Good Afternoon, my Angel,
I just picked up Pearl from the hair salon, so I think I'm gonna head out for another mid-day, short but sweet, park excursion. I figure "why not", since I'm on a roll this month. Might as well do one on the last day of July, which has been pretty special. I wish you were coming with me, but if you were, we'd go in early evening. I would never subject you to a Hundred Degree Hike, lol.
But we will go on many nature walks, and when we do, we will find a beautiful tree to stand under, like the couple in this morning's picture.
I hope you are enjoying your day. I will be back here at Pearl's at 4:30.
I Love You So Much! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11pm: Hi, Elizabeth. I'm sorry I didn't post on FB tonight. I wasn't feeling very peppy, you can probably guess why. I don't wanna write a big explanation tonight, those take me a couple hours or more, and I'm just not up to it right now. I also don't wanna spoil the vibe while you are working on your musical project, so if you could let me know when you are back from Chicago, I will write more then.
Don't worry about anything. You know how I am, I have to let things process so I can express myself with a balanced perspective. I do have a couple things I need to say, though, and when you are back home I will do so. I hope the music is coming along well.
Adam
Thursday, July 31, 2014
Wednesday, July 30, 2014
Lucky Guy (that's me) :):) (Placerita) (Blend)
Happy Noontime, my Darling,
I love the four-leaf clover! I have never found one, and that's probably because you are finding them all, lol. You can be lucky for both of us, but in truth, I am very lucky too, and You are the reason. :):)
I like all your posts this morning. That Victor Hugo quote is awesome, and that power of nature, the way it communicates, is what I was trying to describe last night.
It's another hot one today, but I am gonna head out in a few minutes and maybe drive back up to Lilac Lane to scope out the trailhead there. At some point I wanna do the north half of Santa Susana State Park, which is where Spahn Ranch is located, and I think it has to be accessed from Lilac, so today is mainly just to have a look. If it's not a major-league downhill type of thing, I may start walking and see how far I can go in, but I also have to fill out and mail Grimsley's birthday card (his b-day is tomorrow), and I wanna go over to FedEx Kinko's to use their printer to make him a copy of one of my Aliso Canyon pictures, to put in the card. Then whatever time I have left before my afternoon shift I will use to check out the trailhead.
It's a beautiful day, my Angel!
I Love You, from your Lucky Guy.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back at 4:30)
7:05pm : Good Evening, my Darling. I am home. I wound up not going to Lilac Lane this afternoon because it was roasting hot, and I have a pretty good idea that it's a downhill trail, which means it would be uphill on the way back, and even though I'm a koo-koo bird who will hike in 100 degree heat, when I do that hike I wanna take my time and not have the heat be so much of a factor. So, I was initially gonna go back up toward Towsley Canyon, to a park right next door called Rice Canyon. Although they are seperate parks, they are both part of a bigger nature area called Santa Clarita Woodlands Park. So I figured I'd check out Rice Canyon, but when I got there I passed by the trailhead because it's hard to see until you are right on top of it, and there didn't seem to be any parking. By that time, it was getting late, so I went for the tried-and-true and drove a few miles further to Placerita Canyon, which is it's own seperate park.
I had an hour and fifteen minutes before I had to drive back, so I went in about a mile and a quarter; farther than I've been before. It's mostly a nice, flat trail, which is what I wanted today, and as usual there were almost no people. I got a few nice pics. I also got Grimsley's b-day card mailed, complete with a photo from Aliso.
I get to take it easy again tonight, since I've already done half my walk, so I am just gonna hang out and read, maybe watch a movie. I hope you had a good day, and I am sure you must have because it began with the four-leaf clover!
I Love You and I will write more later at the usual time.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:45: Tonight, Erik Satie, one of my favorite piano composers. Music that relaxes the mind. Well, my Baby, another interesting day. I am on a real trip with all these hikes, and lately things are starting to blend together: "Hmmm, here I am driving up Sierra Highway. Didn't I just do that"? Yes, but it was a month ago. I think because I am by myself a lot, there are not a lot of reference points, so it's all one big thing, something I am inside of. Even when I go on the hikes, there is never anyone there, so it's like being in a waking dream, lol.
What it is above all is fun, and I am super grateful that I have these opportunities.
I loved the photo this morning of Yosemite, at Bridalveil Falls. What an image captured by the photographer. You know, I think I have told you that my late best friend Dave S. was so fond of Yosemite that our drummer, way back when, gave him that nickname : "Hey, Yosemite"! For a while, it was all Dave ever talked about. When we went to see Uli Jon Roth at the Reseda Country Club in 1985 (a legendary show), we hung around to meet him, and Dave gave him some photos of Yosemite that he had shot. That's how much the place meant to him, and he wanted to transfer that feeling to Uli, who we idolised.
Right now, I think my friend Dennis might be up there with his kids. He mentioned he was gonna go. I have never been there, but it will be on our itinerary for sure. Back in the 60s, and before, they used to do something called a "Firefall" over one of the Falls, maybe Bridalveil. In a Firefall, the park rangers would be up there, and they would push a whole bunch of flaming tree logs over the Falls. Pearl and her family used to camp there and she says they saw one. A "waterfall" of fire and sparks. They don't do 'em anymore because of fire hazards, but that photo this morning reminded me.
Well, my four-leaf clover finding Angel, that's all I know for tonight.
What an amazing month it's been! (and we still have a day left)......
I Love You, Elizabeth, and I will see you in the morning.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I love the four-leaf clover! I have never found one, and that's probably because you are finding them all, lol. You can be lucky for both of us, but in truth, I am very lucky too, and You are the reason. :):)
I like all your posts this morning. That Victor Hugo quote is awesome, and that power of nature, the way it communicates, is what I was trying to describe last night.
It's another hot one today, but I am gonna head out in a few minutes and maybe drive back up to Lilac Lane to scope out the trailhead there. At some point I wanna do the north half of Santa Susana State Park, which is where Spahn Ranch is located, and I think it has to be accessed from Lilac, so today is mainly just to have a look. If it's not a major-league downhill type of thing, I may start walking and see how far I can go in, but I also have to fill out and mail Grimsley's birthday card (his b-day is tomorrow), and I wanna go over to FedEx Kinko's to use their printer to make him a copy of one of my Aliso Canyon pictures, to put in the card. Then whatever time I have left before my afternoon shift I will use to check out the trailhead.
It's a beautiful day, my Angel!
I Love You, from your Lucky Guy.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back at 4:30)
7:05pm : Good Evening, my Darling. I am home. I wound up not going to Lilac Lane this afternoon because it was roasting hot, and I have a pretty good idea that it's a downhill trail, which means it would be uphill on the way back, and even though I'm a koo-koo bird who will hike in 100 degree heat, when I do that hike I wanna take my time and not have the heat be so much of a factor. So, I was initially gonna go back up toward Towsley Canyon, to a park right next door called Rice Canyon. Although they are seperate parks, they are both part of a bigger nature area called Santa Clarita Woodlands Park. So I figured I'd check out Rice Canyon, but when I got there I passed by the trailhead because it's hard to see until you are right on top of it, and there didn't seem to be any parking. By that time, it was getting late, so I went for the tried-and-true and drove a few miles further to Placerita Canyon, which is it's own seperate park.
I had an hour and fifteen minutes before I had to drive back, so I went in about a mile and a quarter; farther than I've been before. It's mostly a nice, flat trail, which is what I wanted today, and as usual there were almost no people. I got a few nice pics. I also got Grimsley's b-day card mailed, complete with a photo from Aliso.
I get to take it easy again tonight, since I've already done half my walk, so I am just gonna hang out and read, maybe watch a movie. I hope you had a good day, and I am sure you must have because it began with the four-leaf clover!
I Love You and I will write more later at the usual time.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:45: Tonight, Erik Satie, one of my favorite piano composers. Music that relaxes the mind. Well, my Baby, another interesting day. I am on a real trip with all these hikes, and lately things are starting to blend together: "Hmmm, here I am driving up Sierra Highway. Didn't I just do that"? Yes, but it was a month ago. I think because I am by myself a lot, there are not a lot of reference points, so it's all one big thing, something I am inside of. Even when I go on the hikes, there is never anyone there, so it's like being in a waking dream, lol.
What it is above all is fun, and I am super grateful that I have these opportunities.
I loved the photo this morning of Yosemite, at Bridalveil Falls. What an image captured by the photographer. You know, I think I have told you that my late best friend Dave S. was so fond of Yosemite that our drummer, way back when, gave him that nickname : "Hey, Yosemite"! For a while, it was all Dave ever talked about. When we went to see Uli Jon Roth at the Reseda Country Club in 1985 (a legendary show), we hung around to meet him, and Dave gave him some photos of Yosemite that he had shot. That's how much the place meant to him, and he wanted to transfer that feeling to Uli, who we idolised.
Right now, I think my friend Dennis might be up there with his kids. He mentioned he was gonna go. I have never been there, but it will be on our itinerary for sure. Back in the 60s, and before, they used to do something called a "Firefall" over one of the Falls, maybe Bridalveil. In a Firefall, the park rangers would be up there, and they would push a whole bunch of flaming tree logs over the Falls. Pearl and her family used to camp there and she says they saw one. A "waterfall" of fire and sparks. They don't do 'em anymore because of fire hazards, but that photo this morning reminded me.
Well, my four-leaf clover finding Angel, that's all I know for tonight.
What an amazing month it's been! (and we still have a day left)......
I Love You, Elizabeth, and I will see you in the morning.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Tuesday, July 29, 2014
Back From Towsley Canyon (I'm Home) (Harvest)
Hi, my Angel,
I love your post! I just got home a few minutes ago after picking Pearl up from Golden Agers, and I saw it. That will be us before you know it, husband and wife. :):) Well, wife, you are gonna think your husband is a little crazy, because I went on another Hot Hike just a little while ago. About three miles total in this place called Towsley Canyon, which is on the back (North) side of the Santa Susanas. It's on the way to Newhall, near Placerita Canyon but not that far. About 13 miles from Pearl's. I had plenty of time to check it out, and at first there isn't a lot to see. I mean, it's beautiful, with great mountain views, but I am always looking for Strange Stuff. But then, after walking in a ways, you come to this gorge called "The Narrows" (it says so on the map, lol). It's a skinny little canyon between two rocky bluffs, and it was the highlight of my hike. This was true Boondocks, with rocks all over the trail, and a big ol' buzzing beehive nearby in a crevice.
I almost chickened out and didn't pass it. I thought, "What if those are Africanized bees"?
If they are, I'm toast! But then I thought that surely someone would have found out that unfortunate fact before me, even though I was the only one there on this particular day. So I passed the beehive and went through The Narrows. The bees didn't bother me, they just kept buzzing around. The whole trail is 5.6 miles, and I will do it one day when it's cooler. It was closing in on 100 today. But I am always well-hydrated, and covered-up (hat, shades, long sleeves, sunscreen). I took a few pictures as always, and I will post a few.
I thought of you while I was looking at some of the rock formations, and the rocks on the ground, too. It looks to be something different than the sandstone you see in the mountains and big boulders on the Valley side. Granite, maybe? I don't know. But I thought of you because I saw your post earlier this morning of the Lammas altar. I will have to do some Googling for more info on that altar, but I see different stones on the table, along with the symbols, candles and pictures.
Well, I am gonna post this now because I have gotta run to the Rite Aid pharmacy to pick up a prescription for Pearl before I head back for my 4:30 shift. I will post my pics this evening, when I get back.
I Love You, Elizabeth! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7:25pm : Hi, my Darling. I just posted some Towsley pics on FB. They are the usual fare, but it's fun to get a few from each location. Hey, here's a question for you. I know you can't really answer it, so it's rhetorical, but lately, whenever I pull my SD photo card adapter out of the jack, I get a message that pops up on the screen : "whoa there! When ejecting SD card, be sure to use the Files app". When I used to use CSUN computers, which had Windows, there was always a "safe eject" popup that told me when it was okay to safely eject my photo card. On my Chromebook, I've never seen any such popup, and in all my searching I can't find any "safe eject" app or mechanism. I've just been pulling the adapter out, ever since I got the Chromebook. But now I see I could corrupt my SD card and make it unreadible, which would be a horrific tragedy! So I can't have that happen.
I know you aren't able to answer. I'm mainly asking just to ask. I'll keep Googling and if all else fails I'll stop at Best Buy tomorrow and ask one of The Geek Squad.
Well, my hike at Towsley was at least 3 miles, so I've got it easy tonight (oh boy!). So, I am gonna hang out all evening and do my last little stretch later on.
I hope you are enjoying your evening, and I Love You very much! And, I'll be back later at the usual time.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:05pm : Sorry I am posting late, I was just trying to Google the solution to the SD card problem cause I wanted to upload some photos to Flickr. I still haven't found the correct way to eject the card, but I posted 'em anyway. I also Googled Lammas, and I see it is a rite of harvest, and of corn in particular. At the beginning of August.
I am a layman when it comes to Paganism, or even organised Christianity. I don't know any specifics, but what I do know - and it's freaking amazing, and you know it too - is the way the land feels.
The way of the surroundings. Their way, when there are no people around.
Well, just me. I am around, but I am quiet, and want to hear them talk. The surroundings.
So even though I don't know the specifics, I can feel them. That is why I have felt compelled to make these treks.
Once I started, I just got pulled in.
In ancient times, there were no distractions of progress to interfere with this feeling. What is amazing is that the land holds that energy, that feeling, that power.
And it just sits there and holds it.
And when you finally notice, you notice.
In the world, all the cars go by, people are busy.
But inside the land, the feeling is held on to. The Landscape = Patience.
Permanence.
That's the feeling I get, my Darling, when I go to My Places. And it blows me away. Not just the nature - "Oh, isn't it beautiful" - but the silent, patient power. The knowledge.
And that's all I know, for tonight.
I Love You, Elizabeth. Sweet Dreams........
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I love your post! I just got home a few minutes ago after picking Pearl up from Golden Agers, and I saw it. That will be us before you know it, husband and wife. :):) Well, wife, you are gonna think your husband is a little crazy, because I went on another Hot Hike just a little while ago. About three miles total in this place called Towsley Canyon, which is on the back (North) side of the Santa Susanas. It's on the way to Newhall, near Placerita Canyon but not that far. About 13 miles from Pearl's. I had plenty of time to check it out, and at first there isn't a lot to see. I mean, it's beautiful, with great mountain views, but I am always looking for Strange Stuff. But then, after walking in a ways, you come to this gorge called "The Narrows" (it says so on the map, lol). It's a skinny little canyon between two rocky bluffs, and it was the highlight of my hike. This was true Boondocks, with rocks all over the trail, and a big ol' buzzing beehive nearby in a crevice.
I almost chickened out and didn't pass it. I thought, "What if those are Africanized bees"?
If they are, I'm toast! But then I thought that surely someone would have found out that unfortunate fact before me, even though I was the only one there on this particular day. So I passed the beehive and went through The Narrows. The bees didn't bother me, they just kept buzzing around. The whole trail is 5.6 miles, and I will do it one day when it's cooler. It was closing in on 100 today. But I am always well-hydrated, and covered-up (hat, shades, long sleeves, sunscreen). I took a few pictures as always, and I will post a few.
I thought of you while I was looking at some of the rock formations, and the rocks on the ground, too. It looks to be something different than the sandstone you see in the mountains and big boulders on the Valley side. Granite, maybe? I don't know. But I thought of you because I saw your post earlier this morning of the Lammas altar. I will have to do some Googling for more info on that altar, but I see different stones on the table, along with the symbols, candles and pictures.
Well, I am gonna post this now because I have gotta run to the Rite Aid pharmacy to pick up a prescription for Pearl before I head back for my 4:30 shift. I will post my pics this evening, when I get back.
I Love You, Elizabeth! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7:25pm : Hi, my Darling. I just posted some Towsley pics on FB. They are the usual fare, but it's fun to get a few from each location. Hey, here's a question for you. I know you can't really answer it, so it's rhetorical, but lately, whenever I pull my SD photo card adapter out of the jack, I get a message that pops up on the screen : "whoa there! When ejecting SD card, be sure to use the Files app". When I used to use CSUN computers, which had Windows, there was always a "safe eject" popup that told me when it was okay to safely eject my photo card. On my Chromebook, I've never seen any such popup, and in all my searching I can't find any "safe eject" app or mechanism. I've just been pulling the adapter out, ever since I got the Chromebook. But now I see I could corrupt my SD card and make it unreadible, which would be a horrific tragedy! So I can't have that happen.
I know you aren't able to answer. I'm mainly asking just to ask. I'll keep Googling and if all else fails I'll stop at Best Buy tomorrow and ask one of The Geek Squad.
Well, my hike at Towsley was at least 3 miles, so I've got it easy tonight (oh boy!). So, I am gonna hang out all evening and do my last little stretch later on.
I hope you are enjoying your evening, and I Love You very much! And, I'll be back later at the usual time.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:05pm : Sorry I am posting late, I was just trying to Google the solution to the SD card problem cause I wanted to upload some photos to Flickr. I still haven't found the correct way to eject the card, but I posted 'em anyway. I also Googled Lammas, and I see it is a rite of harvest, and of corn in particular. At the beginning of August.
I am a layman when it comes to Paganism, or even organised Christianity. I don't know any specifics, but what I do know - and it's freaking amazing, and you know it too - is the way the land feels.
The way of the surroundings. Their way, when there are no people around.
Well, just me. I am around, but I am quiet, and want to hear them talk. The surroundings.
So even though I don't know the specifics, I can feel them. That is why I have felt compelled to make these treks.
Once I started, I just got pulled in.
In ancient times, there were no distractions of progress to interfere with this feeling. What is amazing is that the land holds that energy, that feeling, that power.
And it just sits there and holds it.
And when you finally notice, you notice.
In the world, all the cars go by, people are busy.
But inside the land, the feeling is held on to. The Landscape = Patience.
Permanence.
That's the feeling I get, my Darling, when I go to My Places. And it blows me away. Not just the nature - "Oh, isn't it beautiful" - but the silent, patient power. The knowledge.
And that's all I know, for tonight.
I Love You, Elizabeth. Sweet Dreams........
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Monday, July 28, 2014
Black Kitty Microchip? (I Love You)
Good Evening, my Baby,
I am home from Pearl's. Nothing special today, we took Kobi to the park this morn, early to avoid the heat. After that I was at home, reading and cleaning the pad. When I got back at 4:30, I noticed that The Black Kitty had a bare spot on her back, up near her shoulder. My first instinct was to think "oh no, she's been in a fight". Just like with her ear. I thought, at first, that was the result of a fight, too.
Then I looked at the bare spot and it was obviously done with a razor. Very clean and rectangular. There were also little dash marks that looked like stitches, only they weren't. My guess is that whoever snipped her ear must have come back, trapped her and microchipped her. It's gotta either be a clinic or the city animal control. Anyway, it's nice that they are doing these things, whoever is doing it, and then returning the cat(s) to their point of origin.
That was all the news for today. I did discover another potential trail for tomorrow called Towsley Canyon. It's a little farther away in Newhall, toward the area of Placerita Canyon. I may check it out while Pearl is at Golden Agers.
I hope your week is off to a good start. Tonight is usual schedule, if it ain't broke don't fix it, haha.
