inspiration, a feeling of discovery, of seeing something new.
In reading so much about physics and metaphysics in recent years, I see that light and energies of different kinds break down into so many waves and particles - and vibrations - that I think, as photographers, we can at least have the intent to vary our looks at those different frequencies. Einstein said that motion is relative to the viewer, and so it is with pictures. I want to capture things, literally catch light in the act.
Because who knows what is in that light, what it carries? It shines on an object, and that object has spirit, too, and the light touches it and acts upon it.........and so does the intent of the photographer.
If ten different painters paint the same scene, in that case intent is everything, because the mechanics of the camera are removed. Each painter is tuned into his or her own frequency with the light, and also with the meaning of the imagery.
But it's a trick to really capture that - for me anyway, when I am trying to get inside a picture - and so I do best when I am having one of those days.......when I know I am Seeing Inside.
Well, my Darling, another good day. Quiet and peaceful. I've got most of tomorrow off as well. I hope your day was good, and that the temps will keep rising as we head toward Spring.
I Love You and will see you in the morn. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Saturday, February 15, 2014
Saturday Morning Love After Sleeping In (Pictures & Glasses) (Music & Mythology)
Good Morning, my Darling,
Happy Saturday! I am having my coffee and some yougurt and oatmeal w/banana for breakfast. I just got nine hours sleep, so I feel nice and rested. My sister isn't coming over cause they closed down part of the freeway for repairs, so I am just gonna hang out for a little while and then maybe wander over to CSUN in search of pictures. Right now, I am listening to The Opera Show on KUSC. Saturday morning stuff.
I wish you a great day, and I am thinking of you and send you much, much love. You are My Heart, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit.....)
7:30pm : Just got back from CSUN. Did half my walk and took a few pictures. I am still learning some things my cam can do, like digital zoom and manual adjustment of asa (or do they call it iso now?). You can adjust white balance, lots of other stuff. My problem is that I am a non-technical guy, and it's not cause I'm a dum-dum, it's because I just don't have the patience to sit down and read a manual, or learn all the little visual symbols that pop up on your LED screen. So, I've tended to learn along the way, little by little, just by pushing buttons to see what they do, and then see if I can remember them the next time, lol. So, I tried some evening photography this time. Many of my pics came out blurred because the shutter speed was over a half-second. Gotta bring a tripod (another thing I've gotta develop the patience for). But, it's always fun to make a new discovery, and that's the good part about trial-and-error. I've had my little camera about 18 months and I'm still going, "Oh, I didn't know it could do this". Maybe I'll try again on the second half of my walk later on.
Well, it's official : I've gotta get glasses. I've been putting it off and putting it off, but I just got my Driver's License renewal notice from the DMV, and they have me down for the vision test, and I was just there a couple weeks ago to renew my car registration, and I took a look at the eye chart and I thought, "maybe on a good day I could still pass it"......but also maybe not. And, I can't afford to take the chance that they might suspend my license if I did fail the test, being that driving is an important part of my job. Besides that, I just plain need my driver's license. So, glasses it is. I've still got two months to renew, so that's plenty of time to do some Googling, find out prices, etc.
That's the news for now, my Baby. I hope you've had a nice day. I triple-Love You (love, love, love) and I will be back again, after my walk later on (you know, usual time around 10:50 - 11pm my time).
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):) (Super Happy)
11:15pm : I am listening to the Schumann "Kreisleriana". Schumann, one of my favorites for piano. It sure was nice to have such a relaxing day. I did finish my walk, but didn't try for more pictures. I kinda wanted to get back and read my book, because I am into a chapter about the Enuma Elish, the Babylonian creation epic, and it is fascinating. These myths depict something real, I believe, and in the 20th century - when archeology and anthropology began to be more developed - we were still only scratching the surface of what is known about human history. And beyond human history, there is celestial history, the story of the solar system and the stars. The Ancients, whoever they were - going back beyond the Vedics & Sumerians - knew things about the Universe that you wouldn't expect them to know, and this knowledge (and tales of epic events) are depicted in their myths, but myths are not myths, as we were taught as schoolchildren. Instead, they have a basis in reality.
True history is astounding, not just the history of the past twenty or thirty centuries, but the history of antiquity. And, we are living in the age when that history is being uncovered and deciphered.
I will see you in the morn, my Angel, after another sleep-in. This was a good day, and I am grateful.
I Love You So Much. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
sleep well, sweet dreams.
Happy Saturday! I am having my coffee and some yougurt and oatmeal w/banana for breakfast. I just got nine hours sleep, so I feel nice and rested. My sister isn't coming over cause they closed down part of the freeway for repairs, so I am just gonna hang out for a little while and then maybe wander over to CSUN in search of pictures. Right now, I am listening to The Opera Show on KUSC. Saturday morning stuff.
I wish you a great day, and I am thinking of you and send you much, much love. You are My Heart, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit.....)
7:30pm : Just got back from CSUN. Did half my walk and took a few pictures. I am still learning some things my cam can do, like digital zoom and manual adjustment of asa (or do they call it iso now?). You can adjust white balance, lots of other stuff. My problem is that I am a non-technical guy, and it's not cause I'm a dum-dum, it's because I just don't have the patience to sit down and read a manual, or learn all the little visual symbols that pop up on your LED screen. So, I've tended to learn along the way, little by little, just by pushing buttons to see what they do, and then see if I can remember them the next time, lol. So, I tried some evening photography this time. Many of my pics came out blurred because the shutter speed was over a half-second. Gotta bring a tripod (another thing I've gotta develop the patience for). But, it's always fun to make a new discovery, and that's the good part about trial-and-error. I've had my little camera about 18 months and I'm still going, "Oh, I didn't know it could do this". Maybe I'll try again on the second half of my walk later on.
Well, it's official : I've gotta get glasses. I've been putting it off and putting it off, but I just got my Driver's License renewal notice from the DMV, and they have me down for the vision test, and I was just there a couple weeks ago to renew my car registration, and I took a look at the eye chart and I thought, "maybe on a good day I could still pass it"......but also maybe not. And, I can't afford to take the chance that they might suspend my license if I did fail the test, being that driving is an important part of my job. Besides that, I just plain need my driver's license. So, glasses it is. I've still got two months to renew, so that's plenty of time to do some Googling, find out prices, etc.
That's the news for now, my Baby. I hope you've had a nice day. I triple-Love You (love, love, love) and I will be back again, after my walk later on (you know, usual time around 10:50 - 11pm my time).
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):) (Super Happy)
11:15pm : I am listening to the Schumann "Kreisleriana". Schumann, one of my favorites for piano. It sure was nice to have such a relaxing day. I did finish my walk, but didn't try for more pictures. I kinda wanted to get back and read my book, because I am into a chapter about the Enuma Elish, the Babylonian creation epic, and it is fascinating. These myths depict something real, I believe, and in the 20th century - when archeology and anthropology began to be more developed - we were still only scratching the surface of what is known about human history. And beyond human history, there is celestial history, the story of the solar system and the stars. The Ancients, whoever they were - going back beyond the Vedics & Sumerians - knew things about the Universe that you wouldn't expect them to know, and this knowledge (and tales of epic events) are depicted in their myths, but myths are not myths, as we were taught as schoolchildren. Instead, they have a basis in reality.
True history is astounding, not just the history of the past twenty or thirty centuries, but the history of antiquity. And, we are living in the age when that history is being uncovered and deciphered.
I will see you in the morn, my Angel, after another sleep-in. This was a good day, and I am grateful.
I Love You So Much. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
sleep well, sweet dreams.
Friday, February 14, 2014
Happy Valentine's Day! (I'm Home) (Swans)
Good Morning, my Beautiful Angel! I wish you a Happy Valentine's Day, and send you a big hug and many kisses to get you started. I have to take Kobi to the groomer right now (so he will be super handsome for his Valentine, the Black Kitty), and I will be back later. I'll be in and out this morn, but mostly around this afternoon. I Love You!!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7:05pm : I am home, and I am off until Sunday afternoon, so I get two sleep-ins. I hope your weekend is off to a good start, and that you are having a nice Valentine's Day. Pretty cool about the Slowdive show! I missed out on all the Shoegaze the first time around, cause I was listening to all the Seattle bands like Soundgarden & Pearl Jam & Alice In Chains. I remember hearing about some of the bands, like Ride and Lush (both of whom are good), but the music just escaped my attention at the time. With Slowdive, I only have "Souvlaki", so I'll have to check out some of their other stuff. In retrospect, I loved 90s music. A lot of it, anyway. Smashing Pumpkins was another good one, though I'm sure you've heard them. Not strictly Shoegaze, but with a similar sensibility.
Well, my Valentine, I am gonna chill for a little while, then finish my walk later, about 8:30 as usual.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:05pm : Well, my Angel, it is a quiet but deeply felt Valentine's Day, and if you consider that I first saw your "Autre Temps" right around this time in 2012 - my introduction to you - then this makes two years we have known each other. The time has gone by both fast and slow, as time will. For me, when I take a step back and consider it, my meeting you was something that was going to happen. How else to explain you and me, and all the things we have shared? Destiny is the word.
This afternoon, my sister Vickie texted me to meet her and Parham, a kid she tutors, at a local pond called Lake Balboa. It's a manmade lake, not huge like your lakes, but it is a nice place to visit. It's peaceful.
While we were there, we saw a swan. He came over and wanted food. You're not supposed to feed 'em, so we didn't. So, he swam away, and a few minutes later we saw another swan swimming toward him. Mrs. Swan! They got close. Vickie said "please make a heart shape".......you know how swans put their heads close to one another and their necks make a heart? Well, they did it. Mr. & Mrs. Swan, on Valentine's Day.
I thought of You & Me.
I Love You, my Darling. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Sleep well, sweet dreams, I will see you in the morn.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7:05pm : I am home, and I am off until Sunday afternoon, so I get two sleep-ins. I hope your weekend is off to a good start, and that you are having a nice Valentine's Day. Pretty cool about the Slowdive show! I missed out on all the Shoegaze the first time around, cause I was listening to all the Seattle bands like Soundgarden & Pearl Jam & Alice In Chains. I remember hearing about some of the bands, like Ride and Lush (both of whom are good), but the music just escaped my attention at the time. With Slowdive, I only have "Souvlaki", so I'll have to check out some of their other stuff. In retrospect, I loved 90s music. A lot of it, anyway. Smashing Pumpkins was another good one, though I'm sure you've heard them. Not strictly Shoegaze, but with a similar sensibility.
