Hey, my Baby,
That is a great photo! What a beautiful image of the sky and stars seen through the framework of branches. Can you really see all those stars in Middleton? I am envious, cause I love looking at the night sky, and we can only see a handful of the brightest ones. But that is a lovely Winter sky to capture the end of this amazing year.
There was no Golden Agers meeting today, so I've just been chillin' at home. I'm gonna do the same tonight, too. There's no concerts or anything, and there's no sense being out late somewhere and then having to deal with drunk drivers and cops. Better to stay safe.
On the other hand, if you are going out, have a blast! It's just for me a "been there/done that" kinda deal, so I will be at home.
Anyway, what a year! I have enjoyed in the last few days just thinking about all the different phases we went through, different experiences in different seasons, little pockets of weeks and separate days here and there where something special happened, and the individual feeling of magic that was present in each day.
I'm glad I wrote it all down; here and in my journal.
But Elizabeth, you are the reason it has all been so special. Without you, it would have been a "nice year", but with you it was transforming, something Infinite.
What we shared went out into the Universe and became Permanent.
That's the best way I can describe it!
I am gonna go for part of my walk at about 3:30 and then Pearl's, but I'll be here til then. And I will write more tonight. Thanks for posting the beautiful photograph. I Love You!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
6:50pm : Hey, Sweet Baby, I'm home. I love Henri, le Chat Noir! Making existential pronouncements! His outlook is similar to Grumpy Cat's, except Henri is more philosophical. Our own "le Chat Noir" (literally, except ours is "le Chattie Noir") is becoming slightly more friendly. She will actually come out of her cubbyhole in the tool shed and watch me pour her cat food, from maybe two feet away. Still won't come close enough to let me pet her, but maybe that's next. Kobedog always comes out with me, but is neither impressed nor unimpressed. He knows not of La Vie du Chat.........(do I have that right?). :)
I'm just gonna stick to my regular schedule for the Eve, watch the ball drop in New York in a couple hours, go for the rest of my walk, etc. Home for now, back in a while. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11pm : What was your most special experience, or time period, or "things felt" from 2013? For me, there were so many, so of course it's impossible to choose. Because we live apart, everything we share, and everything I feel from you, and with you, registers as a reception, on a spiritual level. Because we are connected in that way, the reception is constant, but the extra-special moments were enough to cause goosebumps of the inner or outer variety, as if you were next to me. I remember seeing your Bai Xu post. I think that was January 2nd. Almost a year ago now, but Elizabeth........that meant so much to me. I was reborn after that.
Then came Valentine's Day, and after that, Sam Cooke.
I remember the Einaudi concert. Pure magic. I discovered his music because of you, and that concert was a highlight of the year.
In the late Summer and Fall, I went on my local day trips, to trails and parks. Those were inspired by your own trip to that State Park in June. Your photo of your inscription on the rock at Lake Superior.
My trips that resulted were some of the most magical times for me. Chatsworth Park North. Garden Of The Gods. Especially Corriganville. I don't know what it was about that place, but the experience of that first day there will always be remembered, and I know I shared it with you in Spirit, as it was happening.
These are just a few highlights, but there were so many, and many of the highlights were just small details. We'd have to go back and re-live them to see them all. But these are the things that make life, and love, so special - beyond measure.
I want to thank you for this year, my Darling. It has meant so much to me, and one day, not too long from now, you will see in my eyes just how much you mean to me.
I Love You, Elizabeth. Happy New Year! xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Monday, December 30, 2013
An Ordinary But Good Day
Good Evening, my Angel,
I'm home. Today was pretty typical, although in between shifts at Pearl's, I did enjoy listening to two new Bill Nelson cds that just came in the mail. You might have seen me post about him, he was the guitarist/singer and leader of a band called Be Bop Deluxe in the mid-70s, a fantastic player, ultra melodic. He's on FB these days, and he has a ton of solo albums out over the last 30 years or so that I didn't even know about until he accepted me as an FB friend. So, I ordered two of his cds and enjoyed listening to them today.
Not much other than that. Things are good at Pearl's, the Kobedog remains his old self, barking when I arrive and performing Dog Tornadoes at dinnertime. I hope your day was good and that you are having a nice Winter Break. I may walk across to the Redbox. I'll check online to see if there's anything worth watching, but mostly I'll just be on Regular Evening Schedule.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
11:20pm : I did wind up watching a movie: "The Search", starring Montgomery Clift, one of my favorite actors. I ordered it online a while back. It's the story of the children of WW2, those who were in concentration camps, and one child in particular who is separated from his mother. It was filmed amidst the real life ruins of the city of Nuremburg, a powerful setting indeed.
I hope your day was good. I love you.
xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I'm home. Today was pretty typical, although in between shifts at Pearl's, I did enjoy listening to two new Bill Nelson cds that just came in the mail. You might have seen me post about him, he was the guitarist/singer and leader of a band called Be Bop Deluxe in the mid-70s, a fantastic player, ultra melodic. He's on FB these days, and he has a ton of solo albums out over the last 30 years or so that I didn't even know about until he accepted me as an FB friend. So, I ordered two of his cds and enjoyed listening to them today.
Not much other than that. Things are good at Pearl's, the Kobedog remains his old self, barking when I arrive and performing Dog Tornadoes at dinnertime. I hope your day was good and that you are having a nice Winter Break. I may walk across to the Redbox. I'll check online to see if there's anything worth watching, but mostly I'll just be on Regular Evening Schedule.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
11:20pm : I did wind up watching a movie: "The Search", starring Montgomery Clift, one of my favorite actors. I ordered it online a while back. It's the story of the children of WW2, those who were in concentration camps, and one child in particular who is separated from his mother. It was filmed amidst the real life ruins of the city of Nuremburg, a powerful setting indeed.
I hope your day was good. I love you.
xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Sunday, December 29, 2013
Sunday Stuff (Typos & Photos) (Sweet Dreams)
Good Afternoon, my Angel,
I'm back home after a morning of Sunday Stuff. I took the Kobester up to CSUN for his first modified dogwalk. We just stayed in the general area of the Orange Grove and the duck pond, and I let him sniff around to his heart's content. So basically, we will still spend the same amoou hold their muzzleunt of time we always have up there, but we just won't walk as far. He's doing good, except it's hard to get him to take his doggie pills. We got a bag of these things called Pill Pockets, and they are like chicken-flavored dough, shaped like a rubber tip on a cane, only smaller. You put the pills inside and then squeeze it closed, and it just looks like a little ball of dough - a typical dog treat. Except when you've got a smart dog like the Kobester, they figure out pretty quickly what you are doing, haha.
"Oh, so you're putting the pills in there, are you? Well, I don't like 'em, so I'm not gonna eat that treat".
You can try putting them in a piece of cheese or whatever, but once the dog figures it out, good luck. ;)
So now, I have to sit with him and cajole him for a few minutes, and then he'll eat it. With my Labs, you could utilize the Mouth Pinch method to get them to take medicine. That's where you give their muzzle a little squeeze while tipping it upwards, then they open their mouth and you drop the cheese/pill in, then you hold their muzzle closed until they swallow. But that method doesn't work with the Kobester. He just keeps his mouth closed and snarls at you like he's gonna bite you. So, the name of the game is patience......
It's super windy again, so I'm gonna stay inside for now. I might do part of my walk later on, around 3:30, but for now I'll be here. Hey! I just now saw your picture of Stephane. It reminds me of the recent Alcest pictures. Maybe you intended that? :)
Well, I hope you are getting just enough snow to enjoy your Winter, but not enough to get snowed in, and it looks like so far, so good.
I Love You, my Angel! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7:05pm : I'm home. Lol, I was just now reading back what I wrote earlier in this blog, and there is a phrase in there that makes me look like an idiot: "amoou hold their muzzleunt". It's in the middle of a sentence about Kobi's dogwalk. I don't know if this problem is intrinsic to Chromebook, or if it's just because of my Internet connection or what, but sometimes when I am typing fast, the icon jumps out of place and lands in a random spot on the template. When that happens, whatever I am typing gets mixed into previously written text, and it becomes gibberish. So if you read that earlier - no, I am not a complete nitwit (partial, yes, but not complete). Usually, I catch those typos but I missed that one. I am leaving it in place now, for reference. Later on, the Grammar and Typo Nazi in me will fix it. ;)
I love your new FB cover photo. I like the form, with the sharp crystals pointing outward from the curving.......object. I'm not sure if it's natural, like a small branch or vine, or if it's man made, like wrought iron. But I like the form and shapes. In a different way, it reminds me of one of my favorite pictures by you, of the ice crystals on your scarf from last Winter. That too depicts "Nature's art".
Usual evening schedule for me. I Love You!
xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:15pm : I am listening to a singer named Janet Baker, who made famous these Mahler compositions called Kindertotenleider. I saw the video you posted, very beautiful time lapse photography. The new resolution capability makes the imagery surreal.
Well, that's all I know for tonight. I will see you in the morn, my Darling. Sweet Dreams, I Love You.
xoxoxoxoxo :):)
I'm back home after a morning of Sunday Stuff. I took the Kobester up to CSUN for his first modified dogwalk. We just stayed in the general area of the Orange Grove and the duck pond, and I let him sniff around to his heart's content. So basically, we will still spend the same amoou hold their muzzleunt of time we always have up there, but we just won't walk as far. He's doing good, except it's hard to get him to take his doggie pills. We got a bag of these things called Pill Pockets, and they are like chicken-flavored dough, shaped like a rubber tip on a cane, only smaller. You put the pills inside and then squeeze it closed, and it just looks like a little ball of dough - a typical dog treat. Except when you've got a smart dog like the Kobester, they figure out pretty quickly what you are doing, haha.
"Oh, so you're putting the pills in there, are you? Well, I don't like 'em, so I'm not gonna eat that treat".
You can try putting them in a piece of cheese or whatever, but once the dog figures it out, good luck. ;)
So now, I have to sit with him and cajole him for a few minutes, and then he'll eat it. With my Labs, you could utilize the Mouth Pinch method to get them to take medicine. That's where you give their muzzle a little squeeze while tipping it upwards, then they open their mouth and you drop the cheese/pill in, then you hold their muzzle closed until they swallow. But that method doesn't work with the Kobester. He just keeps his mouth closed and snarls at you like he's gonna bite you. So, the name of the game is patience......
It's super windy again, so I'm gonna stay inside for now. I might do part of my walk later on, around 3:30, but for now I'll be here. Hey! I just now saw your picture of Stephane. It reminds me of the recent Alcest pictures. Maybe you intended that? :)
Well, I hope you are getting just enough snow to enjoy your Winter, but not enough to get snowed in, and it looks like so far, so good.
I Love You, my Angel! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7:05pm : I'm home. Lol, I was just now reading back what I wrote earlier in this blog, and there is a phrase in there that makes me look like an idiot: "amoou hold their muzzleunt". It's in the middle of a sentence about Kobi's dogwalk. I don't know if this problem is intrinsic to Chromebook, or if it's just because of my Internet connection or what, but sometimes when I am typing fast, the icon jumps out of place and lands in a random spot on the template. When that happens, whatever I am typing gets mixed into previously written text, and it becomes gibberish. So if you read that earlier - no, I am not a complete nitwit (partial, yes, but not complete). Usually, I catch those typos but I missed that one. I am leaving it in place now, for reference. Later on, the Grammar and Typo Nazi in me will fix it. ;)
I love your new FB cover photo. I like the form, with the sharp crystals pointing outward from the curving.......object. I'm not sure if it's natural, like a small branch or vine, or if it's man made, like wrought iron. But I like the form and shapes. In a different way, it reminds me of one of my favorite pictures by you, of the ice crystals on your scarf from last Winter. That too depicts "Nature's art".
Usual evening schedule for me. I Love You!
xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:15pm : I am listening to a singer named Janet Baker, who made famous these Mahler compositions called Kindertotenleider. I saw the video you posted, very beautiful time lapse photography. The new resolution capability makes the imagery surreal.
Well, that's all I know for tonight. I will see you in the morn, my Darling. Sweet Dreams, I Love You.
xoxoxoxoxo :):)
Saturday, December 28, 2013
Saturday Shopping (Hope All Is Well)
Good Morning, my Darling,
I'm hanging around waiting for my sister to come over for Saturday shopping, but I just wanted to check in to say hi and I Love You. Hope your day is rockin' thus far. I'm back on normal schedule, so after shopping, I'll be home about 3ish til 4:15, and then on into the evening. It's a beautiful day!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
11:10pm : I hope all is well, and that you had a nice day. I Love You.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I'm hanging around waiting for my sister to come over for Saturday shopping, but I just wanted to check in to say hi and I Love You. Hope your day is rockin' thus far. I'm back on normal schedule, so after shopping, I'll be home about 3ish til 4:15, and then on into the evening. It's a beautiful day!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
11:10pm : I hope all is well, and that you had a nice day. I Love You.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Friday, December 27, 2013
Recording? (Kobester)
Happy Post-Christmas Friday, Sweet Baby! I'm getting back into the swing of things, just took Pearl to the hair salon and will pick her up at 1pm. I see your Megatone posts, and I am guessing that you might have gotten some more studio time as a Christmas present? If so, congratulations. That's awesome! :)
I did not know the status of your EP project. I knew you did some recording around the same time last year, but did not know how that had progressed. I know you had said, way back in Summer 2012, that if you did record your EP in a studio, you might do it piece-by-piece. Whatever the case, I'm sure it is gonna sound great!
I am gonna do some dishes and straighten the place up a bit, then go get Pearl. I'll be in an out all afternoon, but mostly I'll be around. I Love You! Sending good vibes for your recording session........
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7:20pm : I'm home, my Angel. During my time off, Pearl and her daughter took Kobi to the vet to get his teeth cleaned, and because it involved anesthesea, they had to do a pre-op to check his vitals, blood chemistry, etc. And in doing so, they discovered that the little guy has a heart condition. I guess it's to be expected, considering he's gonna be 14 next month. It's a condition somewhat common to the Bischon, from what I've Googled : Degenerative disease of the mitral valve. They say it eventually leads to heart disease, but the good news is that the Kobester has no signs of heart disease so far. They gave him some medicine that will help his heart, and we are also supposed to give him a special doggie food, and also (he's gonna hate this part, so don't tell him) I've gotta cut back his CSUN walks. No more two mile hikes. I can still take him up there and let him play in the grass, though. So that's pretty cool.
All in all, I think we're gonna have Kobi with us for a good while yet. And we've gotta, cause we have a lot of stuff to do!
I hope all went well today. I'm back to my Usual Evening Schedule, walk around 8:30ish, home otherwise.
"Hey World"!
(the World) : "What, Ad"?
"I Love my Baby"!!
(the World) : "Hey, Ad - that rules! Way to go"!
"Thanks".
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11pm : I am listening to Rachmaninoff, something called a "morceaux" which I had not heard of. Not much else to report for the eve, we are all in end-of-year mode, just chillin'. Hope you had a great day.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I did not know the status of your EP project. I knew you did some recording around the same time last year, but did not know how that had progressed. I know you had said, way back in Summer 2012, that if you did record your EP in a studio, you might do it piece-by-piece. Whatever the case, I'm sure it is gonna sound great!
I am gonna do some dishes and straighten the place up a bit, then go get Pearl. I'll be in an out all afternoon, but mostly I'll be around. I Love You! Sending good vibes for your recording session........
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7:20pm : I'm home, my Angel. During my time off, Pearl and her daughter took Kobi to the vet to get his teeth cleaned, and because it involved anesthesea, they had to do a pre-op to check his vitals, blood chemistry, etc. And in doing so, they discovered that the little guy has a heart condition. I guess it's to be expected, considering he's gonna be 14 next month. It's a condition somewhat common to the Bischon, from what I've Googled : Degenerative disease of the mitral valve. They say it eventually leads to heart disease, but the good news is that the Kobester has no signs of heart disease so far. They gave him some medicine that will help his heart, and we are also supposed to give him a special doggie food, and also (he's gonna hate this part, so don't tell him) I've gotta cut back his CSUN walks. No more two mile hikes. I can still take him up there and let him play in the grass, though. So that's pretty cool.
All in all, I think we're gonna have Kobi with us for a good while yet. And we've gotta, cause we have a lot of stuff to do!
I hope all went well today. I'm back to my Usual Evening Schedule, walk around 8:30ish, home otherwise.
"Hey World"!
(the World) : "What, Ad"?
"I Love my Baby"!!
(the World) : "Hey, Ad - that rules! Way to go"!
"Thanks".
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11pm : I am listening to Rachmaninoff, something called a "morceaux" which I had not heard of. Not much else to report for the eve, we are all in end-of-year mode, just chillin'. Hope you had a great day.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Thursday, December 26, 2013
Wolves (Love To You)
Hi, my Angel. I just now saw your post about the wolves. That's terrible and very sad. Hard to believe the state would allow so many to be killed when there are only a few hundred to begin with. Of course, it would be nice if none were killed, but at that rate, pretty soon there won't be any left to hunt. Nobody eats wolf meat anyway, so what's the point of hunting them except just to kill something? I suppose the farmers might say that the wolves go after their animals, but there's got to be a better way of stopping that from happening, and even so, most of that slaughter is likely from "sport" hunters.
I'm very sorry you are in proximity to it. I really don't know what this country is gonna do about it's love of guns. Sigh......
I hope your Christmas was nice, anyway. I will be here all afternoon. I Love You.
:):)
11pm : I'm listening to the music of John Field, an Irish piano composer who invented the Nocturne, and was an influence on Chopin. These are less complex than Chopin, but still nice. Tranquil is the word I would use. I am thinking about you, and I hope things are okay. They seemed to be okay on Christmas, and I assume you have probably been with family or extended family during the holiday, but it made me sad to see you sad about the wolf hunting, so I've been hoping you are okay.
Tomorrow I will go back to work, but I get one last sleep-in. I'll be home til 11am, then I'll take Pearl to the hair salon, then back to the usual schedule. I'm right here, just so you know.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I'm very sorry you are in proximity to it. I really don't know what this country is gonna do about it's love of guns. Sigh......
I hope your Christmas was nice, anyway. I will be here all afternoon. I Love You.
:):)
11pm : I'm listening to the music of John Field, an Irish piano composer who invented the Nocturne, and was an influence on Chopin. These are less complex than Chopin, but still nice. Tranquil is the word I would use. I am thinking about you, and I hope things are okay. They seemed to be okay on Christmas, and I assume you have probably been with family or extended family during the holiday, but it made me sad to see you sad about the wolf hunting, so I've been hoping you are okay.
Tomorrow I will go back to work, but I get one last sleep-in. I'll be home til 11am, then I'll take Pearl to the hair salon, then back to the usual schedule. I'm right here, just so you know.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Wednesday, December 25, 2013
Merry Christmas! (I Love You)
Merry Christmas, Elizabeth! I hope your Christmas Day is proceeding wonderfully. I just got back from the movie theater. It's become a tradition in the last few years for my sister and I to go see a film on Christmas, so we went to see "American Hustle" which was fantastic. It's the acting movie of the year, so many great performances, and such a story. It's gonna clean up at the Academy Awards, I think.