I sure do love you and think that You Rule. You are my Sweet Baby! I will be here til about 8:30, then back at the usual time to write more.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:30pm : Another quiet day but things should pick up tomorrow. I hope this Monsoon air blows out of here soon. It makes you feel like there is extra gravity pulling you down, lol. I like dry heat in Summer. I hope your day was good. I missed you today, so as always I hope everything is okay at home. I am right here as always.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I am home from Pearl's. Nothing special today, we took Kobi to the park this morn, early to avoid the heat. After that I was at home, reading and cleaning the pad. When I got back at 4:30, I noticed that The Black Kitty had a bare spot on her back, up near her shoulder. My first instinct was to think "oh no, she's been in a fight". Just like with her ear. I thought, at first, that was the result of a fight, too.
Then I looked at the bare spot and it was obviously done with a razor. Very clean and rectangular. There were also little dash marks that looked like stitches, only they weren't. My guess is that whoever snipped her ear must have come back, trapped her and microchipped her. It's gotta either be a clinic or the city animal control. Anyway, it's nice that they are doing these things, whoever is doing it, and then returning the cat(s) to their point of origin.
That was all the news for today. I did discover another potential trail for tomorrow called Towsley Canyon. It's a little farther away in Newhall, toward the area of Placerita Canyon. I may check it out while Pearl is at Golden Agers.
I hope your week is off to a good start. Tonight is usual schedule, if it ain't broke don't fix it, haha.
I sure do love you and think that You Rule. You are my Sweet Baby! I will be here til about 8:30, then back at the usual time to write more.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:30pm : Another quiet day but things should pick up tomorrow. I hope this Monsoon air blows out of here soon. It makes you feel like there is extra gravity pulling you down, lol. I like dry heat in Summer. I hope your day was good. I missed you today, so as always I hope everything is okay at home. I am right here as always.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Sunday, July 27, 2014
Bookstores! (I love 'em) (Sunday night chillin') (It's Mutual)
Good Afternoon, my Darling,
Happy Sunday! I am just getting home after typical Sunday morning stuff; church for Pearl and CSUN for Kobi. It's muggy and hot here, so I'm gonna stay home until it's time to go back.
Yeah, bookstores. While I must say that I love Amazon, because you can find anything there, and at a low price, too, I sure do miss the days of book stores and record stores. Even the chain bookstores seem to be going out of business these days. In Reseda, there used to be several excellent used book stores up until about 10 years ago, then they started going under. Now what I like to do is to hit the library book sales. You can find all kinds of good stuff there for about a buck or two per book. My problem is that I am slowly booking myself out of my apartment, lol. It's very small, as you know, and right now I've got three bookcases in here that are filled, and books are stacked on top of each bookcase as well. Then I've got books on the floor. All neatly stacked, mind you. :)
But still they are taking over!
If I was gonna have a bookstore, I would want it to be really alternative, a kind of occult/collectors bookstore, with all kinds of stuff that's weird or just different. Old books would be a specialty. There would have to be at least a little bit of dust on the shelf in that section. I'd have special events, like seances and trips to record EVP. Seances would feature absolutely no theatrics or phoney stuff, though. They would be very respectful. I'd have guest authors come in for signings - Dr. Joe, Stephen King, Edward Lee.....
I think there is still a place for the niche bookstore and record store, if done right.
Well, I know what I'm gonna do now : read some Giza Death Star until it's time to go back!
and probably play a little guitar, too.
I Love You, my Beautiful Angel. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(usual schedule....)
7:30pm : Just a check-in to say I'm home. Kind of a quiet weekend, just work and shopping really, but looking forward to the week ahead. I hope you are getting to do some fun stuff, too. Sometimes for me it's good just to recharge my batteries, so I'll just do my walk, in two parts, then later maybe watch an episode of "Danger Man" with the indestructible Patrick McGoohan. That's one thing I haven't been doing enough of lately, is watching the TV shows that I have on dvd. I ordered a bunch of 'em, entire series of X-Files, The Prisoner, Danger Man, Millennium. I need two of me to do all the stuff I wanna do.
I'll be here til 8:30, you know the drill. :)
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:30pm : Those are two beautiful things to post, Elizabeth. I love your friend's picture. Sebastian, that is. It's hiking season all over the country, and time to go up high! I am guessing that he is on top of a bluff overlooking one of the lakes, maybe Lake Michigan? I say that, rather than Mendota, because I have only seen level, rocky shores of that lake. A great depiction no matter the location.
And I love your post just now from Alison Scarpulla. The Rumi quote is very beautiful, and the photo itself is very You, because you are a seer, a diviner in the overall sense. You are tuned in to harmonic energy and how it connects to your life. If the Rumi quote is meant for me, then all I can say is that it's mutual because I have really come alive creatively since I met you, at least I sure have felt creative. My interest in the land, too. All since I met you. So if that's "my beauty", I see it in You.
You See, You Send, I Receive and I Send Back. It's a Relay, an Energy Cycle.
It's Love, and it's also Inspiration. It's often High Spirited.
So thanks, my Darling. Because it's harmonic, it's your energy and mine.
I Love You, Elizabeth. Soon we will do everything together.
Sweet Dreams, my Angel. I will see you in the morning.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Happy Sunday! I am just getting home after typical Sunday morning stuff; church for Pearl and CSUN for Kobi. It's muggy and hot here, so I'm gonna stay home until it's time to go back.
Yeah, bookstores. While I must say that I love Amazon, because you can find anything there, and at a low price, too, I sure do miss the days of book stores and record stores. Even the chain bookstores seem to be going out of business these days. In Reseda, there used to be several excellent used book stores up until about 10 years ago, then they started going under. Now what I like to do is to hit the library book sales. You can find all kinds of good stuff there for about a buck or two per book. My problem is that I am slowly booking myself out of my apartment, lol. It's very small, as you know, and right now I've got three bookcases in here that are filled, and books are stacked on top of each bookcase as well. Then I've got books on the floor. All neatly stacked, mind you. :)
But still they are taking over!
If I was gonna have a bookstore, I would want it to be really alternative, a kind of occult/collectors bookstore, with all kinds of stuff that's weird or just different. Old books would be a specialty. There would have to be at least a little bit of dust on the shelf in that section. I'd have special events, like seances and trips to record EVP. Seances would feature absolutely no theatrics or phoney stuff, though. They would be very respectful. I'd have guest authors come in for signings - Dr. Joe, Stephen King, Edward Lee.....
I think there is still a place for the niche bookstore and record store, if done right.
Well, I know what I'm gonna do now : read some Giza Death Star until it's time to go back!
and probably play a little guitar, too.
I Love You, my Beautiful Angel. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(usual schedule....)
7:30pm : Just a check-in to say I'm home. Kind of a quiet weekend, just work and shopping really, but looking forward to the week ahead. I hope you are getting to do some fun stuff, too. Sometimes for me it's good just to recharge my batteries, so I'll just do my walk, in two parts, then later maybe watch an episode of "Danger Man" with the indestructible Patrick McGoohan. That's one thing I haven't been doing enough of lately, is watching the TV shows that I have on dvd. I ordered a bunch of 'em, entire series of X-Files, The Prisoner, Danger Man, Millennium. I need two of me to do all the stuff I wanna do.
I'll be here til 8:30, you know the drill. :)
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:30pm : Those are two beautiful things to post, Elizabeth. I love your friend's picture. Sebastian, that is. It's hiking season all over the country, and time to go up high! I am guessing that he is on top of a bluff overlooking one of the lakes, maybe Lake Michigan? I say that, rather than Mendota, because I have only seen level, rocky shores of that lake. A great depiction no matter the location.
And I love your post just now from Alison Scarpulla. The Rumi quote is very beautiful, and the photo itself is very You, because you are a seer, a diviner in the overall sense. You are tuned in to harmonic energy and how it connects to your life. If the Rumi quote is meant for me, then all I can say is that it's mutual because I have really come alive creatively since I met you, at least I sure have felt creative. My interest in the land, too. All since I met you. So if that's "my beauty", I see it in You.
You See, You Send, I Receive and I Send Back. It's a Relay, an Energy Cycle.
It's Love, and it's also Inspiration. It's often High Spirited.
So thanks, my Darling. Because it's harmonic, it's your energy and mine.
I Love You, Elizabeth. Soon we will do everything together.
Sweet Dreams, my Angel. I will see you in the morning.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Saturday, July 26, 2014
Saturday Evening I Love You :):) (back from Aliso) (land)
Hi, Sweet Baby,
I'm writing from Pearl's cause I am gonna meet Grim up at Aliso right after I leave Pearl's. We are gonna do the usual end-to-end walk through the park, so I should be back between 8:30 and 9 at the latest. Today was all afternoon shopping with Vickie. I hope your day was good. I will check in when I get home.
I Love You, Elizabeth! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
9pm : I am back. Had a nice walk with Grimsley. It's getting dark just a little earlier in the canyon now, though, so we went all the way to the end, about a mile in, and then it was getting very shadowy in the groves on the way back. Next time I will turn back a few minutes earlier. You start hearing frog noises and weird scuttling sounds, lol. Nighttime is critter time. :)
Now I'm gonna take my shoes off for a little while and relax, then I will finish my mileage up a little later with a short CSUN walk. I hope you had a nice Saturday evening, my Darling.
I will write more at the usual time.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:40pm : I saw your post this morning about the UW environmental online courses. Are you going to enroll in any? I clicked the link and read a little bit, and I loved the quote from Aldo Leopold, whose legacy is being honored : "There are two things that interest me, the relationship of people to each other, and the relationship of people to the land".
You know, when I was out at Santa Susana on Wednesday, I came across a site in which some rock looked like it had been broken up or even blasted. It wasn't the quarry site, but looked like some old structure, because concrete was mixed in. Anyhow, there were all these interesting rocks there, small rocks of different colors.
I wanted to take one, or even a few, but in the end I didn't, because a sign at the trailhead asks that geological and archaeological features in the park not be disturbed. I thought, well, I guess that includes even small rocks that are on the ground. The rules posted on the sign inspired me not to take even a small rock, but what convinced me even more so is kind of what Mr. Leopold was talking about : the relationship of people to the land. In this case, of course I was thinking about the Indians and the sacredness of the place, to them.
But I was also thinking of myself and my own relationship to that particular piece of land, which I only just discovered last Fall (even though the area has interested me my whole life).
Everytime I have gone there, I have been alone, either totally or close to it, and it's a huge place. And I think, you know, one day I would like to be a caretaker of this place, in a manner of speaking. And so, to reference Mr. Leopold again, that is my relationship to the land. I would like it to remain untouched, and in that sense I would like to be a caretaker, spiritually for now, and perhaps hands-on in the future.
I know you are interested in the land and the wildlife near you as well, so you know that feeling of being pulled in by the land itself, and by it's creatures and spirits. It makes you want to watch over it.
Well, my Darling, today was a busy one, lots of shopping, then Aliso. I didn't take any pictures tonight cause I didn't bring my cam. But by Tuesday I'll be looking for a new trail.
Sweet Dreams, and I will see you in the morning.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I'm writing from Pearl's cause I am gonna meet Grim up at Aliso right after I leave Pearl's. We are gonna do the usual end-to-end walk through the park, so I should be back between 8:30 and 9 at the latest. Today was all afternoon shopping with Vickie. I hope your day was good. I will check in when I get home.
I Love You, Elizabeth! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
9pm : I am back. Had a nice walk with Grimsley. It's getting dark just a little earlier in the canyon now, though, so we went all the way to the end, about a mile in, and then it was getting very shadowy in the groves on the way back. Next time I will turn back a few minutes earlier. You start hearing frog noises and weird scuttling sounds, lol. Nighttime is critter time. :)
Now I'm gonna take my shoes off for a little while and relax, then I will finish my mileage up a little later with a short CSUN walk. I hope you had a nice Saturday evening, my Darling.
I will write more at the usual time.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:40pm : I saw your post this morning about the UW environmental online courses. Are you going to enroll in any? I clicked the link and read a little bit, and I loved the quote from Aldo Leopold, whose legacy is being honored : "There are two things that interest me, the relationship of people to each other, and the relationship of people to the land".
You know, when I was out at Santa Susana on Wednesday, I came across a site in which some rock looked like it had been broken up or even blasted. It wasn't the quarry site, but looked like some old structure, because concrete was mixed in. Anyhow, there were all these interesting rocks there, small rocks of different colors.
I wanted to take one, or even a few, but in the end I didn't, because a sign at the trailhead asks that geological and archaeological features in the park not be disturbed. I thought, well, I guess that includes even small rocks that are on the ground. The rules posted on the sign inspired me not to take even a small rock, but what convinced me even more so is kind of what Mr. Leopold was talking about : the relationship of people to the land. In this case, of course I was thinking about the Indians and the sacredness of the place, to them.
But I was also thinking of myself and my own relationship to that particular piece of land, which I only just discovered last Fall (even though the area has interested me my whole life).
Everytime I have gone there, I have been alone, either totally or close to it, and it's a huge place. And I think, you know, one day I would like to be a caretaker of this place, in a manner of speaking. And so, to reference Mr. Leopold again, that is my relationship to the land. I would like it to remain untouched, and in that sense I would like to be a caretaker, spiritually for now, and perhaps hands-on in the future.
I know you are interested in the land and the wildlife near you as well, so you know that feeling of being pulled in by the land itself, and by it's creatures and spirits. It makes you want to watch over it.
Well, my Darling, today was a busy one, lots of shopping, then Aliso. I didn't take any pictures tonight cause I didn't bring my cam. But by Tuesday I'll be looking for a new trail.
Sweet Dreams, and I will see you in the morning.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Friday, July 25, 2014
My Soapbox (but I got off it, so don't worry!) (I'm home) (sweet dreams)
Good Afternoon, my Darling,
Happy Friday! I like the doggie picture, it reminds me of some of the poses and faces Kobi makes when he's being cute. The dog in the picture thinks he's a Sheik! I've got all kinds of different names for different Kobi personas, such as "Mountain Goat" when he walks up high on the back edge of the sofa.
I am just hanging at home to avoid the heat. I've been here since about 11am. Took a little nap. Now I am browsing Western movies on Amazon, lol. It's a Guy Thing, probably, I know. :)
I agree with your first post, and frankly it's the reason I don't watch the news too much anymore. I mean, technically that's not true because I "watch" it everyday at Pearl's. She's got CNN running all the time. But I have learned, just by watching (which is ironic), that situations like what's going on in the Middle East, and with Israel and Palestine especially, has been going on for eons, and especially since 1948. I obviously have my opinions on these things, and many other world issues, and as I've told you, when I was younger I was very politically minded and saw things more in black-and-white, pure right and pure wrong, etc. Now, I am just describing myself and the way I was - I certainly don't mean you are looking at things this way. If fact, I don't know what your stance is on the Israel situation. I imagine now that that's what you meant with your Jon Stewart post; it really was just a straightforward post about that situation, injecting some humor into the discussion.
For the record, I do not support the right-wing government of Israel or their tactics. I also do not support terrorism of any kind, and these ISIS nutjobs in Iraq make me so mad that I'd be about ready to sign up myself to go fight 'em. In the case of Palestine, they have Hamas. In truth, I don't know much about Hamas. Some call them terrorists, some call them freedom fighters. It's an old, old story and it's just going to continue, and that's the problem, and it's why I don't "do the news" like I used to.
The News is really The Olds, the Same Old Story. It basically doesn't matter who the President is : there are certain behind-the-scenes policies, policies maintained by elites in Corporate and what is called "Old" money in America, that are going to continue to affect that region for as long as those policies are in place. The policies are carried out by every American President.
What do we want over there? Oil? That's a big part of it. Israel, with nuclear weapons and a well-funded highly technical and professional military, give us a proxy over there. That's partially why we fund that military with billions of American dollars. Do you know what kind of military Israel would have if we didn't help to fund them? A rag-tag military, much like their enemies. And they would be attacked from all sides. So by funding them, we have a proxy, an "in" over there. Same thing with Saudi Arabia, though that connection is far more tenuous.
I am going on and on, and this is why I don't "do" politics or world issues much anymore. You see, you can't just watch CNN and get to the bottom of things. You really have to be willing to do some heavy studying, and much, much reading - years worth - to get to the root causes of these situations. I have done that, and I started by listening to guys like Chomsky, who is certainly on the right track but even he doesn't go all the way, in part because he is an academic (and therefore must "toe a line" so to speak). He also has his own agenda because he hates the Right with a fierce passion. To really get to the truth you have to be dispassionate. You will never see me voting Republican, but I don't hate them as I thought I did in my twenties, mostly because it's wrong to hate people, and also because you can't put people in one big box like that.
I spent years reading about politics and situations in the world. It was never my main study (that would be rock n' roll!), nor was I ever willing to be a crusader and go work for the Peace Corps or something. It's just not my calling, and God Bless those who do that kind of work.
But I also wanted to get closer to the truth of why the world is the way it is, and eventually I gave up even reading The Nation and other established left-wing magazines because they are politically based. They can and will tell you "what's going on, on the ground", say, in Israel or Ukraine or wherever. They will report things that mainstream news won't report (and as an aside, I do think CNN and Anderson Cooper are very good for what they are, but it's still just "surface news"). But yeah, The Nation and other mags like that will tell you about Bush's secret agenda in some country or another, or Obama's (yeah, Obama is like all the other Presidents, militarily speaking). Those magazines and news sources like NPR will tell you the inside story of "what's happening on the ground", wherever it happens to be taking place.
But none of those sources, radio, print or internet, will get into the real history of things.
They won't tell you Why all these things are happening. And until we start talking about Why - the real Why - well, it's just gonna keep happening and happening. In the Middle East they've been fighting since Time Immemorial. Does anyone think they are just gonna stop all of a sudden?
Not if we keep talking about politics!
No, we need to first know Why, and to know Why, we have to find out where we can get that information.
That's why, as the years went by, I eschewed the news and supposedly "truthful" alternative magazines like The Nation (which might be truthful, but it's only a tiny bit deeper than surface level news).
What I did was to start looking for other sources. First I found Jim Marrs. His book, "Rule By Secrecy" I cannot recommend highly enough. It tells you the real history of things, of how things came to be.
I tried David Icke, too, and there is a lot of good information in his books, but I had to give up on him because ultimately he is too angry for me, and too much of his stuff is speculative, or has to be taken on faith alone.
"The Queen Of England is a shape-shifting Reptilian"!
Okay, David, how do you know this?
"People have seen her turn into a lizard".
Um.........well, I know a lot of people hate The Royals (I am not one of them), and I am not one to discount altogether the possibility that Reptilian creatures exist in another realm, and that they even influence Evil Behavior in some humans.
But if you are gonna state something that extraordinary about The Queen, you are going to have to give me a little more documentation, and some reliable sources. Please. :)
So while Icke's books are defininitely still worth a look, I had to have more.
And finally (you know what I am gonna say now), I discovered Dr. Joseph P. Farrell. He is the only author, besides Stephen King, who changed my life. SK changed it with his incredible, living/breathing stories, and Dr. Farrell changed it by changing the way I think.
I don't even know what to say about Dr. Farrell, except that a person will have their mind greatly expanded by reading him. He's not for the average reader. A certain degree of intelligence is required to understand the concepts he talks about. But, bottom line, he is the finest analyst of the overall world situation and the history of Planet Earth that I have come across, or that I ever will come across. With Joe, you really feel like you are getting to the bottom of things. Reading his books won't stop the bombs from dropping in Palestine, perhaps, but you will get an idea of why things are the way they are, even though he isn't really a political writer.
Well, I have rambled on long enough! (Get off yer soapbox, Ad).