Well, my Valentine, I am gonna chill for a little while, then finish my walk later, about 8:30 as usual.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:05pm : Well, my Angel, it is a quiet but deeply felt Valentine's Day, and if you consider that I first saw your "Autre Temps" right around this time in 2012 - my introduction to you - then this makes two years we have known each other. The time has gone by both fast and slow, as time will. For me, when I take a step back and consider it, my meeting you was something that was going to happen. How else to explain you and me, and all the things we have shared? Destiny is the word.
This afternoon, my sister Vickie texted me to meet her and Parham, a kid she tutors, at a local pond called Lake Balboa. It's a manmade lake, not huge like your lakes, but it is a nice place to visit. It's peaceful.
While we were there, we saw a swan. He came over and wanted food. You're not supposed to feed 'em, so we didn't. So, he swam away, and a few minutes later we saw another swan swimming toward him. Mrs. Swan! They got close. Vickie said "please make a heart shape".......you know how swans put their heads close to one another and their necks make a heart? Well, they did it. Mr. & Mrs. Swan, on Valentine's Day.
I thought of You & Me.
I Love You, my Darling. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Sleep well, sweet dreams, I will see you in the morn.
Thursday, February 13, 2014
A Good Day :):) (5pm Love) (Over The Moon) (life)
Good Morning, my Angel,
I'm on a short break before taking Pearl to the hair salon at 11am. I hope your day is off to a good start. I saw your post about the eagles and other animals that were poisoned. I'm glad they caught those guys. Is the Raptor Education Group the same group who brought the eagle last year, when you took pictures of one? And, have you ever seen one flying overhead? That would be a majestic sight for sure. I see hawks quite often, red-tailed hawks, and I saw two just yesterday morn when I took the Kobester up to the top of the hill at the end of Reseda Boulevard, a few miles from here. That view (and a couple hawks, maybe the same pair!) can be seen in one of my 2013 FB photos, the one that says "Top Of Reseda, Ma"! That's a paraphrase of a famous James Cagney line from a movie called "White Heat".......
.......and heat is once again the theme of the day, and I see the temps are coming up a little. I think you are going to your photo group meeting today, aren't you? That will be fun, and you will be taking many great pictures this year. I hope you get to see the eagles again, too. It was nice for me to go up the hill with Kobi, also, because it got me started on going to my little short-trip trail spots like I was doing last Summer and Fall. I didn't bring my camera yesterday cause it was spur-of-the-moment, but it got me back in the habit of wanting to go, a habit I got out of due to the holidays, etc.
But now I'm back, and so are you! It's a good day, Sweet Baby.
I Love You and I'll check in later this afternoon before I go to the Thursday night movie.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):) Have fun with your photo group!
p.s. I see that the eagles who were poisoned were patients of the Raptor group. I hope, hope, hope it didn't include the one you photographed. Not that it's any better either way, but in any case, I am very sorry to hear this.
5:05pm : Good Evening, my Darling. I'm at Pearl's, right now cooking some lentils, drinking my evening tea. Feeding doggies & kitties. Pearl and I will eat later. I just wanted to say hi before I went to the movie. Tonight we are gonna see Ray's "The World Of Apu", the final film in the Apu Trilogy. I've seen it before, and like the other two parts of the story, it's a great film. I hope your photo club meeting went well. I will be back about the usual time, as always. 10pm, give or take. I Love You and will see you then.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
10pm : Wow, my Baby, that is a beautiful picture of the full moon! Perfect timing, too - I posted my song just as I saw your post. And also, it takes me back.........back to that night in June 2012. There was a full moon that night, and I posted Clair de Lune........and then so did you.
That was a very Special Night. (cause then I knew something special was happening).
Before that, I'd had a pretty good hunch, but on that night of the June Full Moon, I knew.
We need our own personal Moon In June lyric for that one.
I am just getting home, so I am gonna finish my walk real quick, about 20 minutes worth, and then I'll be back. And I'll be looking at the Moon while I'm out........
I Love You, Elizabeth xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:05pm : I am back again. The Moon was high in the sky, but bright, and it never fails to fascinate me that I can see those mare with the naked eye. Certainly there must have been a time when they were filled with water. Now that you are becoming technically adept at photography, you might want to try some extended nighttime exposures yourself, using a tripod of course. You could experiement with exposure times, just to see what you get, but you could also experiment creatively, to produce images that are surrealistic or in tune with your inner voice. It's too cold out now for that, but in the Spring and Summer, try some night stuff. I believe that thought and intent play a part in the image you get, so get way out there....the sky's the limit.
Tonight's film was excellent, and I'd seen it before, but again, Ray creates cinema that is simultaneously realistic and poetic like few others have done. I am grateful for these things, for this wonderful period in my life. The films I am seeing, the music I am hearing, the books I am reading all serve to enrich this larger experience I am sharing with you. It is both mysterious and wonderful, and I was thinking this morning that it is important for there always to be mystery. Curiosity and discovery. Enrichment along the way. Great art, of all kinds (music, literature, film, etc.) to expand your horizons and to make you feel. Constant learning. Learning from the inside out, rather than the other way around.
Loving, and being loved.
Elizabeth, I thank God I have you to love, and to share these things with. With love, life is enormous.
:):)
I'm on a short break before taking Pearl to the hair salon at 11am. I hope your day is off to a good start. I saw your post about the eagles and other animals that were poisoned. I'm glad they caught those guys. Is the Raptor Education Group the same group who brought the eagle last year, when you took pictures of one? And, have you ever seen one flying overhead? That would be a majestic sight for sure. I see hawks quite often, red-tailed hawks, and I saw two just yesterday morn when I took the Kobester up to the top of the hill at the end of Reseda Boulevard, a few miles from here. That view (and a couple hawks, maybe the same pair!) can be seen in one of my 2013 FB photos, the one that says "Top Of Reseda, Ma"! That's a paraphrase of a famous James Cagney line from a movie called "White Heat".......
.......and heat is once again the theme of the day, and I see the temps are coming up a little. I think you are going to your photo group meeting today, aren't you? That will be fun, and you will be taking many great pictures this year. I hope you get to see the eagles again, too. It was nice for me to go up the hill with Kobi, also, because it got me started on going to my little short-trip trail spots like I was doing last Summer and Fall. I didn't bring my camera yesterday cause it was spur-of-the-moment, but it got me back in the habit of wanting to go, a habit I got out of due to the holidays, etc.
But now I'm back, and so are you! It's a good day, Sweet Baby.
I Love You and I'll check in later this afternoon before I go to the Thursday night movie.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):) Have fun with your photo group!
p.s. I see that the eagles who were poisoned were patients of the Raptor group. I hope, hope, hope it didn't include the one you photographed. Not that it's any better either way, but in any case, I am very sorry to hear this.
5:05pm : Good Evening, my Darling. I'm at Pearl's, right now cooking some lentils, drinking my evening tea. Feeding doggies & kitties. Pearl and I will eat later. I just wanted to say hi before I went to the movie. Tonight we are gonna see Ray's "The World Of Apu", the final film in the Apu Trilogy. I've seen it before, and like the other two parts of the story, it's a great film. I hope your photo club meeting went well. I will be back about the usual time, as always. 10pm, give or take. I Love You and will see you then.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
10pm : Wow, my Baby, that is a beautiful picture of the full moon! Perfect timing, too - I posted my song just as I saw your post. And also, it takes me back.........back to that night in June 2012. There was a full moon that night, and I posted Clair de Lune........and then so did you.
That was a very Special Night. (cause then I knew something special was happening).
Before that, I'd had a pretty good hunch, but on that night of the June Full Moon, I knew.
We need our own personal Moon In June lyric for that one.
I am just getting home, so I am gonna finish my walk real quick, about 20 minutes worth, and then I'll be back. And I'll be looking at the Moon while I'm out........
I Love You, Elizabeth xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:05pm : I am back again. The Moon was high in the sky, but bright, and it never fails to fascinate me that I can see those mare with the naked eye. Certainly there must have been a time when they were filled with water. Now that you are becoming technically adept at photography, you might want to try some extended nighttime exposures yourself, using a tripod of course. You could experiement with exposure times, just to see what you get, but you could also experiment creatively, to produce images that are surrealistic or in tune with your inner voice. It's too cold out now for that, but in the Spring and Summer, try some night stuff. I believe that thought and intent play a part in the image you get, so get way out there....the sky's the limit.
Tonight's film was excellent, and I'd seen it before, but again, Ray creates cinema that is simultaneously realistic and poetic like few others have done. I am grateful for these things, for this wonderful period in my life. The films I am seeing, the music I am hearing, the books I am reading all serve to enrich this larger experience I am sharing with you. It is both mysterious and wonderful, and I was thinking this morning that it is important for there always to be mystery. Curiosity and discovery. Enrichment along the way. Great art, of all kinds (music, literature, film, etc.) to expand your horizons and to make you feel. Constant learning. Learning from the inside out, rather than the other way around.
Loving, and being loved.
Elizabeth, I thank God I have you to love, and to share these things with. With love, life is enormous.
:):)
Wednesday, February 12, 2014
Hawaii (we're going) (P.S.) (P.P.S.)
Hi my Darling,
I see you are still awake, at least as of a couple minutes ago. Of course I've been thinking of you all day, and I can't wait until this Winter is over, for your sake mostly but for my sake too, cause I am with you psychically and I can feel it in that sense. Weather.com says the Middleton temps are going up into the mid-30s in a few days, and even with rain it's still better than the damn Vortex.
I say we go to Hawaii. It's on me. I've never been there, and maybe you haven't either, or if you have, it's time to go back.
My day was mostly the same. Workin' and reading, about the legend of the planet Tiamat, and Giants in the Earth and other amazing phenomena. Playing guitar, too. And thinking about you, and special times.
I will see you in the morn, my Angel. And, I am your Valentine, today and everyday.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxo :):)
Love, Sun and Warmth.
p.s. I just thought of something - the Hell with it! We will go to Hawaii, cause it's an awesome vacation spot, but we are also gonna find the hottest possible place on the planet, maybe Death Valley or Baghdad or Sudan, and we're gonna go there, too, just to stick it to this Winter. ;)
:):)
p.p.s. I saw your post. Elizabeth, you make my day, every day. I wake up thinking about you and go to bed the same way. You are my strength, too, and you have energized my life and inspired me since the day I met you. Just wanted you to know that. So thanks.