It's super windy outside, so I'm just going to stay here for now. If you are having a Christmas dinner, may you and your family enjoy it, and may all good blessings always come your way, for all of you.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
11:10pm : I have so enjoyed this Christmas season, my Baby. You could probably tell, with all the songs I've been posting, lol. But it has always been a special time for me, and I hope for you, too, just because of the messages of the season : love and family and harmony and peace on Earth. To spend this Christmas season with you, and all the Holidays, has been a blessing from God for which I am so grateful, and I so much look forward to our New Year.
The rest of this day was nice. I watched another movie this evening, "Holiday Inn" with Fred Astaire and Bing Crosby. As you know, I love old movies as well as new ones, and I saw one of each today. Then this eve, I went for my walk on a deserted campus.........except it wasn't entirely deserted. I ran into my friend Dennis, whom I've known since we were 11. He was up at CSUN with his two kids and two dogs, and we walked along all together, having the whole place to ourselves. It was a nice way to end the Northridge part of the day. But the true end of this Christmas is to say goodnight to you, my Darling, and to tell you how much I love you. I find it is nice to let the Holiday spirit linger for a while, and we still have New Year's to come.......
So sleep well, and feel peace, and know that you are loved.
And have Sweet Dreams.......and I will see you in the morning.
xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
It's super windy outside, so I'm just going to stay here for now. If you are having a Christmas dinner, may you and your family enjoy it, and may all good blessings always come your way, for all of you.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
11:10pm : I have so enjoyed this Christmas season, my Baby. You could probably tell, with all the songs I've been posting, lol. But it has always been a special time for me, and I hope for you, too, just because of the messages of the season : love and family and harmony and peace on Earth. To spend this Christmas season with you, and all the Holidays, has been a blessing from God for which I am so grateful, and I so much look forward to our New Year.
The rest of this day was nice. I watched another movie this evening, "Holiday Inn" with Fred Astaire and Bing Crosby. As you know, I love old movies as well as new ones, and I saw one of each today. Then this eve, I went for my walk on a deserted campus.........except it wasn't entirely deserted. I ran into my friend Dennis, whom I've known since we were 11. He was up at CSUN with his two kids and two dogs, and we walked along all together, having the whole place to ourselves. It was a nice way to end the Northridge part of the day. But the true end of this Christmas is to say goodnight to you, my Darling, and to tell you how much I love you. I find it is nice to let the Holiday spirit linger for a while, and we still have New Year's to come.......
So sleep well, and feel peace, and know that you are loved.
And have Sweet Dreams.......and I will see you in the morning.
xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Tuesday, December 24, 2013
Christmas Eve (A Great Day)
Merry Christmas Eve, my Baby,
I just got home a few minutes ago from Glendale. I went to visit my sister Sophie. We had a nice time. I hope you and your family are enjoying Christmas Eve. I'm just gonna hang around for now, though I may walk out to the Northridge Mall before it closes. It's a mile from here, in the opposite direction of CSUN, but no way am I gonna drive there. Too much crazy traffic. But it's kinda fun to go out and watch all the shoppers, look at the window displays. I see how I feel in about an hour; by then I may not want to go, haha.
God Bless You and Your Family as you continue to celebrate the Holiday.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a while)
11pm: Well, my Angel, Santa is on his way, and you can track him now at www.noradsanta.org That's the Air Force looking after him, so you know all is well. :)
I did wind up walking out to the Mall. It was fun. Not as much of a Zoo as I was expecting, either. Crowded but not crazy. Nicely decorated. Later I went on another walk, down to the Orange Grove as usual, and then I continued into the neighborhood below, where there is a house that is always lit up and decorated to the hilt. It is well known, people drive by and get out to pose for pictures. You have similar houses in Middleton, no doubt.
In years past, I have sometimes gone to the Midnight Mass at Our Lady Of Lourdes, but tonight I decided to stay home. I'm kinda tired after all that walking, lol. But it's been a nice day, and I trust it has been for you too. I love the Christmas Season, and I can feel how special it is this year.
Merry Christmas, Elizabeth.
I Love You and this is a great day. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I just got home a few minutes ago from Glendale. I went to visit my sister Sophie. We had a nice time. I hope you and your family are enjoying Christmas Eve. I'm just gonna hang around for now, though I may walk out to the Northridge Mall before it closes. It's a mile from here, in the opposite direction of CSUN, but no way am I gonna drive there. Too much crazy traffic. But it's kinda fun to go out and watch all the shoppers, look at the window displays. I see how I feel in about an hour; by then I may not want to go, haha.
God Bless You and Your Family as you continue to celebrate the Holiday.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a while)
11pm: Well, my Angel, Santa is on his way, and you can track him now at www.noradsanta.org That's the Air Force looking after him, so you know all is well. :)
I did wind up walking out to the Mall. It was fun. Not as much of a Zoo as I was expecting, either. Crowded but not crazy. Nicely decorated. Later I went on another walk, down to the Orange Grove as usual, and then I continued into the neighborhood below, where there is a house that is always lit up and decorated to the hilt. It is well known, people drive by and get out to pose for pictures. You have similar houses in Middleton, no doubt.
In years past, I have sometimes gone to the Midnight Mass at Our Lady Of Lourdes, but tonight I decided to stay home. I'm kinda tired after all that walking, lol. But it's been a nice day, and I trust it has been for you too. I love the Christmas Season, and I can feel how special it is this year.
Merry Christmas, Elizabeth.
I Love You and this is a great day. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Monday, December 23, 2013
Christmas Monday Love (Snow Angel) (Beautiful)
Good Afternoon, my Darling,
I was down at Pearl's for a little while. They invited me over for a pre-Christmas brunch, we do it every year. Now I am full, so I'm gonna relax for a bit, til about 3:15ish, then go for part of my walk, down to the Grove and then over to the bank on the way back. I hope your week is off to a great start.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
6:50pm : Hey Elizabeth! You know what? You are my Snow Angel........
:):)
P.S. I see that your friend in the picture is from Middleton but lives in Los Angeles. I think you've posted her before, but anyway, she covers the connecting line. It's funny if that picture was taken here, though, because she's all bundled up and it was in the 80s today. Typical "never-know-what-you're-gonna-get" SoCal winter weather.......
11pm : This is a wonderful Christmastime, my Baby, and though I am guessing that you are with family and getting ready for the Holiday, I feel very close to you. I have been reflecting on the year and how amazing it has been. Last year on Christmas Eve, I didn't have a home computer, and the libraries were closed. We weren't in contact at the time, but I wanted to send you a message anyway, so I drove up to the local FedEx Kinkos copy center, where you can rent a computer. And I sent you a brief Merry Christmas message.
It was a unique time, that short period between October and December 2012, but I could feel that somehow I hadn't lost contact with you. You were still there, there had been too much magic.
That day, I just thought, "I have gotta send her a message".
Then, on January 2nd, I saw your Bai Xu post and thus began 2013.
I am glad I have written so much about this year, because I want to always remember the details.
Because this year has not only been special, but it has also been a special story.
I am grateful for what has happened since last Christmas, and I send you all my love, my Elizabeth.
My Beautiful Girl. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I was down at Pearl's for a little while. They invited me over for a pre-Christmas brunch, we do it every year. Now I am full, so I'm gonna relax for a bit, til about 3:15ish, then go for part of my walk, down to the Grove and then over to the bank on the way back. I hope your week is off to a great start.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
6:50pm : Hey Elizabeth! You know what? You are my Snow Angel........
:):)
P.S. I see that your friend in the picture is from Middleton but lives in Los Angeles. I think you've posted her before, but anyway, she covers the connecting line. It's funny if that picture was taken here, though, because she's all bundled up and it was in the 80s today. Typical "never-know-what-you're-gonna-get" SoCal winter weather.......
11pm : This is a wonderful Christmastime, my Baby, and though I am guessing that you are with family and getting ready for the Holiday, I feel very close to you. I have been reflecting on the year and how amazing it has been. Last year on Christmas Eve, I didn't have a home computer, and the libraries were closed. We weren't in contact at the time, but I wanted to send you a message anyway, so I drove up to the local FedEx Kinkos copy center, where you can rent a computer. And I sent you a brief Merry Christmas message.
It was a unique time, that short period between October and December 2012, but I could feel that somehow I hadn't lost contact with you. You were still there, there had been too much magic.
That day, I just thought, "I have gotta send her a message".
Then, on January 2nd, I saw your Bai Xu post and thus began 2013.
I am glad I have written so much about this year, because I want to always remember the details.
Because this year has not only been special, but it has also been a special story.
I am grateful for what has happened since last Christmas, and I send you all my love, my Elizabeth.
My Beautiful Girl. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Sunday, December 22, 2013
Happy Sunday (Church & Walk) (Sweet Dreams)
Good Morning, my Angel (afternoon for you),
I'm just puttering about the pad, watching a little football. I thought last night that I wouldn't sleep in very much, my body being too programmed, but boy was I ever wrong. I slept until about 9:15, about 2 1/2 hours more than usual! But boy does it feel good. So, I'm nice and rested. I bet you are feeling the same way, now that school is done.
So, nothing special of the moment. I will probably wander down to the store in a little while, but mostly just taking it easy. I hope you are having a good day, maybe still working on your movie. I will check back in later this afternoon. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
3:50pm: I'm back. Hey, Elizabeth - I love the composer quotes! Each one is fantastic. I will read them over again, but I think my favorite at the moment is the final one, "Imagination creates reality" by Richard Wagner. That is something we talk about all the time. So thanks for posting those. :)
I liked all your posts. The pictures of your friends are nice, and the one of Sarah and her boyfriend is especially fitting, because they helped get the ball rolling for us (at least I think they did, lol!). But it's a great pic anyway, just because they are a couple of characters.
I did go to the store, bought some tuna, some yogurt (plain Greek - I want the protein, but not all the added sugar, hence plain. I'll just add some raisins instead.....). I also bought a five pound box of those "Cuties", as they call the little Clementine Oranges. Or maybe they're Mandarins. But they are the small kind that peel really easy and are beyond delicious. I've been eating 'em every day! I also went over to church for a little while. Our Lady of Lourdes, the Catholic church across the street that Mom belonged to. We used to go over and sit in the church in the afternoons when no one was there, and I hadn't been there in a while, so I wanted to go. It felt good. It is very peaceful inside.
After that, I went for half my walk, down to the Orange Grove and back. It's a gorgeous day, and the campus was empty again. Now I am gonna hang out for a while.
This is a great day, my Darling, and I Love You So Much! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a while)
11:15pm : Listening to various Christmas themed recordings, on KUSC and Youtube. The music accentuates the meaning of the season. I had a nice day and I hope you did too.
I will see you in the morning. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I'm just puttering about the pad, watching a little football. I thought last night that I wouldn't sleep in very much, my body being too programmed, but boy was I ever wrong. I slept until about 9:15, about 2 1/2 hours more than usual! But boy does it feel good. So, I'm nice and rested. I bet you are feeling the same way, now that school is done.
So, nothing special of the moment. I will probably wander down to the store in a little while, but mostly just taking it easy. I hope you are having a good day, maybe still working on your movie. I will check back in later this afternoon. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
3:50pm: I'm back. Hey, Elizabeth - I love the composer quotes! Each one is fantastic. I will read them over again, but I think my favorite at the moment is the final one, "Imagination creates reality" by Richard Wagner. That is something we talk about all the time. So thanks for posting those. :)
I liked all your posts. The pictures of your friends are nice, and the one of Sarah and her boyfriend is especially fitting, because they helped get the ball rolling for us (at least I think they did, lol!). But it's a great pic anyway, just because they are a couple of characters.
I did go to the store, bought some tuna, some yogurt (plain Greek - I want the protein, but not all the added sugar, hence plain. I'll just add some raisins instead.....). I also bought a five pound box of those "Cuties", as they call the little Clementine Oranges. Or maybe they're Mandarins. But they are the small kind that peel really easy and are beyond delicious. I've been eating 'em every day! I also went over to church for a little while. Our Lady of Lourdes, the Catholic church across the street that Mom belonged to. We used to go over and sit in the church in the afternoons when no one was there, and I hadn't been there in a while, so I wanted to go. It felt good. It is very peaceful inside.
After that, I went for half my walk, down to the Orange Grove and back. It's a gorgeous day, and the campus was empty again. Now I am gonna hang out for a while.
This is a great day, my Darling, and I Love You So Much! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a while)
11:15pm : Listening to various Christmas themed recordings, on KUSC and Youtube. The music accentuates the meaning of the season. I had a nice day and I hope you did too.
I will see you in the morning. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Saturday, December 21, 2013
Happy Winter! (Citizen Kane) (Sweet Dreams)
Happy Winter Solstice, my Baby,
Well, I am all done for today, so I am off until next Friday at 4:30pm. You are all done, too, so congratulations on another semester completed! In the early afternoon - now, in other words - I am just gonna chill and do nothing except write a few last cards while listening to the Opera Show on KUSC. I will probably wander outside a little later to do part of my walk, maybe go in search of pictures, but one thing is for sure : I'm not gonna get in my car for the rest of the day, lol.
I am all Car-ed Out! (Car-ed? Carred? I need a spell check on that one). But no more driving for me today, and maybe tomorrow too! ;)
I will check back in later in the day. I hope you and your family are enjoying the Christmas Season.
I Love You So Much, my Stunning and Amazing Girl. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7:50pm : I just finished watching "Citizen Kane", a movie I had never seen before. Kinda ridiculous, I realize, me being a huge movie fan and never having seen that movie. But for whatever reason, I just never had. Then yesterday I saw it in the library, and I said "I'm finally gonna watch it". I knew all about the "Rosebud" secret; it's impossible not to if you're a film fan, but still, I guess you could say that "Citizen Kane" really covers all the bases as far as being the Great American Story. I can see why it's been called the greatest film ever. I don't know that it would be my own #1 pick, but it certainly is a classic. Now I need to see "Gone With The Wind", cause I've never seen that one either!
I saw your pictures earlier. Are you guys working on another movie? It looks like fun, whatever you are making, and a nice way to begin your Winter break. I am gonna hang out for a little while, maybe til 9, then go for the rest of my walk. I already did part of it this afternoon. Gonna go over to Imdb and read up on some of the actors in CK. Also, there was a cinematographer named Gregg Toland, and I may have mentioned him before, but he was legendary, and invented many of the motion picture camera techniques that are in use today, especially the use of deep focus. He is the guy who shot "Citizen Kane", as well as many other famous films in the late 30s and early 40s. One of the greatest cinematographers ever. Check out his work if you are interested.
I'll be back later to write more. I Love You, my Darling. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:10pm : I had a nice evening and I hope you did too. Took my walk on an empty campus. I like to look up at the sky when the Moon is out, and for some reason (an astronomer would know) it seems like I can always see more stars in the Winter sky than at other times of the year. In Los Angeles, you don't see many stars to begin with, but I love the cool, clear nights in December when the sky is inky black and you can see some of it's jewels.
Well, tomorrow is a sleep-in day. Not that I ever sleep in much, at least not on my first sleep-in - my body is too programmed. But even a half hour makes a difference.
So, I will see you in the morn. I Love You. :):)
Well, I am all done for today, so I am off until next Friday at 4:30pm. You are all done, too, so congratulations on another semester completed! In the early afternoon - now, in other words - I am just gonna chill and do nothing except write a few last cards while listening to the Opera Show on KUSC. I will probably wander outside a little later to do part of my walk, maybe go in search of pictures, but one thing is for sure : I'm not gonna get in my car for the rest of the day, lol.
I am all Car-ed Out! (Car-ed? Carred? I need a spell check on that one). But no more driving for me today, and maybe tomorrow too! ;)
I will check back in later in the day. I hope you and your family are enjoying the Christmas Season.
I Love You So Much, my Stunning and Amazing Girl. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7:50pm : I just finished watching "Citizen Kane", a movie I had never seen before. Kinda ridiculous, I realize, me being a huge movie fan and never having seen that movie. But for whatever reason, I just never had. Then yesterday I saw it in the library, and I said "I'm finally gonna watch it". I knew all about the "Rosebud" secret; it's impossible not to if you're a film fan, but still, I guess you could say that "Citizen Kane" really covers all the bases as far as being the Great American Story. I can see why it's been called the greatest film ever. I don't know that it would be my own #1 pick, but it certainly is a classic. Now I need to see "Gone With The Wind", cause I've never seen that one either!
I saw your pictures earlier. Are you guys working on another movie? It looks like fun, whatever you are making, and a nice way to begin your Winter break. I am gonna hang out for a little while, maybe til 9, then go for the rest of my walk. I already did part of it this afternoon. Gonna go over to Imdb and read up on some of the actors in CK. Also, there was a cinematographer named Gregg Toland, and I may have mentioned him before, but he was legendary, and invented many of the motion picture camera techniques that are in use today, especially the use of deep focus. He is the guy who shot "Citizen Kane", as well as many other famous films in the late 30s and early 40s. One of the greatest cinematographers ever. Check out his work if you are interested.
I'll be back later to write more. I Love You, my Darling. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:10pm : I had a nice evening and I hope you did too. Took my walk on an empty campus. I like to look up at the sky when the Moon is out, and for some reason (an astronomer would know) it seems like I can always see more stars in the Winter sky than at other times of the year. In Los Angeles, you don't see many stars to begin with, but I love the cool, clear nights in December when the sky is inky black and you can see some of it's jewels.
Well, tomorrow is a sleep-in day. Not that I ever sleep in much, at least not on my first sleep-in - my body is too programmed. But even a half hour makes a difference.
So, I will see you in the morn. I Love You. :):)
Friday, December 20, 2013
Cool Cats (Late Night Love)
Good Morning, Sweet Baby,
I love the cat cartoons. They remind me of some of the photos my brother has been posting of his crazy cat. Of course, they could also be a metaphor for me and you, but then all the cartoons would have to show them snuggling! :):)
Today is a drive-back-and-forth day. I already dropped Kobedog at Le Groomer, way out in Chatsworth. I will go pick him up probably around noon (whenever she calls), then at 3:30 I will take Pearl to the hair salon. In between I may try to squeeze in a quick Chatsworth Park. For now, here til about noonish......
I hope everything is awesome. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
10:50pm : Hi, my Darling. I hope you've been enjoying your Friday night. I actually came home and fell asleep for a little while. It's that end-of-work-cycle fatigue, but after tomorrow morning I have six days off. Today I was in the car a lot, and the traffic was pretty horrendous in every direction, so it was good to finally get off the road and relax. The picture I posted is of the Reseda Theater, which has been closed up for about 25 years now. It was a classic movie theater, in the days before multi-plexes, and I saw my very first movie there, "The Nutty Professor" with Jerry Lewis, when I was about 2 or 3. The theater is a Reseda landmark, and I took the photo while walking the Kobester down Sherman Way, the boulevard on which the theater is located.