Mind you, I am only describing why I don't "do" the news or politics anymore. I am not suggesting you not do them, or that you shouldn't pay attention to or care about what is going on in the world.
What I am suggesting - and it's only a suggestion - is that you don't invest your emotions too heavily, unless you feel so strongly that you are ready to go work for the Peace Corps or some other group.
I say, don't invest emotions too heavily because these fights have been going on for such a long time, and American policies will remain the same no matter who is President. And it's not just America, but also European policies, and Russian policies, and Chinese policies, and others. It's Elites.
If world affairs interest you, it's best to be aware of who those Elites are, and why they do what they do.
In the meantime, and this is most important of all, keep enjoying your life. Keep being yourself, and being kind to people. When you do that, you are creating happiness, and that is a good way to help the world to be a better place, in small ways, everyday.
I Love You, Elizabeth! I will be here until 4:15. Usual schedule all day today.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7:05pm : Good Evening, Sweet Baby! Just wanted to letcha know that I'm home. Nothing fancy tonight, except I'm gonna go to the store as part of my walk because I need avocados. Can't live without 'em! I should be here until 8 or 8:30pm, browsing Amazon and such. Happy Birthday to Stephane, too.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
11:45pm : I am listening to my favorite nocturnes of all, by Faure. I did my walk, got my avocados, and even stopped by the exercise yard at CSUN, by the gym, for the dreaded 15 minute workout. Overall, a low key day, but a good one also. I hope you had a nice day.
I Love You, Elizabeth. One day soon we will have great conversations about all kinds of things, anything and everything. For now, Sweet Dreams and a great weekend ahead.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Happy Friday! I like the doggie picture, it reminds me of some of the poses and faces Kobi makes when he's being cute. The dog in the picture thinks he's a Sheik! I've got all kinds of different names for different Kobi personas, such as "Mountain Goat" when he walks up high on the back edge of the sofa.
I am just hanging at home to avoid the heat. I've been here since about 11am. Took a little nap. Now I am browsing Western movies on Amazon, lol. It's a Guy Thing, probably, I know. :)
I agree with your first post, and frankly it's the reason I don't watch the news too much anymore. I mean, technically that's not true because I "watch" it everyday at Pearl's. She's got CNN running all the time. But I have learned, just by watching (which is ironic), that situations like what's going on in the Middle East, and with Israel and Palestine especially, has been going on for eons, and especially since 1948. I obviously have my opinions on these things, and many other world issues, and as I've told you, when I was younger I was very politically minded and saw things more in black-and-white, pure right and pure wrong, etc. Now, I am just describing myself and the way I was - I certainly don't mean you are looking at things this way. If fact, I don't know what your stance is on the Israel situation. I imagine now that that's what you meant with your Jon Stewart post; it really was just a straightforward post about that situation, injecting some humor into the discussion.
For the record, I do not support the right-wing government of Israel or their tactics. I also do not support terrorism of any kind, and these ISIS nutjobs in Iraq make me so mad that I'd be about ready to sign up myself to go fight 'em. In the case of Palestine, they have Hamas. In truth, I don't know much about Hamas. Some call them terrorists, some call them freedom fighters. It's an old, old story and it's just going to continue, and that's the problem, and it's why I don't "do the news" like I used to.
The News is really The Olds, the Same Old Story. It basically doesn't matter who the President is : there are certain behind-the-scenes policies, policies maintained by elites in Corporate and what is called "Old" money in America, that are going to continue to affect that region for as long as those policies are in place. The policies are carried out by every American President.
What do we want over there? Oil? That's a big part of it. Israel, with nuclear weapons and a well-funded highly technical and professional military, give us a proxy over there. That's partially why we fund that military with billions of American dollars. Do you know what kind of military Israel would have if we didn't help to fund them? A rag-tag military, much like their enemies. And they would be attacked from all sides. So by funding them, we have a proxy, an "in" over there. Same thing with Saudi Arabia, though that connection is far more tenuous.
I am going on and on, and this is why I don't "do" politics or world issues much anymore. You see, you can't just watch CNN and get to the bottom of things. You really have to be willing to do some heavy studying, and much, much reading - years worth - to get to the root causes of these situations. I have done that, and I started by listening to guys like Chomsky, who is certainly on the right track but even he doesn't go all the way, in part because he is an academic (and therefore must "toe a line" so to speak). He also has his own agenda because he hates the Right with a fierce passion. To really get to the truth you have to be dispassionate. You will never see me voting Republican, but I don't hate them as I thought I did in my twenties, mostly because it's wrong to hate people, and also because you can't put people in one big box like that.
I spent years reading about politics and situations in the world. It was never my main study (that would be rock n' roll!), nor was I ever willing to be a crusader and go work for the Peace Corps or something. It's just not my calling, and God Bless those who do that kind of work.
But I also wanted to get closer to the truth of why the world is the way it is, and eventually I gave up even reading The Nation and other established left-wing magazines because they are politically based. They can and will tell you "what's going on, on the ground", say, in Israel or Ukraine or wherever. They will report things that mainstream news won't report (and as an aside, I do think CNN and Anderson Cooper are very good for what they are, but it's still just "surface news"). But yeah, The Nation and other mags like that will tell you about Bush's secret agenda in some country or another, or Obama's (yeah, Obama is like all the other Presidents, militarily speaking). Those magazines and news sources like NPR will tell you the inside story of "what's happening on the ground", wherever it happens to be taking place.
But none of those sources, radio, print or internet, will get into the real history of things.
They won't tell you Why all these things are happening. And until we start talking about Why - the real Why - well, it's just gonna keep happening and happening. In the Middle East they've been fighting since Time Immemorial. Does anyone think they are just gonna stop all of a sudden?
Not if we keep talking about politics!
No, we need to first know Why, and to know Why, we have to find out where we can get that information.
That's why, as the years went by, I eschewed the news and supposedly "truthful" alternative magazines like The Nation (which might be truthful, but it's only a tiny bit deeper than surface level news).
What I did was to start looking for other sources. First I found Jim Marrs. His book, "Rule By Secrecy" I cannot recommend highly enough. It tells you the real history of things, of how things came to be.
I tried David Icke, too, and there is a lot of good information in his books, but I had to give up on him because ultimately he is too angry for me, and too much of his stuff is speculative, or has to be taken on faith alone.
"The Queen Of England is a shape-shifting Reptilian"!
Okay, David, how do you know this?
"People have seen her turn into a lizard".
Um.........well, I know a lot of people hate The Royals (I am not one of them), and I am not one to discount altogether the possibility that Reptilian creatures exist in another realm, and that they even influence Evil Behavior in some humans.
But if you are gonna state something that extraordinary about The Queen, you are going to have to give me a little more documentation, and some reliable sources. Please. :)
So while Icke's books are defininitely still worth a look, I had to have more.
And finally (you know what I am gonna say now), I discovered Dr. Joseph P. Farrell. He is the only author, besides Stephen King, who changed my life. SK changed it with his incredible, living/breathing stories, and Dr. Farrell changed it by changing the way I think.
I don't even know what to say about Dr. Farrell, except that a person will have their mind greatly expanded by reading him. He's not for the average reader. A certain degree of intelligence is required to understand the concepts he talks about. But, bottom line, he is the finest analyst of the overall world situation and the history of Planet Earth that I have come across, or that I ever will come across. With Joe, you really feel like you are getting to the bottom of things. Reading his books won't stop the bombs from dropping in Palestine, perhaps, but you will get an idea of why things are the way they are, even though he isn't really a political writer.
Well, I have rambled on long enough! (Get off yer soapbox, Ad).
Mind you, I am only describing why I don't "do" the news or politics anymore. I am not suggesting you not do them, or that you shouldn't pay attention to or care about what is going on in the world.
What I am suggesting - and it's only a suggestion - is that you don't invest your emotions too heavily, unless you feel so strongly that you are ready to go work for the Peace Corps or some other group.
I say, don't invest emotions too heavily because these fights have been going on for such a long time, and American policies will remain the same no matter who is President. And it's not just America, but also European policies, and Russian policies, and Chinese policies, and others. It's Elites.
If world affairs interest you, it's best to be aware of who those Elites are, and why they do what they do.
In the meantime, and this is most important of all, keep enjoying your life. Keep being yourself, and being kind to people. When you do that, you are creating happiness, and that is a good way to help the world to be a better place, in small ways, everyday.
I Love You, Elizabeth! I will be here until 4:15. Usual schedule all day today.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7:05pm : Good Evening, Sweet Baby! Just wanted to letcha know that I'm home. Nothing fancy tonight, except I'm gonna go to the store as part of my walk because I need avocados. Can't live without 'em! I should be here until 8 or 8:30pm, browsing Amazon and such. Happy Birthday to Stephane, too.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
11:45pm : I am listening to my favorite nocturnes of all, by Faure. I did my walk, got my avocados, and even stopped by the exercise yard at CSUN, by the gym, for the dreaded 15 minute workout. Overall, a low key day, but a good one also. I hope you had a nice day.
I Love You, Elizabeth. One day soon we will have great conversations about all kinds of things, anything and everything. For now, Sweet Dreams and a great weekend ahead.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Thursday, July 24, 2014
I Agree! :):) (Everything Is Gonna Work Out Fine) (great work is ahead)
Good Morning, my Angel,
I am at Pearl's, getting ready to take her to the hair salon in a few minutes, but I just wanted to say I Love You and I love your post just now.
I will be back to write more in a little while. For now, a giant hug and kiss, and much love.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7pm : Good Evening, Sweet Baby! I am home. Super hot today, so I didn't do much, just hung out and played guitar, read some Joe F. Are you guys gonna make another movie? I ask because I saw Brian's picture with the camera rig. At any rate, it will be fun if you do.
I saw your first post, which I loved as I said this morning, and because it was the first post you made after my lengthy blog of yesterday, I will assume you mean it literally. What I am saying is, I know you mean it literally, but maybe you mean it extra right now. If the bridal post was meant as a response to last night's blog, then I understand the way in which you meant it, because in my blog I basically asked, "Is everything okay, and if not, here is what I think you are trying to tell me".
And then I wrote my other, secret interpretation of those posts from a couple days ago. "We need to talk", etc.
Do you remember, way back, when we began to communicate this way, probably in February or March of last year, I suggested a whole lot of ways we could make things happen. Back then, you had posted photos of rings on fingers, engagement rings, and just thinking spontaneously I said "well, we could move into Pearl's house, or get an apartment". I had suggested part-time jobs you could get that would allow you to continue to play music and make art. I wrote a few posts where I touched a little bit on some of the practical aspects of you and I getting married. I did it spontaneously, and I was still getting used to the news that you had feelings for me. So I thought, "well, why not suggest these things? I certainly can't hurt to throw out some suggestions". I had not known you a full year yet, and I'd heard you mention things like not wanting to finish college. Things seemed more up-in-the-air at that point, so after you posted photos of engagement rings on ladies' fingers, I wrote about what it might be like if you just up and moved here.
Then things got more settled, and you did finish school, which I think I ultimately encouraged you to do, and of course it would never have been right for me to say otherwise. But things did settle, and you finished school and now will be going to Italy for photo school. I hope you are looking forward to it and it's gonna be awesome. As for marriage, I would love to marry you. But, if we were to plan it, it would naturally have to be planned and talked about through direct communication and ultimately person-to-person. Of course I know you know that, but I just mention it. As always, I leave the timetable for resuming direct communication up to you. Only you will know when it's okay to do so, and only you know the reason it was stopped in the first place. For me, it's all good, and I do hope you are looking forward to Italy and finishing photo school. We have had patience thus far and we should continue to be patient, I think. Things are gonna work out fine, my Darling.
But as I have always also said, if you ever have anything bothering you - I mean really bothering you - like parental issues, or just life frustrations of any kind, or questions of any kind, always remember that you have my phone number. Eventually we will talk about everything, but in the meantime, if it's ever really important, you have my number and my email, and of course we have FB, too. I am right here, not going anywhere, and I can wait and will wait for you, for whenever you feel the time is right. And when it's right, we will talk about and figure out everything. In the meantime, we love each other and I'm right here for you always.
I do hope all is well at home, and I always wish for family harmony for you guys, and I always encourage you to try and get along with your Mom, cause you know she loves you. Things seem a lot better in that respect, although I have no way of knowing for sure because we haven't talked directly about it in a long time. But, to just bring out an old character you might remember, named Drill Sergeant Me (lol), I say, "Be nice to your Mom and Dad because they love you"! :)
Okay, it's safe now. Drill Sergeant Me is back in his box. And, I am off my soapbox for the evening! :)
It is still pretty hot out, so I may wait until later and do my whole walk then. But I hate doing my whole walk all at once, so I may start at 8:30 and do it in two parts.
Only time will tell........
But I will for sure be back to write more at the usual time.
I Love You, Elizabeth! Things are gonna work out fine. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:40pm : I love listening to Francis Poulenc. His music always sounds like you are sitting in a Paris cafe, watching the rhythm of the street scene. Well, my Baby, I saw your two posts a little while ago. You are indeed My Sweet Baby, we even have the pictures to prove it! :):) And in your other post, because it refers to being excited about the Fall, I am assuming you read my blog this eve, because I mentioned Italy. And if you read my blog, then the "zero hits" phenomenon is explained, I guess. Maybe if you read the blog from a mobile device, it doesn't register a page view. You must have read it, but it still reads "0".
On Myspace they had an actual blog counter that was reliable. Anyhow, now I know that "0" doesn't necessarily mean you didn't read. I think we are back on track.
I am glad you are looking forward to Italy, and besides being a wonderful country to visit and stay in, you will also be concentrating on just one subject, and one that you love : photography.
You are gonna do some great work there! I hope you can shoot the countryside, which will remind me of George Inness' Italian landscape paintings, which I love.
This has been a great year and it's gonna keep getting better......the fun is all in what happens next!
I will see you in the morning, Sweet Baby.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I am at Pearl's, getting ready to take her to the hair salon in a few minutes, but I just wanted to say I Love You and I love your post just now.
I will be back to write more in a little while. For now, a giant hug and kiss, and much love.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7pm : Good Evening, Sweet Baby! I am home. Super hot today, so I didn't do much, just hung out and played guitar, read some Joe F. Are you guys gonna make another movie? I ask because I saw Brian's picture with the camera rig. At any rate, it will be fun if you do.
I saw your first post, which I loved as I said this morning, and because it was the first post you made after my lengthy blog of yesterday, I will assume you mean it literally. What I am saying is, I know you mean it literally, but maybe you mean it extra right now. If the bridal post was meant as a response to last night's blog, then I understand the way in which you meant it, because in my blog I basically asked, "Is everything okay, and if not, here is what I think you are trying to tell me".
And then I wrote my other, secret interpretation of those posts from a couple days ago. "We need to talk", etc.
Do you remember, way back, when we began to communicate this way, probably in February or March of last year, I suggested a whole lot of ways we could make things happen. Back then, you had posted photos of rings on fingers, engagement rings, and just thinking spontaneously I said "well, we could move into Pearl's house, or get an apartment". I had suggested part-time jobs you could get that would allow you to continue to play music and make art. I wrote a few posts where I touched a little bit on some of the practical aspects of you and I getting married. I did it spontaneously, and I was still getting used to the news that you had feelings for me. So I thought, "well, why not suggest these things? I certainly can't hurt to throw out some suggestions". I had not known you a full year yet, and I'd heard you mention things like not wanting to finish college. Things seemed more up-in-the-air at that point, so after you posted photos of engagement rings on ladies' fingers, I wrote about what it might be like if you just up and moved here.
Then things got more settled, and you did finish school, which I think I ultimately encouraged you to do, and of course it would never have been right for me to say otherwise. But things did settle, and you finished school and now will be going to Italy for photo school. I hope you are looking forward to it and it's gonna be awesome. As for marriage, I would love to marry you. But, if we were to plan it, it would naturally have to be planned and talked about through direct communication and ultimately person-to-person. Of course I know you know that, but I just mention it. As always, I leave the timetable for resuming direct communication up to you. Only you will know when it's okay to do so, and only you know the reason it was stopped in the first place. For me, it's all good, and I do hope you are looking forward to Italy and finishing photo school. We have had patience thus far and we should continue to be patient, I think. Things are gonna work out fine, my Darling.
But as I have always also said, if you ever have anything bothering you - I mean really bothering you - like parental issues, or just life frustrations of any kind, or questions of any kind, always remember that you have my phone number. Eventually we will talk about everything, but in the meantime, if it's ever really important, you have my number and my email, and of course we have FB, too. I am right here, not going anywhere, and I can wait and will wait for you, for whenever you feel the time is right. And when it's right, we will talk about and figure out everything. In the meantime, we love each other and I'm right here for you always.
I do hope all is well at home, and I always wish for family harmony for you guys, and I always encourage you to try and get along with your Mom, cause you know she loves you. Things seem a lot better in that respect, although I have no way of knowing for sure because we haven't talked directly about it in a long time. But, to just bring out an old character you might remember, named Drill Sergeant Me (lol), I say, "Be nice to your Mom and Dad because they love you"! :)
Okay, it's safe now. Drill Sergeant Me is back in his box. And, I am off my soapbox for the evening! :)
It is still pretty hot out, so I may wait until later and do my whole walk then. But I hate doing my whole walk all at once, so I may start at 8:30 and do it in two parts.
Only time will tell........
But I will for sure be back to write more at the usual time.
I Love You, Elizabeth! Things are gonna work out fine. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:40pm : I love listening to Francis Poulenc. His music always sounds like you are sitting in a Paris cafe, watching the rhythm of the street scene. Well, my Baby, I saw your two posts a little while ago. You are indeed My Sweet Baby, we even have the pictures to prove it! :):) And in your other post, because it refers to being excited about the Fall, I am assuming you read my blog this eve, because I mentioned Italy. And if you read my blog, then the "zero hits" phenomenon is explained, I guess. Maybe if you read the blog from a mobile device, it doesn't register a page view. You must have read it, but it still reads "0".
On Myspace they had an actual blog counter that was reliable. Anyhow, now I know that "0" doesn't necessarily mean you didn't read. I think we are back on track.
I am glad you are looking forward to Italy, and besides being a wonderful country to visit and stay in, you will also be concentrating on just one subject, and one that you love : photography.
You are gonna do some great work there! I hope you can shoot the countryside, which will remind me of George Inness' Italian landscape paintings, which I love.
This has been a great year and it's gonna keep getting better......the fun is all in what happens next!
I will see you in the morning, Sweet Baby.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Wednesday, July 23, 2014
Early Evening Love :):) (message?) (just guessin') (xoxoxoxo)
Good Evening, my Darling,
I am writing from Pearl's because I am gonna meet Grimsley at Aliso right after I leave here at 6:30. It'll be the usual, a walk through the park from one end to the other, so if I get there about 7pm, we should be done by 8:30 at the latest and I'll be home before 9pm.
I hope your day is going well. I think I interpreted your messages correctly last night, more or less, but just in case I did not, I could try an alternate interpretation later this evening. For now I will trust that things are generally good, and I will check in when I get back from Aliso.
I Love You, Elizabeth! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
9:30pm : I am back. Did you see my picture of the bunny on FB? Those are the little guys I was talking about at Aliso. They can be seen darting all over the trails when the sun starts going down. They are like squirrels with big ears, lol.