And, I will always be with you, loving you, by your side. Nothing bad can happen so long as we are together. :):)
I see you are still awake, at least as of a couple minutes ago. Of course I've been thinking of you all day, and I can't wait until this Winter is over, for your sake mostly but for my sake too, cause I am with you psychically and I can feel it in that sense. Weather.com says the Middleton temps are going up into the mid-30s in a few days, and even with rain it's still better than the damn Vortex.
I say we go to Hawaii. It's on me. I've never been there, and maybe you haven't either, or if you have, it's time to go back.
My day was mostly the same. Workin' and reading, about the legend of the planet Tiamat, and Giants in the Earth and other amazing phenomena. Playing guitar, too. And thinking about you, and special times.
I will see you in the morn, my Angel. And, I am your Valentine, today and everyday.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxo :):)
Love, Sun and Warmth.
p.s. I just thought of something - the Hell with it! We will go to Hawaii, cause it's an awesome vacation spot, but we are also gonna find the hottest possible place on the planet, maybe Death Valley or Baghdad or Sudan, and we're gonna go there, too, just to stick it to this Winter. ;)
:):)
p.p.s. I saw your post. Elizabeth, you make my day, every day. I wake up thinking about you and go to bed the same way. You are my strength, too, and you have energized my life and inspired me since the day I met you. Just wanted you to know that. So thanks.
And, I will always be with you, loving you, by your side. Nothing bad can happen so long as we are together. :):)
Tuesday, February 11, 2014
Thinking Of You (Mrs. Renfro's Ghost Pepper Salsa)
Hi my Angel,
I'm home, just reading, doing the usual. But, I just wanted to check in and say I Love You. I know it's gotta be tough, dealing with the cold, so I hope you are hanging in there. Man, I hope you guys get a break soon. I am thinking of you as always, and am right here as always.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back after my walk)
11:20pm : I have a new weapon in the war against the Polar Vortex : Mrs. Renfro's Ghost Pepper Salsa.
http://www.renfrofoods.com/press-GhostPepper.aspx
I am gonna come up there with a case of this stuff, pour some into Lake Superior, seed the clouds with a few jars and give the rest to you to eat and disperse to your friends accordingly. I'm sure you've heard of the Ghost Pepper, said to be the world's hottest. I saw Mrs. Renfro's in the store a couple weeks ago and bought my first jar last night. Now, there's different kinds of Hot, so I don't know if it's the hottest in every form, every type of heat. For instance, there is Chinese mustard - made of horseradish - that will literally burn a pathway through your sinuses. That is one kind of Hot.
But I've gotta say, this Ghost Pepper salsa, the first I've tried, has what feels like a dangerous kind of heat. A heavy heat. And, it's also pretty tasty. I only tried a few chip's worth, and I'm not gonna eat a whole jar like I might with other salsas. As George Bush the First would say, "wouldn't be prudent".
But I am gonna destroy the Vortex with it. And, I think you'll like it! Maybe you can find it in your local grocery store.
I am gonna finish listening to my French Organ Music and then go to sleep. I Love You, Sweet Baby.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I'm home, just reading, doing the usual. But, I just wanted to check in and say I Love You. I know it's gotta be tough, dealing with the cold, so I hope you are hanging in there. Man, I hope you guys get a break soon. I am thinking of you as always, and am right here as always.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back after my walk)
11:20pm : I have a new weapon in the war against the Polar Vortex : Mrs. Renfro's Ghost Pepper Salsa.
http://www.renfrofoods.com/press-GhostPepper.aspx
I am gonna come up there with a case of this stuff, pour some into Lake Superior, seed the clouds with a few jars and give the rest to you to eat and disperse to your friends accordingly. I'm sure you've heard of the Ghost Pepper, said to be the world's hottest. I saw Mrs. Renfro's in the store a couple weeks ago and bought my first jar last night. Now, there's different kinds of Hot, so I don't know if it's the hottest in every form, every type of heat. For instance, there is Chinese mustard - made of horseradish - that will literally burn a pathway through your sinuses. That is one kind of Hot.
But I've gotta say, this Ghost Pepper salsa, the first I've tried, has what feels like a dangerous kind of heat. A heavy heat. And, it's also pretty tasty. I only tried a few chip's worth, and I'm not gonna eat a whole jar like I might with other salsas. As George Bush the First would say, "wouldn't be prudent".
But I am gonna destroy the Vortex with it. And, I think you'll like it! Maybe you can find it in your local grocery store.
I am gonna finish listening to my French Organ Music and then go to sleep. I Love You, Sweet Baby.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Monday, February 10, 2014
Love To Start The Week (Petroglyphs) (Beeline)
Good Morning, my Darling,
I am doing some necessary cleaning of The Pad. All is well at Pearl's and I am off until 4:30. I hope your week is off to a good start. I know it is still very cold, and intended or not, I can appreciate the metaphor in the photo you liked of the person trapped inside the fridge. But, it does look like some relief is on the way. Weather.com says that your temps will come up into the high 20s to mid 30s by next week, and then we'll be heading into March.
I liked the Chelsea Wolfe song, nice and dark, a little more produced than some of the other stuff I've heard by her. You probably know this, but she comes out of Joshua Tree in the desert. And what was the name of that guy/gal duo that opened for Alcest? I can't remember, but she played keys and he, guitar. They had a wall of industrial sound thing happening. Anyway, I think they were out of the J.Tree scene, too, which makes me wonder if Neige is up on that scene, or if he's maybe even been out there himself. I know he's mostly an ocean guy, but overall he is a nature person, so maybe he's been to Mojave, too.
I've never been to Joshua Tree, but I love the desert in general, and one of my dreamed-of road trips would be to drive out there, you and me, on the Pearblossom Highway - which really runs through the middle of nowhere - and just to stop and take photos on the way, of whatever. Mine shafts, old abandoned gas stations, weird rocks, landscapes, anything. Just the drive itself would be fun, and it's only an hour or so beyond The Valley.
I see that video was directed by Mark Pellington, who made one of the scariest movies of all time, "The Mothman Prophecies". He also made a really weird paranoia movie called "Arlington Road", which is great too.i
Road trips, sunshine, warmth, Special Places - the time is coming for these things. I am thinking of you all day and I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(around more or less all day today.......)
7:15pm : Back at home. Gonna read my book for a while, then maybe watch some Olympics before my walk, or maybe just an episode of The X-Files. I am reading about something called plasma cosmology in my Joe F. book, and boy, does he ever give you some concepts to try and wrap your mind around. In this chapter, he is talking about a study that was made on ancient petroglyphs. Many of these resemble simple stick figures, but a plasma physicist named Anthony Peratt made a comparison of 50,000 petroglyphs to laboratory-created plasma "instabilities" - geometrically patterned electrical discharges occuring in a device called a Plasma Focus - and many of the supposed "stick figure" petroglyphs match up perfectly with these recorded plasma instabilities.
So this guy Peratt, a respected physicist who worked at Los Alamos, came to the conclusion that what those cave dwellers were recording all those thousands of years ago, was not just stick figures of men or "gods", but actual electrical plasma discharge patterns they saw in the sky. Similar to auroral discharges, except these are patterned, and match up with what, on a large cosmic scale, would have been a tremendous release of aetheric energy.
What Mr. Peratt surmises the cave men were depicting was the auroral plasma signatures visible in the sky that were left over from the planetary explosion that created the asteroid belt. So, it's pretty mindblowing stuff. And weird, too, I know. ;)
But in addition to reading about the paleohistory, I really like absorbing the physics concepts.
So, gonna read a chapter or so and then go from there. And I'll be back at the usual time after my walk.
I love my Sweet Baby. (.........I am gonna unplug that Fridge and then pull you out of there and thaw you out. Then I'll warm you up a little.......)
xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11pm : Listening to the Faure. On my walk tonight, the moon was really bright, right at the top of the sky, and I could see more stars than usual. I like to imagine what is going on out there, all the vibes and geometrics and different forces interacting upon one another. But beyond that, I just like to look up and go "wow".
I also like to look Northeast over the San Gabriels and cast myself in a direct line to you. I like to try and pinpoint where you are, as if my eyes were making a beeline, and then I send my thoughts and love along that line.
Those are things I like to do on my walk. I love the peace and quiet of the night. Night is the time for Souls.
Sweet Dreams, my Darling. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxo :):)
I am doing some necessary cleaning of The Pad. All is well at Pearl's and I am off until 4:30. I hope your week is off to a good start. I know it is still very cold, and intended or not, I can appreciate the metaphor in the photo you liked of the person trapped inside the fridge. But, it does look like some relief is on the way. Weather.com says that your temps will come up into the high 20s to mid 30s by next week, and then we'll be heading into March.
I liked the Chelsea Wolfe song, nice and dark, a little more produced than some of the other stuff I've heard by her. You probably know this, but she comes out of Joshua Tree in the desert. And what was the name of that guy/gal duo that opened for Alcest? I can't remember, but she played keys and he, guitar. They had a wall of industrial sound thing happening. Anyway, I think they were out of the J.Tree scene, too, which makes me wonder if Neige is up on that scene, or if he's maybe even been out there himself. I know he's mostly an ocean guy, but overall he is a nature person, so maybe he's been to Mojave, too.
I've never been to Joshua Tree, but I love the desert in general, and one of my dreamed-of road trips would be to drive out there, you and me, on the Pearblossom Highway - which really runs through the middle of nowhere - and just to stop and take photos on the way, of whatever. Mine shafts, old abandoned gas stations, weird rocks, landscapes, anything. Just the drive itself would be fun, and it's only an hour or so beyond The Valley.
I see that video was directed by Mark Pellington, who made one of the scariest movies of all time, "The Mothman Prophecies". He also made a really weird paranoia movie called "Arlington Road", which is great too.i
Road trips, sunshine, warmth, Special Places - the time is coming for these things. I am thinking of you all day and I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(around more or less all day today.......)