A lot of hustle and bustle this week. Tomorrow the Winter Solstice, and then.......every day will bring a minute's more sunshine. I am really feeling the true spirit of Christmas this year, and I know you are too. It is wonderful to feel it together. And, I hope you are as excited about the New Year as I am. I have gotten used to "anticipating the unexpected" in recent years, which is really just a way of saying to God, "I can't wait to see what You have in store for me next". Only this time, I say "Us" instead of just me.
Tomorrow morn I will be at Pearl's for my morning shift, maybe a little late to finish up all Christmas cards and shopping, then home probably before Noon. I don't think my sister is coming over. And, one thing I know for sure : you will definitely be done with all Finals. It says so on the UW website, lol.
So, I will see you in the morning, my Angel, and we will have a nice weekend.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I love the cat cartoons. They remind me of some of the photos my brother has been posting of his crazy cat. Of course, they could also be a metaphor for me and you, but then all the cartoons would have to show them snuggling! :):)
Today is a drive-back-and-forth day. I already dropped Kobedog at Le Groomer, way out in Chatsworth. I will go pick him up probably around noon (whenever she calls), then at 3:30 I will take Pearl to the hair salon. In between I may try to squeeze in a quick Chatsworth Park. For now, here til about noonish......
I hope everything is awesome. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
10:50pm : Hi, my Darling. I hope you've been enjoying your Friday night. I actually came home and fell asleep for a little while. It's that end-of-work-cycle fatigue, but after tomorrow morning I have six days off. Today I was in the car a lot, and the traffic was pretty horrendous in every direction, so it was good to finally get off the road and relax. The picture I posted is of the Reseda Theater, which has been closed up for about 25 years now. It was a classic movie theater, in the days before multi-plexes, and I saw my very first movie there, "The Nutty Professor" with Jerry Lewis, when I was about 2 or 3. The theater is a Reseda landmark, and I took the photo while walking the Kobester down Sherman Way, the boulevard on which the theater is located.
A lot of hustle and bustle this week. Tomorrow the Winter Solstice, and then.......every day will bring a minute's more sunshine. I am really feeling the true spirit of Christmas this year, and I know you are too. It is wonderful to feel it together. And, I hope you are as excited about the New Year as I am. I have gotten used to "anticipating the unexpected" in recent years, which is really just a way of saying to God, "I can't wait to see what You have in store for me next". Only this time, I say "Us" instead of just me.
Tomorrow morn I will be at Pearl's for my morning shift, maybe a little late to finish up all Christmas cards and shopping, then home probably before Noon. I don't think my sister is coming over. And, one thing I know for sure : you will definitely be done with all Finals. It says so on the UW website, lol.
So, I will see you in the morning, my Angel, and we will have a nice weekend.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Thursday, December 19, 2013
Warmth (Beyond Measure) (Soup) (Together)
Good Morning, my Angel,
I am home now. We got caught in the rain on our dogwalk, so Pearl & I and Kobi got a little wet. But as they say, "we need the rain". Me : "No we don't"! :) Lol, of course we do, but today will only be a drop in the proverbial bucket. It may keep the crickets in the ground, so there's always a silver lining.
Those are absolutely beautiful pictures and sentiments you posted a little while ago, Elizabeth. I just want you to know that I Love You beyond measure, you are everything to me.
I agree that the warmth of Spring and Summer is preferable to Winter weather, though I don't experience what you do in that regard. But know that I am with you in heart & soul, and we will have a beautiful, memorable Christmas, and then before you know it, Spring will be here again. We are gonna have an awesome 2014, my Darling.
Well, I am just gonna stay inside for the time being. I think I'll slice up the onions I bought for my onion soup, then take 'em over to Pearl's and cook the soup this evening. It's definitely Onion Soup weather today. So, I'll be around, thinking about you, and how much I love you and can't wait to be with you, and I will send you my love.
Best of luck with any/all exams today, too. (Crazy about that FBI/dorm stuff, so stay safe).
I Love You Always. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
10:55 : Beyond Measure, my Baby.......I just had to check in again because I can feel your love inside me, washing over me, through me. I Love You So, So Much. My Elizabeth, my Beautiful Angel.
7pm : Good Evening, my Baby. I'm home. I had my soup for dinner, it came out really good! Easiest soup in the world to make - once you slice your onions, you're pretty much ready to go. Because it's just me eating it, I put in some garlic, too. I love garlic! Also some black pepper. Some thyme. The only thing I didn't have was a bay leaf, I forgot to get a bag of 'em at the store. But next time. All you do is put your sliced onions in a soup pot/large kettle with a little bit of olive oil or butter, and saute 'em until they're transluscent. Then you pour in your broth and you're good to go. Simmer for 25 minutes. Add whatever spices you like. The main ones for French Onion Soup are thyme and bay leaf, but you can add anything. The standard broth is beef broth, but you can use vegetable broth for a vegetarian version. A good rule of thumb is one medium sized sliced onion per 8oz cup of broth. That sounds like a lot of onion, but they really cook down, and onion soup should have a lot of onion, anyway. They always say to use guyere cheese, and melt some over French bread, toast it, then float it on top of the soup. That's the deluxe official version. Since I was at work, I just did the quickie version and sprinkled some Parmesan on top of some sourdough bread that we had on hand. Still delicious.
I made 32oz worth (4 cups broth/4 sliced onions, etc) and I ate about a third of it, so I still have plenty left. Great on a chilly night.
Well, I am on Standard Evening Schedule. Walk at 8:30.
I Love You, can't wait to go on a walk with you! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
11:20pm : Hey Elizabeth, I need help with a Latin translation : "Te amo ab imo pectore".
:):)
Today was a beautiful day, my Darling. I loved thinking about you and about us together. It would be fun to cook together, if you like cooking. I really haven't done much, being a bachelor, lol, but I bet it would be fun to try.
Since I'm in a soup mode, my next one will be a simple vegetable soup. It's a winter thing, and another form of creativity.......
Well, that's all I know for tonight. It rained here, was cold in Middleton, but we are warm together.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I am home now. We got caught in the rain on our dogwalk, so Pearl & I and Kobi got a little wet. But as they say, "we need the rain". Me : "No we don't"! :) Lol, of course we do, but today will only be a drop in the proverbial bucket. It may keep the crickets in the ground, so there's always a silver lining.
Those are absolutely beautiful pictures and sentiments you posted a little while ago, Elizabeth. I just want you to know that I Love You beyond measure, you are everything to me.
I agree that the warmth of Spring and Summer is preferable to Winter weather, though I don't experience what you do in that regard. But know that I am with you in heart & soul, and we will have a beautiful, memorable Christmas, and then before you know it, Spring will be here again. We are gonna have an awesome 2014, my Darling.
Well, I am just gonna stay inside for the time being. I think I'll slice up the onions I bought for my onion soup, then take 'em over to Pearl's and cook the soup this evening. It's definitely Onion Soup weather today. So, I'll be around, thinking about you, and how much I love you and can't wait to be with you, and I will send you my love.
Best of luck with any/all exams today, too. (Crazy about that FBI/dorm stuff, so stay safe).
I Love You Always. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
10:55 : Beyond Measure, my Baby.......I just had to check in again because I can feel your love inside me, washing over me, through me. I Love You So, So Much. My Elizabeth, my Beautiful Angel.
7pm : Good Evening, my Baby. I'm home. I had my soup for dinner, it came out really good! Easiest soup in the world to make - once you slice your onions, you're pretty much ready to go. Because it's just me eating it, I put in some garlic, too. I love garlic! Also some black pepper. Some thyme. The only thing I didn't have was a bay leaf, I forgot to get a bag of 'em at the store. But next time. All you do is put your sliced onions in a soup pot/large kettle with a little bit of olive oil or butter, and saute 'em until they're transluscent. Then you pour in your broth and you're good to go. Simmer for 25 minutes. Add whatever spices you like. The main ones for French Onion Soup are thyme and bay leaf, but you can add anything. The standard broth is beef broth, but you can use vegetable broth for a vegetarian version. A good rule of thumb is one medium sized sliced onion per 8oz cup of broth. That sounds like a lot of onion, but they really cook down, and onion soup should have a lot of onion, anyway. They always say to use guyere cheese, and melt some over French bread, toast it, then float it on top of the soup. That's the deluxe official version. Since I was at work, I just did the quickie version and sprinkled some Parmesan on top of some sourdough bread that we had on hand. Still delicious.
I made 32oz worth (4 cups broth/4 sliced onions, etc) and I ate about a third of it, so I still have plenty left. Great on a chilly night.
Well, I am on Standard Evening Schedule. Walk at 8:30.
I Love You, can't wait to go on a walk with you! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
11:20pm : Hey Elizabeth, I need help with a Latin translation : "Te amo ab imo pectore".
:):)
Today was a beautiful day, my Darling. I loved thinking about you and about us together. It would be fun to cook together, if you like cooking. I really haven't done much, being a bachelor, lol, but I bet it would be fun to try.
Since I'm in a soup mode, my next one will be a simple vegetable soup. It's a winter thing, and another form of creativity.......
Well, that's all I know for tonight. It rained here, was cold in Middleton, but we are warm together.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Wednesday, December 18, 2013
Latin (Back Home) (Giant Hug) (Sweet Dreams)
Good Morning, my Angel,
I saw your post about the Latin Final. Now that's one way to get out of it, lol. Crazy, but humorous.......
........but crazy! You, on the other hand, will ace it. And then it will be over. I'm assuming you still have a Latin final, hence the post. At any rate, I wanted to wish you a wonderful morning. I just dropped Pearl off at her crafts group meeting, so I am gonna go to Chatsworth Park for a little while, and then I'll be back home at about 1:30, after I pick Pearl up.
It's almost over, for real this time (oh boy!)
I Love You, you are The Best!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:55am : I'm back home. Good thing I didn't get all the way out to the park, because Pearl called around 10:30 to say that the crafts ladies never showed up for the meeting. It turned out that they cancelled it, and either didn't tell Pearl or she didn't remember. So, I went back and got her, and here I am. I'll be around most of the afternoon, maybe go looking for some photo ops a little later over at the Botanical Garden.
:):)
6:55 : Good Evening, my Darling. I'm home from Pearl's. Gonna relax for a while as usual. So how'd the exams go today? Is everything over? I just checked the UW website and it says the last day of exams is Saturday the 21st. Well, I'll be standing by with a giant hug when it is finally over. For now, I'll be here til 8:30.
I Love my Baby. :):)
11:15pm : I will be right here when everything is done. For now, I'll just be standing by. Everything is good, I will follow your lead.
Sweet Dreams. xoxoxoxoxo :):)
I saw your post about the Latin Final. Now that's one way to get out of it, lol. Crazy, but humorous.......
........but crazy! You, on the other hand, will ace it. And then it will be over. I'm assuming you still have a Latin final, hence the post. At any rate, I wanted to wish you a wonderful morning. I just dropped Pearl off at her crafts group meeting, so I am gonna go to Chatsworth Park for a little while, and then I'll be back home at about 1:30, after I pick Pearl up.
It's almost over, for real this time (oh boy!)
I Love You, you are The Best!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:55am : I'm back home. Good thing I didn't get all the way out to the park, because Pearl called around 10:30 to say that the crafts ladies never showed up for the meeting. It turned out that they cancelled it, and either didn't tell Pearl or she didn't remember. So, I went back and got her, and here I am. I'll be around most of the afternoon, maybe go looking for some photo ops a little later over at the Botanical Garden.
:):)
6:55 : Good Evening, my Darling. I'm home from Pearl's. Gonna relax for a while as usual. So how'd the exams go today? Is everything over? I just checked the UW website and it says the last day of exams is Saturday the 21st. Well, I'll be standing by with a giant hug when it is finally over. For now, I'll be here til 8:30.
I Love my Baby. :):)
11:15pm : I will be right here when everything is done. For now, I'll just be standing by. Everything is good, I will follow your lead.
Sweet Dreams. xoxoxoxoxo :):)
Tuesday, December 17, 2013
Congrats! (I'm Home) (Love Added)
Hey my Darling,
I am at Pearl's, but I saw your friend Lucy's post, and I thought maybe that means you are done, too. If so, congratulations! My goodness, that's quite an accomplishment. So, I just wanted to say Good Work, and I will be home in about a half hour.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7pm : I'm home. When I got here, there was a cricket on my couch, so............the war is on again. Oy. Our weather has been really weird, for one thing this is L.A.'s driest year on record since they began measuring in the 1800s. I think we got around two inches of rain this year. So the crickets must be pretty thirsty and that's why they are looking to come indoors, where the plumbing is. The other thing is that weatherwise, you never know what you're gonna get at this time of year. Last week it was freezing (for us), and the last two days it's in the low 80s. So the heat must've brought the crickets back out of the ground. Good thing I left all my glue traps in place! It was only one cricket tonight, but I can't let it become an invasion like it was in early October. That was awful. Bugs are buggin' me.
Well, it is good to see that you are all done with school for the time being, and have a few weeks to relax, enjoy Christmas and have fun. I see from your posts that your friends have many projects, recitals, etc. going, and I know you do too. Things have been busy with Pearl the last couple weeks, but I hope to get a chance to go take some photos, too, pretty soon. But overall, it's been a great year, so much has happened.
I'll do the usual tonight, with my walk around 8:30.
You Rule The Universe! :):)
(back in a bit)
11pm : Just checking in to say goodnight. I hope all went well with school, and I will talk to you in the morn.
I'm always interested in how everything is going. My days are routine at the moment, because of work schedule and the Holidays. But I'm right here.
I Love You, Elizabeth.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I am at Pearl's, but I saw your friend Lucy's post, and I thought maybe that means you are done, too. If so, congratulations! My goodness, that's quite an accomplishment. So, I just wanted to say Good Work, and I will be home in about a half hour.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7pm : I'm home. When I got here, there was a cricket on my couch, so............the war is on again. Oy. Our weather has been really weird, for one thing this is L.A.'s driest year on record since they began measuring in the 1800s. I think we got around two inches of rain this year. So the crickets must be pretty thirsty and that's why they are looking to come indoors, where the plumbing is. The other thing is that weatherwise, you never know what you're gonna get at this time of year. Last week it was freezing (for us), and the last two days it's in the low 80s. So the heat must've brought the crickets back out of the ground. Good thing I left all my glue traps in place! It was only one cricket tonight, but I can't let it become an invasion like it was in early October. That was awful. Bugs are buggin' me.
Well, it is good to see that you are all done with school for the time being, and have a few weeks to relax, enjoy Christmas and have fun. I see from your posts that your friends have many projects, recitals, etc. going, and I know you do too. Things have been busy with Pearl the last couple weeks, but I hope to get a chance to go take some photos, too, pretty soon. But overall, it's been a great year, so much has happened.
I'll do the usual tonight, with my walk around 8:30.
You Rule The Universe! :):)
(back in a bit)
11pm : Just checking in to say goodnight. I hope all went well with school, and I will talk to you in the morn.
I'm always interested in how everything is going. My days are routine at the moment, because of work schedule and the Holidays. But I'm right here.
I Love You, Elizabeth.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Monday, December 16, 2013
Triple L Love (late night love added)
Hey, Sweet Baby! Happy Monday. I got two new front tires for my car, so I am happy. Now if it will just pass the smog test next month, then I'll be thrilled, lol. I hope everything is proceeding well with your exams. That was an excellent Youtube clip from those two Berklee guys. I listened to the original version of the song for comparison, and it is so complex that I was impressed with how the pianist re-arranged it for a single instrument. Good stuff.
I am home til 4:15, though I will probably go for part of my walk later on, just to get it out of the way.
Here's to a great week! I Love, Love, Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:20pm : It was just an ordinary evening on my part, though I did watch "World War Z", the Zombie Movie to end all Zombie Movies. Not very Christmassy, I realise. :) But I saw it at the library and I couldn't resist. Now I am listening to Beethoven, in honor of his birthday. You might be asleep, but I send you good energy for tomorrow's exams, for which you are well focused.
Sweet Dreams, my Darling. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I am home til 4:15, though I will probably go for part of my walk later on, just to get it out of the way.
Here's to a great week! I Love, Love, Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:20pm : It was just an ordinary evening on my part, though I did watch "World War Z", the Zombie Movie to end all Zombie Movies. Not very Christmassy, I realise. :) But I saw it at the library and I couldn't resist. Now I am listening to Beethoven, in honor of his birthday. You might be asleep, but I send you good energy for tomorrow's exams, for which you are well focused.
Sweet Dreams, my Darling. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Sunday, December 15, 2013
Always (I Love You) (A Good Week Ahead)
I Love You, Elizabeth.........
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Oh, and by the way : Good Morning! Happy Sunday. I am with you all day, my Darling, as always, and you are with me. I am gonna take the Kobester up to CSUN, and pick Pearl up from choir at 1pm. Then I will be home all afternoon.
Today is a beautiful day. We have each other, and we always will.
Always.
(back in a bit)
6:45pm : I'm home. My car got a flat tire, so I borrowed Pearl's and will fix mine in the morning. Other than that, it was a beautiful day, walking the Kobedog and feeling you with me.
All that stuff I was talking about with my brother on FB was about that movie, "Billy Jack", which isn't well remembered now, but it was huge in 1972 when it came out. Some of the stuff Chris mentioned had to do with when Dad was at MGM, and men he worked with like James Aubrey, who was an infamous TV and movie executive of the era, infamous for being an S.O.B. There are a lot of great people in the industry, but there are a lot who are really ruthless. Anyhow, that's show biz.
I will be here til 8:30, then my walk.
I hope your day was great.
You make me so happy, my Angel. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:20pm : "I sure do like those Christmas cookies, Sugar" ! ;) Remember that George Strait song I posted last week? It's perfect for your friend Paul's guitar cookies. :)
I am listening to music by a countertenor singer named James Bowman. I bought a couple of his CDs a while back after listening to music by David Munrow and the English Consort, who play Renassance era medieval music. It's fitting for this time of year, very spiritual. On KUSC, they are playing all kinds of old Christmas carols, from Germany and Russia, very ancient music.
Tomorrow will probably begin Finals, or the last of the finals if you've already begun them, but only a few more days to go, that's for certain. You work really hard in your studies (and in everything you do), and you should pat yourself on the back for it. If I were there, I'd do it for you. :):)
This will be a good week, Elizabeth, with success in your finals. In between your last minute studies, take a moment here and there to imagine me with you (and I know you do anyway), because I will be with you all along. Just as I look northeastward on my walks, over the San Gabriel mountains, to be with you, so can you look toward me, or just think of me.........and then we are together.
I Love You, Elizabeth. Sweet Dreams! xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Oh, and by the way : Good Morning! Happy Sunday. I am with you all day, my Darling, as always, and you are with me. I am gonna take the Kobester up to CSUN, and pick Pearl up from choir at 1pm. Then I will be home all afternoon.
Today is a beautiful day. We have each other, and we always will.
Always.
(back in a bit)
6:45pm : I'm home. My car got a flat tire, so I borrowed Pearl's and will fix mine in the morning. Other than that, it was a beautiful day, walking the Kobedog and feeling you with me.