Well, my Baby, I mentioned that maybe I should do an alternative interpretation of your messages from last night, just because your pattern of posting has changed, and often there are zero page views on the blog here. You know that I go by patterns, and can feel when something is off. At least I think I can. Last night, when I mentioned the same thing, you responded pretty quickly with the three posts, and from what I could tell at first glance, it looked like you are just keeping busy with (I am guessing) different arts and crafts, and hanging out with friends, maybe going to Madison, just fun stuff.
I am only thinking there may have been more to it because again today you were not around, and again there were zero hits. And when I thought again about your three posts last night, I kinda wondered what you meant by the Jon Stewart. And since you posted three in a row, boom-boom-boom, I wondered if they were part of a larger message.
If things felt "usual" (usual posting patterns, etc), I would just figure your posts were meant as I guessed last night, and maybe (or even probably) they are. In that case all is good.
But on the off chance you were trying to tell me something, well you are super-intelligent and on the same wavelength as me, so I know that if you were trying to tell me something, you know how I think and you'd try to post something that you know I'd pick up on.
So since you posted Jon Stewart first, if you did not mean it in a straightforward way (that you just like his show or the Israel comedy sketch) here is what I would notice. The first thing I would notice is that it was your very first post of three-in-a-row. Three-in-a-row may be part of a story. So the Jon Stewart post is the first part, and besides his picture, and your friend's comment at the top ("this is hilarious"), what jumps out at me is the large print "We Need To Talk About Israel". Because you are super smart, you may have figured I'd pick up on that. I mention it because not only was Jon Stewart your first post, but it was also the first in response to my blog yesterday, in which I asked if everything was okay.
So what you have is me, yesterday, asking in my blog if everything was okay, and then your first response is a post of Jon Stewart. Seems to make little sense, as a message, if in response to my blog and my asking if everything is okay, that you meant to say, "yeah, everything is cool, I'm just watching Jon Stewart". That's just not the kind of thing you'd post, for that reason, even though it is agreed that Stewart is a funny guy.
More likely, it might be that you were using a part of that post, perhaps the boldface type, to send a message, in response to my blog and my asking if everything was okay. So what I would pick up on, in the same way I picked up on the Japan post a few weeks ago, is the text.
"We Need To Talk" (about Israel). Which becomes "We Need To Talk". That's the only other thing that jumps out at me about the Jon Stewart post, besides that it was possibly meant as a message because it was the first post in response to yesterday's blog.
So, did you mean it that way? If not, if you just meant you like Jon Stewart and his show, please disregard everything I just said. But if you did mean it as part of a message, I will try to continue to decipher, in just a few minutes.
But first, I'm gonna head over to FB for a minute so I can post a love song! :):)
(back in a few)
10:05pm : Okay, I'm back! And I see a page view, so that's gotta be you, my Baby. So now you are reading or have just read my theory on the Jon Stewart post. Maybe it was just a plain old "I'm watching Jon Stewart" post, or maybe it was a message.
Here's where my theory runs into a little trouble, because if it was part of a message ("We need to talk"), then I'd have to look to the other two posts to complete the message, and I can't find much that jumps out at me in either post. The second post was of the guy who makes paper roses, and my original guess for that post was that you meant "Besides watching Jon Stewart, I am also going to 'parks & cafes' (i.e. hanging with friends and also making art, be it photos or whatever)".
I had asked in yesterday's blog if all was well, and maybe the first two posts were meant to describe what you were doing yesterday, or recently.
But if the second post was meant to continue a message, there is only one small bit of text that jumps out at me. You know I am a bit of a detective, and you knew I'd understand the Japan post eventually, so you know that I notice text. The small bit of text in that story is about a third of the way down : ..."some people are suspicious".....
That's all I can get, if the posts were meant to be a message. If that is the case, then you can see a pattern (and an answer to my blog) beginning to form.
Yesterday's blog : "Is everything okay? I ask because you've been quiet for a couple days, and there are zero hits on the blog once again"
Your first two posts in response : "We need to talk", "some people are suspicious".
You must think I'm a bit of a koo-koo bird, but again, you know how my brain works and you have utilized bits of text before to send messages.
What I would get from that message, if it were indeed a message, would be that you have been quiet on FB, and maybe not even using the internet very much because "some people are suspicious'.
And that would lead me to the reason you felt the need to cut off direct communication in the first place back in September 2012. My take on that was that you got some heat from your folks (one or both) for talking to me. Back before that, you posted freely on my FB page, and I on yours, and we had daily messaging on FB as well and even exchanged e-mails.
Then something happened and we had no communication for four months. When the dust settled from that, the message I got from you was that your folks got upset about me. At the time, you made a Star Wars post, something about The Power Of The Dark Side, which I took to mean that your parents did not want you talking to me. Then we started our new form of communication, which we use to this day, and all has been well - more or less - ever since.
Everything I have written tonight is only based on the supposition that you may have meant last night's posts as a message. As for your third post from last night, the photo of the girl getting rained on by paint, well, I can't find anything subliminal in that one. Last night I took it to mean that maybe you had been painting.
My straightforward assessment of the posts was "Watching Jon Stewart, going to parks & cafes with friends, and painting".
And my theory that they were possibly meant as a message sort of falls apart because the third post doesn't seem to have anything subliminal in it. So I can only gather what I've described from the first two, and I realise that those bits and pieces seem pretty obscure, but I only mention it because you seem to be posting and reading a lot less frequently lately.
So I figure it's either because you are keeping busy, as in my "straightforward" interpretation of your posts, or because someone is giving you a hard time about me, i.e. they are "suspicious".
That's all I know for the moment, my Baby. Sorry to be so long winded about it, but I wanted to explain it so it made sense, in the event you were trying to send me a message. In any case, all is well on my end. I Love You and am just taking my guesses to try and get your correct meaning.
I Love You and will be back in just a little while to say goodnight and maybe add another thought or two.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo xxx ooo xxx ooo (that's triple love) :):)
11:35pm : For tonight, I am just gonna guess that all is well, at least in general - and leave it at that. I know I shouldn't try to nit-pick every post, and I don't. I always take them at face value, unless the overall feeling of things is wrong. And I don't get that sense right now. Any details, if anything is wrong, I will keep trying to interpret as you post. But for tonight all I know is that I Love You.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I am writing from Pearl's because I am gonna meet Grimsley at Aliso right after I leave here at 6:30. It'll be the usual, a walk through the park from one end to the other, so if I get there about 7pm, we should be done by 8:30 at the latest and I'll be home before 9pm.
I hope your day is going well. I think I interpreted your messages correctly last night, more or less, but just in case I did not, I could try an alternate interpretation later this evening. For now I will trust that things are generally good, and I will check in when I get back from Aliso.
I Love You, Elizabeth! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
9:30pm : I am back. Did you see my picture of the bunny on FB? Those are the little guys I was talking about at Aliso. They can be seen darting all over the trails when the sun starts going down. They are like squirrels with big ears, lol.
Well, my Baby, I mentioned that maybe I should do an alternative interpretation of your messages from last night, just because your pattern of posting has changed, and often there are zero page views on the blog here. You know that I go by patterns, and can feel when something is off. At least I think I can. Last night, when I mentioned the same thing, you responded pretty quickly with the three posts, and from what I could tell at first glance, it looked like you are just keeping busy with (I am guessing) different arts and crafts, and hanging out with friends, maybe going to Madison, just fun stuff.
I am only thinking there may have been more to it because again today you were not around, and again there were zero hits. And when I thought again about your three posts last night, I kinda wondered what you meant by the Jon Stewart. And since you posted three in a row, boom-boom-boom, I wondered if they were part of a larger message.
If things felt "usual" (usual posting patterns, etc), I would just figure your posts were meant as I guessed last night, and maybe (or even probably) they are. In that case all is good.
But on the off chance you were trying to tell me something, well you are super-intelligent and on the same wavelength as me, so I know that if you were trying to tell me something, you know how I think and you'd try to post something that you know I'd pick up on.
So since you posted Jon Stewart first, if you did not mean it in a straightforward way (that you just like his show or the Israel comedy sketch) here is what I would notice. The first thing I would notice is that it was your very first post of three-in-a-row. Three-in-a-row may be part of a story. So the Jon Stewart post is the first part, and besides his picture, and your friend's comment at the top ("this is hilarious"), what jumps out at me is the large print "We Need To Talk About Israel". Because you are super smart, you may have figured I'd pick up on that. I mention it because not only was Jon Stewart your first post, but it was also the first in response to my blog yesterday, in which I asked if everything was okay.
So what you have is me, yesterday, asking in my blog if everything was okay, and then your first response is a post of Jon Stewart. Seems to make little sense, as a message, if in response to my blog and my asking if everything is okay, that you meant to say, "yeah, everything is cool, I'm just watching Jon Stewart". That's just not the kind of thing you'd post, for that reason, even though it is agreed that Stewart is a funny guy.
More likely, it might be that you were using a part of that post, perhaps the boldface type, to send a message, in response to my blog and my asking if everything was okay. So what I would pick up on, in the same way I picked up on the Japan post a few weeks ago, is the text.
"We Need To Talk" (about Israel). Which becomes "We Need To Talk". That's the only other thing that jumps out at me about the Jon Stewart post, besides that it was possibly meant as a message because it was the first post in response to yesterday's blog.
So, did you mean it that way? If not, if you just meant you like Jon Stewart and his show, please disregard everything I just said. But if you did mean it as part of a message, I will try to continue to decipher, in just a few minutes.
But first, I'm gonna head over to FB for a minute so I can post a love song! :):)
(back in a few)
10:05pm : Okay, I'm back! And I see a page view, so that's gotta be you, my Baby. So now you are reading or have just read my theory on the Jon Stewart post. Maybe it was just a plain old "I'm watching Jon Stewart" post, or maybe it was a message.
Here's where my theory runs into a little trouble, because if it was part of a message ("We need to talk"), then I'd have to look to the other two posts to complete the message, and I can't find much that jumps out at me in either post. The second post was of the guy who makes paper roses, and my original guess for that post was that you meant "Besides watching Jon Stewart, I am also going to 'parks & cafes' (i.e. hanging with friends and also making art, be it photos or whatever)".
I had asked in yesterday's blog if all was well, and maybe the first two posts were meant to describe what you were doing yesterday, or recently.
But if the second post was meant to continue a message, there is only one small bit of text that jumps out at me. You know I am a bit of a detective, and you knew I'd understand the Japan post eventually, so you know that I notice text. The small bit of text in that story is about a third of the way down : ..."some people are suspicious".....
That's all I can get, if the posts were meant to be a message. If that is the case, then you can see a pattern (and an answer to my blog) beginning to form.
Yesterday's blog : "Is everything okay? I ask because you've been quiet for a couple days, and there are zero hits on the blog once again"
Your first two posts in response : "We need to talk", "some people are suspicious".
You must think I'm a bit of a koo-koo bird, but again, you know how my brain works and you have utilized bits of text before to send messages.
What I would get from that message, if it were indeed a message, would be that you have been quiet on FB, and maybe not even using the internet very much because "some people are suspicious'.
And that would lead me to the reason you felt the need to cut off direct communication in the first place back in September 2012. My take on that was that you got some heat from your folks (one or both) for talking to me. Back before that, you posted freely on my FB page, and I on yours, and we had daily messaging on FB as well and even exchanged e-mails.
Then something happened and we had no communication for four months. When the dust settled from that, the message I got from you was that your folks got upset about me. At the time, you made a Star Wars post, something about The Power Of The Dark Side, which I took to mean that your parents did not want you talking to me. Then we started our new form of communication, which we use to this day, and all has been well - more or less - ever since.
Everything I have written tonight is only based on the supposition that you may have meant last night's posts as a message. As for your third post from last night, the photo of the girl getting rained on by paint, well, I can't find anything subliminal in that one. Last night I took it to mean that maybe you had been painting.
My straightforward assessment of the posts was "Watching Jon Stewart, going to parks & cafes with friends, and painting".
And my theory that they were possibly meant as a message sort of falls apart because the third post doesn't seem to have anything subliminal in it. So I can only gather what I've described from the first two, and I realise that those bits and pieces seem pretty obscure, but I only mention it because you seem to be posting and reading a lot less frequently lately.
So I figure it's either because you are keeping busy, as in my "straightforward" interpretation of your posts, or because someone is giving you a hard time about me, i.e. they are "suspicious".
That's all I know for the moment, my Baby. Sorry to be so long winded about it, but I wanted to explain it so it made sense, in the event you were trying to send me a message. In any case, all is well on my end. I Love You and am just taking my guesses to try and get your correct meaning.
I Love You and will be back in just a little while to say goodnight and maybe add another thought or two.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo xxx ooo xxx ooo (that's triple love) :):)
11:35pm : For tonight, I am just gonna guess that all is well, at least in general - and leave it at that. I know I shouldn't try to nit-pick every post, and I don't. I always take them at face value, unless the overall feeling of things is wrong. And I don't get that sense right now. Any details, if anything is wrong, I will keep trying to interpret as you post. But for tonight all I know is that I Love You.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Tuesday, July 22, 2014
Hope All Is Well (all is well) (I think, lol) :):)
Hi, my Darling,
I am just home from Pearl's. I hope everything is okay, cause we are back to zero page views for the past day and a half, and I haven't seen you on FB since yesterday morning. Not that you have to be there, or here, at any given time. Of course you are on your own schedule. It's just that....well, you know how I said I can feel it if something seems a little off? It kinda feels like that right now. Not in a major way, but just a little bit.
So as I said last night, I hope everything is okay at home. I hope you are feeling well, and not sick or anything. If anything is wrong, you know you can always tell me if you want to. You know I always care, and will always listen and help in any way I can.
Well, anyway, maybe it's nothing. If so, please disregard the above. I Love You, you know. And, I know sometimes you feel like being quiet, not interacting a lot, and that's cool too. Whatever feels right to you. :)
Today was a typical Tuesday. If you were on FB at all, then maybe you saw my pics from Sage Ranch Park. It was a fun little trip - though hot - but it's not one I will make on a regular basis because the road is a little scary, as I said on FB. It's in disrepair, and so narrow that I am not sure two cars could pass going in opposite directions. And if that happened, there would be no way to turn around.......
But anyhow, it's all good because the place is deserted, even more than Corriganville. I only saw one other person on the trail, and that's probably even a rare thing. The views are pretty awesome, looking down at the tops of the lower hills like from a helicopter, way up high.
Tonight is Usual Schedule. Here til 8:30, then walk, etc. I hope to hear from you, but if for whatever reason you can't post at the moment, no worries.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
11:30pm : I saw your posts earlier, so from the looks of things, all is well? It seems to be, though if there is a complex message involved I have yet to figure it out, lol. At a glance, I will guess you have been busy with art projects, maybe painting, and going to parks, et al, and hanging out w/ friends, and then watching Jon Stewart in the evening!
Now, I know you might mean something more specific, and if you do, you know it will seep in for me, because we share a psychic wavelength and I always understand your complex messages, given enough time.
But I think you are just having fun and working on projects.
I have gotta say that I had a blast last week, making my first new drawing in three years, and my first ever using chalk pastels. The whole thing is still sitting in one place, on the arms of a chair. Everything : the drawing, the oversized clipboard it's held by, and all the chalk and oil pastels (and a pencil) that I used to make it. I've got the whole mess balanced on the big art clipboard, on the arms of a chair. And it's sitting there because I need to get to the art store for some fixer. Otherwise it's gonna be One Big Smudge.
They say you can use hairspray, too. Should I try that?
It may depend on how much they want for the fixer!
But it's been a blast making it, and it ties in with the feeling I've had on my most recent trips to Santa Susana and even today up at Sage Ranch. They are all some weird places, because they have the Oldness still intact in an area of high population and development. It's such a trip, because in the Valley you've got two million people, and cars galore. But then drive 15 or 20 minutes into the hills, and.......
There's nobody. It might as well be the 1800s.
Or even 5000 years ago.
So the dichotomy is a trip. And the everyday stuff just flows right past me anyway. I feel the ancient stuff all the time.
It's all systems entanglement, or so it seems.......
I am glad all is well. I am enjoying listening to Mompou, a new discovery.
I Love You, my Sweet Baby! I will see you in the morning and we will have another awesome day.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I am just home from Pearl's. I hope everything is okay, cause we are back to zero page views for the past day and a half, and I haven't seen you on FB since yesterday morning. Not that you have to be there, or here, at any given time. Of course you are on your own schedule. It's just that....well, you know how I said I can feel it if something seems a little off? It kinda feels like that right now. Not in a major way, but just a little bit.
So as I said last night, I hope everything is okay at home. I hope you are feeling well, and not sick or anything. If anything is wrong, you know you can always tell me if you want to. You know I always care, and will always listen and help in any way I can.
Well, anyway, maybe it's nothing. If so, please disregard the above. I Love You, you know. And, I know sometimes you feel like being quiet, not interacting a lot, and that's cool too. Whatever feels right to you. :)
Today was a typical Tuesday. If you were on FB at all, then maybe you saw my pics from Sage Ranch Park. It was a fun little trip - though hot - but it's not one I will make on a regular basis because the road is a little scary, as I said on FB. It's in disrepair, and so narrow that I am not sure two cars could pass going in opposite directions. And if that happened, there would be no way to turn around.......
But anyhow, it's all good because the place is deserted, even more than Corriganville. I only saw one other person on the trail, and that's probably even a rare thing. The views are pretty awesome, looking down at the tops of the lower hills like from a helicopter, way up high.
Tonight is Usual Schedule. Here til 8:30, then walk, etc. I hope to hear from you, but if for whatever reason you can't post at the moment, no worries.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
11:30pm : I saw your posts earlier, so from the looks of things, all is well? It seems to be, though if there is a complex message involved I have yet to figure it out, lol. At a glance, I will guess you have been busy with art projects, maybe painting, and going to parks, et al, and hanging out w/ friends, and then watching Jon Stewart in the evening!
Now, I know you might mean something more specific, and if you do, you know it will seep in for me, because we share a psychic wavelength and I always understand your complex messages, given enough time.
But I think you are just having fun and working on projects.
I have gotta say that I had a blast last week, making my first new drawing in three years, and my first ever using chalk pastels. The whole thing is still sitting in one place, on the arms of a chair. Everything : the drawing, the oversized clipboard it's held by, and all the chalk and oil pastels (and a pencil) that I used to make it. I've got the whole mess balanced on the big art clipboard, on the arms of a chair. And it's sitting there because I need to get to the art store for some fixer. Otherwise it's gonna be One Big Smudge.
They say you can use hairspray, too. Should I try that?
It may depend on how much they want for the fixer!
But it's been a blast making it, and it ties in with the feeling I've had on my most recent trips to Santa Susana and even today up at Sage Ranch. They are all some weird places, because they have the Oldness still intact in an area of high population and development. It's such a trip, because in the Valley you've got two million people, and cars galore. But then drive 15 or 20 minutes into the hills, and.......
There's nobody. It might as well be the 1800s.
Or even 5000 years ago.
So the dichotomy is a trip. And the everyday stuff just flows right past me anyway. I feel the ancient stuff all the time.
It's all systems entanglement, or so it seems.......
I am glad all is well. I am enjoying listening to Mompou, a new discovery.
I Love You, my Sweet Baby! I will see you in the morning and we will have another awesome day.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Monday, July 21, 2014
A Beautiful Day :):) (love from home) (sweet dreams and love)
Happy Noontime, my Darling,
Wow, those are gorgeous Alcest posters. Are ya gonna get one? I know they are pricey. If you are gonna get one, don't wait, as there are only 50. All my money lately goes to concert tickets and cds. I am glad I got a ticket for the Judas Priest concert, a good seat in the 4th row loge, dead center. 85 bucks, which is what seems to be a going price nowdays for a decent seat at a non-club show. I didn't go the last time they played, because I was upset that KK Downing was not in the band, but the new album is so good, and the new guitarist turned out to be great, that I have to go this time.