7:15pm : Back at home. Gonna read my book for a while, then maybe watch some Olympics before my walk, or maybe just an episode of The X-Files. I am reading about something called plasma cosmology in my Joe F. book, and boy, does he ever give you some concepts to try and wrap your mind around. In this chapter, he is talking about a study that was made on ancient petroglyphs. Many of these resemble simple stick figures, but a plasma physicist named Anthony Peratt made a comparison of 50,000 petroglyphs to laboratory-created plasma "instabilities" - geometrically patterned electrical discharges occuring in a device called a Plasma Focus - and many of the supposed "stick figure" petroglyphs match up perfectly with these recorded plasma instabilities.
So this guy Peratt, a respected physicist who worked at Los Alamos, came to the conclusion that what those cave dwellers were recording all those thousands of years ago, was not just stick figures of men or "gods", but actual electrical plasma discharge patterns they saw in the sky. Similar to auroral discharges, except these are patterned, and match up with what, on a large cosmic scale, would have been a tremendous release of aetheric energy.
What Mr. Peratt surmises the cave men were depicting was the auroral plasma signatures visible in the sky that were left over from the planetary explosion that created the asteroid belt. So, it's pretty mindblowing stuff. And weird, too, I know. ;)
But in addition to reading about the paleohistory, I really like absorbing the physics concepts.
So, gonna read a chapter or so and then go from there. And I'll be back at the usual time after my walk.
I love my Sweet Baby. (.........I am gonna unplug that Fridge and then pull you out of there and thaw you out. Then I'll warm you up a little.......)
xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11pm : Listening to the Faure. On my walk tonight, the moon was really bright, right at the top of the sky, and I could see more stars than usual. I like to imagine what is going on out there, all the vibes and geometrics and different forces interacting upon one another. But beyond that, I just like to look up and go "wow".
I also like to look Northeast over the San Gabriels and cast myself in a direct line to you. I like to try and pinpoint where you are, as if my eyes were making a beeline, and then I send my thoughts and love along that line.
Those are things I like to do on my walk. I love the peace and quiet of the night. Night is the time for Souls.
Sweet Dreams, my Darling. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxo :):)
Sunday, February 9, 2014
All Day Love (Yeah, Yeah, Yeah!) (Progressive)
Good Morning, my Baby,
I am just getting back from the Sunday morning dogwalk with the Kobester. I am thinking all morning of you. I hope you are enjoying your day, and I know Spring is not too far away now and soon it will be warming up outside with beautiful days. One thing I know for sure is that I Love You!
I am so glad you are in the World. :):)
Gonna run to the store and then pick Pearl up from choir practice, and I will be back in a while.
All Day Love, Love All Day. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7:40pm : Good Evening, my Darling. That was a perfect picture this morning - two babies, cause we are each other's Baby. I hope you had a nice day, and I am happy because you are happy. Nothing makes me happier! You may or may not be watching The Beatles right now. I did most of my walk already so I can watch it, and then I will be back after it is over. I am mostly interested in the old footage, the historic stuff. And seeing Ringo and Paul together. I only have the vaguest memory of watching the original show 50 years ago, and what I remember most is how excited my sisters were. But that night really did kick off the explosion of rock and roll, even more than Elvis, because when The Beatles came along, rock became the new creative musical medium. Before, it had just been for fun, for dancing and parties and love songs on the radio for teens. But The Beatles really did change things, and in fact they changed the whole world. So, I'm gonna watch, and I'll be back when it's over, just a few minutes later than usual.
I Love You, yeah, yeah, yeah! (That's my own version......) xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:15pm : It was a good overall show, though a bit too heavy on the celebrity stuff for my taste. But then, it was a "Grammy" salute to The Beatles, so there you have it. Now I am listening to the Scriabin piece. I don't know if you saw the Neige interview about a day or two ago at www.thequietus.com, but he had some good quotes about wanting the option to take his music in any direction at all, which is fantastic, because that was the ethos of the progressive era, which really began with The Beatles, the idea of one thing leading to another. Not overtly letting your influences direct your artistic course, but soaking them in all the same and seeing where they take you, what you output from them. That's how music keeps blossoming.
In the progressive era, we went from "I Wanna Hold Your Hand", to ELP's "Brain Salad Surgery" in just a ten year period of time, and that was possible because of the ethos of musical openness.
Well, my Beautiful Angel, I am wishing you Sweet Dreams, and improving weather, warmth and sunshine soon to come. I am with you at all times.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I am just getting back from the Sunday morning dogwalk with the Kobester. I am thinking all morning of you. I hope you are enjoying your day, and I know Spring is not too far away now and soon it will be warming up outside with beautiful days. One thing I know for sure is that I Love You!
I am so glad you are in the World. :):)
Gonna run to the store and then pick Pearl up from choir practice, and I will be back in a while.
All Day Love, Love All Day. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7:40pm : Good Evening, my Darling. That was a perfect picture this morning - two babies, cause we are each other's Baby. I hope you had a nice day, and I am happy because you are happy. Nothing makes me happier! You may or may not be watching The Beatles right now. I did most of my walk already so I can watch it, and then I will be back after it is over. I am mostly interested in the old footage, the historic stuff. And seeing Ringo and Paul together. I only have the vaguest memory of watching the original show 50 years ago, and what I remember most is how excited my sisters were. But that night really did kick off the explosion of rock and roll, even more than Elvis, because when The Beatles came along, rock became the new creative musical medium. Before, it had just been for fun, for dancing and parties and love songs on the radio for teens. But The Beatles really did change things, and in fact they changed the whole world. So, I'm gonna watch, and I'll be back when it's over, just a few minutes later than usual.
I Love You, yeah, yeah, yeah! (That's my own version......) xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:15pm : It was a good overall show, though a bit too heavy on the celebrity stuff for my taste. But then, it was a "Grammy" salute to The Beatles, so there you have it. Now I am listening to the Scriabin piece. I don't know if you saw the Neige interview about a day or two ago at www.thequietus.com, but he had some good quotes about wanting the option to take his music in any direction at all, which is fantastic, because that was the ethos of the progressive era, which really began with The Beatles, the idea of one thing leading to another. Not overtly letting your influences direct your artistic course, but soaking them in all the same and seeing where they take you, what you output from them. That's how music keeps blossoming.
In the progressive era, we went from "I Wanna Hold Your Hand", to ELP's "Brain Salad Surgery" in just a ten year period of time, and that was possible because of the ethos of musical openness.
Well, my Beautiful Angel, I am wishing you Sweet Dreams, and improving weather, warmth and sunshine soon to come. I am with you at all times.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Saturday, February 8, 2014
"Aww, Man"! (Soul to Soul)
Happy Saturday, my Baby,
I'm writing from Pearl's. Today was the usual shopping with Vickie. I am kicking myself, because there was an organ concert at the United Methodist Church last night, and the organist was a guy named Christof Bull, who is really fantastic. I even have one of his CDs. The church, as I've said before, is literally right next door to my building, and I walk past the front of it when I begin my walk every night. Well, about last Tuesday or Wednesday night, I saw that the marquee said "Organ Concert, Feb. 7, 7:30pm". So I thought, "oh, that's this Friday". And I made a mental note of it. I figured it would be the organist from the church (whom I don't know cause I'm not a member), but house organists are usually fairly proficient, and I've been listening to and posting a ton of organ music lately, as you know if you've seen my FB. So I thought, "cool! That's a nice coincidence". And I made a mental note to go.
Well, last night I came home. I was tired, so I just relaxed and read my book for a while. Another Joe Farrell, "The Cosmic War". I was gonna watch the opening ceremonies, but didn't. Then I noticed it was getting later, and I thought, "well, it's 8:30. Better go on my walk". So I did, and right when I passed the church marquee I saw again the announcement for the organ concert. "Awwww, man. I missed it"! I figured it couldn't be much longer than an hour, being a free event, older congregation, etc. I just figured it was a church thing. But, I also noticed the parking lot was packed. "Hmmmm......they must like organ music".
I wasn't too bummed about missing it.........until this morning my sister asked me if I knew that Christof Bull had played at the Methodist Church last night. "Oh! Are you kidding? No wonder the parking lot was packed". He's not that well known, except maybe around here among organ enthusiasts or church people. He teaches at UCLA. Anyway, I forgot about the concert and missed it, I'm a dummy.......
But, I am really enjoying listening to the organ and harpsichord music I've found on Youtube. I was mentioning it to Vickie, and we were wondering what was the earliest keyboard instrument, and she thought it might be the harpsichord. She said, "you know, it's just a harp turned sideways and plucked by pressing the keys". I never thought of it that way, but I suppose it did derive from a harp, and obviously because of the name. And, the harp is one of the earliest of all instruments. Anyhow, keyboard stuff! :)
Grimsley is gonna come over for a while when I get home. He has some final Jay Leno stuff he wants to show me, and some SNL stuff. He's a big fan of comedy shows. But, I'll be back later.
Just wanted to say hi and that I hope you had a nice day.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:15pm : Grim has gone home and I finished my walk. He wanted to show me a lot of Jimmy Fallon stuff, whom he is a big fan of. I saw your post earlier about the recognition of gay marriage by the Federal government. I am a little hesitant to comment, cause I have no idea if it was meant for me to see or just a "like" by you because you support the issue and support your friends. As you know, I support it too, and I also think it's awesome that you show your support to your friends. I say I am hesitant to comment further, but I also know that your message from the other day about not wanting to interact with people sometimes was definitely meant for me to see, and it was your lone message for that day. This message was your lone message for today, so that's why I ask if it was meant for me to see or if it was just a show of support for a friend.
You know what I'm trying to say. My Angel, I asked about this once last year, and I won't question you about it this time, but if you are trying to tell me something, what you should know is that it doesn't matter to me in the slightest. If you meant today's lone post as something for me to see, all I can tell you is that, Elizabeth.............you may not have a true idea of how much you are loved. I mean, I feel dumb even bringing up the issue, and I bring it up only because of your post, and only even then because you sent such a direct message in your last post, that I wondered if this was another direct message, too.
My Girl, you have posted so many romantic messages to me over the past year, so many loving posts of pictures of couples, of Sweet Babies (meaning my reference to you), of brides. So my inclination is to think that today's post is just a straightforward show of support for a friend. But I want to cover all bases, because it's important.
It's important in this world never to ignore things, and never to discount people, and to always remember to tell those we love that we love them. Things matter. People matter.