All that stuff I was talking about with my brother on FB was about that movie, "Billy Jack", which isn't well remembered now, but it was huge in 1972 when it came out. Some of the stuff Chris mentioned had to do with when Dad was at MGM, and men he worked with like James Aubrey, who was an infamous TV and movie executive of the era, infamous for being an S.O.B. There are a lot of great people in the industry, but there are a lot who are really ruthless. Anyhow, that's show biz.
I will be here til 8:30, then my walk.
I hope your day was great.
You make me so happy, my Angel. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:20pm : "I sure do like those Christmas cookies, Sugar" ! ;) Remember that George Strait song I posted last week? It's perfect for your friend Paul's guitar cookies. :)
I am listening to music by a countertenor singer named James Bowman. I bought a couple of his CDs a while back after listening to music by David Munrow and the English Consort, who play Renassance era medieval music. It's fitting for this time of year, very spiritual. On KUSC, they are playing all kinds of old Christmas carols, from Germany and Russia, very ancient music.
Tomorrow will probably begin Finals, or the last of the finals if you've already begun them, but only a few more days to go, that's for certain. You work really hard in your studies (and in everything you do), and you should pat yourself on the back for it. If I were there, I'd do it for you. :):)
This will be a good week, Elizabeth, with success in your finals. In between your last minute studies, take a moment here and there to imagine me with you (and I know you do anyway), because I will be with you all along. Just as I look northeastward on my walks, over the San Gabriel mountains, to be with you, so can you look toward me, or just think of me.........and then we are together.
I Love You, Elizabeth. Sweet Dreams! xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Saturday, December 14, 2013
Relaxation (Love Added)
Good Evening, my Angel,
I'm just getting home. It was a typical Saturday, except my sister didn't come over so I shopped by myself. Took Pearl to the hair salon, rare for a Saturday but she had parties all week long so we couldn't go on Thursday. This eve, we wrote a bunch of Christmas cards. I hope your day was good, and I see on weather.com that it's not quite as frigid as it was in Middleton (it says 22 right now), so maybe you were able to get out and enjoy your Saturday. I'm gonna relax for a while as usual. I may stop by the Redbox on my walk later on, to see if there's anything worth watching. Either way, I'll be around for most of the evening, as always.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:15pm : Nothin' special tonight, just went on my walk, super windy outside. Just staying with the Christmas feeling and reflecting on the year, and the future. It's been a busy week, even moreso for you. But, as of next Saturday I have six days off, and you will be done with the semester. We will really enjoy Christmas!
So, I will wish you Sweet Dreams, and see you in the morning.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I'm just getting home. It was a typical Saturday, except my sister didn't come over so I shopped by myself. Took Pearl to the hair salon, rare for a Saturday but she had parties all week long so we couldn't go on Thursday. This eve, we wrote a bunch of Christmas cards. I hope your day was good, and I see on weather.com that it's not quite as frigid as it was in Middleton (it says 22 right now), so maybe you were able to get out and enjoy your Saturday. I'm gonna relax for a while as usual. I may stop by the Redbox on my walk later on, to see if there's anything worth watching. Either way, I'll be around for most of the evening, as always.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:15pm : Nothin' special tonight, just went on my walk, super windy outside. Just staying with the Christmas feeling and reflecting on the year, and the future. It's been a busy week, even moreso for you. But, as of next Saturday I have six days off, and you will be done with the semester. We will really enjoy Christmas!
So, I will wish you Sweet Dreams, and see you in the morning.
I Love You, Elizabeth. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Friday, December 13, 2013
Must-See (Control Center)
Good Morning, my Darling,
Happy Friday! I am at Pearl's, dropping Kobi off.We went to Chatsworth Park North after taking Pearl to a Reseda Women's Club banquet. I just saw your Eric Whitacre post, and that is awsome! If you can get into that class, it is an absolute must-see for you. Hopefully he will hold it in a big enough venue to accommodate everyone. But especially you! So, that's a great way to start the day. I am gonna head home in a minute, then pick Pearl up at 2pm. Then the afternoon will proceed as normal from there.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(home in a few minutes)
11:10pm : I love that Alison Scarpulla post, Elizabeth. I just now saw it, cause I was out finishing my walk, but it is perfect for the state of mind we are in. And state of heart, too. So much of life is just making simple conscious choices to be in harmony with God's energy. This is what we have been talking about recently, and even just last night I likened it to a "battery pack" that is always charged up, the more you tune into it.
It's like, you can watch the news, and see stuff going on in the world, and indeed there is a lot of strife and negativity............but that's not what the world is. How do we know this? Elizabeth, you and I know this because we have felt it on a daily basis - in our walks, our photographic excursions, our Special Places. We have quiet places inside ourselves where that God Energy resonates. And we can feel it everywhere we go, even in what might seem like mundane places, like crossing a street.
We live in this special World, the God World. I am using God in the Universal sense, because God is always Your God. But you see what I mean. Life is harmonious, once you tune into it. Put your mind there all the time. It's an Inner Thing. That's where your Control Center is, deep inside you in that place of resonance. I will be back in a second, but I want to post this now..........
11:50: It's late, and I'm sure you are probably asleep. But I want you to know how beautiful I think it is that you are feeling these things, this overall deep sense of what Life really is. It is so much more than the everyday comings and goings of physical experience. I know I harp on it all the time, lol. But I do it because I really want you to know how special your life is, not in the general sense of being human, but specifically because You Are You. You can trust me on that, my Darling.
We live in the three dimensional physical world, yes we do. But we also live simultaneously in outer dimensions that are just as important to be aware of, if not more so. In fact, it is the nuances of those dimensions that talk to us every second of the day, in miniscule ways. It is a very real technique that you will develop throughout your life to notice those minute voices - of nature, of thought, of perception, or Helpers that you have in Other Places. We all have them.
At any rate, I tell you that you have rare gifts of understanding, and I tell you that they are rare because I know this from experience, and so I say that it's best to always hold them inside and develop them, and in that way you will always live in God's World, the World of Love and Magic.
Sweet Dreams, my Darling. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Happy Friday! I am at Pearl's, dropping Kobi off.We went to Chatsworth Park North after taking Pearl to a Reseda Women's Club banquet. I just saw your Eric Whitacre post, and that is awsome! If you can get into that class, it is an absolute must-see for you. Hopefully he will hold it in a big enough venue to accommodate everyone. But especially you! So, that's a great way to start the day. I am gonna head home in a minute, then pick Pearl up at 2pm. Then the afternoon will proceed as normal from there.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(home in a few minutes)
11:10pm : I love that Alison Scarpulla post, Elizabeth. I just now saw it, cause I was out finishing my walk, but it is perfect for the state of mind we are in. And state of heart, too. So much of life is just making simple conscious choices to be in harmony with God's energy. This is what we have been talking about recently, and even just last night I likened it to a "battery pack" that is always charged up, the more you tune into it.
It's like, you can watch the news, and see stuff going on in the world, and indeed there is a lot of strife and negativity............but that's not what the world is. How do we know this? Elizabeth, you and I know this because we have felt it on a daily basis - in our walks, our photographic excursions, our Special Places. We have quiet places inside ourselves where that God Energy resonates. And we can feel it everywhere we go, even in what might seem like mundane places, like crossing a street.
We live in this special World, the God World. I am using God in the Universal sense, because God is always Your God. But you see what I mean. Life is harmonious, once you tune into it. Put your mind there all the time. It's an Inner Thing. That's where your Control Center is, deep inside you in that place of resonance. I will be back in a second, but I want to post this now..........
11:50: It's late, and I'm sure you are probably asleep. But I want you to know how beautiful I think it is that you are feeling these things, this overall deep sense of what Life really is. It is so much more than the everyday comings and goings of physical experience. I know I harp on it all the time, lol. But I do it because I really want you to know how special your life is, not in the general sense of being human, but specifically because You Are You. You can trust me on that, my Darling.
We live in the three dimensional physical world, yes we do. But we also live simultaneously in outer dimensions that are just as important to be aware of, if not more so. In fact, it is the nuances of those dimensions that talk to us every second of the day, in miniscule ways. It is a very real technique that you will develop throughout your life to notice those minute voices - of nature, of thought, of perception, or Helpers that you have in Other Places. We all have them.
At any rate, I tell you that you have rare gifts of understanding, and I tell you that they are rare because I know this from experience, and so I say that it's best to always hold them inside and develop them, and in that way you will always live in God's World, the World of Love and Magic.
Sweet Dreams, my Darling. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Thursday, December 12, 2013
SuperGenius (My Baby) (A Great Day)
Good Morning, my Latin Reading, Beautiful Music Playing Angel,
I just wanted to say Hi and I Love You. Maybe the Eric Whitacre post means you are still working on your Latin translating project? Well, I will stop speculating and just let the Finals be Final, haha. Then at some point, they will Final-ly be over!
Now wait a minute - you, a Nerd? I don't believe it! (I'm stickin' with SuperGenius).
Well, it'll be another morn/early afternoon of driving around. I am taking Pearl to another Church-related Christmas Party at 11am, then running errands, then picking her up about 2 or 2:30ish. So I should be back here around 3pm.
I am glad that Neige likes Smashing Pumpkins. They were one of my favorite bands in the early 90s, and made two records that are absolute classics : "Gish" and "Siamese Dream". Those albums have a guitar sound that is really unique: super distorted yet ultra melodic. Check 'em out if you've never heard them (but you probably have).
I Love You, Elizabeth! See you in a little bit.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
3:10 : I'm back. I take it from your first post that you are still studying. I know the UW website said this was the last week of classes, so maybe there are still tests to come next week. That's how it is at CSUN. They will finish up a week from tomorrow. You may have seen a couple of my posts about the Oviatt; they've had Therapy Dogs up there for stressed out students to pet. Hey, it works in retirement homes and hospitals! Students need doggie love, too. :)
I also like James the Cat, firstly because he's a cool cat, and secondly because he's got a cool name........
I am gonna do part of my walk now, then come back and head back to Pearl's. She had fun at her party. Tonight is the final Fassbinder film, "Querelle", which I have never seen. After tonight, though, I'll have seen 13 of his 37 films, and I want to eventually see 'em all. I went into this retrospective thinking I might not like it (cause he had an image as a Weird German Dude), and now he's one of my favorite directors. So you never know.....
I will be around at Pearl's and then again when I get back from the movie, at the usual time : 9:45-10pm.
You are My Baby and I Love You So Much! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11pm : Hey, my Darling. I hope you saw my FB post earlier. The Professor who runs the Cinematheque was giving a Final in one of his classes, so the movie didn't start til almost 8pm. Well.....as I said earlier, I do love Fassbinder's films, having seen quite a few of them now, but because he is so idiosyncratic, you don't always know what to expect from him. This one was not, in my opinion, one of his better films. Obtuse would be the word I would use. It was pretty lurid also. When he's great, he's great - which is most of the time. I haven't seen too many movies where I have no idea what it's about, but this was one of them. It was from a Jean Genet novel, so maybe that's the reason (not that I've read any Jean Genet)......
Anyway, I'm glad to be home. And, I thought everything felt so good today, just everything coming together at the end of an incredible year. Wow, y'know? Sometimes you have to take a step back to take it all in, but I can tell that you are very happy, and that makes me so happy. I find that what works really well in life is just to stay with your Good Things, and let good feelings build and multiply. Always hold that energy in. Whenever you feel really good about something, let it resonate inside you, all day, and then sleep on it. And what happens is that the good energy becomes like a battery that is always charged up and ready to power you.
Well, my Super Nerd (and Genius), I think today was a great day. Tomorrow will be too, so I'll wish you Sweet Dreams and see you in the morn.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I just wanted to say Hi and I Love You. Maybe the Eric Whitacre post means you are still working on your Latin translating project? Well, I will stop speculating and just let the Finals be Final, haha. Then at some point, they will Final-ly be over!
Now wait a minute - you, a Nerd? I don't believe it! (I'm stickin' with SuperGenius).
Well, it'll be another morn/early afternoon of driving around. I am taking Pearl to another Church-related Christmas Party at 11am, then running errands, then picking her up about 2 or 2:30ish. So I should be back here around 3pm.
I am glad that Neige likes Smashing Pumpkins. They were one of my favorite bands in the early 90s, and made two records that are absolute classics : "Gish" and "Siamese Dream". Those albums have a guitar sound that is really unique: super distorted yet ultra melodic. Check 'em out if you've never heard them (but you probably have).
I Love You, Elizabeth! See you in a little bit.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
3:10 : I'm back. I take it from your first post that you are still studying. I know the UW website said this was the last week of classes, so maybe there are still tests to come next week. That's how it is at CSUN. They will finish up a week from tomorrow. You may have seen a couple of my posts about the Oviatt; they've had Therapy Dogs up there for stressed out students to pet. Hey, it works in retirement homes and hospitals! Students need doggie love, too. :)
I also like James the Cat, firstly because he's a cool cat, and secondly because he's got a cool name........
I am gonna do part of my walk now, then come back and head back to Pearl's. She had fun at her party. Tonight is the final Fassbinder film, "Querelle", which I have never seen. After tonight, though, I'll have seen 13 of his 37 films, and I want to eventually see 'em all. I went into this retrospective thinking I might not like it (cause he had an image as a Weird German Dude), and now he's one of my favorite directors. So you never know.....
I will be around at Pearl's and then again when I get back from the movie, at the usual time : 9:45-10pm.
You are My Baby and I Love You So Much! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11pm : Hey, my Darling. I hope you saw my FB post earlier. The Professor who runs the Cinematheque was giving a Final in one of his classes, so the movie didn't start til almost 8pm. Well.....as I said earlier, I do love Fassbinder's films, having seen quite a few of them now, but because he is so idiosyncratic, you don't always know what to expect from him. This one was not, in my opinion, one of his better films. Obtuse would be the word I would use. It was pretty lurid also. When he's great, he's great - which is most of the time. I haven't seen too many movies where I have no idea what it's about, but this was one of them. It was from a Jean Genet novel, so maybe that's the reason (not that I've read any Jean Genet)......
Anyway, I'm glad to be home. And, I thought everything felt so good today, just everything coming together at the end of an incredible year. Wow, y'know? Sometimes you have to take a step back to take it all in, but I can tell that you are very happy, and that makes me so happy. I find that what works really well in life is just to stay with your Good Things, and let good feelings build and multiply. Always hold that energy in. Whenever you feel really good about something, let it resonate inside you, all day, and then sleep on it. And what happens is that the good energy becomes like a battery that is always charged up and ready to power you.
Well, my Super Nerd (and Genius), I think today was a great day. Tomorrow will be too, so I'll wish you Sweet Dreams and see you in the morn.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Wednesday, December 11, 2013
Recipes (Sweet Dreams added)
Good Evening, my Baby,
I'm just getting home. I was helping Pearl with her Christmas cards - I address the envelopes and she writes the cards. We are starting with the Minnesota people and working our way back to the local folks, whose cards don't need as much postal leeway. Now I am gonna look up some recipes for French Onion Soup, which will be my next concoction. My Dad used to make it all the time, and it was so good. Potato and Leek Soup was another one. But I'll start with the French Onion and go from there, sometime in the next few days.
You are no doubt right in the middle of finals, so I hope all is well on all fronts. The usual routine tonight, home-walk-then home again.
I Love, Love, Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
xoxoxoxoxoxoxox (a few more)
10:55pm : Hey, Awesome Lady! I am guessing by your posts that you are all done? If so, congratulations and good work. :)
I saw the Russian Circles post, too, so that's good news. They are in the same clique as Agalloch/Alcest/Chelsea Wolfe/Helen Money, and it has been exciting to see a resurgence in Art Rock in recent years.
I am reading about Kirlian photography in my "Psychic/Soviet" book. You have probably heard of it. Photographing the aura, the electricity emanating from living things. Listening to Glenn Gould, too.
Well, that's all I know for tonight. If you are indeed done, you can relax!
So, especially Sweet Dreams tonight, and I will see you in the morn.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I'm just getting home. I was helping Pearl with her Christmas cards - I address the envelopes and she writes the cards. We are starting with the Minnesota people and working our way back to the local folks, whose cards don't need as much postal leeway. Now I am gonna look up some recipes for French Onion Soup, which will be my next concoction. My Dad used to make it all the time, and it was so good. Potato and Leek Soup was another one. But I'll start with the French Onion and go from there, sometime in the next few days.
You are no doubt right in the middle of finals, so I hope all is well on all fronts. The usual routine tonight, home-walk-then home again.
I Love, Love, Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
xoxoxoxoxoxoxox (a few more)
10:55pm : Hey, Awesome Lady! I am guessing by your posts that you are all done? If so, congratulations and good work. :)
I saw the Russian Circles post, too, so that's good news. They are in the same clique as Agalloch/Alcest/Chelsea Wolfe/Helen Money, and it has been exciting to see a resurgence in Art Rock in recent years.
I am reading about Kirlian photography in my "Psychic/Soviet" book. You have probably heard of it. Photographing the aura, the electricity emanating from living things. Listening to Glenn Gould, too.
Well, that's all I know for tonight. If you are indeed done, you can relax!
So, especially Sweet Dreams tonight, and I will see you in the morn.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Tuesday, December 10, 2013
To Glendale And Back (Chillin') (Sweet Dreams added)
Good Morning, my Darling,
I hope all is well today, and trust that it is. You are shredding your Finals. I am gonna go visit my sister Sophie in Glendale this morn, and take her shopping, so I should be back after I pick Pearl up from Golden Agers at 2pm. I'll be home about 2:15, 2:30. In the meantime, all is well in California and Wisconsin.
I Love You, Elizabeth, my Wonderful Lady. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(see you in a little while)
7:05pm : I'm home. Another day of lots of driving, so it's good to relax. It was nice to see my sister, too. We went shopping so she could get some Christmas cards, wrapping paper and groceries. Glendale is a nice town, 25 miles from Northridge. Technically it's in the Valley, but it's really much closer to L.A. and Hollywood. It's not part of Los Angeles the city, so it's it's own city, one of the oldest in the area.
I'm gonna do the usual this eve - relax til about 8:30, then walk, then back. At least the wind stopped blowing. I hope you had a good day. Only three more days of Finals to go? Or next week too? Well, not many more days in any case.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
10:55pm : Tonight I made split-pea soup at Pearl's, and I brought a whole bunch home with me, so I am gonna have another cup before I go to sleep. Easiest thing in the world to make, just split peas and water (two to one : water/peas), bring to a boil and simmer for 45mins to an hour. Great on cold nights, excellent source of protein. You can add whatever you like, garlic, herbs, green onion, Sriracha, etc. I am a big fan of soup.
Harpsichord music for a little while, then sleep.
I will see you in the morning. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxo :):)
I hope all is well today, and trust that it is. You are shredding your Finals. I am gonna go visit my sister Sophie in Glendale this morn, and take her shopping, so I should be back after I pick Pearl up from Golden Agers at 2pm. I'll be home about 2:15, 2:30. In the meantime, all is well in California and Wisconsin.