Well, you are my Darling, and at the moment you are also my Deer (or Dear if you prefer). I love that picture! That's us, as always, and the third deer is........our Baby? We shall see! :):):)
Pearl and I took The Kobester to The Shady Park a little while ago. A nice day here, though a bit on the cool side. I think it may actually be warmer in Middleton today than in The 'Ridge. I am gonna do the dishes and then watch one of my new Bob Steele westerns that arrived in the mail on Saturday. They are all on one dvd, and all of the "matinee" variety that I described several blogs ago. About an hour each, all made in the 1930s. I love it! So, I will basically be here until 4:15pm, either watching Bob Steele or just hanging out. Gotta buy some fixative spray for my pastel chalk drawing. I can't pick it up cause it smudges. I'd forgotten about that factor......
I hope your week is off to a good start. I triple-Love You ! ! !
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back later but basically around....)
7:30pm : Hi, my Darling. I just wanted to say that I'm home. I'm hanging around at the moment, reading my book ("Giza Death Star") and looking for trails on Google. I found a park up near the Santa Susana Field Laboratory that I may check out tomorrow. You remember the Field Lab, it's where they tested rocket engines for NASA, back in the 60s. I've been touring it every October or so for the past four years. Anyhow, there's supposed to be a place nearby called Sage Ranch Park that has trails. I'll decide tomorrow morn.
Hope you are having a nice evening. I'll head out on my walk at about 8:30, so I'm here until then, and back at the usual time.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:30pm : Relaxing with Debussy and Michelangeli. A quiet day, but tomorrow is Trail Tuesday so I'll see what I can find while Pearl is at her Golden Agers meeting. I hope you had a nice day, my Angel. Hope everything is good all around - at home, at work, etc.
That's all I really know for this evening. Tomorrow should be fun, so I will see you in the morning.
Sweet Dreams until then. I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Wow, those are gorgeous Alcest posters. Are ya gonna get one? I know they are pricey. If you are gonna get one, don't wait, as there are only 50. All my money lately goes to concert tickets and cds. I am glad I got a ticket for the Judas Priest concert, a good seat in the 4th row loge, dead center. 85 bucks, which is what seems to be a going price nowdays for a decent seat at a non-club show. I didn't go the last time they played, because I was upset that KK Downing was not in the band, but the new album is so good, and the new guitarist turned out to be great, that I have to go this time.
Well, you are my Darling, and at the moment you are also my Deer (or Dear if you prefer). I love that picture! That's us, as always, and the third deer is........our Baby? We shall see! :):):)
Pearl and I took The Kobester to The Shady Park a little while ago. A nice day here, though a bit on the cool side. I think it may actually be warmer in Middleton today than in The 'Ridge. I am gonna do the dishes and then watch one of my new Bob Steele westerns that arrived in the mail on Saturday. They are all on one dvd, and all of the "matinee" variety that I described several blogs ago. About an hour each, all made in the 1930s. I love it! So, I will basically be here until 4:15pm, either watching Bob Steele or just hanging out. Gotta buy some fixative spray for my pastel chalk drawing. I can't pick it up cause it smudges. I'd forgotten about that factor......
I hope your week is off to a good start. I triple-Love You ! ! !
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back later but basically around....)
7:30pm : Hi, my Darling. I just wanted to say that I'm home. I'm hanging around at the moment, reading my book ("Giza Death Star") and looking for trails on Google. I found a park up near the Santa Susana Field Laboratory that I may check out tomorrow. You remember the Field Lab, it's where they tested rocket engines for NASA, back in the 60s. I've been touring it every October or so for the past four years. Anyhow, there's supposed to be a place nearby called Sage Ranch Park that has trails. I'll decide tomorrow morn.
Hope you are having a nice evening. I'll head out on my walk at about 8:30, so I'm here until then, and back at the usual time.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:30pm : Relaxing with Debussy and Michelangeli. A quiet day, but tomorrow is Trail Tuesday so I'll see what I can find while Pearl is at her Golden Agers meeting. I hope you had a nice day, my Angel. Hope everything is good all around - at home, at work, etc.
That's all I really know for this evening. Tomorrow should be fun, so I will see you in the morning.
Sweet Dreams until then. I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Sunday, July 20, 2014
Computer Problems (oy) (fingers crossed) (knowing)
Hey, my Darling,
I am glad I got through! I am at Pearl's, and something seems to be very wrong with the computer system, both here and especially at my house. At home, my computer seemed fine this morn, though it has run slow at times in recent days. Generally it's been fine, though, with multiple windows open, etc. But this afternoon it began to run slower and slower until a page would not load. I tried rebooting several times, and the best I could get was a single window, and the only thing that would load was Facebook, and even that barely loaded. Most images were missing, the newsfeed didn't run. I was able to type my message update "this computer is barely functioning", and that was all. Then it was time for me to come to Pearl's.
I turned the computer on when I got here - Chromebook 2 - and I got the same result. I have it set to return to where it left off, so when I turn it on, the same pages are always loaded. This time, the urls all loaded in each window, but each page read an error of some sort.
It says that I should check DNS settings. I don't know what those are, so I am trying to find out. I was just barely able to get this Blogger page to load just now. I hope this will post. It's gotta be some kind of overall system problem with ATT, because why would two different computers at two different houses have the same problem? It's even two different accounts : one from my ph # and one from Pearl's.
So I don't understand it, but I will try to call ATT when I get a moment.
I hope my computer will work when I get home, but if I can't write tonight, that's the reason. I sure hope that doesn't happen, because I will be Super Depressed. I've gotta write to my Baby! And post a Love Song!
So keep your fingers crossed. If there is one thing I can't stand, it's when something mechanical/electronic doesn't work properly. Drives me crazy, oy.........
Let's just say that when I get home, it'll be working. :)
Okay, I'll try ATT now.
I Love You and will let you know what's going on asap! xoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
6:55pm : Okay, Sweet Baby, I am at home now. I have called ATT from Pearl's, and there was a recording saying they had an outage "in Irvine and surrounding areas and are aware of the problem". Irvine is 80 miles south of here, but maybe it's a big outage, or maybe they have a headquarters there. Anyway, when I left Pearl's, the service for Chromebook 2 was still on the blink. Ditto when I got back home a few minutes ago. So, I just called ATT again, from my apt. , and this time the voice instructions told me to reboot. So I tried it, and it seems to be working, though still running slow and not loading all images and stuff like that. It feels like it's running at about 50%. But at least it's working. So, fingers crossed that it'll keep working, and that this will post. If it does, then usual schedule for tonight and I will write more at the usual time.
So here goes, I will try to post, and.......oh yeah, I saw your kitty-on-the-head post just now. And today was the first day that Black Kitty let me pick her up, so I will have to try that! :)
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back later, ATT willing.....)
11:30pm : Well, everything seems to be working just fine now, so I suppose they got the problem fixed. Got all my mileage done in the meantime. I saw your earlier posts this morn, before the computer problem, and they made me happy because in the pictures, everyone is smiling and having fun. Things feel wonderful right now, and one of the posts said "in a relationship", and we have been in one since April of 2012, as far as I am concerned. Really from the moment I saw the Alcest post about your "Autre Temps" video.
I saw it, I clicked the link and watched it, and right there, our relationship began because you got me thinking about you.......
......and attracted to you.
And feeling something even beyond that. Something very profound that we have talked about.
Remember that sometimes we can get a message sent to ourselves, ahead of schedule.
It's a little bit weird and very, very neat.
It's our larger, outer selves (call it our Souls or Spirits) communicating something that we will recognise when we see it. It could also be our Helpers communicating this. But it is something outside our physical selves, and yet we are connected to it.
And so, we can be just going along, living our lives - but wishing for something, love in this case - and suddenly : there it is!
What's neat is that it's a prayer that has been answered. What's weird, in a good way, is the way it feels.
When I saw the Alcest post, I thought : "You need to know this girl"!
But it was also kind of like : "You (need) to know this girl".
Which becomes : "You ( ) know this girl".
"You know this girl".
And when you look back in hindsight, you can see that there was a message being sent, with the recognition of that post by Alcest, and it was a message being sent from an outside source (Soul or Helper), and your consciousness received it ahead of schedule, i.e. before you were aware of it. Meaning me. Before I was aware of it.
But I recognised you the moment I saw you, in a manner of speaking.
That's when I think our relationship began.
At any rate, this Summer is gonna go down as Legendary. Another great week lies ahead.
I hope you have been having fun, too, and doing stuff besides just work. I know you are getting ready for Italy, which will be awesome. But just so you are getting to do the things you like now, too. I guess you must be, because things feel really good.
That's all I know for tonight, my Angel. I Love You and will see you in the morning.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I am glad I got through! I am at Pearl's, and something seems to be very wrong with the computer system, both here and especially at my house. At home, my computer seemed fine this morn, though it has run slow at times in recent days. Generally it's been fine, though, with multiple windows open, etc. But this afternoon it began to run slower and slower until a page would not load. I tried rebooting several times, and the best I could get was a single window, and the only thing that would load was Facebook, and even that barely loaded. Most images were missing, the newsfeed didn't run. I was able to type my message update "this computer is barely functioning", and that was all. Then it was time for me to come to Pearl's.
I turned the computer on when I got here - Chromebook 2 - and I got the same result. I have it set to return to where it left off, so when I turn it on, the same pages are always loaded. This time, the urls all loaded in each window, but each page read an error of some sort.
It says that I should check DNS settings. I don't know what those are, so I am trying to find out. I was just barely able to get this Blogger page to load just now. I hope this will post. It's gotta be some kind of overall system problem with ATT, because why would two different computers at two different houses have the same problem? It's even two different accounts : one from my ph # and one from Pearl's.
So I don't understand it, but I will try to call ATT when I get a moment.
I hope my computer will work when I get home, but if I can't write tonight, that's the reason. I sure hope that doesn't happen, because I will be Super Depressed. I've gotta write to my Baby! And post a Love Song!
So keep your fingers crossed. If there is one thing I can't stand, it's when something mechanical/electronic doesn't work properly. Drives me crazy, oy.........
Let's just say that when I get home, it'll be working. :)
Okay, I'll try ATT now.
I Love You and will let you know what's going on asap! xoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
6:55pm : Okay, Sweet Baby, I am at home now. I have called ATT from Pearl's, and there was a recording saying they had an outage "in Irvine and surrounding areas and are aware of the problem". Irvine is 80 miles south of here, but maybe it's a big outage, or maybe they have a headquarters there. Anyway, when I left Pearl's, the service for Chromebook 2 was still on the blink. Ditto when I got back home a few minutes ago. So, I just called ATT again, from my apt. , and this time the voice instructions told me to reboot. So I tried it, and it seems to be working, though still running slow and not loading all images and stuff like that. It feels like it's running at about 50%. But at least it's working. So, fingers crossed that it'll keep working, and that this will post. If it does, then usual schedule for tonight and I will write more at the usual time.
So here goes, I will try to post, and.......oh yeah, I saw your kitty-on-the-head post just now. And today was the first day that Black Kitty let me pick her up, so I will have to try that! :)
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back later, ATT willing.....)
11:30pm : Well, everything seems to be working just fine now, so I suppose they got the problem fixed. Got all my mileage done in the meantime. I saw your earlier posts this morn, before the computer problem, and they made me happy because in the pictures, everyone is smiling and having fun. Things feel wonderful right now, and one of the posts said "in a relationship", and we have been in one since April of 2012, as far as I am concerned. Really from the moment I saw the Alcest post about your "Autre Temps" video.
I saw it, I clicked the link and watched it, and right there, our relationship began because you got me thinking about you.......
......and attracted to you.
And feeling something even beyond that. Something very profound that we have talked about.
Remember that sometimes we can get a message sent to ourselves, ahead of schedule.
It's a little bit weird and very, very neat.
It's our larger, outer selves (call it our Souls or Spirits) communicating something that we will recognise when we see it. It could also be our Helpers communicating this. But it is something outside our physical selves, and yet we are connected to it.
And so, we can be just going along, living our lives - but wishing for something, love in this case - and suddenly : there it is!
What's neat is that it's a prayer that has been answered. What's weird, in a good way, is the way it feels.
When I saw the Alcest post, I thought : "You need to know this girl"!
But it was also kind of like : "You (need) to know this girl".
Which becomes : "You ( ) know this girl".
"You know this girl".
And when you look back in hindsight, you can see that there was a message being sent, with the recognition of that post by Alcest, and it was a message being sent from an outside source (Soul or Helper), and your consciousness received it ahead of schedule, i.e. before you were aware of it. Meaning me. Before I was aware of it.
But I recognised you the moment I saw you, in a manner of speaking.
That's when I think our relationship began.
At any rate, this Summer is gonna go down as Legendary. Another great week lies ahead.
I hope you have been having fun, too, and doing stuff besides just work. I know you are getting ready for Italy, which will be awesome. But just so you are getting to do the things you like now, too. I guess you must be, because things feel really good.
That's all I know for tonight, my Angel. I Love You and will see you in the morning.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Saturday, July 19, 2014
Happy :):) (in camera)
Good Evening, my Darling,
I am home, just putting away a few groceries and checking email. Vickie came over for the first time in several weeks and we went shopping. Weird weather here : overcast and humid, like thunderstorm weather though nothing like that happened. It feels more like a late Fall day. But, they say the sunshine will be back full force in a day or two, so that's good.
Did you have a nice day? I saw your Taya Iv post while I was at Pearl's, and again Elizabeth, that is a beautiful thing to post, and if her words represent your feelings, whether in part or as a whole, then all I can say is I am glad! But the thing to keep in mind, if you like who you are becoming, is that you were a wonderful person to begin with. I know you've maybe had some difficulty with self-criticism and things like that in the past, but those days are over. Now, I don't mean you will never critique yourself or your work - of course you will, any creative person wants to do their best - but self-critiquing is a much more positive endeavor than being self-critical, a mindset which tends to emphasize the negative.
I like who you are becoming, too, and I also like who you are and have been! I give myself a High Five because I saw it all along (way to go, Ad!). My first thought was "Artist", and the bottom line with being an Artist, is that once you are one, you are one for life.
Remember that it's a mindset and inner feeling more than anything. Even more than the work you produce, though that is of course the desired end result. But first and foremost, you are an Artist because of the way you think and feel.
Now I'll get off my soapbox, because I love the Taya Iv quote and those words should suffice to describe your feelings at the moment. I always say, "when you are happy, I am happy", and so that extends in every way. You are awesome, my Angel. Always know it, but hold it inside in a quiet way as I always like to say. Confidence is never an outward thing, I don't think, and for me it is always tempered by gratitude for blessings.
For me, power comes from a kind of ritual (though it isn't one). It's a ritual only in the fact that the sun goes up and down, and I go to sleep and wake up in cycles, and so I do a lot of things according to a schedule. We all do, and so we can call something like coffee and the newspaper a "morning ritual", even if it's not technically a ritual. But power, for me, comes from waking up every morning, drinking my water to get me started (coffee comes a little later, lol), and just immediately connecting with God.
As always, you know the way in which I mean God, as your Higher Power. And I just begin by feeling that connection, and being thankful for the individual day, and for every blessing. Then I go out and get the day started, and I immediately feel empowered.
And for you, whatever works for you to feel that way is equally important. Never doubt that you are on an important mission in life. You don't even have to know what it is, but know for sure that it is important.
And so, quiet confidence, connection to your God, gratitude, and knowing your mission (i.e.your life) is important. Not just in a "feel-good" way, but as an unfolding mystery. The importance of your life is being revealed to you, step by step and day by day.
God works in mysterious ways - truer words were never spoken - and you will come to love the mysteries that are presented to you, and the answers that are revealed as you explore them. By finding joy in each day, and in the mysteries, you will always remain curious about life, and that factor is so important for an intelligent and creative person like yourself. Neverending curiosity means you will always have something to look forward to, and that is the lifeblood of the thinker and the Artist.
Well, I'm back on my soapbox again, but I better get off so I can go do part of my walk. I will do half now and half later. Usual schedule, donchaknow........ ;)
I Love You, Elizabeth! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(and I'll be back later, naturally)
11:35pm : I like the photo you chose earlier, and I checked out the photographer's link to his book, and I like the concept as well: travelling around and recording what you see as you go. In his case it was unfortunately a creation of the circumstance of having to live in his car, but he still created something out of it. I also (and you will know this about me, lol) like when he says of his photo, that it was created "in camera".
Photos should be created in the camera. Not with touch-ups, unless one is doing technical photography for advertisements, or fashion photography, etc. But for art photography, no computer enhancement is best.
Let the light do the work, either natural light or whatever you have set up. For me, because I am not a professional photographer, I am only seeking the Revelation Magic of art photography. I just wanna find interesting confluences of light and shape, and capture them, and hope that something underlying will present itself.
But yeah, I still say that the Mojave Desert and the Pearblossom Highway would be a great shoot for us, and extending from that, all the back roads of America. The backroadsier the better!
The only thing you don't wanna do is get so far off the beaten track that you find yourself in a Texas Chainsaw Massacre type situation! Way out in the middle of nowhere, so to speak......
Still, just start driving and go.........and see what you come up with.
Well, my Darling, we will do these things. For now, I sure am enjoying the local environs. I know you are working (I mean I think you are) but I hope you are having a chance to shoot, also. Meanwhile, just keep the mindset; what we talked about earlier. Keep your power, hold it close.
Sweet Dreams.
I Love You and will see you in the morning. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I am home, just putting away a few groceries and checking email. Vickie came over for the first time in several weeks and we went shopping. Weird weather here : overcast and humid, like thunderstorm weather though nothing like that happened. It feels more like a late Fall day. But, they say the sunshine will be back full force in a day or two, so that's good.
Did you have a nice day? I saw your Taya Iv post while I was at Pearl's, and again Elizabeth, that is a beautiful thing to post, and if her words represent your feelings, whether in part or as a whole, then all I can say is I am glad! But the thing to keep in mind, if you like who you are becoming, is that you were a wonderful person to begin with. I know you've maybe had some difficulty with self-criticism and things like that in the past, but those days are over. Now, I don't mean you will never critique yourself or your work - of course you will, any creative person wants to do their best - but self-critiquing is a much more positive endeavor than being self-critical, a mindset which tends to emphasize the negative.
I like who you are becoming, too, and I also like who you are and have been! I give myself a High Five because I saw it all along (way to go, Ad!). My first thought was "Artist", and the bottom line with being an Artist, is that once you are one, you are one for life.
Remember that it's a mindset and inner feeling more than anything. Even more than the work you produce, though that is of course the desired end result. But first and foremost, you are an Artist because of the way you think and feel.
Now I'll get off my soapbox, because I love the Taya Iv quote and those words should suffice to describe your feelings at the moment. I always say, "when you are happy, I am happy", and so that extends in every way. You are awesome, my Angel. Always know it, but hold it inside in a quiet way as I always like to say. Confidence is never an outward thing, I don't think, and for me it is always tempered by gratitude for blessings.
For me, power comes from a kind of ritual (though it isn't one). It's a ritual only in the fact that the sun goes up and down, and I go to sleep and wake up in cycles, and so I do a lot of things according to a schedule. We all do, and so we can call something like coffee and the newspaper a "morning ritual", even if it's not technically a ritual. But power, for me, comes from waking up every morning, drinking my water to get me started (coffee comes a little later, lol), and just immediately connecting with God.