Elizabeth, my guess is that your post today was just a show of support for your friend, and I say that precisely because of all the romantic and loving messages you have sent me via FB (and just between our Souls) over the past two years.
But, if you are trying to tell me something - and I only say "if" - you should know that not only will I always love you, it's that I do love you. Phrases like "will always" or "I still would" love you sound like a caveat, like a condition, and that's why I say that you may not fully know......how much I love you.
Elizabeth, it's about our souls, our spirits. You see, I've never met you in person, never heard your speaking voice. And yet I fell in love with you. You know how people say to a gay person, "I don't care, I still love you". I can understand the well-meaning of such a statement, but for me it's so far beyond that. I love Elizabeth the Soul, and as I have said, once I met you, I can't imagine my life without you. It's about Souls, and that's where the true romance lies.
Now, of course I find you incredibly attractive, too. You are, simply put, a Gorgeous Woman. But I would want to be with you no matter what, gay or straight, because I love Elizabeth the Person.
But the thing is also, I am your Rock, and I support you with consistency and determination and strength.
I hope you don't mind that I love you, I just can't help it. You are You, and somehow the Universe drew us together. You are never alone, never need to worry. You've got me. Even when you don't feel like talking.
I was hesitant to comment on all of this, but I have. I can only go by what I have seen and felt for the past two years, and I feel that (without being too direct) your post today was just a show of support for your friend. But, if it was meant as a message to me, all I can tell you is I Love You.
Romance is Romance, Elizabeth. I Love You because you are you; your soul is beautiful. But I not only love you, I am with you, part of you, a love you can draw strength from.
I hope I haven't put my foot in my mouth. If I have, please remember that I'm a dumbell!
But all I know is that I love you. Not just "no matter what", but way beyond that. Like permanently.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I'm writing from Pearl's. Today was the usual shopping with Vickie. I am kicking myself, because there was an organ concert at the United Methodist Church last night, and the organist was a guy named Christof Bull, who is really fantastic. I even have one of his CDs. The church, as I've said before, is literally right next door to my building, and I walk past the front of it when I begin my walk every night. Well, about last Tuesday or Wednesday night, I saw that the marquee said "Organ Concert, Feb. 7, 7:30pm". So I thought, "oh, that's this Friday". And I made a mental note of it. I figured it would be the organist from the church (whom I don't know cause I'm not a member), but house organists are usually fairly proficient, and I've been listening to and posting a ton of organ music lately, as you know if you've seen my FB. So I thought, "cool! That's a nice coincidence". And I made a mental note to go.
Well, last night I came home. I was tired, so I just relaxed and read my book for a while. Another Joe Farrell, "The Cosmic War". I was gonna watch the opening ceremonies, but didn't. Then I noticed it was getting later, and I thought, "well, it's 8:30. Better go on my walk". So I did, and right when I passed the church marquee I saw again the announcement for the organ concert. "Awwww, man. I missed it"! I figured it couldn't be much longer than an hour, being a free event, older congregation, etc. I just figured it was a church thing. But, I also noticed the parking lot was packed. "Hmmmm......they must like organ music".
I wasn't too bummed about missing it.........until this morning my sister asked me if I knew that Christof Bull had played at the Methodist Church last night. "Oh! Are you kidding? No wonder the parking lot was packed". He's not that well known, except maybe around here among organ enthusiasts or church people. He teaches at UCLA. Anyway, I forgot about the concert and missed it, I'm a dummy.......
But, I am really enjoying listening to the organ and harpsichord music I've found on Youtube. I was mentioning it to Vickie, and we were wondering what was the earliest keyboard instrument, and she thought it might be the harpsichord. She said, "you know, it's just a harp turned sideways and plucked by pressing the keys". I never thought of it that way, but I suppose it did derive from a harp, and obviously because of the name. And, the harp is one of the earliest of all instruments. Anyhow, keyboard stuff! :)
Grimsley is gonna come over for a while when I get home. He has some final Jay Leno stuff he wants to show me, and some SNL stuff. He's a big fan of comedy shows. But, I'll be back later.
Just wanted to say hi and that I hope you had a nice day.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:15pm : Grim has gone home and I finished my walk. He wanted to show me a lot of Jimmy Fallon stuff, whom he is a big fan of. I saw your post earlier about the recognition of gay marriage by the Federal government. I am a little hesitant to comment, cause I have no idea if it was meant for me to see or just a "like" by you because you support the issue and support your friends. As you know, I support it too, and I also think it's awesome that you show your support to your friends. I say I am hesitant to comment further, but I also know that your message from the other day about not wanting to interact with people sometimes was definitely meant for me to see, and it was your lone message for that day. This message was your lone message for today, so that's why I ask if it was meant for me to see or if it was just a show of support for a friend.
You know what I'm trying to say. My Angel, I asked about this once last year, and I won't question you about it this time, but if you are trying to tell me something, what you should know is that it doesn't matter to me in the slightest. If you meant today's lone post as something for me to see, all I can tell you is that, Elizabeth.............you may not have a true idea of how much you are loved. I mean, I feel dumb even bringing up the issue, and I bring it up only because of your post, and only even then because you sent such a direct message in your last post, that I wondered if this was another direct message, too.
My Girl, you have posted so many romantic messages to me over the past year, so many loving posts of pictures of couples, of Sweet Babies (meaning my reference to you), of brides. So my inclination is to think that today's post is just a straightforward show of support for a friend. But I want to cover all bases, because it's important.
It's important in this world never to ignore things, and never to discount people, and to always remember to tell those we love that we love them. Things matter. People matter.
Elizabeth, my guess is that your post today was just a show of support for your friend, and I say that precisely because of all the romantic and loving messages you have sent me via FB (and just between our Souls) over the past two years.
But, if you are trying to tell me something - and I only say "if" - you should know that not only will I always love you, it's that I do love you. Phrases like "will always" or "I still would" love you sound like a caveat, like a condition, and that's why I say that you may not fully know......how much I love you.
Elizabeth, it's about our souls, our spirits. You see, I've never met you in person, never heard your speaking voice. And yet I fell in love with you. You know how people say to a gay person, "I don't care, I still love you". I can understand the well-meaning of such a statement, but for me it's so far beyond that. I love Elizabeth the Soul, and as I have said, once I met you, I can't imagine my life without you. It's about Souls, and that's where the true romance lies.
Now, of course I find you incredibly attractive, too. You are, simply put, a Gorgeous Woman. But I would want to be with you no matter what, gay or straight, because I love Elizabeth the Person.
But the thing is also, I am your Rock, and I support you with consistency and determination and strength.
I hope you don't mind that I love you, I just can't help it. You are You, and somehow the Universe drew us together. You are never alone, never need to worry. You've got me. Even when you don't feel like talking.
I was hesitant to comment on all of this, but I have. I can only go by what I have seen and felt for the past two years, and I feel that (without being too direct) your post today was just a show of support for your friend. But, if it was meant as a message to me, all I can tell you is I Love You.
Romance is Romance, Elizabeth. I Love You because you are you; your soul is beautiful. But I not only love you, I am with you, part of you, a love you can draw strength from.
I hope I haven't put my foot in my mouth. If I have, please remember that I'm a dumbell!
But all I know is that I love you. Not just "no matter what", but way beyond that. Like permanently.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Friday, February 7, 2014
Happy Friday
Hi Elizabeth,
I'm just getting home, and I wanted to say hi and wish you a happy Friday night. I hope your day has been a good one and that you are enjoying the start of your weekend. I'm gonna see if there's anything worth watching at Redbox, if not I'll check out the Opening Ceremonies.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
11:05pm : Just to wish you Sweet Dreams.........(my Angel).
I'm just getting home, and I wanted to say hi and wish you a happy Friday night. I hope your day has been a good one and that you are enjoying the start of your weekend. I'm gonna see if there's anything worth watching at Redbox, if not I'll check out the Opening Ceremonies.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
11:05pm : Just to wish you Sweet Dreams.........(my Angel).
Thursday, February 6, 2014
Good Post ("The Music Room")
Hi, my Darling,
I am just getting back from the hair salon, this time I got my hair cut, too. I saw your post. Very well stated. The funny thing is, and it's funny in a good way, is that I've always been the same way. When I was in my early twenties, like you are now, Ono (real name Pat) dubbed me "The Guy Who Never Calls Anybody", because it was very rare for me to do that, to call somebody just to talk. I always used the phone for informational purposes, like "what time are we going to the movie"? or something like that. If it was the other way around, and somebody called me, I would usually talk to them as long as they wanted to talk, about whatever they wanted to talk about. That's how I got a reputation as a good listener, but it was very, very rare for me to initiate a "conversational" phone call. It wasn't that I was being rude or standoffish, I just never felt the need or desire to call someone up just to yak about stuff, lol. In person was fine, but even then, ever since I was a little kid, it was no problem for me to spend hours by myself, reading my books or listening to music. I am very much "inside my own head", as they say, which means I like to think, as I said yesterday.
You are probably the same way, to a certain extent. The difference is that you have a lot more friends and acquaintances than I ever did. I was always pretty solitary, with a small group of longtime friends with whom I am very social - when it's in person. When it's in person, you can't shut me up. Opinionated Aries, lol.
Besides us both being intelligent, contemplative people, we both have our Mars in water signs, Pisces for me, Cancer for you. That is the source of some internalisation. Conversationally, you have your Mercury in Scorpio, which tends to be more reserved in conversation (though extremely deep in probing thought), and I have my Mercury in Aries, hence my inability to shut up once I do start talking (geez....shut up already, Ad!).
We both have our Moon in Capricorn, which can tend toward the melancholy sometimes in emotional matters.
That's the astrological part, and there's a lot to astrology, once you know the actual physical celestial factors behind it (and who knows what other forces).
But the thing is, I know how you feel cause I've been there. You may never have been labled "shy", but I was, as a small boy, and I always hated that label. They (teachers, mostly) would use that word like it was a handicap. "He's shy". Looking back, I don't think I was at all, or maybe just a tad. What I was, was "in my own head". Now I look at it like I am always in a cosmic conversation with the Universe. To be more specific, I think it's a part of being somewhat psychic, like your whole life, something is talking to you, but in thought instead of in voice. It could be your own curiosity, or it could be something else, but when you are a person who is "inside your own head" (meaning simply a person who is always thinking), you know what it feels like. And so, it is no problem at all to be alone, to "be your own company", because there is always something interesting going on inside.