I Love You, Elizabeth, my Wonderful Lady. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(see you in a little while)
7:05pm : I'm home. Another day of lots of driving, so it's good to relax. It was nice to see my sister, too. We went shopping so she could get some Christmas cards, wrapping paper and groceries. Glendale is a nice town, 25 miles from Northridge. Technically it's in the Valley, but it's really much closer to L.A. and Hollywood. It's not part of Los Angeles the city, so it's it's own city, one of the oldest in the area.
I'm gonna do the usual this eve - relax til about 8:30, then walk, then back. At least the wind stopped blowing. I hope you had a good day. Only three more days of Finals to go? Or next week too? Well, not many more days in any case.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
(back in a bit)
10:55pm : Tonight I made split-pea soup at Pearl's, and I brought a whole bunch home with me, so I am gonna have another cup before I go to sleep. Easiest thing in the world to make, just split peas and water (two to one : water/peas), bring to a boil and simmer for 45mins to an hour. Great on cold nights, excellent source of protein. You can add whatever you like, garlic, herbs, green onion, Sriracha, etc. I am a big fan of soup.
Harpsichord music for a little while, then sleep.
I will see you in the morning. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxo :):)
Monday, December 9, 2013
Monday Afternoon Thinking About You And Sending You Love! (Idiots) (Our World)
Good Afternoon, my Baby,
I've just been hanging out at The Pad. It's really windy outside, cold too. I'll probably do at least half my walk before I go back to Pearl's, so I don't have to do it all tonight, but right now I'm just reading an ESP book I got at the library, "Psychic Discoveries Behind The Iron Curtain" by Sheila Ostrander. Joe Farrell mentioned it in his book, so I had to check it out. It was written in 1970 (when there still was an Iron Curtain), and the Soviets were big on psychic studies in those days, which prompted the U.S. Army's own Remote Viewing program. Anyway, my kind of topic, naturally!
I'm wishing you well on all Finals this week and next week (if there are any left), and sending you lots of love, and hugs and kisses. I'll basically be around the rest of the afternoon and evening, here or at Pearl's, except for my walk.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
5:05pm : I'm at Pearl's and I saw your posts. It's sounds like the macho jerks are out again. This seemed to happen last Winter as well. Not being a woman, I can't imagine what that experience is like, except that it's repulsive. I do know, though, that there are a lot of aggressive idiots out there, of all stripes. I can't stand aggressive people, loud people, obnoxious people. But I still say the best thing you can do is ignore them. In this day and age, you never know who you are dealing with.
Nevertheless, they do deserve to have their heads ripped off and put on stakes. ;)
Bottom line : You are You, a Beautiful Artist and Super Genius, and you get to be that for the rest of your life, whilst they are usually fat, stupid, ugly & gross, in some combination, and other unpleasant things too, and they suck, and are losers........and they get to be that for the rest of their teeny-weeny lives.
So you win, even without having to do anything. :):)
(back later)
11pm : In thinking about your posts, I'd like to add that while ignoring these jerks is the best option, if you are ever subject to anything that is abusive, you should tell someone, parents or cops or whomever. I mean, I know that all such comments by said clowns are abusive by their very nature, but there is a point where it becomes a threat. I don't know what happened today, and I hope it wasn't awful, but I know you (and your friends) have in the past been subjected to abuse from these types of people, so I just mention it so that you will be safe. Safety should always be a priority.
You always have me, and when we are together, we will be in our own element. I think of people like Einstein, or any person of not only intelligence but curiosity, a person who is questing, and such people gravitate toward one another and form their own niches, and they eliminate contact with boorish people.
It would be like living in a little enclave of intelligent, creative people. Having a "circle".
And that is what we will have. We will create our own world, as I have said.
Remember, there are a million ways to do things. In the meantime, tune out idiots, and never return their energy with energy of your own. Bypass them instead, and continue to connect with harmonious energy.
Keep a quiet strength inside you, and project it quietly.
I am always with you, and we are gonna have an awesome life.
I Love You, Elizabeth. Sweet Dreams. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I've just been hanging out at The Pad. It's really windy outside, cold too. I'll probably do at least half my walk before I go back to Pearl's, so I don't have to do it all tonight, but right now I'm just reading an ESP book I got at the library, "Psychic Discoveries Behind The Iron Curtain" by Sheila Ostrander. Joe Farrell mentioned it in his book, so I had to check it out. It was written in 1970 (when there still was an Iron Curtain), and the Soviets were big on psychic studies in those days, which prompted the U.S. Army's own Remote Viewing program. Anyway, my kind of topic, naturally!
I'm wishing you well on all Finals this week and next week (if there are any left), and sending you lots of love, and hugs and kisses. I'll basically be around the rest of the afternoon and evening, here or at Pearl's, except for my walk.
I Love You! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
5:05pm : I'm at Pearl's and I saw your posts. It's sounds like the macho jerks are out again. This seemed to happen last Winter as well. Not being a woman, I can't imagine what that experience is like, except that it's repulsive. I do know, though, that there are a lot of aggressive idiots out there, of all stripes. I can't stand aggressive people, loud people, obnoxious people. But I still say the best thing you can do is ignore them. In this day and age, you never know who you are dealing with.
Nevertheless, they do deserve to have their heads ripped off and put on stakes. ;)
Bottom line : You are You, a Beautiful Artist and Super Genius, and you get to be that for the rest of your life, whilst they are usually fat, stupid, ugly & gross, in some combination, and other unpleasant things too, and they suck, and are losers........and they get to be that for the rest of their teeny-weeny lives.
So you win, even without having to do anything. :):)
(back later)
11pm : In thinking about your posts, I'd like to add that while ignoring these jerks is the best option, if you are ever subject to anything that is abusive, you should tell someone, parents or cops or whomever. I mean, I know that all such comments by said clowns are abusive by their very nature, but there is a point where it becomes a threat. I don't know what happened today, and I hope it wasn't awful, but I know you (and your friends) have in the past been subjected to abuse from these types of people, so I just mention it so that you will be safe. Safety should always be a priority.
You always have me, and when we are together, we will be in our own element. I think of people like Einstein, or any person of not only intelligence but curiosity, a person who is questing, and such people gravitate toward one another and form their own niches, and they eliminate contact with boorish people.
It would be like living in a little enclave of intelligent, creative people. Having a "circle".
And that is what we will have. We will create our own world, as I have said.
Remember, there are a million ways to do things. In the meantime, tune out idiots, and never return their energy with energy of your own. Bypass them instead, and continue to connect with harmonious energy.
Keep a quiet strength inside you, and project it quietly.
I am always with you, and we are gonna have an awesome life.
I Love You, Elizabeth. Sweet Dreams. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Sunday, December 8, 2013
Christmas Card (My Angel)
Hey Sweet Baby, I'm home! The first thing I wanna say is that is a beautiful photograph of the decorated tree in the forest. It looks like a Christmas card, such a pretty scene. Today was another busy one for me, back and forth to church, then Kobi/CSUN, then I drove up to Granada Hills for their annual Christmas parade. G.Hills is the town just north of Northridge, the parade route is about 2 miles from my place. They've been having the parade for 30 years now, and every high school band in the area gets in on the act. All kinds of civic leaders, too, and ROTC, Boy Scouts, Girl Scouts, a whole troupe of Labrador Guide Doggies went by. Custom cars, fire engines, motorcycle cops. The whole town gets in on the act, so it's fun.
I saw your Latin project this morn, and I was gonna say that my Dad would have been impressed. I am too, of course, but Dad especially because he was the head of his Latin club at Goshen College and took Latin all four years. Me, all I know is English, lol, although I do try to speak it properly. :)
But you sure have a talent for languages. I predict an excellent translation!
I am gonna do The Usual. I will be here til 8:30 or 9, then go out into the Frozen Northridge Night for the rest of my walk. I already did part along the parade route! I'll write more later.
I Love You, my Darling. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:05pm : I am listening to harpsichord music by Louis Couperin. The George Strait song I posted earlier, I heard for the first time today at the Christmas parade. There was a flatbed truck with all these little kids on it, dressed as Santa and his Elves, and they were all supposed to be in a bakery. They were stirring and mixing, play acting being bakers, and that song was playing over a loudspeaker. I heard the lyrics, so of course I had to Google it to see who it was. ;)
Well, it was a good weekend all around. I am really enjoying this Christmas season, the first one we have ever spent together. I am taking time to enjoy each day, and to notice the little things that make them special.
Soon I will bury myself under the covers, and dream of you and I together.
And then I will see you in the morning.
I Love You, my Angel. xoxoxoxoxo :):)
I saw your Latin project this morn, and I was gonna say that my Dad would have been impressed. I am too, of course, but Dad especially because he was the head of his Latin club at Goshen College and took Latin all four years. Me, all I know is English, lol, although I do try to speak it properly. :)
But you sure have a talent for languages. I predict an excellent translation!
I am gonna do The Usual. I will be here til 8:30 or 9, then go out into the Frozen Northridge Night for the rest of my walk. I already did part along the parade route! I'll write more later.
I Love You, my Darling. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:05pm : I am listening to harpsichord music by Louis Couperin. The George Strait song I posted earlier, I heard for the first time today at the Christmas parade. There was a flatbed truck with all these little kids on it, dressed as Santa and his Elves, and they were all supposed to be in a bakery. They were stirring and mixing, play acting being bakers, and that song was playing over a loudspeaker. I heard the lyrics, so of course I had to Google it to see who it was. ;)
Well, it was a good weekend all around. I am really enjoying this Christmas season, the first one we have ever spent together. I am taking time to enjoy each day, and to notice the little things that make them special.
Soon I will bury myself under the covers, and dream of you and I together.
And then I will see you in the morning.
I Love You, my Angel. xoxoxoxoxo :):)
Saturday, December 7, 2013
Critters (Love)
Good Evening, my Darling,
I'm finally home. 'Twas a long day, lots of back and forth, driving, driving, driving. I always love to get out of the car, so now I can relax. I forgot to mention that last night I took Pearl to Toys R Us to pick out a stuffed animal for the toy drive. Did I mention it? Anyway, she had a blast in there. Bought a big ol' stuffed panda, then didn't wanna give it away after all because it was too cute. I talked her into donating it as originally planned, and suggested we go back to get her one, too. :D
I gather from this morning's Insomnium post that maybe you are hunkered down, working on a project of your own, too. Maybe the Black Metal Elizabeth project? Or maybe it was just about Insomnium? Or maybe both. But I just now checked the weather and Good Lord, Woman!, it's fruh-heezing in your town. Six degrees, my goodness. So I suppose you are hunkered down one way or another.
I went to feed the black kitty this evening. I've been telling Pearl, "That kitty pounds food". Because in the morning I'll fill up the pan with dry food (I just use an old pie pan), and when I come back in the afternoon, it's all gone. Every day. So, I've been putting another panful out at night before I leave, with the same result. When I come back in the morn, it's gone. When Pearl's daughter was here over Thanksgiving, she bought a whole case of canned cat food, and so for the last couple days I've been feeding the kitty with that. Well, I put a can's worth in the kitty pan when I got there this afternoon, and before I was gonna leave, I went out to check it, just for the heck of it. It was really dark out. When I got back to the tool shed, where the kitty hangs out, I saw her up on the fence that runs between Pearl's and the neighbor's house. At least, I thought I saw her. I thought it was weird that she'd let me get so close, because she's feral. Usually she runs away until I put the food out and leave. But this time she just sat there on the fence. So, I got a little closer, and I said (cue kitty-speak voice) : It's okay kitty, it's just me. I put my hand out, on the slim chance she might trust me and come closer.
Then I noticed the long, thin tail. And the paunchy frame.
And I saw that it wasn't the black kitty at all, but a good sized possum. There's a few of 'em up at CSUN, but I've never seen one in the residential areas. But then, they only ever come out at night, and even then, only when no one is around. So, Mr. Possum must have smelled the cat food from wherever he lives, and perhaps it is he who has helped to make it disappear so fast every day. I don't think they come out in the daytime, but.........
I have seen the black kitty eating the food herself, so I know she's getting fed. But I am gonna do some Googling on possums, to see if they are solely nocturnal, if they are mean toward other animals, etc. I don't begrudge the poor guy some chow, but black kitty has priority, goshdarnit. And I can't put her food in the house because she's feral. So, I'll Google it and figure it out.
I hope the project is coming along well (or maybe it's already finished), and that you had a good day. I'll be around all evening except for my walk at 8:30, and then I'll write more later.
I Love You! :):) xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11pm : I Googled the UW schedule, and I see that you have one week of classes, and then a week of finals. I saw the Emily Tebbets post, and you will soon join her - in being done this year, and eventually done, period. One thing I have found fascinating as the years have gone by is how we adjust to the passage of time, and what happens when you get to be (dreaded phrase coming up) "my age", is that you start to anticipate time. In other words, you can, for instance, see Spring approaching if you are in Winter, and you also get a month-by-month feel for The Year. You have an idea of what's coming. In that way, you can kind of psychologically control the passage of time. When you are younger - here's a great example : when you are, say, twelve, you think about getting your driver's licence at 16, and it feels like a million years away. But after awhile, you get the hang of Years, and you start to "surf" them. That was a thought I came up with a while back, the idea of "surfing life", as if life were a big and long lasting wave, and because you were on a surfboard during your tenure in life, you had to get the hang of surfing it. And you do after a while. You master the passage of time, and you can slow it down to your satisfaction, so that it is under your control.
You may be wondering what the heck this has to do with finals, and it's just that I can see the finish line for you already. Not just for finals, but the final college finish line, as Emily Tebbets just experienced. I don't know for sure, cause I never asked you, but I think next year will be your last? You will graduate after Spring 2015? That's my guess. So, from my perspective, I can see it clearly, and it's close. In the meantime, screw all the pressure stuff (even though you ace finals) and concentrate on things like Italy next Fall. I am just saying all this, of course. I have no experience with college, only life. So that's my abbreviated take. The bottom line is that you already know all of this stuff, but I tell you because, being born earlier, I got to it a little earlier. So, just to remind you that you are in an awesome period of life, school or no school. And in the long run, you will look back on school fondly, because that's another thing that happens : all strenuous experiences become awesome, in retrospect.
That's a nice pic of your photo club, too, moustaches and all! It's gotta be an inside joke........
Well, I Googled it, and I see that possums love cat food! It came back in many links. So, the concensus is don't put the food out at night. The kitty will have to wait for morning, and eat only in daylight hours, but it will prevent Mr. Possum from stealing her food. Problem solved, hopefully.
Tomorrow is a typical Sunday, Kobester to CSUN, etc. So I will see you in the morn, my Angel.
Sweet Dreams til then.
I Love You Always. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I'm finally home. 'Twas a long day, lots of back and forth, driving, driving, driving. I always love to get out of the car, so now I can relax. I forgot to mention that last night I took Pearl to Toys R Us to pick out a stuffed animal for the toy drive. Did I mention it? Anyway, she had a blast in there. Bought a big ol' stuffed panda, then didn't wanna give it away after all because it was too cute. I talked her into donating it as originally planned, and suggested we go back to get her one, too. :D
I gather from this morning's Insomnium post that maybe you are hunkered down, working on a project of your own, too. Maybe the Black Metal Elizabeth project? Or maybe it was just about Insomnium? Or maybe both. But I just now checked the weather and Good Lord, Woman!, it's fruh-heezing in your town. Six degrees, my goodness. So I suppose you are hunkered down one way or another.
I went to feed the black kitty this evening. I've been telling Pearl, "That kitty pounds food". Because in the morning I'll fill up the pan with dry food (I just use an old pie pan), and when I come back in the afternoon, it's all gone. Every day. So, I've been putting another panful out at night before I leave, with the same result. When I come back in the morn, it's gone. When Pearl's daughter was here over Thanksgiving, she bought a whole case of canned cat food, and so for the last couple days I've been feeding the kitty with that. Well, I put a can's worth in the kitty pan when I got there this afternoon, and before I was gonna leave, I went out to check it, just for the heck of it. It was really dark out. When I got back to the tool shed, where the kitty hangs out, I saw her up on the fence that runs between Pearl's and the neighbor's house. At least, I thought I saw her. I thought it was weird that she'd let me get so close, because she's feral. Usually she runs away until I put the food out and leave. But this time she just sat there on the fence. So, I got a little closer, and I said (cue kitty-speak voice) : It's okay kitty, it's just me. I put my hand out, on the slim chance she might trust me and come closer.
Then I noticed the long, thin tail. And the paunchy frame.
And I saw that it wasn't the black kitty at all, but a good sized possum. There's a few of 'em up at CSUN, but I've never seen one in the residential areas. But then, they only ever come out at night, and even then, only when no one is around. So, Mr. Possum must have smelled the cat food from wherever he lives, and perhaps it is he who has helped to make it disappear so fast every day. I don't think they come out in the daytime, but.........
I have seen the black kitty eating the food herself, so I know she's getting fed. But I am gonna do some Googling on possums, to see if they are solely nocturnal, if they are mean toward other animals, etc. I don't begrudge the poor guy some chow, but black kitty has priority, goshdarnit. And I can't put her food in the house because she's feral. So, I'll Google it and figure it out.
I hope the project is coming along well (or maybe it's already finished), and that you had a good day. I'll be around all evening except for my walk at 8:30, and then I'll write more later.
I Love You! :):) xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11pm : I Googled the UW schedule, and I see that you have one week of classes, and then a week of finals. I saw the Emily Tebbets post, and you will soon join her - in being done this year, and eventually done, period. One thing I have found fascinating as the years have gone by is how we adjust to the passage of time, and what happens when you get to be (dreaded phrase coming up) "my age", is that you start to anticipate time. In other words, you can, for instance, see Spring approaching if you are in Winter, and you also get a month-by-month feel for The Year. You have an idea of what's coming. In that way, you can kind of psychologically control the passage of time. When you are younger - here's a great example : when you are, say, twelve, you think about getting your driver's licence at 16, and it feels like a million years away. But after awhile, you get the hang of Years, and you start to "surf" them. That was a thought I came up with a while back, the idea of "surfing life", as if life were a big and long lasting wave, and because you were on a surfboard during your tenure in life, you had to get the hang of surfing it. And you do after a while. You master the passage of time, and you can slow it down to your satisfaction, so that it is under your control.
You may be wondering what the heck this has to do with finals, and it's just that I can see the finish line for you already. Not just for finals, but the final college finish line, as Emily Tebbets just experienced. I don't know for sure, cause I never asked you, but I think next year will be your last? You will graduate after Spring 2015? That's my guess. So, from my perspective, I can see it clearly, and it's close. In the meantime, screw all the pressure stuff (even though you ace finals) and concentrate on things like Italy next Fall. I am just saying all this, of course. I have no experience with college, only life. So that's my abbreviated take. The bottom line is that you already know all of this stuff, but I tell you because, being born earlier, I got to it a little earlier. So, just to remind you that you are in an awesome period of life, school or no school. And in the long run, you will look back on school fondly, because that's another thing that happens : all strenuous experiences become awesome, in retrospect.