As always, you know the way in which I mean God, as your Higher Power. And I just begin by feeling that connection, and being thankful for the individual day, and for every blessing. Then I go out and get the day started, and I immediately feel empowered.
And for you, whatever works for you to feel that way is equally important. Never doubt that you are on an important mission in life. You don't even have to know what it is, but know for sure that it is important.
And so, quiet confidence, connection to your God, gratitude, and knowing your mission (i.e.your life) is important. Not just in a "feel-good" way, but as an unfolding mystery. The importance of your life is being revealed to you, step by step and day by day.
God works in mysterious ways - truer words were never spoken - and you will come to love the mysteries that are presented to you, and the answers that are revealed as you explore them. By finding joy in each day, and in the mysteries, you will always remain curious about life, and that factor is so important for an intelligent and creative person like yourself. Neverending curiosity means you will always have something to look forward to, and that is the lifeblood of the thinker and the Artist.
Well, I'm back on my soapbox again, but I better get off so I can go do part of my walk. I will do half now and half later. Usual schedule, donchaknow........ ;)
I Love You, Elizabeth! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(and I'll be back later, naturally)
11:35pm : I like the photo you chose earlier, and I checked out the photographer's link to his book, and I like the concept as well: travelling around and recording what you see as you go. In his case it was unfortunately a creation of the circumstance of having to live in his car, but he still created something out of it. I also (and you will know this about me, lol) like when he says of his photo, that it was created "in camera".
Photos should be created in the camera. Not with touch-ups, unless one is doing technical photography for advertisements, or fashion photography, etc. But for art photography, no computer enhancement is best.
Let the light do the work, either natural light or whatever you have set up. For me, because I am not a professional photographer, I am only seeking the Revelation Magic of art photography. I just wanna find interesting confluences of light and shape, and capture them, and hope that something underlying will present itself.
But yeah, I still say that the Mojave Desert and the Pearblossom Highway would be a great shoot for us, and extending from that, all the back roads of America. The backroadsier the better!
The only thing you don't wanna do is get so far off the beaten track that you find yourself in a Texas Chainsaw Massacre type situation! Way out in the middle of nowhere, so to speak......
Still, just start driving and go.........and see what you come up with.
Well, my Darling, we will do these things. For now, I sure am enjoying the local environs. I know you are working (I mean I think you are) but I hope you are having a chance to shoot, also. Meanwhile, just keep the mindset; what we talked about earlier. Keep your power, hold it close.
Sweet Dreams.
I Love You and will see you in the morning. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Friday, July 18, 2014
Goodness :):) (melted) (rocks & runes)
Good Morning, my Angel,
I am just getting home. I took Pearl to a local imaging center for an upper GI x-ray. Her daughter had taken her to the doctor because she sometimes has food go down the wrong way, which results in coughing spasms. I didn't think it was that big a deal, it's just that Pearl eats too fast and sometimes is talking, too. But her daughter thought she should get looked at, so she took her to see her doctor and he ordered the x-ray. The x-ray tech said he thought the images looked good, but he said the doc would look at them, too, and then send a full report. But it's probably all good. Pearl has never been a smoker, either.
Anyway, so I am back to work, but now I am home again until 4:30. While we were at the imaging center I saw the news about the airplane. Crazy stuff. I don't know what's up with Maylasia Airlines, but it sure seems weird for them to have two highly unusual incidents like this. I think when we travel, we will stick to reputable airlines and safe destinations.
Well, I like our world, and the things we think about and talk about. The photo you posted this morning says "Goodness", and it is very important to remember the overwhelming amount of goodness and good things in the world.
I hope you are enjoying your day. I will be here until 4:15, and then on Chromebook 2 at Pearl's, and then back here again after 6:30! And I will check in later to see how you are doing.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7:05pm : Hi, my Baby, I am home. The Black Kitty and Kobedoggie were glad to see me, and vice-versa. Now we will be back in the swing of things for a couple weeks, and then from August 3rd through the 8th, I will get another five days off. They are having new kitchen cabinets put in, so Pearl's daughter will be back down here for that.
I saw your Eric Whitacre post, and I also saw a couple of comments that were visible when you posted it. You may have intended them, but in any case they were so very beautiful, and my heart melted, and all I can tell you, my Angel, is that I Love You, too, and I will never let you down.
Such beautiful things to say. :):)
Tonight, I have to do all my mileage, so I will do half now and half a little later. Or maybe the whole thing at once, lol. I haven't decided yet! My whole walk takes approximately 68 minutes. It's actually 4.75 miles worth. When I started in 1999, I measured, on my car odometer, a loop around CSUN, and that's what it came out to. I just call it 5 miles a day because I figure I do at least a quarter mile of incidental walking, in and out of stores, doing stuff at Pearl's, etc. So, it all adds up, but the 4.75 miles of walking for excercise takes about 68 minutes if I do it all at once. At any rate, I'll do it all at some point this evening!
I hope you are enjoying your Friday night. I will be here for the moment, then back later at the usual time.
I Love You, Elizabeth, always and forever. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Midnight : A late post, but I got my full walk done, so all is well. I saw your comment about runes, and so I guess you have been into that aspect of occult magic for several years. Are runes a part of Paganism? My guess is yes. You see, my girl, that is in your soul in the same way those ancient Santa Susana rocks are in mine. For me, I have been into what I call "weird stuff" for quite some time. The Occult in the literal sense, of being obscured or hidden. A lot of times it was just fascination with something interesting, but a few times - like with The Meadows after the earthquake, or now with Santa Susana - it's like being pulled in.
I know you know the feeling. For you, it seems very similar, except the traditions and, in your case, the skills (reading of runes and other magical aspects), come from another culture in a different place.
But it's really all the same thing, and do you know what's a mindblower? The whole idea of the rocks. I got interested in Chumash history this evening, and on Wiki they talked about the Shaman, and trances entered into before cave painting, and that the Chumash believed there was special energy in the rocks.
Spiritual power.
When you go out there, there is no doubt. It's a quiet power, and yet you might as well be plugged into a high voltage transformer. So it's a knowing that comes from intuition, from feeling.
You know it because you feel it.
And so, it's pretty fascinating that ancient cultures from around the globe, probably too distantly spaced to have shared knowledge, were all interested in the power of stones and rocks. Runes have a language on top of that, but it's the same thing : harmonic energy contained in symbols.
What blows me away is that this kind of thing is beyond logical analysis. I don't mean that, using logic, that a person could not explain these things. An enlightened and intelligent person certainly could do so. What I mean by "beyond logical analysis" is that The Power Of The Ancient (be it giant rocks, or runes embedded with symbolic language, or cave paintings, or harmonic bowls) is so overwhelming to the person who connects to it, that the Pull is all that is needed for certainty.
When I am in Santa Susana, I don't need anyone to explain it to me. Not even a Chumash, although they could tell me the details and history and fine points. And it's the same way for you. The runes, and symbols of the ancient language pulled you in. And I am sure there are other things in your life, other natural phenomena, that have done the same to you.
It's interesting that so much power - spiritual power - is conveyed through rocks, and in a completely subliminal way.
Dr. Farrell has talked about the pitzeo-electric (i.e.radio) conductivity contained in quartz, and I think that certain, or even most rocks contain a conductivity of some type: physical energy, dream energy, intuitive energy.
Rocks are dense, and they are everlasting or pretty close to that, and they hold energy.
For millions of years, they input energy of all kinds. And then they radiate it, gradually.
And those who are sensitive to that power - who know it without anyone having to explain it to them - are pulled in.
That's you and me. It's pretty awesome to feel that power.
Sweet Dreams, my Baby. I Love You!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoox :):)
I am just getting home. I took Pearl to a local imaging center for an upper GI x-ray. Her daughter had taken her to the doctor because she sometimes has food go down the wrong way, which results in coughing spasms. I didn't think it was that big a deal, it's just that Pearl eats too fast and sometimes is talking, too. But her daughter thought she should get looked at, so she took her to see her doctor and he ordered the x-ray. The x-ray tech said he thought the images looked good, but he said the doc would look at them, too, and then send a full report. But it's probably all good. Pearl has never been a smoker, either.
Anyway, so I am back to work, but now I am home again until 4:30. While we were at the imaging center I saw the news about the airplane. Crazy stuff. I don't know what's up with Maylasia Airlines, but it sure seems weird for them to have two highly unusual incidents like this. I think when we travel, we will stick to reputable airlines and safe destinations.
Well, I like our world, and the things we think about and talk about. The photo you posted this morning says "Goodness", and it is very important to remember the overwhelming amount of goodness and good things in the world.
I hope you are enjoying your day. I will be here until 4:15, and then on Chromebook 2 at Pearl's, and then back here again after 6:30! And I will check in later to see how you are doing.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7:05pm : Hi, my Baby, I am home. The Black Kitty and Kobedoggie were glad to see me, and vice-versa. Now we will be back in the swing of things for a couple weeks, and then from August 3rd through the 8th, I will get another five days off. They are having new kitchen cabinets put in, so Pearl's daughter will be back down here for that.
I saw your Eric Whitacre post, and I also saw a couple of comments that were visible when you posted it. You may have intended them, but in any case they were so very beautiful, and my heart melted, and all I can tell you, my Angel, is that I Love You, too, and I will never let you down.
Such beautiful things to say. :):)
Tonight, I have to do all my mileage, so I will do half now and half a little later. Or maybe the whole thing at once, lol. I haven't decided yet! My whole walk takes approximately 68 minutes. It's actually 4.75 miles worth. When I started in 1999, I measured, on my car odometer, a loop around CSUN, and that's what it came out to. I just call it 5 miles a day because I figure I do at least a quarter mile of incidental walking, in and out of stores, doing stuff at Pearl's, etc. So, it all adds up, but the 4.75 miles of walking for excercise takes about 68 minutes if I do it all at once. At any rate, I'll do it all at some point this evening!
I hope you are enjoying your Friday night. I will be here for the moment, then back later at the usual time.
I Love You, Elizabeth, always and forever. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Midnight : A late post, but I got my full walk done, so all is well. I saw your comment about runes, and so I guess you have been into that aspect of occult magic for several years. Are runes a part of Paganism? My guess is yes. You see, my girl, that is in your soul in the same way those ancient Santa Susana rocks are in mine. For me, I have been into what I call "weird stuff" for quite some time. The Occult in the literal sense, of being obscured or hidden. A lot of times it was just fascination with something interesting, but a few times - like with The Meadows after the earthquake, or now with Santa Susana - it's like being pulled in.
I know you know the feeling. For you, it seems very similar, except the traditions and, in your case, the skills (reading of runes and other magical aspects), come from another culture in a different place.
But it's really all the same thing, and do you know what's a mindblower? The whole idea of the rocks. I got interested in Chumash history this evening, and on Wiki they talked about the Shaman, and trances entered into before cave painting, and that the Chumash believed there was special energy in the rocks.
Spiritual power.
When you go out there, there is no doubt. It's a quiet power, and yet you might as well be plugged into a high voltage transformer. So it's a knowing that comes from intuition, from feeling.
You know it because you feel it.
And so, it's pretty fascinating that ancient cultures from around the globe, probably too distantly spaced to have shared knowledge, were all interested in the power of stones and rocks. Runes have a language on top of that, but it's the same thing : harmonic energy contained in symbols.
What blows me away is that this kind of thing is beyond logical analysis. I don't mean that, using logic, that a person could not explain these things. An enlightened and intelligent person certainly could do so. What I mean by "beyond logical analysis" is that The Power Of The Ancient (be it giant rocks, or runes embedded with symbolic language, or cave paintings, or harmonic bowls) is so overwhelming to the person who connects to it, that the Pull is all that is needed for certainty.
When I am in Santa Susana, I don't need anyone to explain it to me. Not even a Chumash, although they could tell me the details and history and fine points. And it's the same way for you. The runes, and symbols of the ancient language pulled you in. And I am sure there are other things in your life, other natural phenomena, that have done the same to you.
It's interesting that so much power - spiritual power - is conveyed through rocks, and in a completely subliminal way.
Dr. Farrell has talked about the pitzeo-electric (i.e.radio) conductivity contained in quartz, and I think that certain, or even most rocks contain a conductivity of some type: physical energy, dream energy, intuitive energy.
Rocks are dense, and they are everlasting or pretty close to that, and they hold energy.
For millions of years, they input energy of all kinds. And then they radiate it, gradually.
And those who are sensitive to that power - who know it without anyone having to explain it to them - are pulled in.
That's you and me. It's pretty awesome to feel that power.
Sweet Dreams, my Baby. I Love You!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoox :):)
Thursday, July 17, 2014
I Love You :):) (Stagecoach again.......my goodness, Ad, do ya have to go there everyday?.....) (The Slide!) (Chumash Magic) (You Rule)
Good Morning, Elizabeth,
Are you there? I just wanted to say that I have another day off today. Pearl's daughter decided to stay an extra day, so I don't have to be back until tomorrow morning. So, I am gonna do the usual and stay out of the mid-day heat, then head out later just for another short trip, looking for photos to take.
I'm sorry I had to write so much and bring all that stuff up last night, but I really needed to explain the situation. I still have a little more that I want to add, but I will do that later. I hope you are okay, and I am thinking about you and I Love You. Hope to hear from you. :)
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
3:10pm : Just checking in to say that I saw your two posts. I didn't know what to make of them, other than smiling faces (and perhaps the word "yay"!), so I guess, and I am hoping, that you are happy. I am happy and I don't care about those guys or any of the stuff I wrote about last night. They bothered me at the time, and I had to write about them to describe what happened, but I don't care now. Water under the bridge.
I still have to write a little more, and I will do so when I get back. I am gonna do the usual and head back over to Stagecoach. I love it there; it makes me feel like I am back in the 1800s, or even further back in Indian times, thousands of years ago, lol. So, I am gonna drive over there, wander around til late afternoon and then head back. I may stop at Aliso, too, but I will be back no later than 8pm, tops. And I will write more then. I Love You, Elizabeth, and that's something you can always count on.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7pm : Good Evening, my Darling. I am back, and as you can see (if you saw FB a few minutes ago), I finally found The Devil's Slide, just like I vowed to. It's not all that hard to find, once you get on the correct trail. Anyhow, I found it and I walked all the way to the top of the mountain, and to the trailhead on the other side at a road called Lilac Lane. It was my best hike yet! A total blast, relatively easy, and only about an hour each way. I sure don't know how a stagecoach ever made it down that road, though! They probably didn't have too many repeat customers, lol.
I saw your posts when I got back, and it seems like everything is okay again, so I am happy. France is for sure one of our destinations, and definitely a hike........anywhere!
The one last thing I wanted to bring up (when I said I was gonna write a little more on the subject) is the question of how the whole thing materialised. I mean, it was making me a little nervous because I couldn't and can't figure it out. How did Lillian's name come up, or more to the point, if I am correct that your recent posts (and Tina's post) of Lily Pads, and "Water Lillies" referred to Lillian, then the only possible reason I can think of that you were upset was because of my friend request. In fact, it is the only possible reason because I have had no contact with her. The only thing resembling contact was my friend request, which she never accepted. Hence she is not on my FB "friends" list, so my question is how did her name come up?
You couldn't have seen her on my friends list because she is not on it, and you can't see a friend "request" on FB that is sent by another person. You can only see your own friend requests.
So what I haven't been able to figure out is how you became aware of it? It's freaking me out just a little bit because I thought "What? Did Elizabeth have contact with Lillian? Contact from her"? And then I thought, "that doesn't make any sense at all". Neither one of you would have any reason to contact the other, and in Lillian's case, she is not the type of person who would interfere in my business in that way. At least I can't imagine she would. She has too much else to do with her job. All of my FB posts are limited to "friends", so even if she looked at my profile, all she would see is "lists" (movies, music, etc.) and my photos. Those are the only things I have set to "public". So she wouldn't even be aware of you and I, and I haven't seen her since 1995, so I am sure she would have zero interest in me or my life. She's not out to get me, in other words (and there's nothing to "get" anyway because I am a good guy), so she would have no reason in the world to contact you, and she's just not the kind of person who gets involved in things like that. Not to my knowledge, anyway. And I know you would have no reason to contact her.
So I can't figure it out. If you and Tina (in helping you) both posted "Lillies", which meant that Lillian was the problem, and if she could only have been the problem due to my FB friend request, and if you can't see other people's friend requests on FB, and finally, if it seems extremely unlikely that either you or she would try to make contact with the other (and in her case probably not even aware of you and I), then how did her name come up? How did you become aware of my friend request to her? That's the only thing even resembling contact that I have initiated.
It's no major deal, and I am very glad everything seems okay again, but I am just curious because I can't figure it out, and it seems like intrigue or something. Weird stuff. Anyway, whatever it is you can tell me, even if for some crazy reason she did contact you or vice-versa. You can tell me if you want to, but the main thing is that I am happy everything is good.
I will do the rest of my walk in a little while, then come back and write some more at the usual time.
I Love You, Elizabeth! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
10:30pm : Ah, so it's magic, is it? ;) I'm just teasing, saying that because of your post. Whatever the case, it's all good now I take it. All I know for sure is that I Love You and You are my Sweet Baby. And I know you love me, too. :):)
Well, I am all hiked out after three straight days on the trails. I think I'm turning into a Chumash Indian! It's funny, too, because never in my life was I really a "nature" kind of guy. I mean, I always loved being outdoors, and when we were kids and Dad took us to the beach, desert or mountains, we always had fun and enjoyed it, but as an adult it was never anything I sought out. I love going for walks, at CSUN or in my neighborhood, but this trail thing is new to me. It started when somebody posted a photo last Fall, on FB, of the Garden Of The Gods film site at the old Iverson Ranch in Santa Susana Pass. I thought, "wow, I've never even heard of that place and it's just five miles away". I thought it would be good for some photos, so I went there, and the rest is history : Corriganville, Placerita Canyon, El Escorpion, all the different trails in Santa Susana, and finally today the summit. Devil's Slide. So that was awesome.
When I was a kid, 9 years old in the Summer of 1969, I went to YMCA camp. It was a day camp and the kids went home at night, but there were a couple weekends where we stayed overnight on the lawn at Chatsworth Park, which is located at the base of the mountains in my pictures. We had the Santa Susanas all around us and we slept under the stars in sleeping bags, something they probably wouldn't let kids do today. But it was awesome and a little eerie, because the camp counselors, who were mostly teenagers, would tell us scary stories about witches and monsters who lived up in the hills. They liked to scare the kids, haha, but they also told us about the Indians who'd lived there. So when I think about it, it may be some residual effect from my childhood campout days that drew me back there.
Whatever it is, I sure had fun this week. Now that I know where the Slide is, I can make it a recurring hike, every so often.
And one day not too long from now, you can come with me.
I Love You, my Darling! Tomorrow I am back at work, but we will head into a nice weekend and the rest of an awesome Summer, a Summer to remember for certain. Sweet Dreams and I will see you in the morning.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:30pm : A late night P.S. : I just saw your post about the photographer Krit. He is using locations in our near vicinity. The photo with the guy with his arm raised, wearing all white, is interesting because it looks like it was shot at one of the dry lake beds just north of the Valley, when you are getting near the Mojave desert. The other photo that strikes me, and maybe the one you meant most prominently, is the one with bodies in white amongst sandstone formations, with a pile of rocks in the background. That also looks to be in our vicinity - he says his locations were in L.A. - and my guess once again is that he shot it in the Lancaster area, just over the North end of the Valley. Check it on Google maps if you want to.
