Grain Of Salt

Good Evening, my Darling,

I am home from Pearl's, kind of a long day today, with the usual Golden Agers meeting and then a late afternoon appointment with Pearl's eye doctor for a laser procedure that's supposed to reduce pressure in her eye. But we got it all done.

I saw your photo earlier today, and I like your choice of reading material! I don't know if your comment - "my type of reading" - was meant as a comparison against my own rather weird listing of books, but even so, you can be sure I've read my share of music books too, lol. :) In fact, if you include Kerrang magazine from the 80s, then you could say I've read quite a bit of Metal myself. That is an awesome looking book, though, and I think I saw it posted a while back by your friend from Metastazis.

I saw your more recent post, too, from about an hour or two ago, via your friend Jenni. Sweet Baby, please take this next question by me with good humor and a grain of salt, but I'm afraid I have to ask it again. Are you ready? Okay, here goes.......(picture good humor and grain of salt emoticons here) :

Are you sure Kyle isn't your boyfriend?

Yeah, I know, I know. I've asked that before. But.....I mean......it's just that, with your comment today (on Jenni's post), you phrase it as "Kyle and I", and he's got a bunch of photos from your outing at the state park, and it all causes me to go back a couple months when he initially posted them, and it was just the two of you on the outing, and one of his friends, a girl, remarked something like "so happy for you", which, as I remarked at the time is something that is common to say to a new couple.

I hope the good humor and grain of salt are working. I'm not mad, not at all, just wondering, is all. I know I mentioned a lot of the above stuff the first time I asked about this. The truth is that I'd forgotten about it, and hadn't really given it a second thought, not until today. And it's really just because of the way you phrased your comment, "Kyle and I".

So, I'm just askin'. :)

If he is your boyfriend, you can tell me. I won't be mad, and I'll still write if you want me to. It's just hard for me to have to guess. We are going on three years without having had any direct communication whatsoever, and I am not gonna make any guesses as to whether that is ever gonna happen. And it's okay, if that's the way you want it to be, or if that's the way it has to be. I wouldn't write every night if it bothered me.

All I've ever asked, and all I ask now, is just two things. 1) If you ever have a boyfriend, or even if things look like they are heading in that direction, please just tell me. I will understand, as I've said many times before. 2) The only other thing I have ever asked is to please just tell me if your heart isn't in it anymore. I mean, right now it seems like it is, but then sometimes days go by and you don't post much. Obviously, you have your own friends, and you live far away, and you have lots of stuff you like to do.

None of that is a problem. Only "boyfriend" and "losing interest" are problems, and even those aren't "bad" problems, or anything that I wouldn't understand. It's just that those are the only two I'd ask you to please not hesitate to tell me about.

Anyway, I hope the "good humor" and "grain of salt" worked, because if you were sitting right next to me, you'd see that I'm not upset, only just asking because of recent aforementioned posts and comments related to you & Kyle.

Anyhow, I am on Usual Schedule, as usual. It's still Super Muggy outside, humidity probably over 80%, so I will wait a little while to go on my walk. I hope you are having a nice evening.

I Love You.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  :):)

(back in a bit)