That's a nice pic of your photo club, too, moustaches and all! It's gotta be an inside joke........
Well, I Googled it, and I see that possums love cat food! It came back in many links. So, the concensus is don't put the food out at night. The kitty will have to wait for morning, and eat only in daylight hours, but it will prevent Mr. Possum from stealing her food. Problem solved, hopefully.
Tomorrow is a typical Sunday, Kobester to CSUN, etc. So I will see you in the morn, my Angel.
Sweet Dreams til then.
I Love You Always. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Friday, December 6, 2013
Ace (I'm Home) (I Love You)
Happy Friday Afternoon, my Darling,
I'm here at the pad for a little while, so I thought I'd check in and say hi. I've gotta take Pearl to the toy store in a while, so she can get something for the Toy Drive at church. You are no doubt studying, and acing any finals you have thus far taken. Have you taken any yet? No difference. It's a foregone conclusion that you have aced them.
Because, like Wile E. Coyote, you are a Soo-pah Genius!
I'll be hanging out for another hour or so, then back at 4:30 at Pearl's. I Love You.
xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7:05pm : Hey, Sweet Baby. I am home. I already did most of my walk, cause I knew it was gonna be cold tonight, so I am just gonna hang out and read, or maybe watch a movie. Later, I will do a quick mile to finish up my Daily Requirement. You are probably enjoying the start of your weekend. Are you able to go out when it's this cold? I see it's down near zero degrees. I guess as long as you're not snowed in, right? At Thanksgiving, me and Vickie were talking to Pearl's Minnesota relatives, and they were saying that when it's really cold, like 10 degrees, you can't just do things like take out the garbage or go to the mailbox, without bundling up. Well, I hope you are enjoying your evening regardless, and that school has been going well.
I'm thinking about you, and sending you lots of love. I'll write more later.
xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:10pm : I'm listening to old recordings of Dinu Lipatti. I love it when my building finally quiets down, late in the evening, and I can concentrate. I hope you are holding up in the cold weather. Tomorrow, I have to take Pearl to a church meeting and also a choir party between 9:30 and 2pm, and I will squeeze the usual Saturday shopping in between. But I'll be around early morning and late afternoon, then the rest of the day.
I Love You, my Girl. xoxoxoxoxo :):)
I'm here at the pad for a little while, so I thought I'd check in and say hi. I've gotta take Pearl to the toy store in a while, so she can get something for the Toy Drive at church. You are no doubt studying, and acing any finals you have thus far taken. Have you taken any yet? No difference. It's a foregone conclusion that you have aced them.
Because, like Wile E. Coyote, you are a Soo-pah Genius!
I'll be hanging out for another hour or so, then back at 4:30 at Pearl's. I Love You.
xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
7:05pm : Hey, Sweet Baby. I am home. I already did most of my walk, cause I knew it was gonna be cold tonight, so I am just gonna hang out and read, or maybe watch a movie. Later, I will do a quick mile to finish up my Daily Requirement. You are probably enjoying the start of your weekend. Are you able to go out when it's this cold? I see it's down near zero degrees. I guess as long as you're not snowed in, right? At Thanksgiving, me and Vickie were talking to Pearl's Minnesota relatives, and they were saying that when it's really cold, like 10 degrees, you can't just do things like take out the garbage or go to the mailbox, without bundling up. Well, I hope you are enjoying your evening regardless, and that school has been going well.
I'm thinking about you, and sending you lots of love. I'll write more later.
xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:10pm : I'm listening to old recordings of Dinu Lipatti. I love it when my building finally quiets down, late in the evening, and I can concentrate. I hope you are holding up in the cold weather. Tomorrow, I have to take Pearl to a church meeting and also a choir party between 9:30 and 2pm, and I will squeeze the usual Saturday shopping in between. But I'll be around early morning and late afternoon, then the rest of the day.
I Love You, my Girl. xoxoxoxoxo :):)
Thursday, December 5, 2013
Sending You Love And Warmth (Sweet Dreams added)
Good Afternoon, my Angel,
I am gonna leave a few minutes early to hit the store before I go to Pearl's, so I wanted to say hi, see how you are doing. I checked weather.com, and I see it is pretty chilly in Middleton, so stay warm. I will be going to the Cinematheque tonight to see Fassbinder's "Veronica Voss". After this, there will be one last film in this retrospective, and then we will be on a break until Spring semester. And, if you think about it, it won't really be all that long until Spring and sun and warmth are all back, too. Until then, I will help keep you warm just by being with you and sending my love. I should be back at the usual Thursday night time, about 10pm-ish.
I Love You and will see you in just a bit! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
10:55pm : Hey my Baby. I hope you had a good day. The movie was good, with great black & white noirish cinematography, and like almost all of the Fassbinder repertoire, it was melodramatic - the story of a morphine addicted has-been actress in post-Nazi Germany who is being kept prisoner by the doctor who prescribes her drug. Kind of Michael Jackson-esque, but grim and German. One of the better Fassbinders we have seen. You are probably studying for finals. Well, it was a good day, if cold (relatively for me, realistically for you). I Love You and will talk to you in the morn. Sweet Dreams!
xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I am gonna leave a few minutes early to hit the store before I go to Pearl's, so I wanted to say hi, see how you are doing. I checked weather.com, and I see it is pretty chilly in Middleton, so stay warm. I will be going to the Cinematheque tonight to see Fassbinder's "Veronica Voss". After this, there will be one last film in this retrospective, and then we will be on a break until Spring semester. And, if you think about it, it won't really be all that long until Spring and sun and warmth are all back, too. Until then, I will help keep you warm just by being with you and sending my love. I should be back at the usual Thursday night time, about 10pm-ish.
I Love You and will see you in just a bit! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
10:55pm : Hey my Baby. I hope you had a good day. The movie was good, with great black & white noirish cinematography, and like almost all of the Fassbinder repertoire, it was melodramatic - the story of a morphine addicted has-been actress in post-Nazi Germany who is being kept prisoner by the doctor who prescribes her drug. Kind of Michael Jackson-esque, but grim and German. One of the better Fassbinders we have seen. You are probably studying for finals. Well, it was a good day, if cold (relatively for me, realistically for you). I Love You and will talk to you in the morn. Sweet Dreams!
xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
Veggies (Field) (goodnight added)
Good Morning, my Angel,
I saw the Fursy post. So you went vegetarian? I had thought you might already be, but wasn't sure. Anyhow, good for you, that is awesome. Wow.......you know, in my twenties, when me and my buddies were hanging out all the time, it was meat, meat, meat, all the time. Cheeseburgers every night. Also, because of the nice weather here, it is outdoor barbeque country, and back then we were grilling something at somebody's house every single night. It's interesting, too, because back in my teens, I had heard about a guy named Paul Bragg, an early nutritional expert (he inspired Jack LaLanne) who espoused an all-natural, basically raw, diet. Grimsley was into his books and philosophy, and I heard about it from him. I was raised with the typical American diet, although back then, in the 60s, fast food and junk food weren't as prevalent. Your parents would take you to McDonald's once in a while for a treat, but most meals were home-cooked. And of course, one of the first things your parents tell you is to eat your veggies.
So I always had a basic knowledge of nutrition, and in my early twenties I really became aware of it. But when you are younger, you can get away with eating anything, and still maintain an even flow of energy, at least to some extent. So in your teens and twenties, you still eat what your folks put on the table, but it's also no big deal to come home from school and eat a whole bag of chips, or a bunch of cookies, half a jar of peanut butter. And in that way, I did develop a bit of a junk food habit. Not extreme, but steady. I never thought anything of it because I had such a fast metabolism.
But by your late twenties, early 30s, your metabolism starts to slow. At least mine did. You keep eating the same way, and pretty soon you've got 20 extra pounds. In high school, I was always 165. By the time I was 29, I was 180 to 185. In my early 30s, my weight went up and down because of drugs, and when I came out of that period of my life, I ate like crazy for about a year. And I think I've told you that when I was 39, I got on the scale one day and couldn't believe what I was seeing. I knew I was heavy, because at that point just tying my shoes caused me to breathe hard. But the scale read 227 that day, in December 1999, and I knew I had to do something about it. That was when I got serious about watching what I eat, and changing my diet, and beginning an every day excercise program. Within a year, I had lost 75 pounds, and my weight has stayed the same ever since, give or take 5 pounds. Right now I probably weigh 155, so that's ten pounds less than in high school.
But getting back to vegetarianism, what you said about taking it one day at a time was always my philosophy. I am very strong with mind over matter. I found that out when I quit taking drugs. I just stopped. No rehab center, no meetings, no counseling, nothing. No relapses, either. But what I did was substitute food for a while, which was why I got so heavy. But then I used the same mind over matter to get the food under control. Excercise was never a problem, because I have always been active. Anyway, here I am today, and my body has evened out for the last 14 years. No weight loss or gain, except a pound here or there.
And I have done it the same way you are talking about, day by day, little by little. I am not vegetarian, but I have been tending in that direction for a long time. Of course there are several reasons people become vegetarian, two basic ones, really : to lessen animal suffering and/or for their own personal benefit, because it is a healthier diet overall. I remember reading a quote from Ozzy Osbourne many years ago. He worked in a slaughterhouse when he was a kid, and he said, "If people had to kill their own animals, most of them would stop eating meat". He had personally seen how horrible and gross it was. Still, he himself had always been a meat eater. I don't know if he still is. But, that's kind of the dilemma of what I was talking about in an earlier blog. We were all (or almost all) raised with the American (or whole world, really) diet, which includes meat, or even makes it the main course. The dillemma is that, as adults, most of us know about the factory farms, and even in the "cruelty-free" farms, the animals still end up on the dinner table. So it's a dillemma, because food is so basic to our existence, and we were all raised to eat this way since birth. Some people can go vegetarian or even vegan, and never look back. My sister Vickie has been vegetarian I think since she was in her early 20s. She is 62 now. She is 99% strict about it, but say at Thanksgiving a week ago, if the gravy has some meat product in it, she will eat it anyway. Maybe even a little bit of Turkey.
Grimsley, on the other hand, went totally vegan back in the late 90s, after seeing a film about animal factory farming. He was the guy who was originally into Paul Bragg, so he also knew about the nutritional reasons for eating healthy. Grimsley is so vegan - 100% vegan - that he won't wear shoes if they have any animal material. We are talking everything. Anything and everything he buys, soap, food, clothes, whatever, cannot have animal products. But even Grim says, "yes, meat is delicious", because he was raised the way we all were.
One thing about going vegetarian, which of course you already know but I mention it anyway : make sure you get enough protein intake every day. I don't know what the recommendation is for women, but for men it's at least 50 grams, more if you are active. Even I, who does eat salmon, tuna, and a little chicken, has to make sure I get adequate protein. When I was getting all tired in the afternoons, after I started my seven day a week schedule in 2010.........that was the reason. Not keeping my protein up. That, and I wasn't drinking nearly enough water. You are 21, so you can get away with more, but on the other hand, you want to control your blood sugar, too. Make sure you get enough protein, and you can get it from all kinds of alternative sources other than meat. I am always reminding my sister to get enough protein, and calories, too, cause sometimes I don't think she gets enough. Grimsley, on the other hand, is overweight! Yep, an overweight vegan. That's because he pounds carbs all day, chips and bread, lots of pasta (all vegan, of course). I am not sure he replaces all his protein. It's really important to do so, that's why I mention it.
I am not vegetarian, but what I have done is to cut my red meat almost down to zero. I have maybe two hamburgers a year, if that. No steaks, ribs, nothing. And it's funny, because Ozzy is right : if I had to personally kill any of the cows or chickens, I would go hungry because I just couldn't do it. With the fish, I am not sure. I only fished once or twice, and that was when I was a kid. And when you are a kid, you don't think about it. Seeing the fish flop around in the bucket may bother a kid somewhat, but he soon forgets about it. Now, I don't know if I could fish. I have tried to get philosophical about it, and I say, "well, what if I lived several centuries ago, in the age of hunter/gatherers"? I likely would not have had a choice then. To survive, I most likely would have eventually had to kill something.
Now, with mass farming all over America and much of the civilized world, it has been shown again and again that a person can live a normal life by being entirely vegetarian or vegan. Can the whole world be sustained that way? Probably. Then you run into another problem : can it all be done without pesticides or gmos? Can the whole world be fed entirely on organically grown plant foods and naturally-produced non-meat animal products? I think so. Population control certainly has to be addressed, and then you get into issues like abortion, birth control, all kinds of things. Sorry to go off on such a tangent! :)
In the end, I think it is each person's decision for him or herself. I have probably cut 80% of the meat from my former diet, and it took me many years to do so. Could I go all the way and become completely vegetarian or even vegan? I think so. Especially if I was living with someone who was already a vegetarian or vegan. :):)
But it's like you say, just take it one day at a time, don't make absolutes, tell yourself you can still eat meat if you really want to, and let your mind-over-matter take over. And like you say, any suffering that is lessened in the process, for animals and for your own body, is a good thing.
Well, this is a subject I am really interested in, so I had to write a lot. I hope your day is going well. I have to pick Pearl up from crafts at 1pm, then I will be back here for most of the afternoon. I Love You!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
6:50pm : My Angel, it occured to me while driving home just now, that the field you are twirling in, in the picture, is a Field Of Gold. Perhaps you meant it that way, in which case I am a bigger dummy than I already appear to be. Slow on the uptake am I, but I finally got it. So I just wanted to say I Love You, because I Do. You are The Best. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I am gonna relax for an hour or so, then go for my walk. My Baby...........
11:10pm : It was just a typical night for me. My walk, reading and music. Listening to the Lipatti just now, he plays from the heart, that recording was probably made while he was ill. It's a phenomenal sound. Not too much else to report. I hope your day was a good one. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxo :):)
I saw the Fursy post. So you went vegetarian? I had thought you might already be, but wasn't sure. Anyhow, good for you, that is awesome. Wow.......you know, in my twenties, when me and my buddies were hanging out all the time, it was meat, meat, meat, all the time. Cheeseburgers every night. Also, because of the nice weather here, it is outdoor barbeque country, and back then we were grilling something at somebody's house every single night. It's interesting, too, because back in my teens, I had heard about a guy named Paul Bragg, an early nutritional expert (he inspired Jack LaLanne) who espoused an all-natural, basically raw, diet. Grimsley was into his books and philosophy, and I heard about it from him. I was raised with the typical American diet, although back then, in the 60s, fast food and junk food weren't as prevalent. Your parents would take you to McDonald's once in a while for a treat, but most meals were home-cooked. And of course, one of the first things your parents tell you is to eat your veggies.
So I always had a basic knowledge of nutrition, and in my early twenties I really became aware of it. But when you are younger, you can get away with eating anything, and still maintain an even flow of energy, at least to some extent. So in your teens and twenties, you still eat what your folks put on the table, but it's also no big deal to come home from school and eat a whole bag of chips, or a bunch of cookies, half a jar of peanut butter. And in that way, I did develop a bit of a junk food habit. Not extreme, but steady. I never thought anything of it because I had such a fast metabolism.
But by your late twenties, early 30s, your metabolism starts to slow. At least mine did. You keep eating the same way, and pretty soon you've got 20 extra pounds. In high school, I was always 165. By the time I was 29, I was 180 to 185. In my early 30s, my weight went up and down because of drugs, and when I came out of that period of my life, I ate like crazy for about a year. And I think I've told you that when I was 39, I got on the scale one day and couldn't believe what I was seeing. I knew I was heavy, because at that point just tying my shoes caused me to breathe hard. But the scale read 227 that day, in December 1999, and I knew I had to do something about it. That was when I got serious about watching what I eat, and changing my diet, and beginning an every day excercise program. Within a year, I had lost 75 pounds, and my weight has stayed the same ever since, give or take 5 pounds. Right now I probably weigh 155, so that's ten pounds less than in high school.
But getting back to vegetarianism, what you said about taking it one day at a time was always my philosophy. I am very strong with mind over matter. I found that out when I quit taking drugs. I just stopped. No rehab center, no meetings, no counseling, nothing. No relapses, either. But what I did was substitute food for a while, which was why I got so heavy. But then I used the same mind over matter to get the food under control. Excercise was never a problem, because I have always been active. Anyway, here I am today, and my body has evened out for the last 14 years. No weight loss or gain, except a pound here or there.
And I have done it the same way you are talking about, day by day, little by little. I am not vegetarian, but I have been tending in that direction for a long time. Of course there are several reasons people become vegetarian, two basic ones, really : to lessen animal suffering and/or for their own personal benefit, because it is a healthier diet overall. I remember reading a quote from Ozzy Osbourne many years ago. He worked in a slaughterhouse when he was a kid, and he said, "If people had to kill their own animals, most of them would stop eating meat". He had personally seen how horrible and gross it was. Still, he himself had always been a meat eater. I don't know if he still is. But, that's kind of the dilemma of what I was talking about in an earlier blog. We were all (or almost all) raised with the American (or whole world, really) diet, which includes meat, or even makes it the main course. The dillemma is that, as adults, most of us know about the factory farms, and even in the "cruelty-free" farms, the animals still end up on the dinner table. So it's a dillemma, because food is so basic to our existence, and we were all raised to eat this way since birth. Some people can go vegetarian or even vegan, and never look back. My sister Vickie has been vegetarian I think since she was in her early 20s. She is 62 now. She is 99% strict about it, but say at Thanksgiving a week ago, if the gravy has some meat product in it, she will eat it anyway. Maybe even a little bit of Turkey.
Grimsley, on the other hand, went totally vegan back in the late 90s, after seeing a film about animal factory farming. He was the guy who was originally into Paul Bragg, so he also knew about the nutritional reasons for eating healthy. Grimsley is so vegan - 100% vegan - that he won't wear shoes if they have any animal material. We are talking everything. Anything and everything he buys, soap, food, clothes, whatever, cannot have animal products. But even Grim says, "yes, meat is delicious", because he was raised the way we all were.
One thing about going vegetarian, which of course you already know but I mention it anyway : make sure you get enough protein intake every day. I don't know what the recommendation is for women, but for men it's at least 50 grams, more if you are active. Even I, who does eat salmon, tuna, and a little chicken, has to make sure I get adequate protein. When I was getting all tired in the afternoons, after I started my seven day a week schedule in 2010.........that was the reason. Not keeping my protein up. That, and I wasn't drinking nearly enough water. You are 21, so you can get away with more, but on the other hand, you want to control your blood sugar, too. Make sure you get enough protein, and you can get it from all kinds of alternative sources other than meat. I am always reminding my sister to get enough protein, and calories, too, cause sometimes I don't think she gets enough. Grimsley, on the other hand, is overweight! Yep, an overweight vegan. That's because he pounds carbs all day, chips and bread, lots of pasta (all vegan, of course). I am not sure he replaces all his protein. It's really important to do so, that's why I mention it.
