Happy Late Night, my Darling,
I hope you had a nice day. Mine was routine (of course, lol), but busy. Still very hot here, and when I left to drive up to Trader Joe's at around 2pm, I noticed a ton of smoke coming from near the Mission Point area. That's the local mountain I hiked up to the top of last year. There was a brush fire, and it turned out to be on the other side of the mountain, in Santa Clarita, near the Towsley Canyon park that I also hiked a few times. It was about a mile or so from my very favorite trail - Rice Canyon, and I am glad that they put it out fairly quickly. It took over 200 firefighters and a couple helicopters! So that was the big deal for the day.
As for my new project, I will just write in short bursts here and there, because I just don't have the time I used to have to write at length. And when I do have time, I am often tired, due to the nature of the nighttime sleeping situation here at Pearl's. We have her taking Melatonin now, so hopefully that will help. In the old days, I used to walk over to the Oviatt totally focused, and just start in. In re-reading my book, I can hardly believe I held all that information in my head, but I did, and I was able to get it all out, and onto paper.
I have a million questions about what happened to me, but even so I understand a lot of it. It has taken me many, many years to come to this point. It's funny, because the mid-80s I had little to no interest in any of this stuff - secret military operations, air force bases, underground bases, memories, missing time, et al. If you look at my "books" listed on FB, you know I read about a lot of alternative stuff, what the average person would call "conspiracy" books. But the average person has no idea - literally - what goes on in the world.
I never did. In the 80s, I was vehemently against Reagan, and I thought communism was cool, but that was the extent of it. I was very, very political, but on a surface level. I had no idea that there was a "behind-the-scenes", let alone having any information about it. As for aliens and UFOs, I saw "Close Encounters Of The Third Kind" in 1977 and thought it was a great movie. But that was it.
Before 1989, and really before the mid-90s, my reading consisted mostly of fiction, my favorites being of course Stephen King and other horror writers. I read a lot of true crime, books about serial killers and that kind of stuff. I really should have been a detective, lol.
But in October 1993, my life changed, because one day, without trying to, I recovered a memory. Now, I don't like to use that term because is has a lot of negative connotations due to some phony-baloney psychologists who have written books about the "falsehood" of recovered memory. The phenomenon was much in the news in the late 80s and early 90s, and often dealt with adults who had recalled buried memories of child abuse, that often was associated with Satanic cults and things of that nature. I am not a fan of a lot of psychologists, because like any discipline (even something like music) there are good practitioners and downright lousy (even phony) ones. I know that, on the other end, there are a lot of phony-baloney people who make claims about things, claims of child abuse, of alien abductions, you name it. So there are charlatans on both ends, and I stay out of those things. You know me, and you know that I am not a joiner of groups, nor am I easily succeptible to belief. Everything in my life - everything - is run through a psychic filter. I get a feel for things, and I get a feel for truth. Once I get a feel, then I run it down with a ton of information, by reading mostly. At any rate, suffice to say that, post 1993, my reading habits changed, and at that point I wanted to know as much about what I will call "buried" subjects as I could get my hands on.
Subjects that nobody wanted to talk about.
One of the first subjects I delved into was MK Ultra, the now fairly famous (or infamous!) CIA program that was run mostly in the 1950s, that involved all kinds of mind control. That term has become a cliche, but there was really a lot of science behind it, science involving the study of the lobes of the brain, and which functions were controlled in a given area. That science, purely evil in my opinion, was pioneered in Nazi Germany, and after the war many Nazi scientists were surreptitously brought over here to America, lest the Soviets get them. The CIA was also formed right after the war, in 1947, and that was when a lot of really sinister research began in this country. It is also when the UFO phenomenon began.
Because this is a "short burst" of writing tonight, what I am interested in at the moment, concerning my own life, is studying the different states of consciousness, between waking and sleep. A normal person, on a normal day, experiences basically those two states, with perhaps brief spells of what are called "alpha" or hypnogogic states in between wakefulness and sleep, and even more powerfully, between the end of sleep and waking up in the morning. That is when many dreams occur.
But just as there are those "normal" or day-to-day states of hypnogogia, ones experienced by most people, there are also other forms of hypnogogic or altered consciousness. One of them is "state of shock", which can be experienced in full wakefulness by a person under extreme stress, such as a soldier on a battlefield. The Nazis - and the scientists at work for the CIA during MK Ultra - also discovered that this stress could be artificially created, and that sections of the brain could be manipulated, through the use of drugs and hypnosis, to produce a hypnogogic state in a subject, in a state of full wakefulness.
In this way, a subject could be manipulated to do things while in that state, and, having done them, could then be brought out of the state with no memory of what he had done. That is the story of Sirhan Sirhan and the Robert F. Kennedy assassination. Mind control, then, is not a cliche but a very real and ultra-sinister science, utilised by people who wish to control things, control governments, world affairs, etc.
A form of mind control is to cause a person to forget that a section of their life has taken place. This section cannot be too long, or the deception won't work, but at any rate, the phenomenon is known as missing time.
This is what I experienced, although I wasn't aware of it. I also experienced amnesia, though I wasn't aware of that, either, until four years after the fact.
That is what I will be exploring at first, just questions involving memory, not just for myself, but as to how an event like mine can go unacknowledged for 26 years, without a single person ever having mentioned it besides myself. I am interested in how a known event, such as Roswell, was covered up in the first place, being as there must have been at least 25 to 50 people in that town who witnessed, knew about, or had heard about what had happened there in July 1947.
Ditto Northridge in September 1989, though what happened here isn't strictly a UFO story. There were many witnesses, however, and I am wondering how they've all kept silent for all these years, and that is a topic I will perhaps explore in my next short burst of writing.
Tonight the hour is late, so I will post now.
I Love You, Elizabeth! Thanks for reading, and I will now send you Sweet Dreams and see you in the morn.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
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