Sometimes, wanting to be alone is for other reasons, and because I grew up in a very dysfunctional household, I know that feeling well, too. Sometimes I just wanted to be in my own room, and away from all the turmoil. One of the things, though, that I thank God most for, is that it all turned out okay, and my parents were ultimately okay and lived long lives and I was very close to them throughout. But as you can see, there were many reasons I was a Solitary Child, and why even today, I have no problem just hanging out by myself, about 90% of the time when I am not working. I like to read my books, go for my walks, watch a movie or show, even go to a concert, and I have no problem doing it myself. It's not that I'm a loner - quite the opposite. I like people fine. It's just that I am "in my own head", and I realise the things I think about, and read about, would not be of interest to most if not all of my friends. I can talk about how the Lakers are doing, or what happened on the news, because I do pay attention every day and I have a great capacity for detail and different subjects. It's just that I'd rather be talking or thinking about other stuff, mostly the kind of stuff I write about when I am not writing about what I did all day, haha.
Anyway, you know the feeling, and I wanted you to know that I know it, too. You are so special to me, Elizabeth. I just want you to know that I know that it's not always easy to be a person who thinks and feels deeply about life. But the good part is that it gets easier as you go along! That's a fact. The thing is, with me, besides just having A Guy Who Loves You, you've got Your Rock. I am that, too, because not only do I understand how you feel (cause I'm the same way), but I will always be a source of support for you in all ways. I think I even said once that we could be an Art Couple like the ones where she is on one side of the room playing the piano and he is on the other side, painting. And we could either talk or not talk and it wouldn't make a lot of difference because we'd know........we'd feel one another, as they say.
When I was talking about communication in my last couple blogs, it was mainly just because I was confused about what seemed like a major drop-off in communication since New Year's or thereabouts. And because I am 2000 miles away, I can't "feel it" as well as I could if we were in the same room. And then I saw that new guy's name popping up since about the same time, and I thought........oh no.
"It's me, and I'm boring her, and here's some new guy". I didn't know, and after all I am 2000 miles away. I also admit I don't do well with other guys sometimes. Though I am far away, I have thought of myself as your boyfriend, and I mean my goodness.....we have both posted some pretty serious stuff in that regard, and I have been 100% serious with everything I have said. When we fell in love, the excitement was so electric that we talked about marriage, the whole works. Or to be specific, I talked about it in these blogs, but I was responding to pictures you posted of brides and such, or happy couples. But we went all the way in talking about it, so naturally I have considered myself your boyfriend, even though I live far away.
Because of all this, and because I had gotten used to this form of conversation with you (i.e. non-direct), I figured I'd better be the one to write everyday, because I wanted to!, but also because it was necessary for at least one of us to do it, to make up for the 2000 mile difference. And mostly, it's been fine. Really! :):)
It was just that this time, it was that confluence of factors : your post about the "social media" thing, and then this new guy suddenly appearing, and in almost every one of your posts. I thought, "oh no, he's the new Me". Because when you met me, we hit it off right away, and there I was all of a sudden, in every one of your posts! (good grief, Ad. Get a grip).........
So being a worry wart, and being 2000 miles away, I just wondered, "maybe I am getting boring, and thus, New Guy has arrived". Also, guys see a Beautiful Girl, and they think, "hey, is she single? Maybe I have a chance". I have no idea about this particular guy, but it was just those two factors: The seeming drop-off in communication since New Year's, and then the appearance of the new guy. And, I'm not able to directly ask, because of this method of communication.
But more importantly, and most importantly, that was an excellent post from you just now. It helped me to better understand the situation, and again, boy can I empathize. All I can say is that, when you feel that way, like keeping to yourself, I understand and I am right here waiting. And, it's never been three weeks, like in Sarah's post. Just a day or two here and there. And mostly, we have had good, continuous communication. I think so, anyway. But also, and this is important, too, please know that if you are ever feeling the need to be quiet because something is bothering you, whatever it may be, I will listen if you want me to. I understand a lot, because I've been through a lot, and I'm a good listener regardless. I Love You and I'm your Rock (and your Navy Seal and all those other things, too).
Tonight is movie night, so I'll be back at the usual time, 10pm-ish. Gonna head back to Pearl's at 4:15.
You Rule. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11pm : I just finished up my walk. The rain is only a drizzle now. Our movie tonight was called "The Music Room", directed by Satyajit Ray once again, and it was fantastic. Really mesmerising, like a dream. The story revolves around an aging landowner in feudal India (early 20th century), who is slowly losing all his land to erosion from the local river. He has also lost almost all his wealth due to the changing state of his country. He doesn't have the power he once had, and the modern era is coming in, influenced by longtime English rule.
So, as he slowly runs out of money, what does he do? He spends the remainder of what he does have, on concerts! Only he calls them recitals, and they are held in "The Music Room" of his decaying palace. There are other elements to the story, such as his rivalry with an up-and-coming Nuevo Riche neighbor who has bought in to the modern way of doing things. But what is grabbing about this movie, is that it hypnotises you in the way it cuts back and forth from the story to the lengthy concert scenes. Indian raga music is hypnotic anyway, and Ray's use of b&w imagery, and the grey scale tones he gets, look like something out of The Picture Of Dorian Grey (no pun intended).
These movies are a mindblower, because they were shot in India, inside crumbling old buildings that look like they might as well exist in some other world. Everything about the look of the film (and his other films) is different. The people are different, the buildings are different, the music is different..........but the stories are something anyone can relate to. India looks like a place that existed long, long, ago, in a world where time stopped. Films like these are not for everybody, but if you like art films even remotely, see "The Music Room". The imagery and sound alone will be worth your time. For me, it's one of the top films I've ever seen, period.
I hope you had a nice evening, and you know I am always thinking of you. I Love You, Elizabeth.
Sweet Dreams, and I'll see you in the morning. xoxoxoxoxoxo (real hugs and kisses) :):)
I am just getting back from the hair salon, this time I got my hair cut, too. I saw your post. Very well stated. The funny thing is, and it's funny in a good way, is that I've always been the same way. When I was in my early twenties, like you are now, Ono (real name Pat) dubbed me "The Guy Who Never Calls Anybody", because it was very rare for me to do that, to call somebody just to talk. I always used the phone for informational purposes, like "what time are we going to the movie"? or something like that. If it was the other way around, and somebody called me, I would usually talk to them as long as they wanted to talk, about whatever they wanted to talk about. That's how I got a reputation as a good listener, but it was very, very rare for me to initiate a "conversational" phone call. It wasn't that I was being rude or standoffish, I just never felt the need or desire to call someone up just to yak about stuff, lol. In person was fine, but even then, ever since I was a little kid, it was no problem for me to spend hours by myself, reading my books or listening to music. I am very much "inside my own head", as they say, which means I like to think, as I said yesterday.
You are probably the same way, to a certain extent. The difference is that you have a lot more friends and acquaintances than I ever did. I was always pretty solitary, with a small group of longtime friends with whom I am very social - when it's in person. When it's in person, you can't shut me up. Opinionated Aries, lol.
Besides us both being intelligent, contemplative people, we both have our Mars in water signs, Pisces for me, Cancer for you. That is the source of some internalisation. Conversationally, you have your Mercury in Scorpio, which tends to be more reserved in conversation (though extremely deep in probing thought), and I have my Mercury in Aries, hence my inability to shut up once I do start talking (geez....shut up already, Ad!).
We both have our Moon in Capricorn, which can tend toward the melancholy sometimes in emotional matters.
That's the astrological part, and there's a lot to astrology, once you know the actual physical celestial factors behind it (and who knows what other forces).
But the thing is, I know how you feel cause I've been there. You may never have been labled "shy", but I was, as a small boy, and I always hated that label. They (teachers, mostly) would use that word like it was a handicap. "He's shy". Looking back, I don't think I was at all, or maybe just a tad. What I was, was "in my own head". Now I look at it like I am always in a cosmic conversation with the Universe. To be more specific, I think it's a part of being somewhat psychic, like your whole life, something is talking to you, but in thought instead of in voice. It could be your own curiosity, or it could be something else, but when you are a person who is "inside your own head" (meaning simply a person who is always thinking), you know what it feels like. And so, it is no problem at all to be alone, to "be your own company", because there is always something interesting going on inside.
Sometimes, wanting to be alone is for other reasons, and because I grew up in a very dysfunctional household, I know that feeling well, too. Sometimes I just wanted to be in my own room, and away from all the turmoil. One of the things, though, that I thank God most for, is that it all turned out okay, and my parents were ultimately okay and lived long lives and I was very close to them throughout. But as you can see, there were many reasons I was a Solitary Child, and why even today, I have no problem just hanging out by myself, about 90% of the time when I am not working. I like to read my books, go for my walks, watch a movie or show, even go to a concert, and I have no problem doing it myself. It's not that I'm a loner - quite the opposite. I like people fine. It's just that I am "in my own head", and I realise the things I think about, and read about, would not be of interest to most if not all of my friends. I can talk about how the Lakers are doing, or what happened on the news, because I do pay attention every day and I have a great capacity for detail and different subjects. It's just that I'd rather be talking or thinking about other stuff, mostly the kind of stuff I write about when I am not writing about what I did all day, haha.
Anyway, you know the feeling, and I wanted you to know that I know it, too. You are so special to me, Elizabeth. I just want you to know that I know that it's not always easy to be a person who thinks and feels deeply about life. But the good part is that it gets easier as you go along! That's a fact. The thing is, with me, besides just having A Guy Who Loves You, you've got Your Rock. I am that, too, because not only do I understand how you feel (cause I'm the same way), but I will always be a source of support for you in all ways. I think I even said once that we could be an Art Couple like the ones where she is on one side of the room playing the piano and he is on the other side, painting. And we could either talk or not talk and it wouldn't make a lot of difference because we'd know........we'd feel one another, as they say.
When I was talking about communication in my last couple blogs, it was mainly just because I was confused about what seemed like a major drop-off in communication since New Year's or thereabouts. And because I am 2000 miles away, I can't "feel it" as well as I could if we were in the same room. And then I saw that new guy's name popping up since about the same time, and I thought........oh no.