I am not vegetarian, but what I have done is to cut my red meat almost down to zero. I have maybe two hamburgers a year, if that. No steaks, ribs, nothing. And it's funny, because Ozzy is right : if I had to personally kill any of the cows or chickens, I would go hungry because I just couldn't do it. With the fish, I am not sure. I only fished once or twice, and that was when I was a kid. And when you are a kid, you don't think about it. Seeing the fish flop around in the bucket may bother a kid somewhat, but he soon forgets about it. Now, I don't know if I could fish. I have tried to get philosophical about it, and I say, "well, what if I lived several centuries ago, in the age of hunter/gatherers"? I likely would not have had a choice then. To survive, I most likely would have eventually had to kill something.
Now, with mass farming all over America and much of the civilized world, it has been shown again and again that a person can live a normal life by being entirely vegetarian or vegan. Can the whole world be sustained that way? Probably. Then you run into another problem : can it all be done without pesticides or gmos? Can the whole world be fed entirely on organically grown plant foods and naturally-produced non-meat animal products? I think so. Population control certainly has to be addressed, and then you get into issues like abortion, birth control, all kinds of things. Sorry to go off on such a tangent! :)
In the end, I think it is each person's decision for him or herself. I have probably cut 80% of the meat from my former diet, and it took me many years to do so. Could I go all the way and become completely vegetarian or even vegan? I think so. Especially if I was living with someone who was already a vegetarian or vegan. :):)
But it's like you say, just take it one day at a time, don't make absolutes, tell yourself you can still eat meat if you really want to, and let your mind-over-matter take over. And like you say, any suffering that is lessened in the process, for animals and for your own body, is a good thing.
Well, this is a subject I am really interested in, so I had to write a lot. I hope your day is going well. I have to pick Pearl up from crafts at 1pm, then I will be back here for most of the afternoon. I Love You!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
6:50pm : My Angel, it occured to me while driving home just now, that the field you are twirling in, in the picture, is a Field Of Gold. Perhaps you meant it that way, in which case I am a bigger dummy than I already appear to be. Slow on the uptake am I, but I finally got it. So I just wanted to say I Love You, because I Do. You are The Best. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I am gonna relax for an hour or so, then go for my walk. My Baby...........
11:10pm : It was just a typical night for me. My walk, reading and music. Listening to the Lipatti just now, he plays from the heart, that recording was probably made while he was ill. It's a phenomenal sound. Not too much else to report. I hope your day was a good one. I Love You. xoxoxoxoxo :):)
Tuesday, December 3, 2013
I'm Home (vulnerability) (goodnight added)
Good Morning, my Darling,
I just wanted to let you know I'm home. Pearl is at Golden Agers, so I'll be around til 1:45, then back here again from about 2:30 til 4:15. I hope you are feeling okay. Today is a new day. I Love You and wish I were with you right now. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
2:40pm : I Love You, Elizabeth. If I were with you right now, I'd just be holding you, kissing you, loving you. I know you didn't mean anything by what happened on Sunday. It's just that love make us vulnerable, which is actually one of the greatest things about it, I think. Allowing ourselves to be vulnerable opens us up to our deepest emotions, which we then share and trust to be held in the hearts of the person we love most dearly. Vulnerability is letting down your guard and opening up, and when two people can do that with each other, the most wonderful bond of love is created. Unfortunately (or fortunately!), people aren't perfect. In this case, I guess I should say "unfortunately", because a misunderstanding was created.
You probably thought I knew what the deal was with you guys, but I didn't. That's all. That's all that happened, and it was because I love you and so I am vulnerable. Some people have individual shells around themselves in relationships - they harden themselves up, they steel themselves against ever being hurt, and so they miss out on the kind of deep sharing of love and spirit that we have shared. Such hardened relationships don't go deep, they are superficial. We have always had the deepest kind of relationship, a soul love from the beginning. But, we are human, and therefore not perfect, and because we love each other deeply, we allow ourselves to be vulnerable. It's a good thing. :):)
One thing I wanted you to know: I wasn't mad on Sunday. For real, that's the truth. At first I saw your pictures, and I thought they were great. Then of course, I saw Stephane's name (and only his name), and my worry wart side got the better of me. But truly, I didn't know the particulars of the situation between you guys. So, I spent the rest of the day worrying, and thus, I didn't post. Again, I'm sorry, cause I know you would never hurt me.
Looking back, I wish I could have gone on the walk with you guys. Rock quarries and open fields are my kinds of places. :)
So that's all I wanted to say. My "overwhelming thoughts" today are thoughts of loving you and sharing our lives together. You are such a wonderful and kind lady, Elizabeth. I want to be with you always.
I am gonna leave for Pearl's a few minutes early, cause I have to stop to pick up her glasses from the optical repair shop. But basically, except for my walk, I'll be around for the rest of the evening.
I Love You and Thank God For You, my Darling. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:10pm : I am listening to the Chopin Piano Concerto #1. Got my space heater running full blast, cause it's finally "cold" by L.A. standards. That's all I know for tonight. I hope you had a good day.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
I just wanted to let you know I'm home. Pearl is at Golden Agers, so I'll be around til 1:45, then back here again from about 2:30 til 4:15. I hope you are feeling okay. Today is a new day. I Love You and wish I were with you right now. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
2:40pm : I Love You, Elizabeth. If I were with you right now, I'd just be holding you, kissing you, loving you. I know you didn't mean anything by what happened on Sunday. It's just that love make us vulnerable, which is actually one of the greatest things about it, I think. Allowing ourselves to be vulnerable opens us up to our deepest emotions, which we then share and trust to be held in the hearts of the person we love most dearly. Vulnerability is letting down your guard and opening up, and when two people can do that with each other, the most wonderful bond of love is created. Unfortunately (or fortunately!), people aren't perfect. In this case, I guess I should say "unfortunately", because a misunderstanding was created.
You probably thought I knew what the deal was with you guys, but I didn't. That's all. That's all that happened, and it was because I love you and so I am vulnerable. Some people have individual shells around themselves in relationships - they harden themselves up, they steel themselves against ever being hurt, and so they miss out on the kind of deep sharing of love and spirit that we have shared. Such hardened relationships don't go deep, they are superficial. We have always had the deepest kind of relationship, a soul love from the beginning. But, we are human, and therefore not perfect, and because we love each other deeply, we allow ourselves to be vulnerable. It's a good thing. :):)
One thing I wanted you to know: I wasn't mad on Sunday. For real, that's the truth. At first I saw your pictures, and I thought they were great. Then of course, I saw Stephane's name (and only his name), and my worry wart side got the better of me. But truly, I didn't know the particulars of the situation between you guys. So, I spent the rest of the day worrying, and thus, I didn't post. Again, I'm sorry, cause I know you would never hurt me.
Looking back, I wish I could have gone on the walk with you guys. Rock quarries and open fields are my kinds of places. :)
So that's all I wanted to say. My "overwhelming thoughts" today are thoughts of loving you and sharing our lives together. You are such a wonderful and kind lady, Elizabeth. I want to be with you always.
I am gonna leave for Pearl's a few minutes early, cause I have to stop to pick up her glasses from the optical repair shop. But basically, except for my walk, I'll be around for the rest of the evening.
I Love You and Thank God For You, my Darling. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:10pm : I am listening to the Chopin Piano Concerto #1. Got my space heater running full blast, cause it's finally "cold" by L.A. standards. That's all I know for tonight. I hope you had a good day.
I Love You. xoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
Monday, December 2, 2013
Sorry About Yesterday (Confusion) (Please read asap) (Please read?) (more added)
Hi Elizabeth,
I hope you are having a nice morning. I am sorry I didn't post or write yesterday. I was feeling a little bit out of sorts and confused, to be honest. I saw your pictures from yesterday afternoon, and they were nice. Then I also saw that they were taken on an excursion with Stephane, and that kind of threw me for a loop. I know that you posted quite a while back, or posted something that alluded to, the fact that you have been friends with him and his sister since childhood. Way back, maybe in the Spring, I asked about that, and you posted a photo of them as kids, and I took it to mean, "oh, they are both friends since childhood". But he was also your boyfriend. I mean, during the period when you and I were actually talking (by way of FB chat), I never actually asked about him, but I had seen your FB photos from times past, and I just took it that he had been your boyfriend, and I am guessing that was the case.
Anyway, what kind of threw me yesterday, was that the photos didn't mention you and Stephane and a bunch of other people - a group outing. It just mentioned you and Stephane. It can happen sometimes that boyfriends and girlfriends can retain feelings for one another, even after a relationship has ended, and again, I don't know for certain what the extent of your relationship was, other than to assume it was boyfriend/girlfriend.
So, if you put yourself in my shoes, I was looking at the pictures thinking, "well, it's not a group of friends out on a walk, it's just Elizabeth and Stephane". Stephane, who was your boyfriend.
I am 2000 miles away, and so I obviously don't know the exact details of your everyday life. Because of this present method of communication, I have to assume a lot. Way back to last January, I made the assumption, from posts you made, like Bai Xu and Eric Whitacre, that you wanted to talk to me again. Then, more specific things happened, like when (it sure seemed to me, anyway), that your friends had taken a few lines out of that poem I wrote on Valentine's Day and had made something funny out of them. That led me to assume you'd read my poem, and showed it to your friends, which I may or may not have gotten right.
Well, we both know what it led to, which I have always assumed was mutual love between the two of us. I would actually go farther and say that I know (rather than simply assume) it is mutual love. I know this because our form of communication developed over the past year into something very direct, and much easier to interpret. On my side, you have my direct words, and in return, you have sent posts that speak in a language I have come to understand pretty well.
Still, I am 2000 miles away, and I haven't actually had direct, one-to-one communication with you for over a year. Generally, that hasn't been a problem, but it still cannot, in matters like yesterday, remove assumption entirely from the equation. So, when I saw that the nature walk was just you and Stephane, the first thing I thought was, "boy, that hasn't happened in a while". I mean, not to my knowledge, anyway. And to your credit, you posted that it was the two of you on the walk. You could have very easily not mentioned it, or just posted the photos and left his name out. But you didn't, you were open about it.
It still caused me to wonder, however, because it was a one-on-one walk, and he is your old boyfriend, and being so, he is also part of the equation. Being 2000 miles away, I couldn't know if he asked you to go on the walk, or if so, for what reason. If you are me, and I will ask you to put yourself in my shoes for just a minute, you might have thought, "what is happening? Is he asking her to get back together"? So regardless of what your feelings are for Stephane, his feelings become part of the equation just by going on that walk, alone with you.
So here I am, a long ways away, and I haven't had any direct communication with you for over a year, and because I don't know the details between you guys, I had to guess at the situation yesterday. I did not assume the worst, because as I say, you were open about it - you did post the photos and include his name. But it still threw me off balance, because I have assumed a lot about you and me in the last 11 months, and really going back to April of 2012. My assumptions have been based on powerfully strong and seemingly undoubtable symbolic, psychic and emotional connections that have created what I have thought - what I have been certain - were unbreakable bonds of love. It is a very special love, I have always thought.
Don't think for even a second that anything I have written here changes my feelings in any way. That is not the case whatsoever.
It's just that I'm only human, and Stephane is your old boyfriend, and he lives a lot closer to you than I do, and I had no way of knowing, when I saw those pictures, what constituted the reason for the walk, nor would I have any way of knowing what his feelings are/were toward you.
So that is what happened yesterday. Today, I am just gonna take it easy and hang around the apt.
I Love You, Elizabeth. That is something you can always count on. :):)
6:20pm : Elizabeth, oh my goodness. I am at Pearl's and I just saw your post, and I can hardly believe my eyes. "All this for nothing"? That is not the case at all. I will be home in less than half an hour, and I will write more as soon as I get there, but this needs to be cleared up, so please keep an eye on your computer and I will post more in this blog as fast as I can. We have always communicated, and it is not good when something like this happens. Please wait till I get home, and I will write more asap.
It's not all for nothing. It's always been for everything. I'll be home soon. I Love You. :):)
6:45 : I am home. It doesn't look like you've seen my entry from a few minutes ago. There is a hit counter on this thing, and it's still at zero. So, I will write a little bit more and then re-post, in the hope that you will read it, but I want to re-post as quickly as I can so we can communicate.......in fact, what I am gonna do is re-post right now. I really hope you read this. I will be back in just a minute to write more.
6:53 : Hit counter is still at zero. Sigh..........well, here goes. I will try to remember everything I wanted to say, and I will also try not to ramble. The first thing is I love Black Metal Elizabeth. I try not to use expletives too much, but you look fucking awesome, right down to the cammo pants and boots. Your makeup; everything. I didn't hit the "like" button because I had written this long blog about yesterday, and I was waiting around all day long for a clarification of the Stephane situation, and there never was one.
I would have felt silly writing all of that, and then just pressing "like" on your photo, as if nothing was bothering me at all. But - of course I love the photo. You know that normally, I'd have been the first guy hitting "like". But I was waiting for a response - any response - to what I'd written in this blog. Maybe you hadn't read it yet, and maybe you haven't even read it as of now. I have no way of knowing. There is a hit counter, but I can't identify who has made the hit. The only thing I know for sure, is that when no one has read it, it reads zero. There were some hits this afternoon, so maybe you did read it, I don't know.
But just to reiterate what I was trying to say, please understand - I have no way of knowing what your relationship is with Stephane. How am I to know that? All I know, or knew, was that when I first met you, I would see Stephane in a picture here or there, or mentioned several times. That led me to look at his FB page after a few weeks, because by then I was developing feelings for you, and I wondered who he was. Back then, on his FB, your name was listed in his relationship status. "In a relationship with (your name)". I thought, "okay, she's got a boyfriend". Obviously, I had no idea things were gonna develop the way they have between us. So I just thought, "he's her boyfriend" and left it at that. This was very early on, in April or May of 2012. But as we know, one thing led to another, and by that July, I told you I loved you. It was at the point where I couldn't not tell you. Also - and this is important - I also thought that just maybe you might have had feelings for me. If I hadn't thought that, there was no way in a million years I would have built up the nerve to tell you. But you were talking to me so much in those days (and we hit it off from the word "go"), that I thought it just might be mutual.
So, even though I never asked about it, I just figured that Stephane was out of the picture. I didn't feel I knew you well enough in those early weeks to inquire about anything that personal, and even when I told you I loved you, I tried to keep it "in check", and not write things that were outright romantic. In those days, I tried to keep it to music, because I didn't want to come on too strong. I am a shy person anyway. Last summer (2012), there was also a trip to Canada with Stephane and his sister. Again, at the time I didn't ask the status of your relationship, because I figured it was none of my business. Keep in mind that, even though I had told you I loved you by then, that we were still not really in an "official" relationship. That part didn't happen until Valentine's Day of this year, or whatever day it was that you posted the Sam Cooke song. You had known my feelings since July 2012, but I did not know of your feelings for me until January of this year, when you posted Bai Xu and Eric Whitacre. Even then, I only suspected. I didn't know for sure because we were no longer communicating directly. So, I had to devise a way to find out, and I did it by communicating my thoughts and feelings and questions in my Myspace blogs, which I suspected you might be reading because of the Valentine's Day poem. Once I started communicating that way, through blogs (and also songs on FB), you responded by posting "You Send Me" by Sam Cooke.
I knew what was happening then, and there was no doubt about it. And here we are.
During all of that time, almost a year now if you start with Bai Xu, I figured Stephane was out of the picture. I didn't ask, because again, I didn't feel it was my business. I mean, I did ask that one time, maybe last April (this year) or May, because we were now "official" (I felt), but there were still a few times when Stephane's name was mentioned by you in a post, or you sent him something on FB. So, that was the one time I asked about him, and your answer was the one I described in this morning's part of this blog, which is at the top of the page. You answered by sending me a photo, on FB, of Stephane and his sister as little kids, and as I tried to explain at the beginning of this blog, I took that picture to mean that you three were "childhood friends" : You, Stephane, and his sister. So, I further took it to mean that, even though you were no longer in a relationship with him, you were still friends. All three of you had known each other since you were little, and you were also friends with his sister. Okay, so that was back in April or May, and it settled the issue.
Many guys and gals do indeed remain friends after their relationship is over. Some do not, but many do.
Since then, since late Spring, we have settled into our relationship, and I hestitate to even limit it's description by simply calling it a "relationship". It is that, of course, but I have always thought it was so much more. I mean, I have tried to describe it in so many ways and it still overwhelms me to try. Elizabeth, not a day goes by when I am not blown away by the fact of what has happened in our lives, and to me personally in my life. To first meet you out of the blue, and then fall in love with you, and then to have you fall in love with me? I have tried to describe it, and to describe exactly how it happened - so that I will never forget a detail. I have tried to describe exact details of how I felt at certain times, at certain places, because I could feel you with me. Go back and read the blogs, if you want. The whole experience has been profound beyond words.
Here, I will ask you to bear with me for a moment, because I will write a little about human nature. Nothing terrible, just basic traits that have always existed in man.
I don't know Stephane. From what I can tell from his FB (I have only seen it a few times), he looks like a good guy. Certainly a smart guy, highly intelligent. Doesn't look like the kind of guy that will "chat up" (i.e. try to pick up on) someone's girl. Those kind of guys are prevalent nowdays, but he doesn't look like that kind.
But (and this is where the human nature comes in), he did have a relationship with you. He was your boyfriend. It said so right on his FB when I first met you. So, like I said at the beginning of this blog, sometimes when a relationship ends, one person retains feelings. Sometimes both people do. When that happens, they might arrange to get together to talk things out, maybe try to make their relationship work again. That's the human nature part. So if you're the "new boyfriend" (me), and you suddenly see the "old boyfriend" back in the picture, it's also only human nature to wonder why. And with no direct communication to explain the situation, it can cause all kinds of wonder and worry - call it confusion - for the "new guy". I'm human, and so I am subject to human nature.
That is why I asked you to try and put yourself in my shoes this afternoon. Please, Elizabeth, just imagine you are me, and everything is going beautifully. You are so totally in love that you consider your girlfriend your wife already, she is your family. Everything is great, you both have exchanged wonderful, loving communication of late, she has just celebrated an important birthday. So much good is happening, you have had a wonderful year.
But then, a couple pictures are posted out of the blue. They are nice pictures, one very sweet, the other of an interesting location.
But they were taken by, and with, her ex-boyfriend.
Please, Elizabeth. Before you post something like Zero's "Thanks For Nothing" post, please put yourself in my shoes yesterday.
As I wrote earlier in the blog, how am I to know Stephane's intentions? I don't know the guy. Very often, if two "ex" 's get together for a walk, it is very often because one of them wants to "talk things out" with the other. I know that you have said, via a childhood photo of the Coopersteins, that they were childhood friends. But it was not all three of you on that walk (or if it was, you did not indicate that). So, even if you saw it as just a friendly walk, how am I to know how Stephane saw it, or if he went on the walk because he wants you back?
Really, how am I supposed to know those things?
So, I ask you to please, please consider that, before just thinking me a bad guy for not posting last night, or today, and then responding by posting that Zero quote. I really couldn't believe my eyes when I read that. Because, "thanks for nothing"?........