I read his interview with Interview mag, in the post, and it's interesting, yet so true, that L.A. is a place of nature. We have this urban and suburban sprawl, but we are surrounded by nature. I am glad he noticed it!
Going out to Lancaster, and especially the Pearblossom Highway, is another one on my list. That is a trip you are definitely coming on!
You rule, my Baby. I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox :):)
Are you there? I just wanted to say that I have another day off today. Pearl's daughter decided to stay an extra day, so I don't have to be back until tomorrow morning. So, I am gonna do the usual and stay out of the mid-day heat, then head out later just for another short trip, looking for photos to take.
I'm sorry I had to write so much and bring all that stuff up last night, but I really needed to explain the situation. I still have a little more that I want to add, but I will do that later. I hope you are okay, and I am thinking about you and I Love You. Hope to hear from you. :)
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
3:10pm : Just checking in to say that I saw your two posts. I didn't know what to make of them, other than smiling faces (and perhaps the word "yay"!), so I guess, and I am hoping, that you are happy. I am happy and I don't care about those guys or any of the stuff I wrote about last night. They bothered me at the time, and I had to write about them to describe what happened, but I don't care now. Water under the bridge.
I still have to write a little more, and I will do so when I get back. I am gonna do the usual and head back over to Stagecoach. I love it there; it makes me feel like I am back in the 1800s, or even further back in Indian times, thousands of years ago, lol. So, I am gonna drive over there, wander around til late afternoon and then head back. I may stop at Aliso, too, but I will be back no later than 8pm, tops. And I will write more then. I Love You, Elizabeth, and that's something you can always count on.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7pm : Good Evening, my Darling. I am back, and as you can see (if you saw FB a few minutes ago), I finally found The Devil's Slide, just like I vowed to. It's not all that hard to find, once you get on the correct trail. Anyhow, I found it and I walked all the way to the top of the mountain, and to the trailhead on the other side at a road called Lilac Lane. It was my best hike yet! A total blast, relatively easy, and only about an hour each way. I sure don't know how a stagecoach ever made it down that road, though! They probably didn't have too many repeat customers, lol.
I saw your posts when I got back, and it seems like everything is okay again, so I am happy. France is for sure one of our destinations, and definitely a hike........anywhere!
The one last thing I wanted to bring up (when I said I was gonna write a little more on the subject) is the question of how the whole thing materialised. I mean, it was making me a little nervous because I couldn't and can't figure it out. How did Lillian's name come up, or more to the point, if I am correct that your recent posts (and Tina's post) of Lily Pads, and "Water Lillies" referred to Lillian, then the only possible reason I can think of that you were upset was because of my friend request. In fact, it is the only possible reason because I have had no contact with her. The only thing resembling contact was my friend request, which she never accepted. Hence she is not on my FB "friends" list, so my question is how did her name come up?
You couldn't have seen her on my friends list because she is not on it, and you can't see a friend "request" on FB that is sent by another person. You can only see your own friend requests.
So what I haven't been able to figure out is how you became aware of it? It's freaking me out just a little bit because I thought "What? Did Elizabeth have contact with Lillian? Contact from her"? And then I thought, "that doesn't make any sense at all". Neither one of you would have any reason to contact the other, and in Lillian's case, she is not the type of person who would interfere in my business in that way. At least I can't imagine she would. She has too much else to do with her job. All of my FB posts are limited to "friends", so even if she looked at my profile, all she would see is "lists" (movies, music, etc.) and my photos. Those are the only things I have set to "public". So she wouldn't even be aware of you and I, and I haven't seen her since 1995, so I am sure she would have zero interest in me or my life. She's not out to get me, in other words (and there's nothing to "get" anyway because I am a good guy), so she would have no reason in the world to contact you, and she's just not the kind of person who gets involved in things like that. Not to my knowledge, anyway. And I know you would have no reason to contact her.
So I can't figure it out. If you and Tina (in helping you) both posted "Lillies", which meant that Lillian was the problem, and if she could only have been the problem due to my FB friend request, and if you can't see other people's friend requests on FB, and finally, if it seems extremely unlikely that either you or she would try to make contact with the other (and in her case probably not even aware of you and I), then how did her name come up? How did you become aware of my friend request to her? That's the only thing even resembling contact that I have initiated.
It's no major deal, and I am very glad everything seems okay again, but I am just curious because I can't figure it out, and it seems like intrigue or something. Weird stuff. Anyway, whatever it is you can tell me, even if for some crazy reason she did contact you or vice-versa. You can tell me if you want to, but the main thing is that I am happy everything is good.
I will do the rest of my walk in a little while, then come back and write some more at the usual time.
I Love You, Elizabeth! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
10:30pm : Ah, so it's magic, is it? ;) I'm just teasing, saying that because of your post. Whatever the case, it's all good now I take it. All I know for sure is that I Love You and You are my Sweet Baby. And I know you love me, too. :):)
Well, I am all hiked out after three straight days on the trails. I think I'm turning into a Chumash Indian! It's funny, too, because never in my life was I really a "nature" kind of guy. I mean, I always loved being outdoors, and when we were kids and Dad took us to the beach, desert or mountains, we always had fun and enjoyed it, but as an adult it was never anything I sought out. I love going for walks, at CSUN or in my neighborhood, but this trail thing is new to me. It started when somebody posted a photo last Fall, on FB, of the Garden Of The Gods film site at the old Iverson Ranch in Santa Susana Pass. I thought, "wow, I've never even heard of that place and it's just five miles away". I thought it would be good for some photos, so I went there, and the rest is history : Corriganville, Placerita Canyon, El Escorpion, all the different trails in Santa Susana, and finally today the summit. Devil's Slide. So that was awesome.
When I was a kid, 9 years old in the Summer of 1969, I went to YMCA camp. It was a day camp and the kids went home at night, but there were a couple weekends where we stayed overnight on the lawn at Chatsworth Park, which is located at the base of the mountains in my pictures. We had the Santa Susanas all around us and we slept under the stars in sleeping bags, something they probably wouldn't let kids do today. But it was awesome and a little eerie, because the camp counselors, who were mostly teenagers, would tell us scary stories about witches and monsters who lived up in the hills. They liked to scare the kids, haha, but they also told us about the Indians who'd lived there. So when I think about it, it may be some residual effect from my childhood campout days that drew me back there.
Whatever it is, I sure had fun this week. Now that I know where the Slide is, I can make it a recurring hike, every so often.
And one day not too long from now, you can come with me.
I Love You, my Darling! Tomorrow I am back at work, but we will head into a nice weekend and the rest of an awesome Summer, a Summer to remember for certain. Sweet Dreams and I will see you in the morning.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
12:30pm : A late night P.S. : I just saw your post about the photographer Krit. He is using locations in our near vicinity. The photo with the guy with his arm raised, wearing all white, is interesting because it looks like it was shot at one of the dry lake beds just north of the Valley, when you are getting near the Mojave desert. The other photo that strikes me, and maybe the one you meant most prominently, is the one with bodies in white amongst sandstone formations, with a pile of rocks in the background. That also looks to be in our vicinity - he says his locations were in L.A. - and my guess once again is that he shot it in the Lancaster area, just over the North end of the Valley. Check it on Google maps if you want to.
I read his interview with Interview mag, in the post, and it's interesting, yet so true, that L.A. is a place of nature. We have this urban and suburban sprawl, but we are surrounded by nature. I am glad he noticed it!
Going out to Lancaster, and especially the Pearblossom Highway, is another one on my list. That is a trip you are definitely coming on!
You rule, my Baby. I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox :):)
Wednesday, July 16, 2014
Good Morning (please read) (I'm back) (my thoughts) (the story)
Good Morning, Elizabeth,
I am just waking up, gonna have my morning coffee. I see that there are still zero page views since Monday, so I guess you didn't see my comments from last night. I hope all is well but it just feels like something funny is going on, in looking at some of your most recent posts. Everything seemed great, but as soon as I got a few days off it seems like you stopped reading.
Anyway, again I say that I hope all is well, but if it's not would you please let me know what is happening? It is hot and humid outside once again, so I am gonna hang around here til the afternoon. I sure hope to hear from you.
I Love You Always. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
2:35pm : I'm just checking in to see if you're there. Still no page views as of now. I have a feeling I know what's going on but I just wanna know if you're out there before I say anything. If it's what I think it is, all I can tell you is that you've got it wrong, and you're not in a country music video, either. I will be here for a little while if you wanna post anything, probably til 3:15 or 3:30, then I am gonna go back out to Chatsworth just for something to do. It's my last full day off. Sigh......I hope you read this, Elizabeth. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
8:20pm : I am back. I went out to Stagecoach again, and then Grimsley called while I was out there and wanted to meet me at Aliso, so I did that too. A double trail day. Anyway, I see a couple page views so I guess you finally read again. I hope so anyway. If you feel like posting anything, I will be here for the rest of the evening. I hope we can clear things up, if indeed there has been a problem, and if it's what I think it is. I hope you are feeling okay and anything you feel like posting will be a big help to me. I will be back later to write more.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxo
10pm : I will write a little bit now, just to try and get some communication started. All I can do for starters is just tell you what I've observed for the past few days, and from that, what I think the problem is. It may take awhile for me to type it all, though I don't want to get into a long-winded and overblown explanation, or one that is overwrought, either. I think it will help if we both communicate, just so we can clear the air, and so I will write a bit now, then post. I hope you read it, and if you do and then feel like posting something yourself, that will help me as I said earlier.
Well, here I go, and I will start at the beginning, going back a little over a week ago, maybe around the 4th of July or just after that. As you know, I am a person who notices the details of things. It's not because I'm suspicious or anything like that. I am not a cynical or ironic person and I think you know that about me. Rather, the reason I notice things (at least I think the reason) is more like a right-brain thing, like an intuitive noticing of patterns. We have patterns in our communication; everybody does, but we do especially because part of our communication is symbolic. I have learned to interpret your posts and because we think alike and because you are so creative and intelligent, most of your posts are easy to interpret. And it's precisely because they are usually easy to interpret that I notice when one seems a little different.
So, around July 5th or 6th, you posted a "like" of somebody's picture who was moving to Japan. The reason I noticed it was because of phonetics. That's what I mean when I say my brain picks up on patterns. It's like it is always trying to translate stuff. So, in the post, the person was moving to (and I will try to get the name and spelling as close as I can remember it) "Fukuoka, Japan".
Here's why I noticed it. First, it was kind of an unusual "like" for you. "Likes" that you post on FB are often as not meant for me to see - messages to me - and I could not, at first, figure out why you would have posted a "like" of someone moving to Japan. I checked and from what I could see, you were not on the person's "mutual friends" list, and I had never seen you use this person in your posts before. It didn't appear that you knew the person. So it seemed really random. But I thought, "well, usually Elizabeth means her posts for me".
The other thing I noticed was the phonetics. "Fukuoka, Japan". In other words, "F. You", Japan. One thing I know about my Elizabeth is that she is super-smart, super creative and she knows that I get stuff. But still, I couldn't understand that particular post, and I wrote off the phonetics explanation because at that time, we were celebrating two years of loving each other and things had been just beautiful. So I thought, "well, it's gotta just be a post of somebody I don't know and I don't understand the meaning. Or maybe Elizabeth is saying she'd love to visit Japan". So I dismissed the phonetics, and I think I referred to visiting Japan in my blog that evening. I chalked it up to "Elizabeth is saying 'let's go to Japan' " and I wrote in my blog that I would love to.
Okay, then some time went by, and some of your posts were about us, directed at me, some were of photos you liked, there was some World Cup stuff. That was over the ten days (or so) period since the Japan post. I just now checked on FB, and it was just a few days ago, July 12th to be exact (which would be last Saturday), that you posted a "like" of the beautiful picture of the Middle Eastern woman and her baby. I responded in my blog by saying "this time I'm your Baby"! (because very often the picture is of you as my Baby). At any rate, that would have been last Saturday and everything seemed fine, just wonderful in fact. Then came Sunday and World Cup. Germany won, everything seemed fine.
Then came Monday, two days ago. It was a day off for me, I slept in, and when I woke up I saw two pictures posted. Two "likes" by you, of the hot air balloon, and the dragonflies. They were a little different from some photos you post, but both were nice shots, and at first I just thought the balloon post was your way of saying, "let's go ballooning"! An adventure for us, because we talk about adventures from time to time, like last Summer when I mentioned going to Puma Punku and places like that. An adventure. The dragonflies post was by Wisconsin Wildlife Photographers, and they do excellent work and I know you like and have posted their stuff before. So I just figured, well, those posts are a little different, but not too different. One's an adventure and the other is a pretty Summer picture. We've been talking about Summer a lot, and I just figured, "dragonflies are a Summer thing, and there's two of them......they're us"! And that's what I wrote in my blog that day.
Then I was gonna go see The Beatles movie that night in Hollywood, with Grimsley, and I wanted to let you know, so I wrote it in my blog. And I checked after that and there were no page views. I think there were still none when I left for the movie, but I just figured, well, Elizabeth must be out with friends or doing something. I know you don't just sit around waiting for me to post. :)
But when I got back from the movie, at about 10pm, there were still no page views. There was a post from you on FB, though, of the guy with his friends. I thought, "hmmm, I don't think that one has to do with me, it's just a friend of Elizabeth's. Maybe she talked to him today".
Right now I am gonna take a short break and post this. Hopefully you will read if you are still awake. If you feel like posting anything on FB, please do. If not, or if you can't find anything to fit what you want to say, that's okay too. I will write more in a few minutes, but I just wanna eat something first.
Back in a few. :):)
11:50pm : I don't think I will be able to entirely finish what I want to say tonight, as it is late, and by the time I type and post this part you may be asleep anyway, but in checking back just now, I see a page view and that is good. Remember way back, my girl, when I used to say "communication is everything"? Well it still is, and as long as you are reading, then I have at least communicated my end of things.
I will pick up where I left off and go as far as I can for this evening. Well, by this time it was yesterday, and I was heading out to Chatsworth to the trail, and things still felt off. There were little to no page views on the blog for a couple days, and posts by you that either didn't seem to apply to me or just didn't feel right for some reason. And then yesterday - I don't recall if it was before I left for Stagecoach or after I got back - but there was a "like" by you of your friend Tina's post. The picture of the painting.
"Looks like a Monet", was your comment.
I go by feeling, my whole life is that way, just inputting and intuiting stuff. I analyze too, using logic, but what I always notice first, on the periphery, is the intuitive stuff. I think you know that because you know me pretty well by now, and you are also super-intuitive. We think alike, you and I.
I also retain memory, so even if I had put aside something that didn't feel right to me - just "wrote it off", say - if something else comes along that doesn't feel right, then I will go back and pull the first thing out of the old memory bank, because it means I am seeing a pattern.
So I saw your post of Tina's picture, and by now I know something is off. For a little while, I thought she herself had painted the picture. I know some of your friends are artists, and because you said "looks like" a Monet, I thought you were complimenting her on her ability to duplicate a style.
I was trying to enjoy my days off, and I was going on my hikes, and yesterday I even went almost all the way to the top of that part of the Santa Susanas, and there was nobody back there but me, and I was kind of blowing my mind because you can really feel the energy of those old rocks and hills, way back in the corner of the Valley and way up high. And the best part is that it's a relatively easy hike, because you ascend gradually.
So I was loving being back there all by myself, but at the same time I knew something was wrong.
Monet. "Water Lillies".
Dragonflies on lily pads from the day before.
All the other stuff I have mentioned, the Japan post.
A very long time ago, going way back to early 2013, you posted something having to do with a "lily", perhaps in a painting or something. The exact post I don't remember. But I know I figured it out, and then later, maybe in Spring 2013, you posted the "pavane" by Ravel, and I was at first nonplussed. Then I figured that out too.
So this time, it took me a couple of days, because I am out of practice, but with the help of Tina's picture and the dragonflies, I finally understood your reference.
I don't have the time or energy to finish writing tonight, because I still have a lot to say, but I will say that I think I know why you are making references to "lily". I mean, if those two posts (dragonflies and Monet) are a coincidence, then I'll be a monkey's uncle.
Elizabeth, you are referring to Lillian, are you not? And if you are, you must have noticed that I sent her a friend request on Facebook.
Here is where things can get touchy if we don't trust one another, and so I am offering my trust by being honest with you, even though you haven't posted in a while now and thus I have had no input from you on this matter.
Everything I have written in this blog leads up to that - you have noticed that I had sent Lillian a friend request. Is that what the problem is? That's my guess, because of "F. You" (Japan), and then later, "A Man Of The Hot Air Balloon" (i.e. "A Man Who Is Full Of Hot Air") and then on the same morning, dragonflies on "lily" pads. And then Monet. And then finally, Tina's comment about you being in a country music video (cheatin' hearts, et al). In fact, now that I thnk of it, there was also a post of yours, a "like" of Simone L.'s post, in which she won an award for a play called "Crimes Of The Heart". So maybe you meant that one for me, too. Or maybe it was coincidental. But I know the others were meant for me.
So now I am going to tell you what happened. I will have to give you the brief version now, because it is late and I have been writing a lot. But I promise to finish in the morning or early afternoon tomorrow. And at some point, I am going to need your help. Communication takes two, and you will see what I mean as we continue.
Elizabeth, yes I did send Lillian a friend request on Facebook. She is not, as far as I am aware, a person who uses social media very much, if at all. I was surprised to even see that she had an FB account. I looked her name up a while back, maybe six months ago, and that was that.
Here is what has been difficult for me, though I have learned to deal with it. I have mentioned it before, so it will be no surprise. You are very social, and you have quite a few male friends. Don't get me wrong, I know you, and I know that you love me, and I know that your friends are just friends. Still, because I am not all that social, except with close friends, and because I don't have a lot of female friends, it is something I have had to learn to deal with. You are social, it is your personality, I don't want to change it (nor can I or should I) because who you are is a beautiful person.
What I do have, because I am older, is a little bit of perspective, and as I have said when I have complained (or whined, if you prefer, lol) about one guy or another : in some cases, I can see the guy coming a mile away. When you have been around a while, you can see these things.
Elizabeth, do not take any of the following the wrong way, because all of what I am about to say is past history, and it's water under the bridge, and it's no big deal now, and wasn't really that big a deal when it was happening, but : you know that, since I have known you, there have been a few guys with whom I have felt I had to compete for your attention. Maybe I was right in feeling those feelings, and maybe I was wrong, but the feelings were there all the same, and at the time I expressed them, because I have always felt we should communicate.
Last Summer it was the French guy, Aurelien. For a while, it seemed he was always around. Now, he doesn't seem to be so much, but at the time I complained, and I said something like "it's hard for me because he can talk to you directly and I can't".
The other thing was that he was crazy about you, Elizabeth. You may see it as "just friends", but the guy doesn't see it that way. I mean, some guys do, guys that are just "nice guys" or Joe Schmoe or whatever, but with that particular guy there was no doubt. He was a guy who collects girls. How do I know that? Because I have been around the block. He is a kid, and I can see him coming from a mile away.
But I also know - and knew at the time - that you love me, so his attentions, and your communication with him, was something I could let pass, and in the end it proved to be no big deal.
Keep in mind the important part : that all along, I have not been able to talk to you directly. So if a guy like Aurelien was in the picture, posting and posting, with you responding to some extent, all I could do was sit there and watch, or complain in my blog. And then, it felt like I was a fifth wheel, whining off to the side. He could talk to you directly; he was a girl collector; I am an older guy and can see him coming.