"It's me, and I'm boring her, and here's some new guy". I didn't know, and after all I am 2000 miles away. I also admit I don't do well with other guys sometimes. Though I am far away, I have thought of myself as your boyfriend, and I mean my goodness.....we have both posted some pretty serious stuff in that regard, and I have been 100% serious with everything I have said. When we fell in love, the excitement was so electric that we talked about marriage, the whole works. Or to be specific, I talked about it in these blogs, but I was responding to pictures you posted of brides and such, or happy couples. But we went all the way in talking about it, so naturally I have considered myself your boyfriend, even though I live far away.
Because of all this, and because I had gotten used to this form of conversation with you (i.e. non-direct), I figured I'd better be the one to write everyday, because I wanted to!, but also because it was necessary for at least one of us to do it, to make up for the 2000 mile difference. And mostly, it's been fine. Really! :):)
It was just that this time, it was that confluence of factors : your post about the "social media" thing, and then this new guy suddenly appearing, and in almost every one of your posts. I thought, "oh no, he's the new Me". Because when you met me, we hit it off right away, and there I was all of a sudden, in every one of your posts! (good grief, Ad. Get a grip).........
So being a worry wart, and being 2000 miles away, I just wondered, "maybe I am getting boring, and thus, New Guy has arrived". Also, guys see a Beautiful Girl, and they think, "hey, is she single? Maybe I have a chance". I have no idea about this particular guy, but it was just those two factors: The seeming drop-off in communication since New Year's, and then the appearance of the new guy. And, I'm not able to directly ask, because of this method of communication.
But more importantly, and most importantly, that was an excellent post from you just now. It helped me to better understand the situation, and again, boy can I empathize. All I can say is that, when you feel that way, like keeping to yourself, I understand and I am right here waiting. And, it's never been three weeks, like in Sarah's post. Just a day or two here and there. And mostly, we have had good, continuous communication. I think so, anyway. But also, and this is important, too, please know that if you are ever feeling the need to be quiet because something is bothering you, whatever it may be, I will listen if you want me to. I understand a lot, because I've been through a lot, and I'm a good listener regardless. I Love You and I'm your Rock (and your Navy Seal and all those other things, too).
Tonight is movie night, so I'll be back at the usual time, 10pm-ish. Gonna head back to Pearl's at 4:15.
You Rule. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11pm : I just finished up my walk. The rain is only a drizzle now. Our movie tonight was called "The Music Room", directed by Satyajit Ray once again, and it was fantastic. Really mesmerising, like a dream. The story revolves around an aging landowner in feudal India (early 20th century), who is slowly losing all his land to erosion from the local river. He has also lost almost all his wealth due to the changing state of his country. He doesn't have the power he once had, and the modern era is coming in, influenced by longtime English rule.
So, as he slowly runs out of money, what does he do? He spends the remainder of what he does have, on concerts! Only he calls them recitals, and they are held in "The Music Room" of his decaying palace. There are other elements to the story, such as his rivalry with an up-and-coming Nuevo Riche neighbor who has bought in to the modern way of doing things. But what is grabbing about this movie, is that it hypnotises you in the way it cuts back and forth from the story to the lengthy concert scenes. Indian raga music is hypnotic anyway, and Ray's use of b&w imagery, and the grey scale tones he gets, look like something out of The Picture Of Dorian Grey (no pun intended).
These movies are a mindblower, because they were shot in India, inside crumbling old buildings that look like they might as well exist in some other world. Everything about the look of the film (and his other films) is different. The people are different, the buildings are different, the music is different..........but the stories are something anyone can relate to. India looks like a place that existed long, long, ago, in a world where time stopped. Films like these are not for everybody, but if you like art films even remotely, see "The Music Room". The imagery and sound alone will be worth your time. For me, it's one of the top films I've ever seen, period.
I hope you had a nice evening, and you know I am always thinking of you. I Love You, Elizabeth.
Sweet Dreams, and I'll see you in the morning. xoxoxoxoxoxo (real hugs and kisses) :):)
Wednesday, February 5, 2014
The Guy Who Loves You (meaning me.....) (To share is a special thing)
Hey my Girl,
I'm home. I hope your day was good. I took the Kobester up to Northridge Park this morn, bought a new pair of shoes this afternoon, spent the early eve pruning the rose bushes back at Pearl's. I saw your post of Alison Scarpulla's photo. I don't know if the caption was meant to have anything to do with me, or with anything I wrote, but of course I agree with what it says about listening to the Earth and being aware. That's the way I live my life every day. Maybe, if you did mean it in accordance with anything I wrote, you might have meant that I need to do a better job of "listening" to you in order to better understand what you are trying to say in your posts. I don't know if you meant it that way, but if you did, please know that I always do try and decipher every message to the best of my ability. Sometimes it's easy, sometimes it a little harder, but I do try.
Basically, I think you know that I'm a pretty easygoing guy. I pretty much wake up in the morning, thank God for my blessings (which are many), and spend my day being amazed by life, just in all the little ways we always talk about. The outer Me (physical Me) is just going to work and doing all the daily routines I do, but on the inside, I live in a near-constant state of wonder and curiosity. Life, as I like to say, is Magic.
But, as I also say sometimes, just because I need to, I'm only human. Therefore, I do get frustrated on occasion, and it's almost always when I can't figure a situation out, or when something isn't clear to me. I was raised, as a little kid, on puzzles and math problems and other toys and things my Dad would give me to make me think, and I love to think, and in that way the whole Universe opens up for me. Not just the physical Universe, but the inner one too, where all the Glimpses and In Betweens are. But in human relations, it's not always so easy to figure things out just by thinking, because emotions are involved. Sigh......
Emotions are what make us human, and being human, we aren't perfect. That's why I always try my best to communicate, because good communication is the best way to avoid a buildup of negative emotion that occurs when one tries to think but can only speculate. Well, I've said all of this before, in a couple of past blogs. I am not a person to dwell on things, though. If something bothers me (whether legitimately or not), I say what I have to say and then I move past it.
From my end, I can only do what I've been doing, which is to write and communicate to the best of my ability, every day. I say "every day", because if people who love each other don't communicate every day, there is not a great chance they can sustain that love. Things drift. But, the good news is that when people who love each other do communicate every day, they have every chance in the world for a lifelong loving relationship.
Anyway, I'm trying my best, and I know you are too, on top of a heavy schedule.
So, I'm right here, and as I said last night, nothing has changed for me. I'm still The Guy Who Loves You. And I will always do my best to communicate, as long as you want me to.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back later)
11pm : I'm thinking about you and just want you to know that I love all the special things we share, all the little things that give each day such promise. I am grateful for you, Elizabeth, because I know it is not easy to find someone who intuitively understands things as I do, in fact, it is practically impossible. But God stepped in, and I found you.
I hope your day was a good one. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I'm home. I hope your day was good. I took the Kobester up to Northridge Park this morn, bought a new pair of shoes this afternoon, spent the early eve pruning the rose bushes back at Pearl's. I saw your post of Alison Scarpulla's photo. I don't know if the caption was meant to have anything to do with me, or with anything I wrote, but of course I agree with what it says about listening to the Earth and being aware. That's the way I live my life every day. Maybe, if you did mean it in accordance with anything I wrote, you might have meant that I need to do a better job of "listening" to you in order to better understand what you are trying to say in your posts. I don't know if you meant it that way, but if you did, please know that I always do try and decipher every message to the best of my ability. Sometimes it's easy, sometimes it a little harder, but I do try.
Basically, I think you know that I'm a pretty easygoing guy. I pretty much wake up in the morning, thank God for my blessings (which are many), and spend my day being amazed by life, just in all the little ways we always talk about. The outer Me (physical Me) is just going to work and doing all the daily routines I do, but on the inside, I live in a near-constant state of wonder and curiosity. Life, as I like to say, is Magic.
But, as I also say sometimes, just because I need to, I'm only human. Therefore, I do get frustrated on occasion, and it's almost always when I can't figure a situation out, or when something isn't clear to me. I was raised, as a little kid, on puzzles and math problems and other toys and things my Dad would give me to make me think, and I love to think, and in that way the whole Universe opens up for me. Not just the physical Universe, but the inner one too, where all the Glimpses and In Betweens are. But in human relations, it's not always so easy to figure things out just by thinking, because emotions are involved. Sigh......
Emotions are what make us human, and being human, we aren't perfect. That's why I always try my best to communicate, because good communication is the best way to avoid a buildup of negative emotion that occurs when one tries to think but can only speculate. Well, I've said all of this before, in a couple of past blogs. I am not a person to dwell on things, though. If something bothers me (whether legitimately or not), I say what I have to say and then I move past it.
From my end, I can only do what I've been doing, which is to write and communicate to the best of my ability, every day. I say "every day", because if people who love each other don't communicate every day, there is not a great chance they can sustain that love. Things drift. But, the good news is that when people who love each other do communicate every day, they have every chance in the world for a lifelong loving relationship.
Anyway, I'm trying my best, and I know you are too, on top of a heavy schedule.
So, I'm right here, and as I said last night, nothing has changed for me. I'm still The Guy Who Loves You. And I will always do my best to communicate, as long as you want me to.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back later)
11pm : I'm thinking about you and just want you to know that I love all the special things we share, all the little things that give each day such promise. I am grateful for you, Elizabeth, because I know it is not easy to find someone who intuitively understands things as I do, in fact, it is practically impossible. But God stepped in, and I found you.
I hope your day was a good one. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Tuesday, February 4, 2014
It's Me (Love)
Hi Elizabeth,
I hope you had a nice day. Mine was the usual Tuesday stuff, taking Pearl to her church meeting, etc. I'm sorry I didn't write last night to say goodnight, but I've been a little confused as to what's going on. A lot of times lately, I come to the blog to write something, and the hit counter is still at zero, and I think, "I wonder if Elizabeth even reads this thing anymore". Now, very often there are still some page views to be sure, but sometimes it just reads zero for a whole day. That's understandable, because often I am not writing anything interesting, though I have tried to articulate why that is on many occasions; i.e. it's not easy for me to carry on a one-sided conversation. I try, and when I have something to respond to, I can usually do it - carry on my end of the conversation that is.