I mean, c'mon Elizabeth, that's not fair. I write to you every night. Every night. Even when I don't hear from you for almost a week, as happened in mid-November - I kept writing. I also know, or could imagine, that on many nights what I write is boring to read, or simply repetitive. I can't always light up the page, because I am often just reciting details of an average day. But I try. I try because I Love You, and to me, nothing could ever be more important than taking care of the one you love : communicating with you, taking care of you, listening to you, being there for you in the best way I can. I may live miles away, but I try to be as close as I can, every single day. Even on days when I don't hear from you.
I know you have a lot of friends, a lot of them are guys, and I have mentioned this before - it is part of your personality, you are the gregarious type. I am not, I am pretty much "keep to myself", except with a handful of people I know. I usually respond every single time on FB, even though sometimes I have to get in there past a whole lot of guys who know you personally. A lot of boyfriends wouldn't go for that, but I have tried to blow it off, because A) I know that is your personality, you are very outgoing, and B) I know that some of those guys are your fans. But, please keep in mind that it seems like you correspond with at least a few of those guys (I gather that from some of the posts they make), and yet I never get to talk to you directly at all. And still I write, every day.
I write, and I post my little love songs every night, because I really do love you, Elizabeth. I have remarked that those words are at risk of losing their power, because I say them so often. But what else can I say? After I write my blogs, that is the only way to tell you how I feel, with those words. I hope to be able to show you before too long. I can't wait for the day when you can see it in my eyes and hear it in my voice. I am saving my money, as I have written, for us to use as a launching pad, or nest egg, or whatever. I wouldn't in a million years tell you these things and write every day of my love for you, of sharing life with you, if it weren't my desire to make it happen. I hope, too, that we can have direct communication again before too long, so that we can make plans for the future. I will always be here for you, because I love you and want to marry you, but we have to be able to communicate.
I was confused yesterday when I saw that you had gone for a long walk with Stephane. If you look at recent blogs, that is one of the very things I have written about wanting to do with you, going for walks in parks and taking pictures. So, I was confused, and - yes - I was sad.
I was sad - even though I know you, and you are friendly and gregarious - because I don't know Stephane. He seems like a top-notch guy, but sometimes even top-notch guys try to get their girl back. That's human nature, too, sometimes. If we had direct communication, you could have messaged me and said, "Hey Adam, I'm going for a walk with Stephane. It's no biggie, we're just gonna go take some pictures". And then, I could say "okay" and not worry. But this just came out of the blue, and it was just you and him on the walk, and I had no way of knowing what to think. If you put yourself in my shoes, I don't think you will find it's an unfair thing to say.
I am gonna post this now, and then go for my walk. It is now 8:50pm. I will be back by 10. I hope you read it, my Darling. I will write a little bit more when I get back. You are everything to me. :):)
10:05pm : Okay, I am back from my walk. The hit counter on this blog still says "0", but it turns over at around 4pm, so that just means zero page views since 4. So, I am guessing you haven't read what I wrote this evening, but maybe you read the stuff from this morning or afternoon. I see the Sophie Miller post. I don't know if it is related to what I wrote, or if you just like what she posted, but I will guess it's the former. If so, I am gonna guess it means...........family? Or maybe siblings? Brothers and sisters? So maybe you are saying that you guys (you & Stephane, maybe his sister, too) are like siblings? Or maybe brother & sister?
That will be my guess. If I have it wrong, I apologize. Anyway, I hope you read this tonight. I have tried to explain things from my perspective, and I hope I did a satisfactory job. I am gonna eat something real quick and maybe will write just a little more in a few minutes. I will post this now and check back in a few minutes.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:50pm : The hit counter is still at zero, so................I will try again tomorrow. I have gotta say that I am a little bit disappointed, having written so much.........
I hope you are having a nice morning. I am sorry I didn't post or write yesterday. I was feeling a little bit out of sorts and confused, to be honest. I saw your pictures from yesterday afternoon, and they were nice. Then I also saw that they were taken on an excursion with Stephane, and that kind of threw me for a loop. I know that you posted quite a while back, or posted something that alluded to, the fact that you have been friends with him and his sister since childhood. Way back, maybe in the Spring, I asked about that, and you posted a photo of them as kids, and I took it to mean, "oh, they are both friends since childhood". But he was also your boyfriend. I mean, during the period when you and I were actually talking (by way of FB chat), I never actually asked about him, but I had seen your FB photos from times past, and I just took it that he had been your boyfriend, and I am guessing that was the case.
Anyway, what kind of threw me yesterday, was that the photos didn't mention you and Stephane and a bunch of other people - a group outing. It just mentioned you and Stephane. It can happen sometimes that boyfriends and girlfriends can retain feelings for one another, even after a relationship has ended, and again, I don't know for certain what the extent of your relationship was, other than to assume it was boyfriend/girlfriend.
So, if you put yourself in my shoes, I was looking at the pictures thinking, "well, it's not a group of friends out on a walk, it's just Elizabeth and Stephane". Stephane, who was your boyfriend.
I am 2000 miles away, and so I obviously don't know the exact details of your everyday life. Because of this present method of communication, I have to assume a lot. Way back to last January, I made the assumption, from posts you made, like Bai Xu and Eric Whitacre, that you wanted to talk to me again. Then, more specific things happened, like when (it sure seemed to me, anyway), that your friends had taken a few lines out of that poem I wrote on Valentine's Day and had made something funny out of them. That led me to assume you'd read my poem, and showed it to your friends, which I may or may not have gotten right.
Well, we both know what it led to, which I have always assumed was mutual love between the two of us. I would actually go farther and say that I know (rather than simply assume) it is mutual love. I know this because our form of communication developed over the past year into something very direct, and much easier to interpret. On my side, you have my direct words, and in return, you have sent posts that speak in a language I have come to understand pretty well.
Still, I am 2000 miles away, and I haven't actually had direct, one-to-one communication with you for over a year. Generally, that hasn't been a problem, but it still cannot, in matters like yesterday, remove assumption entirely from the equation. So, when I saw that the nature walk was just you and Stephane, the first thing I thought was, "boy, that hasn't happened in a while". I mean, not to my knowledge, anyway. And to your credit, you posted that it was the two of you on the walk. You could have very easily not mentioned it, or just posted the photos and left his name out. But you didn't, you were open about it.
It still caused me to wonder, however, because it was a one-on-one walk, and he is your old boyfriend, and being so, he is also part of the equation. Being 2000 miles away, I couldn't know if he asked you to go on the walk, or if so, for what reason. If you are me, and I will ask you to put yourself in my shoes for just a minute, you might have thought, "what is happening? Is he asking her to get back together"? So regardless of what your feelings are for Stephane, his feelings become part of the equation just by going on that walk, alone with you.
So here I am, a long ways away, and I haven't had any direct communication with you for over a year, and because I don't know the details between you guys, I had to guess at the situation yesterday. I did not assume the worst, because as I say, you were open about it - you did post the photos and include his name. But it still threw me off balance, because I have assumed a lot about you and me in the last 11 months, and really going back to April of 2012. My assumptions have been based on powerfully strong and seemingly undoubtable symbolic, psychic and emotional connections that have created what I have thought - what I have been certain - were unbreakable bonds of love. It is a very special love, I have always thought.
Don't think for even a second that anything I have written here changes my feelings in any way. That is not the case whatsoever.
It's just that I'm only human, and Stephane is your old boyfriend, and he lives a lot closer to you than I do, and I had no way of knowing, when I saw those pictures, what constituted the reason for the walk, nor would I have any way of knowing what his feelings are/were toward you.
So that is what happened yesterday. Today, I am just gonna take it easy and hang around the apt.
I Love You, Elizabeth. That is something you can always count on. :):)
6:20pm : Elizabeth, oh my goodness. I am at Pearl's and I just saw your post, and I can hardly believe my eyes. "All this for nothing"? That is not the case at all. I will be home in less than half an hour, and I will write more as soon as I get there, but this needs to be cleared up, so please keep an eye on your computer and I will post more in this blog as fast as I can. We have always communicated, and it is not good when something like this happens. Please wait till I get home, and I will write more asap.
It's not all for nothing. It's always been for everything. I'll be home soon. I Love You. :):)
6:45 : I am home. It doesn't look like you've seen my entry from a few minutes ago. There is a hit counter on this thing, and it's still at zero. So, I will write a little bit more and then re-post, in the hope that you will read it, but I want to re-post as quickly as I can so we can communicate.......in fact, what I am gonna do is re-post right now. I really hope you read this. I will be back in just a minute to write more.
6:53 : Hit counter is still at zero. Sigh..........well, here goes. I will try to remember everything I wanted to say, and I will also try not to ramble. The first thing is I love Black Metal Elizabeth. I try not to use expletives too much, but you look fucking awesome, right down to the cammo pants and boots. Your makeup; everything. I didn't hit the "like" button because I had written this long blog about yesterday, and I was waiting around all day long for a clarification of the Stephane situation, and there never was one.
I would have felt silly writing all of that, and then just pressing "like" on your photo, as if nothing was bothering me at all. But - of course I love the photo. You know that normally, I'd have been the first guy hitting "like". But I was waiting for a response - any response - to what I'd written in this blog. Maybe you hadn't read it yet, and maybe you haven't even read it as of now. I have no way of knowing. There is a hit counter, but I can't identify who has made the hit. The only thing I know for sure, is that when no one has read it, it reads zero. There were some hits this afternoon, so maybe you did read it, I don't know.
But just to reiterate what I was trying to say, please understand - I have no way of knowing what your relationship is with Stephane. How am I to know that? All I know, or knew, was that when I first met you, I would see Stephane in a picture here or there, or mentioned several times. That led me to look at his FB page after a few weeks, because by then I was developing feelings for you, and I wondered who he was. Back then, on his FB, your name was listed in his relationship status. "In a relationship with (your name)". I thought, "okay, she's got a boyfriend". Obviously, I had no idea things were gonna develop the way they have between us. So I just thought, "he's her boyfriend" and left it at that. This was very early on, in April or May of 2012. But as we know, one thing led to another, and by that July, I told you I loved you. It was at the point where I couldn't not tell you. Also - and this is important - I also thought that just maybe you might have had feelings for me. If I hadn't thought that, there was no way in a million years I would have built up the nerve to tell you. But you were talking to me so much in those days (and we hit it off from the word "go"), that I thought it just might be mutual.
So, even though I never asked about it, I just figured that Stephane was out of the picture. I didn't feel I knew you well enough in those early weeks to inquire about anything that personal, and even when I told you I loved you, I tried to keep it "in check", and not write things that were outright romantic. In those days, I tried to keep it to music, because I didn't want to come on too strong. I am a shy person anyway. Last summer (2012), there was also a trip to Canada with Stephane and his sister. Again, at the time I didn't ask the status of your relationship, because I figured it was none of my business. Keep in mind that, even though I had told you I loved you by then, that we were still not really in an "official" relationship. That part didn't happen until Valentine's Day of this year, or whatever day it was that you posted the Sam Cooke song. You had known my feelings since July 2012, but I did not know of your feelings for me until January of this year, when you posted Bai Xu and Eric Whitacre. Even then, I only suspected. I didn't know for sure because we were no longer communicating directly. So, I had to devise a way to find out, and I did it by communicating my thoughts and feelings and questions in my Myspace blogs, which I suspected you might be reading because of the Valentine's Day poem. Once I started communicating that way, through blogs (and also songs on FB), you responded by posting "You Send Me" by Sam Cooke.
I knew what was happening then, and there was no doubt about it. And here we are.
During all of that time, almost a year now if you start with Bai Xu, I figured Stephane was out of the picture. I didn't ask, because again, I didn't feel it was my business. I mean, I did ask that one time, maybe last April (this year) or May, because we were now "official" (I felt), but there were still a few times when Stephane's name was mentioned by you in a post, or you sent him something on FB. So, that was the one time I asked about him, and your answer was the one I described in this morning's part of this blog, which is at the top of the page. You answered by sending me a photo, on FB, of Stephane and his sister as little kids, and as I tried to explain at the beginning of this blog, I took that picture to mean that you three were "childhood friends" : You, Stephane, and his sister. So, I further took it to mean that, even though you were no longer in a relationship with him, you were still friends. All three of you had known each other since you were little, and you were also friends with his sister. Okay, so that was back in April or May, and it settled the issue.
Many guys and gals do indeed remain friends after their relationship is over. Some do not, but many do.
Since then, since late Spring, we have settled into our relationship, and I hestitate to even limit it's description by simply calling it a "relationship". It is that, of course, but I have always thought it was so much more. I mean, I have tried to describe it in so many ways and it still overwhelms me to try. Elizabeth, not a day goes by when I am not blown away by the fact of what has happened in our lives, and to me personally in my life. To first meet you out of the blue, and then fall in love with you, and then to have you fall in love with me? I have tried to describe it, and to describe exactly how it happened - so that I will never forget a detail. I have tried to describe exact details of how I felt at certain times, at certain places, because I could feel you with me. Go back and read the blogs, if you want. The whole experience has been profound beyond words.
Here, I will ask you to bear with me for a moment, because I will write a little about human nature. Nothing terrible, just basic traits that have always existed in man.
I don't know Stephane. From what I can tell from his FB (I have only seen it a few times), he looks like a good guy. Certainly a smart guy, highly intelligent. Doesn't look like the kind of guy that will "chat up" (i.e. try to pick up on) someone's girl. Those kind of guys are prevalent nowdays, but he doesn't look like that kind.
But (and this is where the human nature comes in), he did have a relationship with you. He was your boyfriend. It said so right on his FB when I first met you. So, like I said at the beginning of this blog, sometimes when a relationship ends, one person retains feelings. Sometimes both people do. When that happens, they might arrange to get together to talk things out, maybe try to make their relationship work again. That's the human nature part. So if you're the "new boyfriend" (me), and you suddenly see the "old boyfriend" back in the picture, it's also only human nature to wonder why. And with no direct communication to explain the situation, it can cause all kinds of wonder and worry - call it confusion - for the "new guy". I'm human, and so I am subject to human nature.
That is why I asked you to try and put yourself in my shoes this afternoon. Please, Elizabeth, just imagine you are me, and everything is going beautifully. You are so totally in love that you consider your girlfriend your wife already, she is your family. Everything is great, you both have exchanged wonderful, loving communication of late, she has just celebrated an important birthday. So much good is happening, you have had a wonderful year.
But then, a couple pictures are posted out of the blue. They are nice pictures, one very sweet, the other of an interesting location.
But they were taken by, and with, her ex-boyfriend.
Please, Elizabeth. Before you post something like Zero's "Thanks For Nothing" post, please put yourself in my shoes yesterday.
As I wrote earlier in the blog, how am I to know Stephane's intentions? I don't know the guy. Very often, if two "ex" 's get together for a walk, it is very often because one of them wants to "talk things out" with the other. I know that you have said, via a childhood photo of the Coopersteins, that they were childhood friends. But it was not all three of you on that walk (or if it was, you did not indicate that). So, even if you saw it as just a friendly walk, how am I to know how Stephane saw it, or if he went on the walk because he wants you back?
Really, how am I supposed to know those things?
So, I ask you to please, please consider that, before just thinking me a bad guy for not posting last night, or today, and then responding by posting that Zero quote. I really couldn't believe my eyes when I read that. Because, "thanks for nothing"?........
I mean, c'mon Elizabeth, that's not fair. I write to you every night. Every night. Even when I don't hear from you for almost a week, as happened in mid-November - I kept writing. I also know, or could imagine, that on many nights what I write is boring to read, or simply repetitive. I can't always light up the page, because I am often just reciting details of an average day. But I try. I try because I Love You, and to me, nothing could ever be more important than taking care of the one you love : communicating with you, taking care of you, listening to you, being there for you in the best way I can. I may live miles away, but I try to be as close as I can, every single day. Even on days when I don't hear from you.
I know you have a lot of friends, a lot of them are guys, and I have mentioned this before - it is part of your personality, you are the gregarious type. I am not, I am pretty much "keep to myself", except with a handful of people I know. I usually respond every single time on FB, even though sometimes I have to get in there past a whole lot of guys who know you personally. A lot of boyfriends wouldn't go for that, but I have tried to blow it off, because A) I know that is your personality, you are very outgoing, and B) I know that some of those guys are your fans. But, please keep in mind that it seems like you correspond with at least a few of those guys (I gather that from some of the posts they make), and yet I never get to talk to you directly at all. And still I write, every day.
I write, and I post my little love songs every night, because I really do love you, Elizabeth. I have remarked that those words are at risk of losing their power, because I say them so often. But what else can I say? After I write my blogs, that is the only way to tell you how I feel, with those words. I hope to be able to show you before too long. I can't wait for the day when you can see it in my eyes and hear it in my voice. I am saving my money, as I have written, for us to use as a launching pad, or nest egg, or whatever. I wouldn't in a million years tell you these things and write every day of my love for you, of sharing life with you, if it weren't my desire to make it happen. I hope, too, that we can have direct communication again before too long, so that we can make plans for the future. I will always be here for you, because I love you and want to marry you, but we have to be able to communicate.
I was confused yesterday when I saw that you had gone for a long walk with Stephane. If you look at recent blogs, that is one of the very things I have written about wanting to do with you, going for walks in parks and taking pictures. So, I was confused, and - yes - I was sad.
I was sad - even though I know you, and you are friendly and gregarious - because I don't know Stephane. He seems like a top-notch guy, but sometimes even top-notch guys try to get their girl back. That's human nature, too, sometimes. If we had direct communication, you could have messaged me and said, "Hey Adam, I'm going for a walk with Stephane. It's no biggie, we're just gonna go take some pictures". And then, I could say "okay" and not worry. But this just came out of the blue, and it was just you and him on the walk, and I had no way of knowing what to think. If you put yourself in my shoes, I don't think you will find it's an unfair thing to say.
I am gonna post this now, and then go for my walk. It is now 8:50pm. I will be back by 10. I hope you read it, my Darling. I will write a little bit more when I get back. You are everything to me. :):)
10:05pm : Okay, I am back from my walk. The hit counter on this blog still says "0", but it turns over at around 4pm, so that just means zero page views since 4. So, I am guessing you haven't read what I wrote this evening, but maybe you read the stuff from this morning or afternoon. I see the Sophie Miller post. I don't know if it is related to what I wrote, or if you just like what she posted, but I will guess it's the former. If so, I am gonna guess it means...........family? Or maybe siblings? Brothers and sisters? So maybe you are saying that you guys (you & Stephane, maybe his sister, too) are like siblings? Or maybe brother & sister?
That will be my guess. If I have it wrong, I apologize. Anyway, I hope you read this tonight. I have tried to explain things from my perspective, and I hope I did a satisfactory job. I am gonna eat something real quick and maybe will write just a little more in a few minutes. I will post this now and check back in a few minutes.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo :):)
11:50pm : The hit counter is still at zero, so................I will try again tomorrow. I have gotta say that I am a little bit disappointed, having written so much.........
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