Not fun for me, but it didn't last, and then he seemed to be gone.
Most of the other guys have been fans. Easy to tell a fan, they are appreciative, make a few posts, no big deal.
But then - and you probably know what I am gonna say now - then came the other guy. Johan.
He came along about last Fall or so, at least on FB. Maybe you have known him in real life for a long time, I don't know. But from the gist of what I could see on FB, your friendship was fairly recent.
He went from not being there at all, to posting "like" so fast on every post you made, that you'd have thought his FB was hooked up directly to his brain. I complained about him, too. I thought he lived in Germany, so it didn't bother me too much, but then on your birthday last year I saw some post about drinking in a bar or something........and I thought, "whoa".
Who is this guy?
Then I saw that he didn't live in Germany. He lived in Chicago. And he just posted "like" after "like", very rapidly, and I thought, "It's another Aurelien, except tenfold".
Elizabeth, that guy is crazy about you. Again, you may not see it that way, but I am coming from the perspective of age, and more that that - from being a guy.
I can tell who's who, every time. I don't know this guy, and he doesn't seem to be around at the moment. I haven't seen him post in a while. I am making no judgement on the guy, and I am sure he's a superb guy. But he likes you a lot. Just sayin.
And so here was I, sitting off to the side again, just like with Aurelien. I am sitting 2000 miles away, unable to talk to you directly, and what happened?
Around Memorial Day weekend (or whenever school got out), I see that the guy has travelled to Madison to record music with you. Music he could easily have recorded at home in Chicago. And I knew he had come to Madison specifically because of you. Now, there is no doubt he came because he wanted to use your vocals. I was one of the first to encourage you to keep singing and develop your voice, and I remember the special feeling of hearing you sing on the demo to "Not Unlike The Waves", so you know your vocals are special to me, and he knew it, too.
But the way I saw it, he also came to Madison because he likes you a lot, and there was also absolutely no doubt of that. Just as I get a feel for other stuff, I get a feel for that kind of thing, too. So Johan likes you, a lot, and when he posted the photos you took of him, and then he commented that you had also recorded music together, I thought "oh no, she's his girlfriend now".
As you may remember, there was a four or five day period when I didn't blog or post anything because of that. Elizabeth, it came out of the blue, you didn't mention it beforehand, nothing. It was just all of a sudden : "we recorded music in Madison", and there's the guy's photograph, and I'm thinking, "well, the guy got what he wanted. He's been posting and posting and posting since last Fall. He's the first guy to like every post Elizabeth makes, and now he's got what he wants, he's her boyfriend.
That's what I thought, because it came out of the blue. I had been dealing with one guy or another who liked you for a long time at that point, and mostly I was able to blow it off, even with Aurelien who finally went away.
But this time I couldn't blow it off. It hurt, even if I had it wrong. You see, a guy can have it "half wrong", because I know now that you are not his girlfriend. But I still had it "half right" because he would like you to be, or at least he would have liked it to be that way at the time, a couple months ago.
And here I was sitting two thousand miles away, having no direct communication for a year and a half now, and I was watching this guy do his thing, and I just said, "the heck with it".
And I sent Lillian a friend request on Facebook.
I sent it knowing that never in a million years would she accept it. But you know all these guys, and I have only ever known one other lady, and I was hurting.
So, to end for the evening, yes, I did send Lillian a friend request on Facebook, for the aforementioned reasons. I knew when I sent it that she was not gonna accept it. I only sent it because that guy was in my face and I was hurting.
If you are wondering if I have had any contact with Lillian, the answer is no.
I will write some more tomorrow, but I hope you will also post because communication takes two, and there are still some things that need to be cleared up.
For me, the Johan thing is in the past. I get over things quickly, especially once I understand them. But that's what happened at the time. Tomorrow I will finish my end of the story.
I hope you will post, too.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I am just waking up, gonna have my morning coffee. I see that there are still zero page views since Monday, so I guess you didn't see my comments from last night. I hope all is well but it just feels like something funny is going on, in looking at some of your most recent posts. Everything seemed great, but as soon as I got a few days off it seems like you stopped reading.
Anyway, again I say that I hope all is well, but if it's not would you please let me know what is happening? It is hot and humid outside once again, so I am gonna hang around here til the afternoon. I sure hope to hear from you.
I Love You Always. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
2:35pm : I'm just checking in to see if you're there. Still no page views as of now. I have a feeling I know what's going on but I just wanna know if you're out there before I say anything. If it's what I think it is, all I can tell you is that you've got it wrong, and you're not in a country music video, either. I will be here for a little while if you wanna post anything, probably til 3:15 or 3:30, then I am gonna go back out to Chatsworth just for something to do. It's my last full day off. Sigh......I hope you read this, Elizabeth. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
8:20pm : I am back. I went out to Stagecoach again, and then Grimsley called while I was out there and wanted to meet me at Aliso, so I did that too. A double trail day. Anyway, I see a couple page views so I guess you finally read again. I hope so anyway. If you feel like posting anything, I will be here for the rest of the evening. I hope we can clear things up, if indeed there has been a problem, and if it's what I think it is. I hope you are feeling okay and anything you feel like posting will be a big help to me. I will be back later to write more.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxo
10pm : I will write a little bit now, just to try and get some communication started. All I can do for starters is just tell you what I've observed for the past few days, and from that, what I think the problem is. It may take awhile for me to type it all, though I don't want to get into a long-winded and overblown explanation, or one that is overwrought, either. I think it will help if we both communicate, just so we can clear the air, and so I will write a bit now, then post. I hope you read it, and if you do and then feel like posting something yourself, that will help me as I said earlier.
Well, here I go, and I will start at the beginning, going back a little over a week ago, maybe around the 4th of July or just after that. As you know, I am a person who notices the details of things. It's not because I'm suspicious or anything like that. I am not a cynical or ironic person and I think you know that about me. Rather, the reason I notice things (at least I think the reason) is more like a right-brain thing, like an intuitive noticing of patterns. We have patterns in our communication; everybody does, but we do especially because part of our communication is symbolic. I have learned to interpret your posts and because we think alike and because you are so creative and intelligent, most of your posts are easy to interpret. And it's precisely because they are usually easy to interpret that I notice when one seems a little different.
So, around July 5th or 6th, you posted a "like" of somebody's picture who was moving to Japan. The reason I noticed it was because of phonetics. That's what I mean when I say my brain picks up on patterns. It's like it is always trying to translate stuff. So, in the post, the person was moving to (and I will try to get the name and spelling as close as I can remember it) "Fukuoka, Japan".
Here's why I noticed it. First, it was kind of an unusual "like" for you. "Likes" that you post on FB are often as not meant for me to see - messages to me - and I could not, at first, figure out why you would have posted a "like" of someone moving to Japan. I checked and from what I could see, you were not on the person's "mutual friends" list, and I had never seen you use this person in your posts before. It didn't appear that you knew the person. So it seemed really random. But I thought, "well, usually Elizabeth means her posts for me".
The other thing I noticed was the phonetics. "Fukuoka, Japan". In other words, "F. You", Japan. One thing I know about my Elizabeth is that she is super-smart, super creative and she knows that I get stuff. But still, I couldn't understand that particular post, and I wrote off the phonetics explanation because at that time, we were celebrating two years of loving each other and things had been just beautiful. So I thought, "well, it's gotta just be a post of somebody I don't know and I don't understand the meaning. Or maybe Elizabeth is saying she'd love to visit Japan". So I dismissed the phonetics, and I think I referred to visiting Japan in my blog that evening. I chalked it up to "Elizabeth is saying 'let's go to Japan' " and I wrote in my blog that I would love to.
Okay, then some time went by, and some of your posts were about us, directed at me, some were of photos you liked, there was some World Cup stuff. That was over the ten days (or so) period since the Japan post. I just now checked on FB, and it was just a few days ago, July 12th to be exact (which would be last Saturday), that you posted a "like" of the beautiful picture of the Middle Eastern woman and her baby. I responded in my blog by saying "this time I'm your Baby"! (because very often the picture is of you as my Baby). At any rate, that would have been last Saturday and everything seemed fine, just wonderful in fact. Then came Sunday and World Cup. Germany won, everything seemed fine.
Then came Monday, two days ago. It was a day off for me, I slept in, and when I woke up I saw two pictures posted. Two "likes" by you, of the hot air balloon, and the dragonflies. They were a little different from some photos you post, but both were nice shots, and at first I just thought the balloon post was your way of saying, "let's go ballooning"! An adventure for us, because we talk about adventures from time to time, like last Summer when I mentioned going to Puma Punku and places like that. An adventure. The dragonflies post was by Wisconsin Wildlife Photographers, and they do excellent work and I know you like and have posted their stuff before. So I just figured, well, those posts are a little different, but not too different. One's an adventure and the other is a pretty Summer picture. We've been talking about Summer a lot, and I just figured, "dragonflies are a Summer thing, and there's two of them......they're us"! And that's what I wrote in my blog that day.
Then I was gonna go see The Beatles movie that night in Hollywood, with Grimsley, and I wanted to let you know, so I wrote it in my blog. And I checked after that and there were no page views. I think there were still none when I left for the movie, but I just figured, well, Elizabeth must be out with friends or doing something. I know you don't just sit around waiting for me to post. :)
But when I got back from the movie, at about 10pm, there were still no page views. There was a post from you on FB, though, of the guy with his friends. I thought, "hmmm, I don't think that one has to do with me, it's just a friend of Elizabeth's. Maybe she talked to him today".
Right now I am gonna take a short break and post this. Hopefully you will read if you are still awake. If you feel like posting anything on FB, please do. If not, or if you can't find anything to fit what you want to say, that's okay too. I will write more in a few minutes, but I just wanna eat something first.
Back in a few. :):)
11:50pm : I don't think I will be able to entirely finish what I want to say tonight, as it is late, and by the time I type and post this part you may be asleep anyway, but in checking back just now, I see a page view and that is good. Remember way back, my girl, when I used to say "communication is everything"? Well it still is, and as long as you are reading, then I have at least communicated my end of things.
I will pick up where I left off and go as far as I can for this evening. Well, by this time it was yesterday, and I was heading out to Chatsworth to the trail, and things still felt off. There were little to no page views on the blog for a couple days, and posts by you that either didn't seem to apply to me or just didn't feel right for some reason. And then yesterday - I don't recall if it was before I left for Stagecoach or after I got back - but there was a "like" by you of your friend Tina's post. The picture of the painting.
"Looks like a Monet", was your comment.
I go by feeling, my whole life is that way, just inputting and intuiting stuff. I analyze too, using logic, but what I always notice first, on the periphery, is the intuitive stuff. I think you know that because you know me pretty well by now, and you are also super-intuitive. We think alike, you and I.
I also retain memory, so even if I had put aside something that didn't feel right to me - just "wrote it off", say - if something else comes along that doesn't feel right, then I will go back and pull the first thing out of the old memory bank, because it means I am seeing a pattern.
So I saw your post of Tina's picture, and by now I know something is off. For a little while, I thought she herself had painted the picture. I know some of your friends are artists, and because you said "looks like" a Monet, I thought you were complimenting her on her ability to duplicate a style.
I was trying to enjoy my days off, and I was going on my hikes, and yesterday I even went almost all the way to the top of that part of the Santa Susanas, and there was nobody back there but me, and I was kind of blowing my mind because you can really feel the energy of those old rocks and hills, way back in the corner of the Valley and way up high. And the best part is that it's a relatively easy hike, because you ascend gradually.
So I was loving being back there all by myself, but at the same time I knew something was wrong.
Monet. "Water Lillies".
Dragonflies on lily pads from the day before.
All the other stuff I have mentioned, the Japan post.
A very long time ago, going way back to early 2013, you posted something having to do with a "lily", perhaps in a painting or something. The exact post I don't remember. But I know I figured it out, and then later, maybe in Spring 2013, you posted the "pavane" by Ravel, and I was at first nonplussed. Then I figured that out too.
So this time, it took me a couple of days, because I am out of practice, but with the help of Tina's picture and the dragonflies, I finally understood your reference.
I don't have the time or energy to finish writing tonight, because I still have a lot to say, but I will say that I think I know why you are making references to "lily". I mean, if those two posts (dragonflies and Monet) are a coincidence, then I'll be a monkey's uncle.
Elizabeth, you are referring to Lillian, are you not? And if you are, you must have noticed that I sent her a friend request on Facebook.
Here is where things can get touchy if we don't trust one another, and so I am offering my trust by being honest with you, even though you haven't posted in a while now and thus I have had no input from you on this matter.
Everything I have written in this blog leads up to that - you have noticed that I had sent Lillian a friend request. Is that what the problem is? That's my guess, because of "F. You" (Japan), and then later, "A Man Of The Hot Air Balloon" (i.e. "A Man Who Is Full Of Hot Air") and then on the same morning, dragonflies on "lily" pads. And then Monet. And then finally, Tina's comment about you being in a country music video (cheatin' hearts, et al). In fact, now that I thnk of it, there was also a post of yours, a "like" of Simone L.'s post, in which she won an award for a play called "Crimes Of The Heart". So maybe you meant that one for me, too. Or maybe it was coincidental. But I know the others were meant for me.
So now I am going to tell you what happened. I will have to give you the brief version now, because it is late and I have been writing a lot. But I promise to finish in the morning or early afternoon tomorrow. And at some point, I am going to need your help. Communication takes two, and you will see what I mean as we continue.
Elizabeth, yes I did send Lillian a friend request on Facebook. She is not, as far as I am aware, a person who uses social media very much, if at all. I was surprised to even see that she had an FB account. I looked her name up a while back, maybe six months ago, and that was that.
Here is what has been difficult for me, though I have learned to deal with it. I have mentioned it before, so it will be no surprise. You are very social, and you have quite a few male friends. Don't get me wrong, I know you, and I know that you love me, and I know that your friends are just friends. Still, because I am not all that social, except with close friends, and because I don't have a lot of female friends, it is something I have had to learn to deal with. You are social, it is your personality, I don't want to change it (nor can I or should I) because who you are is a beautiful person.
What I do have, because I am older, is a little bit of perspective, and as I have said when I have complained (or whined, if you prefer, lol) about one guy or another : in some cases, I can see the guy coming a mile away. When you have been around a while, you can see these things.
Elizabeth, do not take any of the following the wrong way, because all of what I am about to say is past history, and it's water under the bridge, and it's no big deal now, and wasn't really that big a deal when it was happening, but : you know that, since I have known you, there have been a few guys with whom I have felt I had to compete for your attention. Maybe I was right in feeling those feelings, and maybe I was wrong, but the feelings were there all the same, and at the time I expressed them, because I have always felt we should communicate.
Last Summer it was the French guy, Aurelien. For a while, it seemed he was always around. Now, he doesn't seem to be so much, but at the time I complained, and I said something like "it's hard for me because he can talk to you directly and I can't".
The other thing was that he was crazy about you, Elizabeth. You may see it as "just friends", but the guy doesn't see it that way. I mean, some guys do, guys that are just "nice guys" or Joe Schmoe or whatever, but with that particular guy there was no doubt. He was a guy who collects girls. How do I know that? Because I have been around the block. He is a kid, and I can see him coming from a mile away.
But I also know - and knew at the time - that you love me, so his attentions, and your communication with him, was something I could let pass, and in the end it proved to be no big deal.
Keep in mind the important part : that all along, I have not been able to talk to you directly. So if a guy like Aurelien was in the picture, posting and posting, with you responding to some extent, all I could do was sit there and watch, or complain in my blog. And then, it felt like I was a fifth wheel, whining off to the side. He could talk to you directly; he was a girl collector; I am an older guy and can see him coming.
Not fun for me, but it didn't last, and then he seemed to be gone.
Most of the other guys have been fans. Easy to tell a fan, they are appreciative, make a few posts, no big deal.
But then - and you probably know what I am gonna say now - then came the other guy. Johan.
He came along about last Fall or so, at least on FB. Maybe you have known him in real life for a long time, I don't know. But from the gist of what I could see on FB, your friendship was fairly recent.
He went from not being there at all, to posting "like" so fast on every post you made, that you'd have thought his FB was hooked up directly to his brain. I complained about him, too. I thought he lived in Germany, so it didn't bother me too much, but then on your birthday last year I saw some post about drinking in a bar or something........and I thought, "whoa".
Who is this guy?
Then I saw that he didn't live in Germany. He lived in Chicago. And he just posted "like" after "like", very rapidly, and I thought, "It's another Aurelien, except tenfold".
Elizabeth, that guy is crazy about you. Again, you may not see it that way, but I am coming from the perspective of age, and more that that - from being a guy.
I can tell who's who, every time. I don't know this guy, and he doesn't seem to be around at the moment. I haven't seen him post in a while. I am making no judgement on the guy, and I am sure he's a superb guy. But he likes you a lot. Just sayin.
And so here was I, sitting off to the side again, just like with Aurelien. I am sitting 2000 miles away, unable to talk to you directly, and what happened?
Around Memorial Day weekend (or whenever school got out), I see that the guy has travelled to Madison to record music with you. Music he could easily have recorded at home in Chicago. And I knew he had come to Madison specifically because of you. Now, there is no doubt he came because he wanted to use your vocals. I was one of the first to encourage you to keep singing and develop your voice, and I remember the special feeling of hearing you sing on the demo to "Not Unlike The Waves", so you know your vocals are special to me, and he knew it, too.
But the way I saw it, he also came to Madison because he likes you a lot, and there was also absolutely no doubt of that. Just as I get a feel for other stuff, I get a feel for that kind of thing, too. So Johan likes you, a lot, and when he posted the photos you took of him, and then he commented that you had also recorded music together, I thought "oh no, she's his girlfriend now".
As you may remember, there was a four or five day period when I didn't blog or post anything because of that. Elizabeth, it came out of the blue, you didn't mention it beforehand, nothing. It was just all of a sudden : "we recorded music in Madison", and there's the guy's photograph, and I'm thinking, "well, the guy got what he wanted. He's been posting and posting and posting since last Fall. He's the first guy to like every post Elizabeth makes, and now he's got what he wants, he's her boyfriend.
That's what I thought, because it came out of the blue. I had been dealing with one guy or another who liked you for a long time at that point, and mostly I was able to blow it off, even with Aurelien who finally went away.
But this time I couldn't blow it off. It hurt, even if I had it wrong. You see, a guy can have it "half wrong", because I know now that you are not his girlfriend. But I still had it "half right" because he would like you to be, or at least he would have liked it to be that way at the time, a couple months ago.
And here I was sitting two thousand miles away, having no direct communication for a year and a half now, and I was watching this guy do his thing, and I just said, "the heck with it".
And I sent Lillian a friend request on Facebook.
I sent it knowing that never in a million years would she accept it. But you know all these guys, and I have only ever known one other lady, and I was hurting.
So, to end for the evening, yes, I did send Lillian a friend request on Facebook, for the aforementioned reasons. I knew when I sent it that she was not gonna accept it. I only sent it because that guy was in my face and I was hurting.
If you are wondering if I have had any contact with Lillian, the answer is no.
I will write some more tomorrow, but I hope you will also post because communication takes two, and there are still some things that need to be cleared up.
For me, the Johan thing is in the past. I get over things quickly, especially once I understand them. But that's what happened at the time. Tomorrow I will finish my end of the story.
I hope you will post, too.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
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