But I have written, maybe a couple weeks ago, that something has felt wrong to me for a while now. I guess I would date it back to about the first of the year, maybe a little earlier. First you stated, via someone's FB post, that you didn't want to spend so much time on FB, or "social media", and instead wanted to concentrate on your music and photography. I did remark on that, in a blog, and I think the gist of my thoughts were that it was understandable for you to want to work on your arts, but by the same token, that FB was the only way I had to communicate with you, or at least receive communication from you. I communicate mostly through this blog, and a little bit on FB, too. But both sites are "social media", so I wondered what you meant by saying you wanted to cut down the social media usage. I didn't know if you wanted to communicate with me less, or how much less, etc. I remarked on that in a blog, as I said, and then things kind of cruised along for a while. I still made attempts to write everyday (and at night), but because I had little to respond to, I can see how those attempts would not be interesting to read.
Lately, and especially the last few days, I have wanted to write, and tried to, but all I see on FB is your posts with your heavy metal friends. So I get confused again, and I wonder (especially in conjunction with your earlier stated desire to spend less time on social media) what that means as far as I am concerned. I think, "does Elizabeth want me to still write to her? Does she still have feelings for me"? Then I feel dumb writing the same old "daily details" when it appears you'd rather be talking to your friends. One guy has been popping up all over the place, that Johan guy. I had never seen him around before maybe Christmastime or so, and then suddenly he was in every post, you know, hitting the "like" button or sometimes making a comment. I'm an observant person, and so I thought obviously this guy knows and likes you, or he wouldn't come out of nowhere and then be liking every single post you make. So then I thought, when that factor is added to everything else, "maybe Elizabeth has a guy she likes", because I see you respond to his posts. In other words, it's not like with some of those guys who hit "like" all the time because they are fans - with this guy, he obviously knows and likes you. So, I don't know what is going on with that situation, and again I am confused.
It would be easy if we had a normal relationship where we talked on the telephone and could communicate directly. I have only even assumed that we do have a relationship because our special form of communication was so direct last year, so symbolically direct, that there could be no mistaking the meaning of your posts.
I have tried my best, I really have, to communicate within that framework, and even though I haven't actually heard from you directly since September 1992, I have kept writing. Now as I say, for many, many months it was easy to do (with a few miscommunications and misinterpretations along the way) because it seemed that you had real feelings for me. I mean, it didn't just seem it, I knew it. But as I say, since about New Year's or thereabouts, I can't tell for sure. I don't want to have to try and compete with these metal guys for your attention, if you would rather spend your social media time with them.
The thing is, Elizabeth, ever since the beginning, I have loved you and I would and will do anything for you. You really are my Baby, my Darling and my Angel as I like to call you. I also know your personality, and you are very social, you have many friends, and that's fine. I've said that before, too. But lately, in this recent period when things have felt wrong to me, much of this social activity has included these guys, and in particular the one guy, and I am past the point in my life where I want to compete with that. Some guys are just friends, some want to be more than that. I can tell which is which. I'm not saying you are leading them on, in no way am I saying that. Still, there they are. To see how I feel, just put yourself in my shoes if you will: what if you wrote, or tried to write, a personal blog every day (and I've written 242 in a row, even more going back to Myspace), to the guy you loved and who you assumed was in love with you. What if that guy responded a lot, for a long time (by symbolism), but then little by little you noticed a change. What if the guy then announced that he didn't wanna spend so much time on social media, and then finally, what if that guy all of a sudden was corresponding with a bunch of girls, some of whom clearly had a thing for him. How would you feel? Would you keep writing?
I have kept writing, and that's because I've always given you the benefit of the doubt. I know you are social, I know you have fans, and I know you are not one to snub anybody who wants to post or to talk.
It just when that is put into context with the other factors I have mentioned that I get confused. And right now, I am confused. That's why I didn't write last night. So, if there is an issue, would you please let me know? That's all I have ever asked, was that if you are mad at me, bored with me, too busy for me, or have someone else you like better than me, please let me know. If there is an issue, and I haven't covered it in this blog, let me know that, too. When we first got together, after Valentine's Day last year, I used to go after these communication breakdowns as soon as they cropped up, to fix the problem. I haven't done that recently, and I suppose that's been my mistake. Communication breakdowns are a given in any relationship, they are gonna happen sooner or later, and when they do happen, you can always fix things by talking about them. We have always been successful at that in the past.
So, that's all I wanted to say. The bottom line is always the same for me : I love you from the bottom of my heart, want to be with you, and will always care for you and be here for you no matter what. For me, nothing has changed. If I've got it all wrong - everything I've mentioned in this blog - and none of it is any big deal, then please disregard the blog. It's just that things have felt confusing to me for several weeks now, which is why I say all this. But for me, things are the same. I love you, I think you're the best, just like always.
I am gonna go for my walk, and will be back in a little while.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11pm : Just wanted to wish you Sweet Dreams. I Love You, and that's something you can always count on.
xoxoxoxoxo :):)
I hope you had a nice day. Mine was the usual Tuesday stuff, taking Pearl to her church meeting, etc. I'm sorry I didn't write last night to say goodnight, but I've been a little confused as to what's going on. A lot of times lately, I come to the blog to write something, and the hit counter is still at zero, and I think, "I wonder if Elizabeth even reads this thing anymore". Now, very often there are still some page views to be sure, but sometimes it just reads zero for a whole day. That's understandable, because often I am not writing anything interesting, though I have tried to articulate why that is on many occasions; i.e. it's not easy for me to carry on a one-sided conversation. I try, and when I have something to respond to, I can usually do it - carry on my end of the conversation that is.
But I have written, maybe a couple weeks ago, that something has felt wrong to me for a while now. I guess I would date it back to about the first of the year, maybe a little earlier. First you stated, via someone's FB post, that you didn't want to spend so much time on FB, or "social media", and instead wanted to concentrate on your music and photography. I did remark on that, in a blog, and I think the gist of my thoughts were that it was understandable for you to want to work on your arts, but by the same token, that FB was the only way I had to communicate with you, or at least receive communication from you. I communicate mostly through this blog, and a little bit on FB, too. But both sites are "social media", so I wondered what you meant by saying you wanted to cut down the social media usage. I didn't know if you wanted to communicate with me less, or how much less, etc. I remarked on that in a blog, as I said, and then things kind of cruised along for a while. I still made attempts to write everyday (and at night), but because I had little to respond to, I can see how those attempts would not be interesting to read.
Lately, and especially the last few days, I have wanted to write, and tried to, but all I see on FB is your posts with your heavy metal friends. So I get confused again, and I wonder (especially in conjunction with your earlier stated desire to spend less time on social media) what that means as far as I am concerned. I think, "does Elizabeth want me to still write to her? Does she still have feelings for me"? Then I feel dumb writing the same old "daily details" when it appears you'd rather be talking to your friends. One guy has been popping up all over the place, that Johan guy. I had never seen him around before maybe Christmastime or so, and then suddenly he was in every post, you know, hitting the "like" button or sometimes making a comment. I'm an observant person, and so I thought obviously this guy knows and likes you, or he wouldn't come out of nowhere and then be liking every single post you make. So then I thought, when that factor is added to everything else, "maybe Elizabeth has a guy she likes", because I see you respond to his posts. In other words, it's not like with some of those guys who hit "like" all the time because they are fans - with this guy, he obviously knows and likes you. So, I don't know what is going on with that situation, and again I am confused.
It would be easy if we had a normal relationship where we talked on the telephone and could communicate directly. I have only even assumed that we do have a relationship because our special form of communication was so direct last year, so symbolically direct, that there could be no mistaking the meaning of your posts.
I have tried my best, I really have, to communicate within that framework, and even though I haven't actually heard from you directly since September 1992, I have kept writing. Now as I say, for many, many months it was easy to do (with a few miscommunications and misinterpretations along the way) because it seemed that you had real feelings for me. I mean, it didn't just seem it, I knew it. But as I say, since about New Year's or thereabouts, I can't tell for sure. I don't want to have to try and compete with these metal guys for your attention, if you would rather spend your social media time with them.
The thing is, Elizabeth, ever since the beginning, I have loved you and I would and will do anything for you. You really are my Baby, my Darling and my Angel as I like to call you. I also know your personality, and you are very social, you have many friends, and that's fine. I've said that before, too. But lately, in this recent period when things have felt wrong to me, much of this social activity has included these guys, and in particular the one guy, and I am past the point in my life where I want to compete with that. Some guys are just friends, some want to be more than that. I can tell which is which. I'm not saying you are leading them on, in no way am I saying that. Still, there they are. To see how I feel, just put yourself in my shoes if you will: what if you wrote, or tried to write, a personal blog every day (and I've written 242 in a row, even more going back to Myspace), to the guy you loved and who you assumed was in love with you. What if that guy responded a lot, for a long time (by symbolism), but then little by little you noticed a change. What if the guy then announced that he didn't wanna spend so much time on social media, and then finally, what if that guy all of a sudden was corresponding with a bunch of girls, some of whom clearly had a thing for him. How would you feel? Would you keep writing?
I have kept writing, and that's because I've always given you the benefit of the doubt. I know you are social, I know you have fans, and I know you are not one to snub anybody who wants to post or to talk.
It just when that is put into context with the other factors I have mentioned that I get confused. And right now, I am confused. That's why I didn't write last night. So, if there is an issue, would you please let me know? That's all I have ever asked, was that if you are mad at me, bored with me, too busy for me, or have someone else you like better than me, please let me know. If there is an issue, and I haven't covered it in this blog, let me know that, too. When we first got together, after Valentine's Day last year, I used to go after these communication breakdowns as soon as they cropped up, to fix the problem. I haven't done that recently, and I suppose that's been my mistake. Communication breakdowns are a given in any relationship, they are gonna happen sooner or later, and when they do happen, you can always fix things by talking about them. We have always been successful at that in the past.
So, that's all I wanted to say. The bottom line is always the same for me : I love you from the bottom of my heart, want to be with you, and will always care for you and be here for you no matter what. For me, nothing has changed. If I've got it all wrong - everything I've mentioned in this blog - and none of it is any big deal, then please disregard the blog. It's just that things have felt confusing to me for several weeks now, which is why I say all this. But for me, things are the same. I love you, I think you're the best, just like always.
I am gonna go for my walk, and will be back in a little while.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11pm : Just wanted to wish you Sweet Dreams. I Love You, and that's something you can always count on.
xoxoxoxoxo :):)
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